It seemed incredible that such an experience could trigger so strong a reaction. Yet Fenwick was aware that Baker"s att.i.tude toward Ellerbee and his device was not merely one aspect of Baker"s character. His att.i.tude in these things _was_ his character.
Fenwick dared not challenge Baker with these thoughts. He knew it would be like probing Baker"s flesh with a hot wire. There was nothing at all that he could do to stop Baker"s flight.
Ellerbee insisted on loaning him a powerful flashlight and a hand lantern, which Baker ridiculed but accepted. It was only after Baker"s tail-light had disappeared in the thick mist that Fenwick remembered he still had the crystal cube in his coat pocket.
"He"s bound to get stuck and spend the night on the road," said Ellerbee. "He"ll be so upset he"ll never come back to finish his investigation."
Fenwick suspected this was true. Baker would seal off every a.s.sociation and reminder of the communicator crystals as if they were some infection that would not heal. "There"s no use beating your brains out trying to get the NBSD to pay attention," Fenwick told Ellerbee. "You"ve got a patent. Figure out some gadgety use and start selling the things. You"ll get all the attention you want."
"I wanted to do it in a dignified way," said Ellerbee regretfully.
_You, too_, Fenwick thought as he moved back up the stairs to the spare bedroom.
Fenwick undressed and got into bed. He tried to read a book he had borrowed from Ellerbee, but it held no interest for him. He kept thinking about Baker. What produced a man like Baker? What made him tick, anyway?
Fenwick had practically abandoned his earlier determination that something had to be done about Baker. There was really nothing that could be done about Baker, Bill Baker in particular--and the host of a.s.sorted Bakers scattered throughout the world in positions of power and importance, in general.
They stretched on and on, back through the pages of history and time.
Jim Ellerbee understood the breed. He had quite rightly tagged Baker in addressing him as "Dear Urban." Pope Urban, who persecuted the great Galileo, had certainly been one of them.
It wasn"t that Baker was ignorant or stupid. He was neither. Fenwick gave reluctant respect to his intelligence and his education. Baker was quick-witted. His head was stuffed full of accurate scientific information from diversified fields.
But he refused to be jarred loose from his fixed position that scientific breakthroughs could come from any source but the Established Authority. The possibility that the crackpot fringe could produce such a break-through panicked him. It _had_ panicked him. He was fleeing dangerously now through the night, driven by a fear he did not know was in him.
Inflexibility. This seemed to be the characteristic that marked Baker and his kind. Defender of the Fixed Position might well have been his t.i.tle. With all his might and power, Bill Baker defended the Fixed Position he had chosen, the Fixed Position behind the wall of Established Authority.
A blind spot, perhaps? But it seemed more than mere blindness that kept Baker so hotly defending his Fixed Position. It seemed as if, somehow, he was aware of its vulnerability and was determined to fight off any and all attacks, regardless of consequences.
Fenwick didn"t know. He felt as if it was less than hopeless, however, to attempt to change Bill Baker. Any change would have to be brought about by Baker himself. And that, at the moment, seemed far less likely than the well-known s...o...b..ll in Hades.
Fenwick knew he must have dozed off to sleep with the light still on in the room and Ellerbee"s unread book opened over his chest. He did not know what time it was when he awoke. He was aware only of a suffocating sensation as if some ghostly aura were within the room, filling it, pressing down upon him. A wailing of agony and despair seemed to scratch at his senses although he was certain there was no audible sound. And a depression clutched at his soul as if death itself had suddenly walked unseen through the closed door.
Fenwick sat up, shivering in the sudden coolness of the room, but clammy with sweat over his whole body. He had never experienced such sensations before in his life. His stomach turned to a hard ball under the flow of panic that surged through all his nerves.
He forced himself to sit quietly for a moment, trying to release his fear-tightened muscles. He relaxed the panic in his stomach and looked slowly about the room. He could recall no stimulus in his sleep that had produced such a reaction. He hadn"t even been dreaming, as far as he could tell. There was no recollection of any sound or movement within the house or outside.
He was calmer after a moment, but that sensation of death close at hand would not go away. He would have been unable to describe it if asked, but it was there. It filled the atmosphere of the room. It seemed to emanate from--
Fenwick turned his head about. It was almost as if there was some definite source from which the ghastly sensation was pouring over him.
The walls--the air of the room--
His eyes caught the crystal on the table by the bed.
He could feel the force of death pouring from it.
His first impulse was to pick up the thing and hurl it as far as he could. Then in saner desperation he leaped from the bed and threw on his clothes. He grabbed the crystal in his hand and ran out through the door and down the stairs.
Jim Ellerbee was already there in the living room. He was seated by the old-fashioned library table, his hand outstretched upon it. In his hand lay the counterpart of the crystal Fenwick carried.
"Ellerbee!" Fenwick cried. "What"s going on? What in Heaven"s name is coming out of these things?"
"Baker," said Ellerbee. "He smashed up on the road somewhere. He"s out there dying."
"Can you be sure? Then don"t sit there, man! Let"s get on our way!"
Ellerbee shook his head. "He"ll be dead before we can get there."
"How do you know he cracked up, anyway? Can you read that out of the crystal?"
Ellerbee nodded. "He kept it in his pocket. It"s close enough to him to transmit the frantic messages of his dying mind."
"Then we"ve got to go! No matter if we get there in time or not."
Ellerbee shook his head again. "Sam is on his way over here. He"s in touch with Baker. He says he thinks he can talk Baker back."
"_Talk_ him back? What do you mean by that?"
Ellerbee hesitated. "I"m not sure. In some ways Sam understands a lot more about these things than I do. He can do things with the crystals that I don"t understand. If he says he can talk Dr. Baker back, I think maybe he can."
"But we can"t depend on that!" Fenwick said frantically. "Can"t we get on our way in the car and let Sam do what he thinks he can while we drive? Maybe he can get Baker to hold on until we get him to a doctor."
"You don"t understand," said Ellerbee. "Dr. Baker has gone over the edge. He"s _dying_. I know what it"s like. I looked into a dying mind once before. There is nothing whatever that a doctor can do after an organism starts dying. It"s a definite process. Once started, it"s irreversible."
"Then what does Sam--?"
"Sam thinks he knows how to reverse it."
There wasn"t much pain. Not as much as he would have supposed. He felt sure there was terrible damage inside. He could feel the warmth of blood welling up inside his throat. But the pain was not there. That was good.
In place of pain, there was a kind of infinite satisfaction and a growing peace. The ultimate magnitude of this peace, which he could sense, was so great that it loomed like some blinding glory.
This was death. The commitment and the decision had been made. But this was better than any alternative. He could not see how there could have been any question about it.
He was lying on his back in the wet clay of a bank below the road. It was raining, softly now, and he rather liked the gentle drop of it on his face. Somewhere below him the hulk of his wrecked car lay on its side. He could smell the unpleasant odor of gasoline. But all of this was less than nothing in importance to him now. Somewhere in the back of his mind was a remnant of memory of what he had been doing this day. He remembered the name of John Fenwick, and the memory brought a faint amus.e.m.e.nt to his b.l.o.o.d.y lips. There had been some differences between him and John Fenwick. Those differences were also less than nothing, now. All differences were wiped out. He gave himself up to the pleasure of being borne along on that great current that seemed to be carrying him swiftly to a quiet place.
After a time, he remembered two other names, also. James Ellerbee and Sam Atkins. He remembered a crystal, and it meant nothing. He remembered that it was in his pocket and that for some time he had felt a warmth from it, that was both pleasant and unpleasant. It was of no importance.
He might have reached for it and thrown it farther from him, but his arm on that side was broken.
He was glad that there was nothing--nothing whatever--that had any magnitude of importance. Even his family--they were like fragments of a long-ago dream.
He lay waiting quietly and patiently for the swiftly approaching destination of ultimate peace. He did not know how long it would take, but he knew it could not be long, and even the journey was sweet.
It was while he waited, letting his mind drift, that he became aware of the intruder. In that moment, the pain boiled up in shrieking agony.
He had thought himself alone. He wanted above all else to be alone. But there was someone with him. He wasn"t sure how he knew. He could simply _feel_ the unwanted presence. He strained to see in the wet darkness. He listened for muted sounds. There was nothing. Only the presence.