"The American man of the more ambitious sort," he went on, "either has to live practically if not physically apart from his wife or else has to educate some not too difficult woman to be his wife."
She understood that. "You are really going to educate me?" she said, with an arch smile. Now that Norman had her attention, now that she was centering upon him instead of upon herself, she was interested in him, and in what he said, whether she understood it or not, whether it pleased her vanity or wounded it. The intellects of women work to an unsuspected extent only through the s.e.x charm. Their appreciations of books, of art, of men are dependant, often in the most curious indirect ways, upon the fact that the author, the artist, the politician or what not is betrousered. Thus, Dorothy was patient, respectful, attentive, was not offended by Norman"s didactic way of giving her the lessons in life. Her smile was happy as well as coquettish, as she asked him to educate her.
He returned her smile. "That depends," answered he.
"You"re not sure I"m worth the trouble?"
"You may put it that way, if you like. But I"d say, rather, I"m not sure I can spare the time--and you"re not sure you care to fit yourself for the place."
"Oh, but I do!" cried she.
"We"ll see--in a few weeks or months," replied he.
The Burroughs party were rising. Josephine had choice of two ways to the door. She chose the one that took her past Norman and his bride. She advanced, beaming. Norman rose, took her extended hand. Said she:
"So glad to see you." Then, turning the radiant smile upon Dorothy, "And is this your wife? Is this the pretty little typewriter girl?"
Dorothy nodded--a charming, ingenuous bend of the head. Norman felt a thrill of pride in her, so beautifully unconscious of the treacherous attempt at insult. It particularly delighted him that she had not made the mistake of rising to return Josephine"s greeting but had remained seated. Surely this wife of his had the right instincts that never fail to cause right manners. For Josephine"s benefit, he gazed down at Dorothy with the proudest, fondest eyes. "Yes--this is she," said he.
"Can you blame me?"
Josephine paled and winced visibly, as if the blow she had aimed at him had, after glancing off harmlessly, returned to crush her. She touched Dorothy"s proffered hand, murmured a few stammering phrases of vague compliment, rejoined her friends. Said Dorothy, when she and Norman were settled again:
"I shall never like her. Nor she me."
"But you do like this cheese? Waiter, another bottle of that same."
"Why did she put you in such a good humor?" inquired his wife.
"It wasn"t she. It was you!" replied he. But he refused to explain.
XXI
Galloway accepted Norman"s terms. He would probably have accepted terms far less easy. But Norman as yet knew with the thoroughness which must precede intelligent plan and action only the legal side of financial operations; he had been as indifferent to the commercial side as a pilot to the value of the cargo in the ship he engages to steer clear of shoals and rocks. So with the prudence of the sagacious man"s audacities he contented himself with a share of this first venture that would simply make a comfortable foundation for the fortune he purposed to build. As the venture could not fail outright, even should Galloway die, he rented a largish place at Hempstead, with the privilege of purchase, and installed his wife and himself with a dozen servants and a housekeeper.
"This housekeeper, this Mrs. Lowell," said he to Dorothy, "is a good enough person as housekeepers go. But you will have to look sharply after her."
Dorothy seemed to fade and shrink within herself, which was her way of confessing lack of courage and fitness to face a situation: "I don"t know anything about those things," she confessed.
"I understand perfectly," said he. "But you learned something at the place in Jersey City--quite enough for the start. Really, all you need to know just now is whether the place is clean or not, and whether the food comes on the table in proper condition. The rest you"ll pick up gradually."
"I hope so," said she, looking doubtful and helpless; these new magnitudes were appalling, especially now that she was beginning to get a point of view upon life.
"At any rate, don"t bother me for these few next months," said he. "I"m going to be very busy--shall leave early in the morning and not be back until near dinner time--if I come at all. No, you"ll not be annoyed by me. You"ll be absolute mistress of your time."
She tried to look as if this contented her. But he could not have failed to see how dissatisfied and disquieted she really was. He had the best of reasons for thinking that she was living under the same roof with him only because she preferred the roof he could provide to such a one as she could provide for herself whether by her own earnings or by marrying a man more to her liking personally. Yet here she was, piqued and depressed because of his indifference--because he was not thrusting upon her gallantries she would tolerate only through prudence!
"You will be lonely at times, I"m afraid," said he. "But I can"t provide friends or even acquaintances for you for several months--until my affairs are in better order and my sister and her husband come back from Europe."
"Oh, I shan"t be lonely," cried she. "I"ve never cared for people."
"You"ve your books, and your music--and riding--and shopping trips to town--and the house and grounds to look after."
"Yes--and my dreams," said she hopefully, her eyes suggesting the dusky star depths.
"Oh--the dreams. You"ll have little time for them," said he drily. "And little inclination, I imagine, as you wake up to the sense of how much there is to be learned. Dreaming is the pastime of people who haven"t the intelligence or the energy to accomplish anything. If you wish to please me--and you do--don"t you?"
"Yes," she murmured. She forced her rebellious lips to the laconic a.s.sent. She drooped the lids over her rebellious eyes, lest he should detect her wounded feelings and her resentment.
"I a.s.sumed so," said he, with a secret smile. "Well, if you wish to please me, you"ll give your time to practical things--things that"ll make you more interesting and make us both more comfortable. It was all very well to dream, while you had little to do and small opportunity.
But now--Try to cut it out."
It is painful to an American girl of any cla.s.s to find that she has to earn her position as wife. The current theory, a tradition from an early and woman-revering day, is that the girl has done her share and more when she has consented to the suit of the ardent male and has intrusted her priceless charms to his exclusive keeping. According to that same theory, it is the husband who must earn his position--must continue to earn it. He is a humble creature, honored by the presence of a wonderful being, a cross between a queen and a G.o.ddess. He cannot do enough to show his grat.i.tude. Perhaps--but only perhaps--had Norman married Josephine Burroughs, he might have a.s.sented, after a fashion, to this idea of the relations of the man and the woman. No doubt, had he remained under the spell of Dorothy"s mystery and beauty, he would have felt and acted the slave he had made of himself at the outset. But in the circ.u.mstances he was looking at their prospective life together with sane eyes. And so she had, in addition to all her other reasons for heartache, a sense that she, the G.o.ddess-queen, the American woman, with the birthright of dominion over the male, was being cheated, humbled, degraded.
At first he saw that this sense of being wronged made it impossible for her to do anything at all toward educating herself for her position. But time brought about the change he had hoped for. A few weeks, and she began to cheer up, almost in spite of herself. What was the use in sulking or sighing or in self-pitying, when it brought only unhappiness to oneself? The coa.r.s.e and brutal male in the case was either unaware or indifferent. There was no one and no place to fly to--unless she wished to be much worse off than her darkest mood of self-pity represented her to her sorrowing self. The housekeeper, Mrs. Lowell, was a "broken down gentlewoman" who had been chastened by misfortune into a wholesome state of practical good sense about the relative values of the real and the romantic. Mrs. Lowell diagnosed the case of the young wife--as Norman had shrewdly guessed she would--and was soon adroitly showing her the many advantages of her lot. Before they had been three months at Hempstead, Dorothy had discovered that she, in fact, was without a single ground for serious complaint. She had a husband who was generous about money, and left her as absolutely alone as if he were mere occasional visitor at the house. She had her living--and such a living!--she had plenty of interesting occupation--she had not a single sordid care--and perfect health.
The dreams, too--It was curious about those dreams. She would now have found it an intolerable bore to sit with hands idle in her lap and eyes upon vacancy, watching the dim, luminous shadows flit aimlessly by. Yet that was the way she used to pa.s.s hours--entire days. She used to fight off sleep at night the longer to enjoy her one source of pure happiness.
There was no doubt about it, the fire of romance was burning low, and she was becoming commonplace, practical, resigned. Well, why not? Was not life over for her?--that is, the life a girl"s fancy longs for. In place of hope of romance, there was an uneasy feeling of a necessity of pleasing this husband of hers--of making him comfortable. What would befall her if she neglected trying to please him or if she, for all her trying, failed? She did not look far in that direction. Her uneasiness remained indefinite--yet definite enough to keep her working from waking until bedtime. And she dropped into the habit of watching his face with the same anxiety with which a farmer watches the weather. When he happened one day to make a careless, absent-minded remark in disapproval of something in the domestic arrangements, she was thrown into such a nervous flutter that he observed it.
"What is it?" he asked.
"Nothing--nothing," replied she in the hurried tone of one who is trying hastily to cover his thoughts.
He reflected, understood, burst into a fit of hearty laughter. "So, you are trying to make a bogey of me?"
She colored, protested faintly.
"Don"t you know I"m about the least tyrannical, least exacting person in the world?"
"You"ve been very patient with me," said she.
"Now--now," cried he in a tone of raillery, "you might as well drop that. Don"t you know there"s no reason for being afraid of me?"
"Yes, I _know_ it," replied she. "But I _feel_ afraid, just the same. I can"t help it."
It was impossible for him to appreciate the effect of his personality upon others--how, without his trying or even wishing, it made them dread a purely imaginary displeasure and its absurdly imaginary consequences.
But this confession of hers was not the first time he had heard of the effect of potential and latent danger he had upon those a.s.sociated with him. And, as it was most useful, he was not sorry that he had it. He made no further attempt to convince her that he was harmless. He knew that he was harmless where she was concerned. Was it not just as well that she should not know it, when vaguely dreading him was producing excellent results? As with a Christian the fear of the Lord was the beginning of wisdom, so with a wife the fear of her husband was the beginning of wisdom. In striving to please him, to fit herself for the position of wife, she was using up the time she would otherwise have spent in making herself miserable with self-pity--that supreme curse of the idle both male and female, that most prolific of the breeders of unhappy wives. Yes, wives were unhappy not because their husbands neglected them, for busy people have no time to note whether they are neglected or not, but because they gave their own worthless, negligent, incapable selves too much attention.
One evening, she, wearing the look of the timid but resolute intruder, came into his room while he was dressing for dinner and hung about with an air no man of his experience could fail to understand.
"Something wrong about the house?" said he finally. "Need more money?"
"No--nothing," she replied, with a slight flush. He saw that she was mustering all her courage for some grand effort. He waited, only mildly curious, as his mind was busy with some new business he and Tetlow had undertaken. Presently she stood squarely before him, her hands behind her back and her face upturned. "Won"t you kiss me?" she said.
"Sure!" said he. And he kissed her on the cheek and resumed operations with his military brushes.