It is needless to say that Rollo"s steps paused and came back instantly.
"n.o.body to speak but me,? n.o.body to consult but him!" the girl thought as he approached her. It was rather hard, just now. But things had to be done.
"I will not detain you," she said, hesitating over her words,?"not long,?but you did not tell me?will you tell me?how much time I have?"
As gently as if it had been her mother"s, Rollo"s arm came round her.
"Just as much time as you choose!" he answered. "I must go to New York the day after Christmas,?that is, Friday; but the times that concern you are in your own hand. I was going to write you a note to-morrow, to ask you about it. Supposing that you go with me, we must be married either Friday morning, before we set out; or Christmas evening. I must be all Christmas day busy in the Hollow; but I could be here by five o"clock. What would you like best?"
Hard to say!?
"The Marylands were coming here to spend Christmas," said Hazel,?"and they were so pleased?I do not like to forbid them.
So it cannot be Thursday. How early Friday?"
"Six miles to drive to the station, and must take the morning train.
It"s not quite an "owl train"?but comes along. I believe, by eight o"clock. Why Hazel, if the Marylands will be all here Christmas, that will just fit."
"Fit Friday. You could reach the train in time still, could you not?"
she said timidly. It was dreadful to mix herself up with other people"s business in this way!
"It shall be as you like, Hazel. It would be a little sharp work, to drive Dr. Maryland over here in the morning, time enough for breakfast and for the other drive afterwards. The words to be said, that you dread so much, I suppose will take very few minutes; but they must have a few. I could drive all night contentedly, with them in prospect; but it is somewhat different for him."
Dr. Maryland!?Yes, Hazel saw that at a glance. She had left him quite out of her calculations. It must be Christmas.
"Then will you tell them they cannot come?" she said. "Only do not say why. Do not tell anybody that, till the last minute."
"Tell them not to come? Why no, you do not mean that? Will you forbid Prim, and Arthur, to be with us?"
"I am forgetting everything but myself," said the girl with a gesture of impatience. Of course,?they were in effect his brother and sister. And she could not be so discourteous as to bid them dine at home. "But you will not tell them, beforehand?" she said eagerly.
"Not a word!" he said smiling. "But when shall we have the thing done? before dinner, or after?"
"After. You know," said Hazel, explaining her strange request, "there is n.o.body in the world who loves me much, to say words or send tokens,?and I could not bear them from other people. You may tell Dr. Arthur?if you must tell somebody."
"I shall not tell anybody," said Dane comfortingly. "Dear Dr.
Maryland, I suppose, would like a little forewarning of what is coming upon him; but he has married enough people in his time to be used to it. I shall tell n.o.body until the time comes."
"I will not keep you?" Hazel said then, after a minute"s silence. "I have kept you too long now." Then two impetuous words rushed out. "If only!?"
"Well?" said Dane, without stirring.
"Nothing,?it is not anything you could grant. I know it is impossible; but if only I need not be at that dinner!?"
"You need not, if you do not choose," said Dane caressingly. "I will do my best to be head and foot of the table at once. But when the time comes, you will choose to be there, Hazel. Christmas day,?
and such a glad one for you and me!?"
There came a quiver round the mouth and a glitter behind the eyelashes, but Hazel kept her voice.
"Go now, please," she said, laying her fingers on his hand. "You have had enough of my whims for one day,?just go?and forget them all."
CHAPTER XXII.
PREPARATORY FREAKS.
Hazel could not tell how she had borne herself, through all that trying evening. But when the evening was over, then she felt as if she could not have held out one minute more: with the wheels of Dr. Arthur"s buggy rolled away the last mite of her self-control.
One half minute longer of such tension, and she should have broken down, and called back her promise, and done everything else to be sorry for next day. It even seemed to her as she stood there, with all the repressed excitement in "a light low," as if she could not bear the room itself; and (almost) the people who had been in it. As if she was wild and frantic and beside herself generally. She flew off upstairs?not now to solitary musings and lonely questionings, but straight to the housekeeper"s room,?and was down on her knees with her face hid in Mrs. Byw.a.n.k"s lap, before anybody, herself included, had chance to breathe. For there are times, when in all the world there is nothing like a woman, after all. And in all the world, this was the one woman to whom she could come. But she would not speak nor look up nor at first answer questions; only hid her face closer than ever.
Now Mrs. Byw.a.n.k had seen enough of her young lady, to know that every real heart sorrow Wych Hazel took to her own room alone. Also that any emergency of accident or fear, would be acted upon first, before getting the upper hand. Moreover the one look she caught as Miss Wych came in, told her much: the sweet flushed face, the shy eyes that avoided everything; the stirred, moved, frightened set of the mouth,?Mrs Byw.a.n.k was old, and drew her conclusions. Not for many contingencies would Miss Wych have a fit of the nerves like this.
"So?" she said soothingly, laying her hand on the restless curls. "Is that it! I thought there wouldn"t be much waiting now!"?Which brought such a sudden start and twist, that Mrs. Byw.a.n.k smiled to herself and knew she was right.
"And when is it to be, Miss Wych?"
"When I have breathed twice and turned round three times."?
"My dear!" remonstrated Mrs. Byw.a.n.k. "I am sure"?
"You are sure of nothing!" said the girl quickly. "And I am not. Not sure of myself. Not sure of anybody or anything."
"Except Mr. Rollo," said the old housekeeper quietly; smiling softly then at the success of her spell, for Hazel was silent. "But that is the great point. And as I was saying, Miss Wych, I am sure I am glad; for I have been worried to death about you."
"You ought to be worried to death about me now," said Wych Hazel. "I am worried to death about myself."
"Yes?" said the old housekeeper fondly, curling the dark hair round her fingers. "Are you my dear? What about, Miss Wych?"
"How can it go right, or be right, when it is all disagreeable?" said the girl. "It ought to be pleasant?and it all isn"t!"
"It"s all new, just now, my dear."
"Never to be free again!" said Hazel. "Never to have my own way or do as I please!"?
"Ah," said Mrs. Byw.a.n.k, "that was Eve"s fault! But with a man like Mr. Rollo, Miss Wych, it will be your own if it gives you much trouble."
"Things generally are, that do," said Hazel. But she sighed a little, putting her face closer down in her hands. "Byo," she said after a pause, getting hold of the old housekeeper"s hand now and laying her face there, "it is very, very hard to have it so soon! I have not thought,?I am not ready,?I feel just as if I should fly!?"
There was no gainsaying part of this, and Mrs. Byw.a.n.k tried petting and coaxing instead of reason, for awhile.
"But think how lonely Mr. Rollo is, Miss Wych," she said, trying a diversion. "Think what a two months he has had just now!"
"I am thinking about myself," said the girl shortly.
"And I am thinking about your cake," said Mrs. Byw.a.n.k. "If it was a little earlier, I"d go at the raisins to-night."
Wych Hazel started up with an exclamation.
"Now stop!" she said. "If you begin to make a bit of fuss, I shall run away. Who wants cake? People can eat cake at other times, I suppose."