"But so often against the results of it?" I suggested. "And one reason among others for that is because the result of individual thought is often a decision to suspend generally accepted views in one"s own case--which you fellows don"t like. I don"t mind going so far as to say that I think Miss Driver would be capable of suspending a generally accepted view in her own case--but she wouldn"t do it without thought or indifferently. She would do it as a well-considered exercise of power.
Some people like power--I don"t know whether a priest can understand that?"
We had come to the "Church House" where he dwelt in barracks with his curates. His eyes twinkled. "I know what you mean--and you can chaff as much as you like--but I shall have a go at Miss Driver."
After a conversation a man of candid mind will often--and, if the discussion has partaken in any degree of an argumentative character, I would say generally--he left reflecting whether what he has said was even as true as he meant to make it. As I had hinted, I talked to Alison about Jenny with reserves, but even within their limits I doubted whether I had given him the impression I had meant to convey. Perhaps he understood, though he could never acknowledge as legitimate, my view that she would feel ent.i.tled to treat herself as a special case. He might even act on this view--always without acknowledging it; surely Churches have been known to do that? He might approach her on that footing--with the hope of changing it. I had meant to point out an impossibility; I fancied I had indicated a task and communicated a stimulus. Had I cast aside the reserves, I should have told him plainly that in my judgment the emotional basis for his appeal was lacking in her. Emotions existed, but not in that direction; that was more what I had wanted to say, but, not feeling at liberty to adduce evidence, I had lost myself in generalities. My poor modic.u.m of truth stopped at the dictum that to Jenny Jenny would seem an exceptional person; I had at least come near to putting it in the hazardous and unorthodox form that everybody might have a right, on sufficient occasion, so to treat himself. And he himself judge of the sufficiency of the occasion? That amounts to anarchy--as Alison, of course, perceived, and, had we pursued the argument, I must have found myself in a very tight place.
I was shaking my head over my own controversial incompetence--with, perhaps, a furtive saving plea that it was very hard to tell all one"s thoughts to an ecclesiastic--when I was suddenly brought back to more tangible matters; perhaps also to my modic.u.m of truth--that Jenny would seem to Jenny an exceptional person. In short, on turning the next corner, I all but ran into Mr. Nelson Powers.
He looked as greasily insinuating as ever. He also appeared to be more prosperous than when I had last seen him. He looked, so to say, established--as if he had a right to be where he was, not so much as if he were "trying it on"--with eyes open for kicks or the police. He was strolling about the streets of Catsford quite with the air of belonging to it.
He did not recognize me, or would not. He was almost by me when I stopped him.
"Mr. Powers? Surely it is? What brings you to Catsford?"
"Mr. Austin? Yes! Well, now, how do you do, sir? I"m glad to meet you again. I was unlucky in missing that dinner--well, never mind! But you"ve heard? Miss Driver has mentioned my appointment?"
"I"ve heard nothing of any appointment."
"Ah, perhaps I"m premature in mentioning it. I"ll say good afternoon, Mr. Austin."
I seemed to have nothing to say to him. I was rather bewildered; I thought that we had really seen the end of Powers.
He stretched out his hand, and took hold of mine, depriving me of all initiative in the matter.
"Miss Driver will speak in her own time, sir. I--I should only like to say, sir, that I--I recognize the change in Miss Driver"s position. One learns wisdom, Mr. Austin. Good afternoon, sir." He pressed my hand--he was wearing gloves and I was not sorry for it--and was round the corner while I was still gaping.
I walked up to the Priory, immersed in a rather scandalized, rather amused, would-be psychological line of reflection. "She can"t help it!"
I said to myself. "She can"t let anyone go! Not even Powers! At the first chance (I did not yet guess what the chance was) she calls him to heel again. Even the meanest hound must keep with the pack. It"s very curious, but that"s it!"
In fact that was only part of it--and not the most significant for present purposes.
Jenny had gone from the Committee to call on Mrs. Jepps, a person of much consideration in Catsford, wife of its first Mayor (now deceased), owner of an important business house in the drapery line, _vir_ (save that she was a woman) _pietate gravis_, and eminently meet to be enrolled among the active adherents of the Inst.i.tute.
"And I"ve got her!" said Jenny complacently, as she gave me my tea.
"Mr. Alison wants to get you--I"ve been talking to him."
"Oh, well, I like Mr. Alison."
"He wants to get you. Don"t misunderstand. He doesn"t want you to get him, you know."
"Friendship is surely mutual?" suggested Jenny, with a lurking smile.
I mentioned the matter of the subscription: Jenny was satisfactorily liberal.
"Not that you"ll be quit of him with that," I warned her.
"I"m not afraid. Going? Will you come back to dinner?"
I stood for a moment looking at her. We might just as well have it out now.
"You remember your promise? I"m not to be called upon to meet Mr.
Powers? I happened to meet him in the town this afternoon."
Jenny began to laugh--without the smallest sign of embarra.s.sment. "I was going to break it to you over your gla.s.s of port. That"s why I asked you to dinner. Now don"t look grave and silly. Can"t you really see any difference between me as I am and the girl who came here a year ago?
Well, then, you"re stupider than poor Powers himself! He sees it clearly enough and accepts the position--he won"t expect to come to dinner.
Besides he"s very sorry for what happened. Besides why shouldn"t I give a chance to an old acquaintance rather than to a stranger? Besides--how I"m piling up "besides" just to keep you quiet!--Mrs. Powers has come, too, and all the children--three now instead of one! So really it must be all right."
"But what are you going to do with him?"
"Why, he"s a first-cla.s.s draughtsman--trained in a very good architect"s office. Mr. Bindlecombe has seen specimens of his work and says it"s excellent. I should think that Mr. Bindlecombe knew!" (Meaning thereby, as the lawyers say, that I did not!)
"Well?"
"Can"t you really guess? He"s to be the Inst.i.tute clerk. He"ll draw plans and so on for us--and she"ll keep the house, and have it all ready for our Committees."
"He"s to live at Ivydene?"
"Have you any objection?"
Up to now Jenny"s tone had been evenly compounded of merriment--over my absurdities--and plausibility for her own admirable management. Now a slightly different note crept in. "Have you any objection?" was not said in a very conciliatory manner.
"I might have antic.i.p.ated," she went on--"in fact I do antic.i.p.ate--these stupid objections from Mr. Cartmell--and I"m prepared to meet them. But from you I looked for more perception. The man is a clever man; he"s out of employment. Why shouldn"t I employ him? Is it to be fatal to him that he was once unwise--worse than unwise? Against that, put that he"s an old friend, and that even I have my human feelings. I was a fool, but I was fond of him once."
"It"s for you to judge," I said.
"Can"t you see--can"t you understand?" she exclaimed. "Powers is nothing--it"s all over, gone, done with!" She clasped her hands excitedly. "Oh, when I"ve so much on my shoulders, why do you worry me with trifles?"
"If you"ve so much on your shoulders, why add even trifles?"
"I add nothing," she said. "On the contrary I--" She broke off suddenly, and added quickly, "It"s done--I"m pledged to him. Oh, don"t bother me about Powers!" She calmed down again. She returned to plausibility. She went on with a smile, "You"ve found me out in one way, of course. I do want my own man there. I want my own way in everything, so I want a man who"ll back me up--a man who"ll always be on my side, who won"t suddenly go over to Lord Fillingford, or the Rector--or even Lady Sarah! Poor Powers will have to agree with me always--he"ll have to be a blind adherent. He can"t afford to differ."
"That"s frank, at all events," I commented.
Jenny"s face lit up. "Yes, it is," she said, with much better temper.
"Quite frank--the whole truth about Jenny Driver! He"ll be what I want--and do you seriously mean to say that you think there"s any danger? n.o.body here knows anything about him, except you and Mr.
Cartmell. Are you traitors? Will Powers speak--and lose his livelihood?
It"s absurd to talk of danger from Powers."
I had come to agree with her that it was. So far as I could judge, there was no longer any appreciable danger from the man--neither from his presence in Catsford nor from Jenny"s meetings with him. He could not afford to threaten; she had grown far out of any peril of being cajoled.
But if not dangerous, neither was the arrangement attractive to one"s taste. It was difficult to suppose that Jenny herself liked it, unless indeed my highly philosophical speculations covered the whole ground.
Did they? Must she really recall Powers? Couldn"t she help it? Was a present and immediate domination over even such as Powers essential to her content?
I could not believe it and accused my own speculations, if not of entire error (they had an element of truth), yet of inadequacy. In fact a doubt had begun to creep into my mind. Never in my life had I heard so many sound reasons for doing a thing that was obviously quite uncalled for--unless there was one other reason still--a reason not plausible, nor producible, but compelling. Yet what? For I was convinced that the man had no hold, that she was not in the least afraid of Powers.
"I hate your standing opposite me and thinking about me," remarked Jenny suddenly. "I"m sure it"s not comfortable, and I don"t think it"s polite.
Besides, after all, it"s possible that you might find out something!"