I"ve been trying to clean up Stacy"s mess-- All of her issues. She was trying to stay on the low profile list but seems that media has their own sources. But I don"t care how they were able to pull up some big headlines, as for me, I am going to protect my wife just as I promised. I have to clean her name as well as our name.However, One day, she came to my office and told me that she wanted to divorce me. I was shocked at first but I tried to calm my nerves. Why? Why does she suddenly wanted a divorce? I tried to ask her but she didn"t give me a concrete reason. I got mad. She also started to talk back. She insisted to file a divorce but I didn"t agree. I am not ready yet to let her go. I really love her! Or Did I just love the young girl back then at the orphanage? Was I consume by my hope so much? So much to think that she will go back to the old Erika that I know before? The Erika that I once loved?
Call me foolish but I didn"t know the answer myself. I didn"t know why I chose to stay with her; to give her lot of chances. I didn"t know. My head is about to explode! I can just give her what she wants. But we have a family!
Stacy banged the door of my office before she left. I can see how upset she is. She really wants to divorce me. But she didn"t tell me why. I hope she was able to explain it to me further that I may understand. If I have shortcomings then I am more than willing to fill in the gap. I wish she told me the truth.
My head was aching that day. I really don"t know what to do. A part of me wanted to let her go but a part of me doesn"t want to. Aaahhhhh!!!! G.o.d please help me! It was my only word that day.
I visited my favorite res...o...b..r. I really want to drain all the aches inside. I know consuming alcohol won"t solve my problems, but at least it could help me forget the pain temporarily. Oopps.. I think I drunk a lot. I was a little tipsy now but I want more! I drunk and drunk and drunk until I was not able to control myself anymore. My mind and I guess my hurt is so tired? Maybe? .. haha, could that even be possible? Anyways, I was feeling dizzy. I fell asleep. The last thing I remember was a girl tried to approach me but I was so sleepy to even care.
d.a.m.n! It"s already morning! I can feel the bright light coming out from the window. I tried to open up my eyes. I think I am still asleep cause the room seems unfamiliar to me. This isn"t my room. Oh no! Where am I!? I suddenly woke up. I saw myself naked? I know I sleep half naked but not totally naked. Then I saw someone moved--- beside me? How was that possible?!
The woman beside me was also naked. What? Did I do her? I can"t remember a thing about last night! The last thing I remember was I fell asleep then there was this woman who sat beside me!
The woman woke up. d.a.m.n! This woman again?! I raise a brow. Why do I have to be stuck with this woman everytime I got drunk? The h.e.l.l with her?
I don"t know but I must go home.
When I got home, I didn"t find Stacy inside. Well maybe she is still mad at me. Maybe she slept in our hotel. I tried to call the receptionist, but she told me that my wife didn"t check in at all.
I tried calling her but to no avail. Then one day, a media party released a news that they saw Stacy in the airport with another guy. What is this true? Did she just runaway with her unknown man?
I was so aggravated that time. I declared an overnight search for her. I know I might be crazy but I don"t care. I also spoke to his foster father. Robert claims that he doesn"t have any idea where she was. I threatened him. I know he knew something.
I don"t know what happened to me either cause everyday, my heart seems to hate her. I am so mad at her. I finally realize how stupid I was. Why do I have to keep such an ungrateful and unfaithful woman. I don"t care anymore. I just want to find her and let her experience the other side of me. I want to make pay her for all the things that she did to me. Also, the marroage contract is valid for 5 years. I didn"t know I would be able to use that to punish her.
I just simply hate her!