Well, fate never meant me to be happy. I am a wretch, judged before I was born, foredoomed to misery in this world and the next. Yes, I begin to think Calvin was right--there are some creatures predestined to d.a.m.nation. Before ever the stars spun into their places, when all the suns and moons and planets were rings of fiery gas revolving in s.p.a.ce, my doom was already written in the book of fate.
It had been a common thing of late for Brian to ramble on in such despondent strains as these, half angry, half despairing. Ida was supremely patient with him, sometimes soothing him, sometimes arguing with him; yet hardly knowing how much of his talk arose from real gloom of mind, or how much was sheer rhodomontade. The hours which she spent with him were intensely painful, and as the days went by he became more and more exacting, more and more resentful of her absence, and grudgingly jealous of Vernon.
Another cause for pain was Ida"s growing conviction that her husband"s frequent doses of soda and brandy, and the champagne which he drank at dinner, and the port or Burgundy which he took after dinner, had a great deal to do with his altered mental condition. Painful as it was to speak of such a thing, she took courage one morning, and told him plainly that she believed he was suffering from, the effect of habitual--almost unconscious--intemperance.
"You are taking soda and brandy all day long. You have brandy in your bedroom at night, Brian," she said. "I am sure you can have no idea how much you take in the course of the twenty-four hours."
"I have no idea that I am a drunkard, if that"s what you mean," he answered, white with rage; and then he burst into a torrent of abuse--such language as she had never heard from mortal lips until that hour, and his wife fled, shuddering and terror-stricken, from the room.
When next they met he cowed before her with a craven air, and made no allusion to this scene. But after this she observed that he pretended to drink less, and had a crafty way of getting his gla.s.s refilled at dinner.
He no longer kept a brandy bottle on the table beside his bed, as he had done heretofore, on the pretence that a little weak brandy and water helped him to sleep, nor did the soda-water bottles and spirit decanter adorn one of the tables in his study; but more than once his wife met him creeping to the dining-room with a stealthy air to supply himself at the sideboard, and when she went into his room at night to see if he slept, his fevered breath reeked of brandy. It seemed to her later, as time went on, that even his garments exhaled spirituous odours.
It was not long after this that he began to talk mysteriously of some trouble which menaced him, which gradually took the shape of a criminal prosecution overhanging him. He had been falsely accused of some awful crime--some nameless, unspeakable offence--hateful as the gates of h.e.l.l.
He was innocent, but his enemies were legion; and at any moment a detective might be sent to Wimperfield to arrest him. One evening, in the summer twilight after dinner, he took it into his head that one of the footmen--a man whose face ought to have been thoroughly familiar to him--was a detective in disguise. He flew at the worthy young fellow in a furious rage, and the butler had hard work to prevent his doing poor John Thomas a mischief. But when the lamps were brought in, Brian perceived his mistake, and apologised to the footman for his violence.
"You don"t know what devils those detectives are," he said, deprecatingly; "they can make themselves look like anybody. And if they once get hold of me, the case will be tried at Westminster Hall. It will take weeks to try, and all the Bar will be engaged; and then it will have to go to the House of Lords. There has not been such a case within the last century. All Europe will ring with it."
"Dear Brian, I am sure this is a delusion of yours," said Ida, trying to soothe him; "you cannot have done anything so wicked."
"Done! no, I am as innocent as a baby; but the whole Bar--the Bench too--is in league against me. They"ll make out their case, depend upon it. "It"s a case for a jury;" that"s what the Lord Chancellor said when I told him about it."
After this there could be no doubt that there was actual mental disturbance. Lady Palliser sent for the local medical man, who had very little difficulty in diagnosing the case. Sleeplessness, restless nights, tossing from side to side, an utter inability to keep still, horrible dreams, impaired vision, clouds floating before the eyes,--these symptoms Mr. Fosbroke heard from the wife. The patient himself was obstinately silent about his sensations, declared that there was nothing the matter with him, and let the doctor know he considered his visit an impertinent intrusion.
"I had a touch of brain fever early in the year," he said. "I had the best advice in London during my illness, and afterwards. I know exactly how to treat myself. The symptoms which alarm my wife are nothing but the natural reaction after a severe shock to the nervous system. The tonics I am taking will soon pull me up again; but as I am now under a special treatment by Dr. Mallison, of Harley Street, you will under, stand that I don"t care about further advice."
"Undoubtedly," replied the medical man, meekly. "But I believe it would be a satisfaction to Lady Palliser and to Mrs. Wendover both if you would do me the honour to consult me, and allow me to look after you while you are here, I could place myself under Dr. Mallison"s instructions, if you like."
"No, there is no necessity. I tell you I know exactly what is amiss, and how to manage my own health."
Mr. Fosbroke argued the point, but in vain. Brian would not even allow him to feel his pulse. But the doctor knew very well what was amiss, and told Mrs. Wendover, with delicate circ.u.mlocution, that her husband was suffering from an imprudent use of stimulants for some time past.
"That is what I feared," said Ida; but it is too dreadful. It is the very last thing I expected. I thought n.o.body drank nowadays."
"Very few people get drunk, my dear Mrs. Wendover," replied the doctor; "but, unhappily, though there is very little drunkenness, there is a great deal of what is called "pegging"--an intermittent kind of tippling which goes on all day long, beginning very early and ending very late. A man, whose occupation in life is headwork, begins to think he wants a stimulant--begins by having his brandy and soda at twelve o"clock perhaps; then finds he can"t get on without it after eleven; then takes it before breakfast--in lieu of breakfast; and goes on with brandy and soda at intervals till dinner-time. At dinner he has no appet.i.te, tries to create one with a bottle of dry champagne, eats very little, but dines on the champagne, feels an unaccountable depression of spirits later on in the evening, and takes more brandy, without soda this time; and so on, and so on; till, after a period of sleeplessness, he begins to have ugly dreams, then to see waking visions, hear imaginary voices, stumble upon the edge of an imaginary precipice. If he is an elderly man he gets shaky in the lower limbs, then his hands become habitually tremulous, especially in the early morning, when he is like a figure hung on wires--and so on, and so on; and unless he pulls himself up by a great moral effort, the chances are that he will have a sharp attack of _delirium tremens_."
"You do not fear such an attack for my husband?
"Mr. Wendover is a young man, but he has evidently abused his const.i.tution; there is no knowing what may happen if you don"t take care of him. Alcohol is a c.u.mulative poison, and that "pegging" I have told you of is diabolical. Nature throws off an over-dose of alcohol, but the daily, hourly dose eats into the system."
"How am I to take care of him?" asked Ida, despairingly.
"You must keep wine and spirits away from him, except in extreme moderation."
"What! speak to the butler? Tell him that my husband is a drunkard?"
"You need not go quite so far as that, but it will be necessary to cut off the supplies somehow, and to subst.i.tute a nourishing diet for stimulants."
"Yes, if he could eat: but he has no appet.i.te--he eats hardly anything."
"Unhappily, that is one of the symptoms of his disease, and the most difficult to overcome. But you must do your utmost to make him eat, and to prevent his getting brandy. A little light claret or Rhine wine may be allowed; nothing more. I will send you a sedative which you can give him at bedtime."
"I do not think he will take anything of that kind. He has set his face against accepting your advice."
"I believe if you were to take a decided tone, he would succ.u.mb; if not, you had better ask Dr. Mallison to come down and see him. It will be a costly visit, and money thrown away, as the case is perfectly simple; but I dare say you will not mind that."
"I should mind nothing if he could be cured. It is horrible to see such ruin of body and mind in one so young," Ida answered sadly.
"Well, you must see what influence you can exercise over him for his own good. I will call every other day, and hear how you are getting on with him; and if you fail, we must summon Dr. Mallison."
Ida spoke to the butler. It was a hard thing to do, and it seemed to her a kind of treachery against her husband--as if she were inflicting everlasting disgrace upon him in secret, like a midnight a.s.sa.s.sin, who stabs his victim in the back. Her voice trembled, and her face was deadly pale as she spoke to the butler, an old servant who had been in the household from his boyhood.
"Rogers, I want you to be a little more careful in your arrangements about wine and spirits," she began, falteringly. "Mr. Wendover is in a low state of health--suffering from a nervous complaint, in fact; and we fear that he is taking too much brandy. Will you kindly try to prevent it?"
"It will be very difficult, ma"am. Mr. Wendover gives his orders, and he expects to be obeyed."
"But upon this one point you must not obey him. You can say that you have Lady Palliser"s orders that no more brandy is to be brought up from the cellar. I shall tell her that I have told you this."
"Yes, ma"am. I was afraid too much brandy was being drunk, but it was not my place to mention it," said Rogers, politely.
He would have said the same, perhaps, had the house been on fire.
Neither sherry nor champagne was served at dinner that day, and the claret which was offered Mr. Wendover was of a very thin quality.
"I"ll take champagne," he said to the butler.
"There is not any upstairs, sir."
Brian turned angrily upon the man, and Ida, pale but resolute, came to the rescue.
"We do not drink champagne at dinner when we are alone, Brian," she said; "and I don"t think it is quite fair to Vernie"s cellars that Moet should be served every day because you are here.
"Vernon"s cellars! Ah, I forgot that we are all here on sufferance, and, that I am drinking Vernon"s wine."
"You may have as much of my champagne as you like," said Vernie, getting very red; "but I don"t think it does you any good, for you are always so cross afterwards."
Brian looked at the boy with a savage gleam in his eyes, and muttered something, but made no audible reply.
"I"ll go back to my chambers to-morrow," he said: "I can have a bottle of Moet there without being under an obligation to anybody. Give me some brandy and soda," he said to the butler; "I can"t drink this verjuice."
"There is no brandy, sir."
"Oh! Sir Vernon"s cognac is to be kept sacred, too. I congratulate you, Vernon, upon having two such economical guardians. Your minority will be a period of considerable saving."
He made no further remonstrance, drank neither claret nor hock, ate hardly anything, but sat through the dinner in sullen silence, and went off to his room directly Lady Palliser had said grace, leaving the others to take their strawberries and cream alone. Vernon was what Kogers the butler called "a mark on" strawberries and cream.
When Vernie had finished his strawberries, Ida went to her husband"s study; but the door was locked, and when she asked to be admitted Brian refused.
"I"d rather be alone, thank you," he answered, curtly. "I have an article to write for one of the legal papers. You can amuse yourself with the baronet. I know you are always glad to be free."