"Do you mean can"t I tell the lies? No, then, I can"t--and I wouldn"t if I could. I don"t lie myself, you know--as it happens; and it could represent to him then about the only thing, the only bad one, I don"t do. I _did_--"lovely as I am"!--have my regular time; I wasn"t so hideous that I couldn"t! Besides, do you imagine he"d come and ask me?"
"Gad, I wish he would, Julia!" said Mr. Pitman, with his kind eyes on her.
"Well then, I"d tell him!" And she held her head again high. "But he won"t."
It fairly distressed her companion. "Doesn"t he want, then, to know--?"
"He wants _not_ to know. He wants to be told without asking--told, I mean, that each of the stories, those that have come to him, is a fraud and a libel. _Qui s"excuse s"accuse_, don"t they say?--so that do you see me breaking out to him, unprovoked, with four or five what-do-you-call-"ems, the things mother used to have to prove in court, a set of neat little "alibis" in a row? How can I get hold of so _many_ precious gentlemen, to turn them on? How can _they_ want everything fished up?"
She paused for her climax, in the intensity of these considerations; which gave Mr. Pitman a chance to express his honest faith. "Why, my sweet child, they"d be just glad--!"
It determined in her loveliness almost a sudden glare. "Glad to swear they never had anything to do with such a creature? Then _I"d_ be glad to swear they had lots!"
His persuasive smile, though confessing to bewilderment, insisted.
"Why, my love, they"ve got to swear either one thing or the other."
"They"ve got to keep out of the way--that"s _their_ view of it, I guess," said Julia. "Where _are_ they, please--now that they _may_ be wanted? If you"d like to hunt them up for me you"re very welcome."
With which, for the moment, over the difficult case, they faced each other helplessly enough. And she added to it now the sharpest ache of her despair. "He knows about Murray Brush. The others"--and her pretty white-gloved hands and charming pink shoulders gave them up--"may go hang!"
"Murray Brush--?" It had opened Mr. Pitman"s eyes.
"Yes--yes; I do mind _him_."
"Then what"s the matter with his at least rallying--?"
"The matter is that, being ashamed of himself, as he well might, he left the country as soon as he could and has stayed away. The matter is that he"s in Paris or somewhere, and that if you expect him to come home for me--!" She had already dropped, however, as at Mr. Pitman"s look.
"Why, you foolish thing, Murray Brush is in New York!" It had quite brightened him up.
"He has come back--?"
"Why, sure! I saw him--when was it? Tuesday!--on the Jersey boat." Mr.
Pitman rejoiced in his news. "_He"s_ your man!"
Julia too had been affected by it; it had brought, in a rich wave, her hot color back. But she gave the strangest dim smile. "He _was_!"
"Then get hold of him, and--if he"s a gentleman--he"ll prove for you, to the hilt, that he wasn"t."
It lighted in her face, the kindled train of this particular sudden suggestion, a glow, a sharpness of interest, that had deepened the next moment, while she gave a slow and sad head-shake, to a greater strangeness yet. "He isn"t a gentleman."
"Ah, lordy, lordy!" Mr. Pitman again sighed. He struggled out of it but only into the vague. "Oh, then, if he"s a pig--!"
"You see there are only a few gentlemen--not enough to go round--and that makes them count so!" It had thrust the girl herself, for that matter, into depths; but whether most of memory or of roused purpose he had no time to judge--aware as he suddenly was of a shadow (since he mightn"t perhaps too quickly call it a light) across the heaving surface of their question. It fell upon Julia"s face, fell with the sound of the voice he so well knew, but which could only be odd to her for all it immediately a.s.sumed.
"There are indeed very few--and one mustn"t try _them_ too much!"
Mrs. Drack, who had supervened while they talked, stood, in monstrous magnitude--at least to Julia"s reimpressed eyes--between them: she was the lady our young woman had descried across the room, and she had drawn near while the interest of their issue so held them. We have seen the act of observation and that of reflection alike swift in Julia--once her subject was within range--and she had now, with all her perceptions at the acutest, taken in, by a single stare, the strange presence to a happy connection with which Mr. Pitman aspired and which had thus sailed, with placid majesty, into their troubled waters. She was clearly not shy, Mrs. David E. Drack, yet neither was she ominously bold; she was bland and "good," Julia made sure at a glance, and of a large complacency, as the good and the bland are apt to be--a large complacency, a large sentimentality, a large innocent, elephantine archness: she fairly rioted in that dimension of size.
Habited in an extraordinary quant.i.ty of stiff and l.u.s.trous black brocade, with enhancements, of every description, that twinkled and tinkled, that rustled and rumbled with her least movement, she presented a huge, hideous, pleasant face, a featureless desert in a remote quarter of which the disproportionately small eyes might have figured a pair of rash adventurers all but buried in the sand. They reduced themselves when she smiled to barely discernible points--a couple of mere tiny emergent heads--though the foreground of the scene, as if to make up for it, gaped with a vast benevolence. In a word Julia saw--and as if she had needed nothing more; saw Mr.
Pitman"s opportunity, saw her own, saw the exact nature both of Mrs.
Drack"s circ.u.mspection and of Mrs. Drack"s sensibility, saw even, glittering there in letters of gold and as a part of the whole metallic coruscation, the large figure of her income, largest of all her attributes, and (though perhaps a little more as a luminous blur beside all this) the mingled ecstasy and agony of Mr. Pitman"s hope and Mr. Pitman"s fear.
He was introducing them, with his pathetic belief in the virtue for every occasion, in the solvent for every trouble, of an extravagant, genial, professional humor; he was naming her to Mrs. Drack as the charming young friend he had told her so much about and who had been as an angel to him in a weary time; he was saying that the loveliest chance in the world, this accident of a meeting in those promiscuous halls, had placed within his reach the pleasure of bringing them together. It didn"t indeed matter, Julia felt, what he was saying: he conveyed everything, as far as she was concerned, by a moral pressure as unmistakable as if, for a symbol of it, he had thrown himself on her neck. Above all, meanwhile, this high consciousness prevailed--that the good lady herself, however huge she loomed, had entered, by the end of a minute, into a condition as of suspended weight and arrested ma.s.s, stilled to artless awe by the fact of her vision. Julia had practised almost to la.s.situde the art of tracing in the people who looked at her the impression promptly sequent; but it was a striking point that if, in irritation, in depression, she felt that the lightest eyes of men, stupid at their clearest, had given her pretty well all she should ever care for, she could still gather a freshness from the tribute of her own s.e.x, still care to see her reflection in the faces of women. Never, probably, never would that sweet be tasteless--with such a straight grim spoon was it mostly administered, and so flavored and strengthened by the competence of their eyes. Women knew so much best _how_ a woman surpa.s.sed--how and where and why, with no touch or torment of it lost on them; so that as it produced mainly and primarily the instinct of aversion, the sense of extracting the recognition, of gouging out the homage, was on the whole the highest crown one"s felicity could wear. Once in a way, however, the grimness beautifully dropped, the jealousy failed: the admiration was all there and the poor plain sister handsomely paid it.
It had never been so paid, she was presently certain, as by this great generous object of Mr., Pitman"s flame, who without optical aid, it well might have seemed, nevertheless entirely grasped her--might in fact, all benevolently, have been groping her over as by some huge mild proboscis. She gave Mrs. Brack pleasure in short; and who could say of what other pleasures the poor lady hadn"t been cheated?
It was somehow a muddled world in which one of her conceivable joys, at this time of day, would be to marry Mr. Pitman--to say nothing of a state of things in which this gentleman"s own fancy could invest such a union with rapture. That, however, was their own mystery, and Julia, with each instant, was more and more clear about hers: so remarkably primed in fact, at the end of three minutes, that though her friend, and though _his_ friend, were both saying things, many things and perhaps quite wonderful things, she had no free attention for them and was only rising and soaring. She was rising to her value, she was soaring _with_ it--the value Mr. Pitman almost convulsively imputed to her, the value that consisted for her of being so unmistakably the most dazzling image Mrs. Brack had ever beheld. These were the uses, for Julia, in fine, of adversity; the range of Mrs. Brack"s experience might have been as small as the measure of her presence was large: Julia was at any rate herself in face of the occasion of her life, and, after all her late repudiations and reactions, had perhaps never yet known the quality of this moment"s success. She hadn"t an idea of what, on either side, had been uttered--beyond Mr. Pitman"s allusion to her having befriended him of old: she simply held his companion with her radiance and knew she might be, for her effect, as irrelevant as she chose. It was relevant to do what he wanted--it was relevant to dish herself. She did it now with a kind of pa.s.sion, to say nothing of her knowing, with it, that every word of it added to her beauty. She gave him away in short, up to the hilt, for any use of her own, and should have nothing to clutch at now but the possibility of Murray Brush.
"He says I was good to him, Mrs. Drack; and I"m sure I hope I was, since I should be ashamed to be anything else. If I could be good to him now I should be glad--that"s just what, a while ago, I rushed up to him here, after so long, to give myself the pleasure of saying. I saw him years ago very particularly, very miserably tried--and I saw the way he took it. I did see it, you dear man," she sublimely went on--"I saw it for all you may protest, for all you may hate me to talk about you! I saw you behave like a gentleman--since Mrs. Drack agrees with me, so charmingly, that there are not many to be met. I don"t know whether you care, Mrs. Drack"--she abounded, she revelled in the name--"but I"ve always remembered it of him: that under the most extraordinary provocation he was decent and patient and brave. No appearance of anything different matters, for I speak of what I _know_. Of course I"m nothing and n.o.body; I"m only a poor frivolous girl, but I was very close to him at the time. That"s all my little story--if it _should_ interest you at all." She measured every beat of her wing, she knew how high she was going and paused only when it was quite vertiginous. Here she hung a moment as in the glare of the upper blue; which was but the glare--what else could it be?--of the vast and magnificent attention of both her auditors, hushed, on their side, in the splendor she emitted. She had at last to steady herself, and she scarce knew afterward at what rate or in what way she had still inimitably come down--her own eyes fixed all the while on the very figure of her achievement. She had sacrificed her mother on the altar--proclaimed her as false and cruel: and if that didn"t "fix" Mr.
Pitman, as he would have said--well, it was all she could do. But the cost of her action already somehow came back to her with increase; the dear gaunt man fairly wavered, to her sight, in the glory of it, as if signalling at her, with wild gleeful arms, from some mount of safety, while the ma.s.sive lady just spread and spread like a rich fluid a bit helplessly spilt. It was really the outflow of the poor woman"s honest response, into which she seemed to melt, and Julia scarce distinguished the two apart even for her taking gracious leave of each. "Good-bye, Mrs. Drack; I"m awfully happy to have met you"--like as not it was for this she had grasped Mr. Pitman"s hand. And then to him or to her, it didn"t matter which, "Good-bye, dear good Mr.
Pitman--hasn"t it been nice after so long?"
II
Julia floated even to her own sense swan-like away--she left in her wake their fairly stupefied submission: it was as if she had, by an exquisite authority, now _placed_ them, each for each, and they would have nothing to do but be happy together. Never had she so exulted as on this ridiculous occasion in the noted items of her beauty. _Le compte y etait_, as they used to say in Paris--every one of them, for her immediate employment, was there; and there was something in it after all. It didn"t necessarily, this sum of thumping little figures, imply charm--especially for "refined" people: n.o.body knew better than Julia that inexpressible charm and quotable "charms" (quotable like prices, rates, shares, or whatever, the things they dealt in down-town) are two distinct categories; the safest thing for the latter being, on the whole, that it might include the former, and the great strength of the former being that it might perfectly dispense with the latter. Mrs. Drack was not refined, not the least little bit; but what would be the case with Murray Brush now--after his three years of Europe? He had done so what he liked with her--which had seemed so then just the meaning, hadn"t it? of their being "engaged"--that he had made her not see, while the absurdity lasted (the absurdity of their pretending to believe they could marry without a cent), how little he was of metal without alloy: this had come up for her, remarkably, but afterward--come up for her as she looked back. Then she had drawn her conclusion, which was one of the many that Basil French had made her draw. It was a queer service Basil was going to have rendered her, this having made everything she had ever done impossible, if he wasn"t going to give her a new chance. If he was it was doubtless right enough. On the other hand, Murray might have improved, if such a quant.i.ty of alloy, as she called it, _were_, in any man, reducible, and if Paris were the place all happily to reduce it. She had her doubts--anxious and aching on the spot, and had expressed them to Mr. Pitman: certainly, of old, he had been more open to the quotable than to the inexpressible, to charms than to charm. If she could try the quotable, however, and with such a grand result, on Mrs. Drack, she couldn"t now on Murray--in respect to whom everything had changed. So that if he hadn"t a sense for the subtler appeal, the appeal appreciable by people _not_ vulgar, on which alone she could depend, what on earth would become of her? She could but yearningly hope, at any rate, as she made up her mind to write to him immediately at his club. It was a question of the right sensibility in him.
Perhaps he would have acquired it in Europe.
Two days later indeed--for he had promptly and charmingly replied, keeping with alacrity the appointment she had judged best to propose for a morning hour in a sequestered alley of the Park--two days later she was to be struck well-nigh to alarm by everything he had acquired: so much it seemed to make that it threatened somehow a complication, and her plan, so far as she had arrived at one, dwelt in the desire above all to simplify. She wanted no grain more of extravagance or excess of anything--risking as she had done, none the less, a recall of ancient license in proposing to Murray such a place of meeting. She had her reasons--she wished intensely to discriminate: Basil French had several times waited on her at her mother"s habitation, their horrible flat which was so much too far up and too near the East Side; he had dined there and lunched there and gone with her thence to other places, notably to see pictures, and had in particular adjourned with her twice to the Metropolitan Museum, in which he took a great interest, in which she professed a delight, and their second visit to which had wound up in her encounter with Mr. Pitman, after her companion had yielded, at her urgent instance, to an exceptional need of keeping a business engagement. She mightn"t, in delicacy, in decency, entertain Murray Brush where she had entertained Mr.
French--she was given over now to these exquisite perceptions and proprieties and bent on devoutly observing them; and Mr. French, by good-luck, had never been with her in the Park: partly because he had never pressed it, and partly because she would have held off if he had, so haunted were those devious paths and favoring shades by the general echo of her untrammelled past. If he had never suggested their taking a turn there this was because, quite divinably, he held it would commit him further than he had yet gone; and if she on her side had practised a like reserve it was because the place reeked for her, as she inwardly said, with old a.s.sociations. It reeked with nothing so much perhaps as with the memories evoked by the young man who now awaited her in the nook she had been so competent to indicate; but in what corner of the town, should she look for them, wouldn"t those footsteps creak back into m.u.f.fled life, and to what expedient would she be reduced should she attempt to avoid all such tracks? The Museum was full of tracks, tracks by the hundred--the way really she had knocked about!--but she had to see people somewhere, and she couldn"t pretend to dodge every ghost.
All she could do was not to make confusion, make mixtures, of the living; though she asked herself enough what mixture she mightn"t find herself to have prepared if Mr. French should, not so very impossibly, for a restless, roaming man--_her_ effect on him!--happen to pa.s.s while she sat there with the mustachioed personage round whose name Mrs. Maule would probably have caused detrimental anecdote most thickly to cl.u.s.ter. There existed, she was sure, a ma.s.s of luxuriant legend about the "lengths" her engagement with Murray Brush had gone; she could herself fairly feel them in the air, these streamers of evil, black flags flown as in warning, the vast redundancy of so cheap and so dingy social bunting, in fine, that flapped over the stations she had successively moved away from and which were empty now, for such an ado, even to grotesqueness. The vivacity of that conviction was what had at present determined her, while it was the way he listened after she had quickly broken ground, while it was the special character of the interested look in his handsome face, handsomer than ever yet, that represented for her the civilization he had somehow taken on. Just so it was the quant.i.ty of that gain, in its turn, that had at the end of ten minutes begun to affect her as holding up a light to the wide reach of her step. "There was never anything the least serious between us, not a sign or a sc.r.a.p, do you mind? of anything beyond the merest pleasant friendly acquaintance; and if you"re not ready to go to the stake on it for me you may as well know in time what it is you"ll probably cost me."
She had immediately plunged, measuring her effect and having thought it well over; and what corresponded to her question of his having become a better person to appeal to was the appearance of interest she had so easily created in him. She felt on the spot the difference that made--it was indeed his form of being more civilized: it was the sense in which Europe in general and Paris in particular had made him develop. By every calculation--and her calculations, based on the intimacy of her knowledge, had been many and deep--he would help her the better the more intelligent he should have become; yet she was to recognize later on that the first chill of foreseen disaster had been caught by her as, at a given moment, this greater refinement of his attention seemed to exhale it. It was just what she had wanted--"if I can only get him interested--!" so that, this proving quite vividly possible, why did the light it lifted strike her as lurid? Was it partly by reason of his inordinate romantic good looks, those of a gallant, genial conqueror, but which, involving so glossy a brownness of eye, so manly a crispness of curl, so red-lipped a radiance of smile, so natural a bravery of port, prescribed to any response he might facially, might expressively, make a sort of florid, disproportionate amplitude? The explanation, in any case, didn"t matter; he was going to mean well--that she could feel, and also that he had meant better in the past, presumably, than he had managed to convince her of his doing at the time: the oddity she hadn"t now reckoned with was this fact that from the moment he did advertise an interest it should show almost as what she would have called weird. It made a change in him that didn"t go with the rest--as if he had broken his nose or put on spectacles, lost his handsome hair or sacrificed his splendid mustache: her conception, her necessity, as she saw, had been that something should be added to him for her use, but nothing for his own alteration.
He had affirmed himself, and his character, and his temper, and his health, and his appet.i.te, and his ignorance, and his obstinacy, and his whole charming, coa.r.s.e, heartless personality, during their engagement, by twenty forms of natural emphasis, but never by emphasis of interest. How in fact could you feel interest unless you should know, within you, some dim stir of imagination? There was nothing in the world of which Murray Brush was less capable than of such a dim stir, because you only began to imagine when you felt some approach to a need to understand. _He_ had never felt it; for hadn"t he been born, to his personal vision, with that perfect intuition of everything which reduces all the suggested preliminaries of judgment to the impertinence--when it"s a question of your entering your house--of a dumpage of bricks at your door? He had had, in short, neither to imagine nor to perceive, because he had, from the first pulse of his intelligence, simply and supremely known: so that, at this hour, face to face with him, it came over her that she had, in their old relation, dispensed with any such convenience of comprehension on his part even to a degree she had not measured at the time. What therefore must he not have seemed to her as a form of life, a form of avidity and activity, blatantly successful in its own conceit, that he could have dazzled her so against the interest of her very faculties and functions? Strangely and richly historic all that backward mystery, and only leaving for her mind the wonder of such a mixture of possession and detachment as they would clearly to-day both know.
For each to be so little at last to the other when, during months together, the idea of all abundance, all quant.i.ty, had been, for each, drawn from the other and addressed to the other--what was it monstrously like but some fantastic act of getting rid of a person by going to lock yourself up in the _sanctum sanctorum_ of that person"s house, amid every evidence of that person"s habits and nature? What was going to happen, at any rate, was that Murray would show himself as beautifully and consciously understanding--and it would be prodigious that Europe should have inoculated him with that delicacy.
Yes, he wouldn"t claim to know now till she had told him--an aid to performance he had surely never before waited for, or been indebted to, from any one; and then, so knowing, he would charmingly endeavor to "meet," to oblige and to gratify. He would find it, her case, ever so worthy of his benevolence, and would be literally inspired to reflect that he must hear about it first.
She let him hear then everything, in spite of feeling herself slip, while she did so, to some doom as yet incalculable; she went on very much as she had done for Mr. Pitman and Mrs. Drack, with the rage of desperation and, as she was afterward to call it to herself, the fascination of the abyss. She didn"t know, couldn"t have said at the time, _why_ his projected benevolence should have had most so the virtue to scare her: he would patronize her, as an effect of her vividness, if not of her charm, and would do this with all high intention, finding her case, or rather _their_ case, their funny old case, taking on of a sudden such refreshing and edifying life, to the last degree curious and even important; but there were gaps of connection between this and the intensity of the perception here overtaking her that she shouldn"t be able to move in _any_ direction without dishing herself. That she couldn"t afford it where she had got to--couldn"t afford the deplorable vulgarity of having been so many times informally affianced and contracted (putting it only at that, at its being by the new lights and fashions so unpardonably vulgar): he took this from her without turning, as she might have said, a hair; except just to indicate, with his new superiority, that he felt the distinguished appeal and notably the pathos of it. He still took it from her that she hoped nothing, as it were, from any other _alibi_--the people to drag into court being too many and too scattered; but that, as it was with him, Murray Brush, she had been _most_ vulgar, most everything she had better not have been, so she depended on him for the innocence it was actually vital she should establish. He flushed or frowned or winced no more at that than he did when she once more fairly emptied her satchel and, quite as if they had been Nancy and the Artful Dodger, or some nefarious pair of that sort, talking things over in the manner of _Oliver Twist_, revealed to him the fondness of her view that, could she but have produced a cleaner slate, she might by this time have pulled it off with Mr.
French. Yes, he let her in that way sacrifice her honorable connection with him--all the more honorable for being so completely at an end--to the crudity of her plan for not missing another connection, so much more brilliant than what he offered, and for bringing another man, with whom she so invidiously and unflatteringly compared him, into her greedy life.
There was only a moment during which, by a particular l.u.s.trous look she had never had from him before, he just made her wonder which turn he was going to take; she felt, however, as safe as was consistent with her sense of having probably but added to her danger, when he brought out, the next instant: "Don"t you seem to take the ground that we were guilty--that _you_ were ever guilty--of something we shouldn"t have been? What did we ever do that was secret, or underhand, or any way not to be acknowledged? What did we do but exchange our young vows with the best faith in the world--publicly, rejoicingly, with the full a.s.sent of every one connected with us? I mean of course," he said with his grave kind smile, "till we broke off so completely because we found that--practically, financially, on the hard worldly basis--we couldn"t work it. What harm, in the sight of G.o.d or man, Julia," he asked in his fine rich way, "did we ever do?"
She gave him back his look, turning pale. "Am I talking of _that_? Am I talking of what _we_ know? I"m talking of what others feel--of what they _have_ to feel; of what it"s just enough for them to know not to be able to get over it, once they do really know it. How do they know what _didn"t_ pa.s.s between us, with all the opportunities we had?
That"s none of their business--if we were idiots enough, on the top of everything! What you may or mayn"t have done doesn"t count, for _you_; but there are people for whom it"s loathsome that a girl should have gone on like that from one person to another and still pretend to be--well, all that a nice girl is supposed to be. It"s as if we had but just waked up, mother and I, to such a remarkable prejudice; and now we have it--when we could do so well without it!--staring us in the face. That mother should have insanely _let_ me, should so vulgarly have taken it for my natural, my social career--_that"s_ the disgusting, humiliating thing: with the lovely account it gives of both of us! But mother"s view of a delicacy in things!" she went on with scathing grimness; "mother"s measure of anything, with her grand "gained cases" (there"ll be another yet, she finds them so easy!) of which she"s so publicly proud! You see I"ve no margin," said Julia; letting him take it from her flushed face as much as he would that her mother hadn"t left her an inch. It was that he should make use of the spade with her for the restoration of a bit of a margin just wide enough to perch on till the tide of peril should have ebbed a little, it was that he should give her _that_ lift--!
Well, it was all there from him after these last words; it was before her that he really took hold. "Oh, my dear child, I can see! Of course there are people--ideas change in our society so fast!--who are not in sympathy with the old American freedom and who read, I dare say, all sorts of uncanny things into it. Naturally you must take them as they are--from the moment," said Murray Brush, who had lighted, by her leave, a cigarette, "your life-path does, for weal or for woe, cross with theirs." He had every now and then such an elegant phrase.
"Awfully interesting, certainly, your case. It"s enough for me that it _is_ yours--I make it my own. I put myself absolutely in your place; you"ll understand from me, without professions, won"t you? that I do.
Command me in every way! What I do like is the sympathy with which you"ve inspired _him_. I don"t, I"m sorry to say, happen to know him personally,"--he smoked away, looking off; "but of course one knows all about him generally, and I"m sure he"s right for you, I"m sure it would be charming, if you yourself think so. Therefore trust me and even--what shall I say?--leave it to me a little, won"t you?" He had been watching, as in his fumes, the fine growth of his possibilities; and with this he turned on her the large warmth of his charity. It was like a subscription of a half-a-million. "I"ll take care of you."
She found herself for a moment looking up at him from as far below as the point from which the school-child, with round eyes raised to the wall, gazes at the parti-colored map of the world. Yes, it was a warmth, it was a special benignity, that had never yet dropped on her from any one; and she wouldn"t for the first few moments have known how to describe it or even quite what to do with it. Then, as it still rested, his fine improved expression aiding, the sense of what had happened came over her with a rush. She was being, yes, patronized; and that was really as new to her--the freeborn American girl who might, if she had wished, have got engaged and disengaged not six times but sixty--as it would have been to be crowned or crucified. The Frenches themselves didn"t do it--the Frenches themselves didn"t dare it. It was as strange as one would: she recognized it when it came, but anything might have come rather--and it was coming by (of all people in the world) Murray Brush! It overwhelmed her; still she could speak, with however faint a quaver and however sick a smile. "You"ll lie for me like a gentleman?"
"As far as that goes till I"m black in the face!" And then while he glowed at her and she wondered if he would pointedly look his lies that way, and if, in fine, his florid, gallant, knowing, almost winking intelligence, _common_ as she had never seen the common vivified, would represent his notion of "blackness": "See here, Julia; I"ll do more."
""More"--?"
"Everything. I"ll take it right in hand. I"ll fling over you--"
"Fling over me--?" she continued to echo as he fascinatingly fixed her.