He might certainly well be puzzled, in respect to his father-in-law and Mrs. Verver, by her glance at their possible preference for a concentrated evening. "But it isn"t--is it?" he asked--"as if they were leaving each other?"
"Oh no; it isn"t as if they were leaving each other. They"re only bringing to a close--without knowing when it may open again--a time that has been, naturally, awfully interesting to them." Yes, she could talk so of their "time"--she was somehow sustained; she was sustained even to affirm more intensely her present possession of her ground. "They have their reasons--many things to think of; how can one tell? But there"s always, also, the chance of his proposing to me that we shall have our last hours together; I mean that he and I shall. He may wish to take me off to dine with him somewhere alone--and to do it in memory of old days. I mean," the Princess went on, "the real old days; before my grand husband was invented and, much more, before his grand wife was: the wonderful times of his first great interest in what he has since done, his first great plans and opportunities, discoveries and bargains. The way we"ve sat together late, ever so late, in foreign restaurants, which he used to like; the way that, in every city in Europe, we"ve stayed on and on, with our elbows on the table and most of the lights put out, to talk over things he had that day seen or heard of or made his offer for, the things he had secured or refused or lost! There were places he took me to--you wouldn"t believe!--for often he could only have left me with servants. If he should carry me off with him to-night, for old sake"s sake, to the Earl"s Court Exhibition, it will be a little--just a very, very little--like our young adventures." After which while Amerigo watched her, and in fact quite because of it, she had an inspiration, to which she presently yielded. If he was wondering what she would say next she had found exactly the thing. "In that case he will leave you Charlotte to take care of in our absence. You"ll have to carry her off somewhere for your last evening; unless you may prefer to spend it with her here. I shall then see that you dine, that you have everything, quite beautifully. You"ll be able to do as you like."
She couldn"t have been sure beforehand, and had really not been; but the most immediate result of this speech was his letting her see that he took it for no cheap extravagance either of irony or of oblivion.
Nothing in the world, of a truth, had ever been so sweet to her, as his look of trying to be serious enough to make no mistake about it. She troubled him--which hadn"t been at all her purpose; she mystified him--which she couldn"t help and, comparatively, didn"t mind; then it came over her that he had, after all, a simplicity, very considerable, on which she had never dared to presume. It was a discovery--not like the other discovery she had once made, but giving out a freshness; and she recognised again in the light of it the number of the ideas of which he thought her capable. They were all, apparently, queer for him, but she had at least, with the lapse of the months, created the perception that there might be something in them; whereby he stared there, beautiful and sombre, at what she was at present providing him with.
There was something of his own in his mind, to which, she was sure, he referred everything for a measure and a meaning; he had never let go of it, from the evening, weeks before, when, in her room, after his encounter with the Bloomsbury cup, she had planted it there by flinging it at him, on the question of her father"s view of him, her determined "Find out for yourself!" She had been aware, during the months, that he had been trying to find out, and had been seeking, above all, to avoid the appearance of any evasions of such a form of knowledge as might reach him, with violence or with a penetration more insidious, from any other source. Nothing, however, had reached him; nothing he could at all conveniently reckon with had disengaged itself for him even from the announcement, sufficiently sudden, of the final secession of their companions. Charlotte was in pain, Charlotte was in torment, but he himself had given her reason enough for that; and, in respect to the rest of the whole matter of her obligation to follow her husband, that personage and she, Maggie, had so shuffled away every link between consequence and cause, that the intention remained, like some famous poetic line in a dead language, subject to varieties of interpretation.
What renewed the obscurity was her strange image of their common offer to him, her father"s and her own, of an opportunity to separate from Mrs. Verver with the due amount of form--and all the more that he was, in so pathetic a way, unable to treat himself to a quarrel with it on the score of taste. Taste, in him, as a touchstone, was now all at sea; for who could say but that one of her fifty ideas, or perhaps forty-nine of them, wouldn"t be, exactly, that taste by itself, the taste he had always conformed to, had no importance whatever? If meanwhile, at all events, he felt her as serious, this made the greater reason for her profiting by it as she perhaps might never be able to profit again. She was invoking that reflection at the very moment he brought out, in reply to her last words, a remark which, though perfectly relevant and perfectly just, affected her at first as a high oddity. "They"re doing the wisest thing, you know. For if they were ever to go--!" And he looked down at her over his cigar.
If they were ever to go, in short, it was high time, with her father"s age, Charlotte"s need of initiation, and the general magnitude of the job of their getting settled and seasoned, their learning to "live into"
their queer future--it was high time that they should take up their courage. This was eminent sense, but it didn"t arrest the Princess, who, the next moment, had found a form for her challenge. "But shan"t you then so much as miss her a little? She"s wonderful and beautiful, and I feel somehow as if she were dying. Not really, not physically," Maggie went on--"she"s so far, naturally, splendid as she is, from having done with life. But dying for us--for you and me; and making us feel it by the very fact of there being so much of her left."
The Prince smoked hard a minute. "As you say, she"s splendid, but there is--there always will be--much of her left. Only, as you also say, for others."
"And yet I think," the Princess returned, "that it isn"t as if we had wholly done with her. How can we not always think of her? It"s as if her unhappiness had been necessary to us--as if we had needed her, at her own cost, to build us up and start us."
He took it in with consideration, but he met it with a lucid inquiry.
"Why do you speak of the unhappiness of your father"s wife?"
They exchanged a long look--the time that it took her to find her reply.
"Because not to--!"
"Well, not to--?"
"Would make me have to speak of him. And I can"t," said Maggie, "speak of him."
"You "can"t"--?"
"I can"t." She said it as for definite notice, not to be repeated.
"There are too many things," she nevertheless added. "He"s too great."
The Prince looked at his cigar-tip, and then as he put back the weed: "Too great for whom?" Upon which as she hesitated, "Not, my dear, too great for you," he declared. "For me--oh, as much as you like."
"Too great for me is what I mean. I know why I think it," Maggie said.
"That"s enough."
He looked at her yet again as if she but fanned his wonder; he was on the very point, she judged, of asking her why she thought it. But her own eyes maintained their warning, and at the end of a minute he had uttered other words. "What"s of importance is that you"re his daughter.
That at least we"ve got. And I suppose that, if I may say nothing else, I may say at least that I value it."
"Oh yes, you may say that you value it. I myself make the most of it."
This again he took in, letting it presently put forth for him a striking connection. "She ought to have known you. That"s what"s present to me.
She ought to have understood you better."
"Better than you did?"
"Yes," he gravely maintained, "better than I did. And she didn"t really know you at all. She doesn"t know you now."
"Ah, yes she does!" said Maggie.
But he shook his head--he knew what he meant. "She not only doesn"t understand you more than I, she understands you ever so much less.
Though even I--!"
"Well, even you?" Maggie pressed as he paused. "Even I, even I even yet--!" Again he paused and the silence held them.
But Maggie at last broke it. "If Charlotte doesn"t understand me, it is that I"ve prevented her. I"ve chosen to deceive her and to lie to her."
The Prince kept his eyes on her. "I know what you"ve chosen to do. But I"ve chosen to do the same."
"Yes," said Maggie after an instant--"my choice was made when I had guessed yours. But you mean," she asked, "that she understands YOU?"
"It presents small difficulty!"
"Are you so sure?" Maggie went on.
"Sure enough. But it doesn"t matter." He waited an instant; then looking up through the fumes of his smoke, "She"s stupid," he abruptly opined.
"O--oh!" Maggie protested in a long wail.
It had made him in fact quickly change colour. "What I mean is that she"s not, as you p.r.o.nounce her, unhappy." And he recovered, with this, all his logic. "Why is she unhappy if she doesn"t know?"
"Doesn"t know--?" She tried to make his logic difficult.
"Doesn"t know that YOU know."
It came from him in such a way that she was conscious, instantly, of three or four things to answer. But what she said first was: "Do you think that"s all it need take?" And before he could reply, "She knows, she knows!" Maggie proclaimed.
"Well then, what?"
But she threw back her head, she turned impatiently away from him.
"Oh, I needn"t tell you! She knows enough. Besides," she went on, "she doesn"t believe us."
It made the Prince stare a little. "Ah, she asks too much!" That drew, however, from his wife another moan of objection, which determined in him a judgment. "She won"t let you take her for unhappy."
"Oh, I know better than any one else what she won"t let me take her for!"
"Very well," said Amerigo, "you"ll see."
"I shall see wonders, I know. I"ve already seen them, and I"m prepared for them." Maggie recalled--she had memories enough. "It"s terrible"--her memories prompted her to speak. "I see it"s ALWAYS terrible for women."
The Prince looked down in his gravity. "Everything"s terrible, cara, in the heart of man. She"s making her life," he said. "She"ll make it."
His wife turned back upon him; she had wandered to a table, vaguely setting objects straight. "A little by the way then too, while she"s about it, she"s making ours." At this he raised his eyes, which met her own, and she held him while she delivered herself of some thing that had been with her these last minutes.
"You spoke just now of Charlotte"s not having learned from you that I "know." Am I to take from you then that you accept and recognise my knowledge?"
He did the inquiry all the honours--visibly weighed its importance and weighed his response. "You think I might have been showing you that a little more handsomely?"
"It isn"t a question of any beauty," said Maggie; "it"s only a question of the quant.i.ty of truth."