He shaved, bathed and dressed, then began emptying the drawers, one by one. There were many souvenirs, mementos. She was always collecting these. Her bottom drawer was full of stuff that he"d glimpsed only occasionally.
In the second layer of junk in the drawer he came across the brochure on Martian vacations. It must have been one of the dreams of her life, he thought. She"d wanted it so much that she"d almost come to believe that it was real. He turned the pages of the smooth, glossy brochure. Its cover bore the picture of the great Martian Princess and the blazoned emblem of Connemorra s.p.a.ce Lines. Inside were glistening photos of the plush interior of the great vacation liner, and pictures of the domed cities of Mars where Earthmen played more than they worked. Mars had become the great resort center of Earth.
Mel closed the book and glanced again at the Connemorra name. Only one man had ever ama.s.sed the resources necessary to operate a private s.p.a.ce line. Jim Connemorra had done it; no one knew quite how. But he operated now out of both hemispheres with a s.p.a.ce line that ignored freight and dealt only in pa.s.senger business. He made money, on a scale that no government-operated line had yet been able to approach.
Mel sank down to the floor, continuing to shift through the other things in the drawer.
His hand stopped. He remained motionless as recognition showered sudden frantic questions in his mind. There lay a ticket envelope marked Connemorra Lines.
The envelope was empty when he looked inside, and there was no name on it. But it was worn. As if it might have been carried to Mars and back.
In sudden frenzy he began examining each article and laying it in a careless pile on the floor. He recognized a pair of idiotic Martian dolls. He found a tourist map of the ruined cities of Mars. He found a menu from the Red Sands Hotel.
And below all these there was a picture alb.u.m. Alice at the Red Sands. Alice at the Phobos Oasis. Alice at the Darnella Ruins. He turned the pages of the alb.u.m with numb fingers. Alice in a dozen Martian settings. Some of them were dated. About two years ago. They had gone together, Alice had said, but there was no evidence of Mel"s presence on any such trip.
But it was equally impossible that Alice had made the trip, yet here was proof. Proof that swept him up in a doubting of his own senses. How could such a thing have taken place? Had he actually made such a trip and been stripped of the memory by some amnesia? Maybe he had forced himself to go with her and the power of his lifelong phobia had wiped it from his memory.
And what did it all have to do--if anything--with the unbelievable thing Dr. Winters had found about Alice?
Overcome with grief and exhaustion he sat fingering the mementos aimlessly while he stared at the pictures and the ticket envelope and the souvenirs.
Dr. Winters spoke a little more sharply than he intended. "I don"t think anything is going to be solved by a wild-goose chase to Mars. It"s going to cost you a great deal of money, and there isn"t a single positive lead to any solution."
"It"s the only possible explanation." Mel persisted. "Something happened on Mars to change her from what she once was to--what you saw on your operating table."
"And you are hoping that in some desperate way you will find there was a switch of personalities--that there may be a ghost of a chance of finding Alice still alive."
Mel bit his lip. He was scarcely willing to admit such a hope but it was the foundation of his decision. "I"ve got to do what I can," he said. "I must take the chance. The uncertainty will torment me all my life if I don"t."
Dr. Winters shook his head. "I still wish I could persuade you against it. You will find only disappointment."
"My mind is made up. Will you help me or not?"
"What can I do?"
"I can"t go into s.p.a.ce unless I can find some way of lifting, even temporarily, this phobia that nearly drives me crazy at the thought of going out there. Isn"t there a drug, a hypnotic method, or something to help a thing like this?"
"This isn"t my field," said Dr. Winters. "But I suspect that the cause of your trouble cannot be suppressed. It will have to be lifted. Psycho-recovery is the only way to accomplish that. I can recommend a number of good men. This, too, is very expensive."
"I should have done it for Alice--long ago," said Mel.
Dr. Martin, the psychiatrist, was deeply interested in Mel"s problem. "It sounds as if it is based on some early trauma, which has long since been wiped from your conscious memory. Recovery may be easy or difficult, depending on how much suppression of the original event has taken place."
"I don"t even care what the original event was," said Mel, "if you rid me of this overwhelming fear of s.p.a.ce. Dr. Winters said he thought recovery would be required."
"He is right. No matter how much overlay you pile on top of such a phobia to suppress it, it will continue to haunt you. We can make a trial run to a.n.a.lyze the situation, and then we can better predict the chance of ultimate success."
As a reporter, Mel Hastings had had vague encounters with the subject of psycho-recovery, but he knew little of the details about it. He knew it involved some kind of a machine that could tap the very depths of the human mind and drag out the hidden debris acc.u.mulated in mental bas.e.m.e.nts and attics. But such things had always given him the w.i.l.l.i.e.s. He steered clear of them.
When Dr. Martin first introduced him into the psycho-recovery room his resolution almost vanished. It looked more like a complex electronic laboratory than anything else. A half dozen operators and a.s.sistants in nurses" uniforms stood by.
"If you will recline here--," Dr. Martin was saying.
Mel felt as if he were being prepared for some inhuman biological experiment. A cage of terminals was fitted to his head and a thousand small electrodes adjusted to contact with his skull. The faint hum of equipment supported the small surge of apprehension within him.
After half an hour the preparations were complete. The level of lights in the room was lowered. He could sense the operators at their panels and see dimly the figure of Dr. Martin seated near him.
"Try to recall as vividly as possible your last experience with this nightmare you have described. We will try to lock on to that and follow it on down."
This was the last thing in the world Mel wanted to do. He lay in agonized indecision, remembering that he had dreamed only a short time ago, but fighting off the actual recollection of the dream.
"Let yourself go," Dr. Martin said kindly. "Don"t fight it--"
A fragment of his mind let down its guard for a brief instant. It was like touching the surface of a whirlpool. He was sucked into the sweeping depths of the dream. He sensed that he cried out in terror as he plunged. But there was no one to hear. He was alone in s.p.a.ce.
Fear wrapped him like black, clammy fur. He felt the utter futility of even being afraid. He would simply remain as he was, and soon he would cease to be.
But they were coming again. He sensed, rather than saw them. The searchers. And his fear of them was greater than his fear of s.p.a.ce alone. He moved. Somehow he moved, driving headlong through great vastness while the pinpoints of light grew behind him.
"Very satisfactory," Dr. Martin was saying. "An extremely satisfactory probe."
His voice came through to Mel as from beyond vast barriers of time and s.p.a.ce. Mel felt the thick sweat that covered his body. Weakness throbbed in his muscles.
"It gives us a very solid anchor point," Dr. Martin said. "From here I think we run back to the beginning of the experience and unearth the whole thing. Are you ready, Mr. Hastings?"
Mel felt too weak to nod. "Let "er rip!" he muttered weakly.
The day was warm and sunny. He and Alice had arrived early at the s.p.a.ceport to enjoy the holiday excitement preceding the takeoff. It was something they had both dreamed of since they were kids--a vacation in the fabulous domed cities and ruins of Mars.
Alice was awed by her first close view of the magnificent ship lying in its water berth that opened to Lake Michigan. "It"s huge--how can such an enormous ship ever get off the Earth?"
Mel laughed. "Let"s not worry about that. We know it does. That"s all that matters." But he could not help being impressed, too, by the enormous size and the graceful lines of the luxury ship. Unlike Alice, he was not seeing it at close range for the first time. He had met the ship scores of times in his reporting job, interviewing famous and well-known personages as they departed or arrived from the fabulous playgrounds of Mars.
"If you look carefully," Mel pointed out, "you"ll see a lot of faces that make news when they come and go."
Alice"s face glowed as she clung to Mel"s arm and recognized some of the famous citizens who would be their fellow pa.s.sengers. "This is going to be the most fun we"ve ever had in our lives, darling."
"Like a barrel of monkeys," Mel said casually, enjoying the bubbling excitement that was in Alice.
The ship was so completely stabilized that the pa.s.sengers did not even have to sit down during takeoff. They crowded the ports to watch the land and the water shoot past as the ship skimmed half the length of Lake Michigan in its takeoff run. As it bore into the upper atmosphere on an ever-increasing angle of climb, its own artificial gravity system took over and gave the illusion of horizontal flight with the Earth receding slowly behind.
Mel and Alice wandered through the salons and along the s.p.a.cious decks as if in some fairyland-come-true. All sense of time seemed to vanish and they floated with the great ship in timeless, endless s.p.a.ce.
He wasn"t quite certain when he first became aware of his own sense of disquietude. It seemed to result from a change in the members of the crew. On the morning of the third day they ceased their universal and uninterrupted concern for their pa.s.sengers" entertainment and enjoyment.
Most of the pa.s.sengers seemed to have taken no note of it. Mel commented to Alice. She laughed at him. "What do you expect? They"ve spent two full days showing us the ship and teaching us to play all the games aboard. You don"t expect them to play nurse to us during the whole trip, do you?"
It sounded reasonable. "I suppose so," said Mel dubiously. "But just what are they doing? They all seem to be in such a hurry to get somewhere this morning."
"Well, they must have some duties to perform in connection with running the ship."
Mel shook his head in doubt.
Alice joined him in wandering about the decks, kibitzing on the games of the other pa.s.sengers, and watching the stars and galaxies on the telescopic screens. It was on one of these that they first saw the shadow out in s.p.a.ce. Small at first, the black shadow crossed a single star and made it wink. That was what caught Mel"s attention, a winking star in the dead night of s.p.a.ce.
When he was sure, he called Alice"s attention to it. "There"s something moving out there." By now it had shape, like a tiny black bullet.
"Where? I don"t see anything."
"It"s crossing that patch of stars. Watch, and you can see it blot them out as it moves."
"It"s another ship!" Alice exclaimed. "That"s exciting! To think we"re pa.s.sing another ship in all this great emptiness of s.p.a.ce! I wonder where it"s coming from?"
"And where it"s going to."
They watched its slow, precise movement across the stars. After several minutes a steward pa.s.sed by. Mel hailed him and pointed to the screen. "Can you tell us what that other ship is?"
The steward glanced and seemed to recognize it instantly. But he paused in replying. "That"s the Mars liner," he said finally. "In just a few minutes the public address system will announce contact and change of ship."
"Change of ship?" Mel asked, puzzled. "I never heard anything about a change of ship."
"Oh, yes," the steward said. "This is only the shuttle that we"re on now. We transfer to the liner for the remainder of the trip. I"m sure that was explained to you at the time you purchased your tickets." He hurried away.
Mel was quite sure no such thing had been explained to him when he purchased tickets. He turned back to the screen and watched the black ship growing swiftly larger now as it and the Martian Princess approached on contact courses.
The public address system came alive suddenly. "This is your Captain. All pa.s.sengers will now prepare to leave the shuttle and board the Mars liner. Hand luggage should be made ready. All luggage stowed in the hold will be transferred without your attention. It has been a pleasure to have you aboard. Contact with the liner will be made in fifteen minutes."
From the buzz around him Mel knew that this was as much a surprise to everyone else as it was to him, but it was greeted with excitement and without question.
Even Alice was growing excited now and others crowded around them when it was discovered what they were viewing. "It looks big," said Alice in subdued voice. "Bigger than this ship by far."
Mel moved away and let the others have his place before the screen. His sense of uneasiness increased as he contemplated the approach of that huge black ship. And he was convinced its color was black, that it was not just the monotone of the view screen that made it so.
Why should there be such a transfer of pa.s.sengers in mid-s.p.a.ce? The Martian Princess was certainly adequate to make the journey to Mars. Actually they were more than a third of the way there, already. He wasn"t sure why he felt so certain something was amiss. Surely there was no possibility that the great Connemorra Lines would plan any procedure to the detriment of the more than five thousand pa.s.sengers aboard the ship. His uneasiness was pretty stupid, he thought.
But it wouldn"t go away.
He returned to the crowd cl.u.s.tered at the viewing screen and took Alice by the arm to draw her away.
She looked quizzically at him. "This is the most exciting thing yet. I want to watch it."
"We haven"t got much time," Mel said. "We"ve got a lot of things to get in our suitcases. Let"s go down to our stateroom."
"Everyone else has to pack, too. There"s no hurry."
"Fifteen minutes, the Captain said. We don"t want to be the last ones."
Unwillingly, Alice followed. Their stateroom was a long way from the salon. The fifteen minutes were almost up by the time they reached it.
Mel closed the door to their room and put his hands on Alice"s shoulders. He glanced about warily. "Alice--I don"t want to go aboard that ship. There"s something wrong about this whole thing. I don"t know what it is, but we"re not going aboard."
Alice stared at him. "Have you lost your mind? After all our hopes and all our planning you don"t want to go on to Mars?"
Mel felt as if a wall had suddenly sprung up between them. He clutched Alice"s shoulders desperately in his hands. "Alice--I don"t think that ship out there is going to Mars. I know it sounds crazy, but please listen to me--we weren"t told anything about the Martian Princess being merely a shuttle and that we"d transfer to another ship out here. No one was told. The Martian Princess is a s.p.a.ce liner perfectly capable of going to Mars. There"s no reason why such a huge ship should be used merely as a shuttle."
"That ship out there is bigger."
"Why? Do we need any more room to finish the journey?"
Alice shook herself out of his grasp. "I don"t know the answers to those questions and I don"t care to know them!" she said angrily.
"If you think I"m going to give up this vacation and turn right around here in s.p.a.ce and go back home you"re crazy. If you go back you"ll go back alone!"
Alice whirled and ran to the door. Mel ran after her, but she was through the door and was melting into the moving throng by the time he reached the door. He took a step to follow, then halted. He couldn"t drag her forcibly back into the stateroom. Maybe she"d return in a few minutes to pack her bags. He went back in the room and closed the door.
Even as he did so he knew that he was guessing wrong. Alice would be matching him in a game of nerves. She"d go on to the other ship, expecting him to pack the bags and follow. He sat down on the bed and put his head in his hands for a moment. A faint shudder pa.s.sed through the ship and he heard the hollow ring of clashing metal. The unknown ship had made contact with the Martian Princess. Their airlocks were being mated now.
From the porthole he could see the incredible ma.s.s of the ship. He crossed the room and pressed the curtains aside. His impression had been right. The ship was black. Black, nameless, and blind. No insignia or portholes were visible anywhere on the hull within his range of vision.
He didn"t know what he was going to do, but he knew above all else that he wasn"t going to board that ship. He paced the floor telling himself it was a stupid, neurotic apprehension that filled his mind, that the great Connemorra Lines could not be involved in any nefarious acts involving five thousand people--or even one person. They couldn"t afford such risk.
He couldn"t shake it. He was certain that, no matter what the cost, he was not going to board that black ship.
He looked about the stateroom. He couldn"t remain here. They"d certainly find him. He had to hide somewhere. He stood motionless, staring out the porthole. There was no place he could hide with a.s.surance inside the ship.
But what about outside?
His thoughts crumpled in indecision as he thought of Alice. Yet whatever the black ship meant, he could help no one if he went aboard. He had to get back to Earth and try to find out what it was all about and alert the authorities. Only in that way could he hope to help Alice.
He opened the stateroom door cautiously and stepped out. The corridor was filled with hurrying pa.s.sengers, carrying hand luggage, laughing with each other in excitement. He joined them, moving slowly, alert for crew members. There seemed to be none of the latter in the corridors.
Keeping close to the wall, he moved with the crowd until he reached the rounded niche that marked an escape chamber. As if pushed by the hurrying throng, he backed into it, the automatic doors opening and closing to receive him.