"Thank G.o.d nice bweakfast, Amen."
"That"s right! Now open it, then."
"No, not now."
"Drat the child! Well, wipe your face, then."
Angelina carried her parcel to the window, and then, after gazing at it for a long time, at last opened it. Her eyes grew wider and wider, her chubby fingers trembled. Nurse undid the wrappings of paper, slowly folded up the sheets, then produced, all naked and unashamed, a large rag doll.
"There! There"s a pretty thing for you, Miss "Lina."
She had her hand about the doll"s head, and held her there, suspended.
"Give her me! Give her me!" Angelina rescued her, and, with eyes flaming, the doll laid lengthways in her arms, tottered off to the other corner of the room.
"Well, there"s grat.i.tude," said the nurse, "and never asking so much as who it"s from."
But nurse, aunts, all the troubles and disappointments of this world had vanished from Angelina"s heart and soul. She had seen, at that first glimpse that her nurse had so rudely given her, that here at last, after long, long waiting, was the blessing that she had so desired. She had had other dolls--quite a number of them. Even now Lizzie (without an eye) and Rachel (rather fine in bridesmaid"s attire) were leaning their disconsolate backs against the boarding beneath the window seat. There had been, besides Rachel and Lizzie, two Annies, a Mary, a May, a Blackamoor, a j.a.p, a Sailor, and a Baby in a Bath. They were now as though they had never been; Angelina knew with absolute certainty of soul, with that blending of will and desire, pa.s.sion, self-sacrifice and absence of humour that must inevitably accompany true love that here was her Fate.
"It"s been sent you by your kind Uncle Teny," said nurse. "You"ll have to write a nice letter and thank him."
But Angelina knew better. She--a name had not yet been chosen--had been sent to her by her friend.... He had promised her last night that this should be a day of days.
Her aunts, appearing to receive thanks where thanks were due, darkened the doorway.
"Good-morning, mum. Good-morning, mum. Now, Miss "Lina, thank your kind aunties for their beautiful presents."
She stood up, clutching the doll.
"T"ank you, Auntie Vi"let; t"ank you, Auntie Em"ly--your lovely pwesents."
"That"s right, Angelina. I hope you"ll use them sensibly. What"s that she"s holding, nurse?"
"It"s a doll Mr. Edward"s sent her, mum."
"What a hideous creature! Edward might have chosen something---- Time for her to go out, nurse, I think--now, while the sun"s warm."
But she did not hear. She did not know that they had gone. She sat there in a dreamy ecstasy rocking the red-cheeked creature in her arms, seeing, with her black eyes, visions and the beauty of a thousand worlds.
III
The name Rose was given to her. Rose had been kept, as a name, until some one worthy should arrive.... "Wosie Bwaid," a very good name. Her nakedness was clothed first in Rachel"s bridesmaid"s attire--alas! poor Rachel!--but the lace and finery did not suit those flaming red cheeks and beady black eyes. Rose was, there could be no question, a daughter of the soil; good red blood ran through her stout veins. Tess of the countryside, your laughing, chaffing, arms-akimbo dairymaid; no poor white product of the over-civilised cities. Angelina felt that the satin and lace were wrong; she tore them off, searched in the heaped-up cupboard for poor neglected Annie No. 1, found her, tore from her her red woollen skirt and white blouse, stretched them about Rose"s portly body.
"T"ank G.o.d for nice Wose, Amen," she said, but she meant, not G.o.d, but her friend. He, her friend, had never sent her anything before, and now that Rose had come straight from him, she must have a great deal to tell her about him. Nothing puzzled her more than the distressing fact that she wondered sometimes whether her friend was ever really coming again, whether any of the wonderful things that were happening on every side of her wouldn"t suddenly one fine morning vanish altogether, and leave her to a dreary world of nurse, bread and milk, and the Romans sacking Jerusalem. She didn"t, of course, put it like that; all that it meant to her was that stupid people and tiresome things were always interfering between herself and _real_ fun. Now it was time to go out, now to go to bed, now to eat, now to be taken downstairs into that horrid room where she couldn"t move because things would tumble off the tables so ... all this prevented her own life when she would sit and try, and try, and remember _what_ it was all like once, and wonder why when once things had been so beautiful they were so ugly and disappointing now.
Now Rose had come, and she could talk to Rose about it. "What she sees in that ugly old doll!" said the nurse to the housemaid. "You can take my word, Mary, she"ll sit in that window looking down at the gardens, nursing that rag and just say nothing. It fair gives you the creeps ...
left too much to herself, the poor child is. As for those old women downstairs, if I "ad my way--but there! Living"s living, and bread and b.u.t.ter"s bread and b.u.t.ter!"
But, of course, Angelina"s heart was bursting with affection, and there had been, until Rose"s arrival, no one upon whom she might bestow it.
Rose might seem to the ordinary observer somewhat unresponsive. She sat there, whether it were tea-time, dressing-time, bed-time, always staring in front of her, her mouth closed, her arms, bow-shaped, standing stiffly away from her side, taking, it might seem, but little interest in her mistress"s confidences. Did one give her tea she only dribbled at the lip; did one place upon her head a straw hat with red ribbon torn from poor May--once a reigning favourite--she made no effort to keep it upon her head. Jewels and gold could rouse no appreciation from her; she was sunk in a lethargy that her rose-red cheeks most shamefully belied.
But Angelina had the key to her. Angelina understood that confiding silence, appreciated that tactful discretion, adored that complete submission to her will. It was true that her friend had only come once to her now within the s.p.a.ce of many, many weeks, but he had sent her Rose. "He"s coming soon, Wose--weally soon--to tell us stowies.
Bu-ootiful ones."
She sat, gazing down into the Square, and her dreams were longer and longer and longer.
IV
Miss Emily Braid was a softer creature than her sister, and she had, somewhere in her heart, some sort of affection for her niece. She made, now and then, little buccaneering raids upon the nursery, with the intention of arriving at some intimate terms with that strange animal.
But she had no gift of ease with children; her attempts at friendliness were viewed by Angelina with the gravest suspicion and won no return.
This annoyed Miss Emily, and because she was conscious that she herself was in reality to blame, she attacked Angelina all the more fiercely.
"This brooding must be stopped," she said. "Really, it"s most unhealthy."
It was quite impossible for her to believe that a child of three could really be interested by golden sunsets, the colours of the fountain that was in the centre of the gardens, the soft, grey haze that clothed the houses on a spring evening; and when, therefore, she saw Angelina gazing at these things, she decided that the child was morbid. Any interest, however, that Angelina may have taken in her aunts before Rose"s arrival was now reduced to less than nothing at all.
"That doll that Edward gave the child," said Miss Emily to her sister, "is having a very bad effect on her. Makes her more moody than ever."
"Such a hideous thing!" said Miss Violet. "Well, I shall take it away if I see much more of this nonsense."
It was lucky for Rose meanwhile that she was of a healthy const.i.tution.
The meals, the dressing and undressing, the perpetual demands upon her undivided attention, the sudden rousings from her sleep, the swift rockings back into slumber again, the appeals for response, the abuses for indifference, these things would have slain within a week one of her more feeble sisters. But Rose was made of stern stuff, and her rosy cheeks were as rosy, the brightness of her eyes was undimmed. We may believe--and surely many harder demands are made upon our faith--that there did arise a very special relationship between these two. The whole of Angelina"s heart was now devoted to Rose"s service, Rose"s was not devoted to Angelina?... And always Angelina wondered when her friend would return, watched for him in the dusk, awoke in the early mornings and listened for him, searched the Square with its trees and its fountain for his presence.
"Wosie, when did he say he"d come next?" But Rose could not tell. There _were_ times when Rose"s impenetrability was, to put it at its mildest, aggravating.
Meanwhile, the situation with Aunt Emily grew serious. Angelina was aware that Aunt Emily disliked Rose, and her mouth now shut very tightly and her eyes glared defiance when she thought of this, but her difference with her aunt went more deeply than this. She had known for a long, long time that both her aunts would stop her "dreaming" if they could. Did she tell them about her friend, about the kind of pictures of which the fountain reminded her, about the vivid, lively memories that the tree with the pink flowers--the almond tree--in the corner of the gardens--you could just see it from the nursery window--called to her mind; she knew that she would be punished--put in the corner, or even sent to bed. She did not think these things out consecutively in her mind, but she knew that the dark room downstairs, the dark pa.s.sages, the stillness and silence of it all frightened her, and that it was always out of these things that her aunts rose.
At night when she lay in bed with Rosie clasped tightly to her, she whispered endlessly about the gardens, the fountain, the barrel organs, the dogs, the other children in the Square--she had names of her own for all these things--and him, who belonged, of course, to the world outside.... Then her whisper would sink, and she would warn Rose about the rooms downstairs, the dining-room with the black chairs, the soft carpet, and the stuffed birds in gla.s.s cases--for these things, too, she had names. Here was the hand of death and destruction, the land of crooked stairs, sudden dark doors, mysterious bells and drippings of water--out of all this her aunts came....
Unfortunately it was just at this moment that Miss Emily Braid decided that it was time to take her niece in hand. "The child"s three, Violet, and very backward for her age. Why, Mrs. Mancaster"s little girl, who"s just Angelina"s age, can talk fluently, and is beginning with her letters. We don"t want Jim to be disappointed in the child when he comes home next year." It would be difficult to determine how much of this was true; Miss Emily was aggravated and, although she would never have confessed to so trivial a matter, the perpetual worship of Rose--"the ugliest thing you ever saw"--was irritating her. The days followed, then, when Angelina was constantly in her aunt"s company, and to neither of them was this companionship pleasant.
"You must ask me questions, child. How are you ever going to learn to talk properly if you don"t ask me questions?"
"Yes, auntie."
"What"s that over there?"
"Twee."
"Say tree, not twee."
"Tree."
"Now look at me. Put that wretched doll down.... Now.... That"s right.
Now tell me what you"ve been doing this morning."