"Good night," he murmured.
Mary Ann made some startled, gurgling sound in reply.
Five minutes afterwards Lancelot was in bed, denouncing himself as a vulgar beast.
"I must have drunk too much whisky," he said to himself, angrily. "Good heavens! Fancy sinking to Mary Ann. If Peter had only seen--There was infinitely more poetry in that red-cheeked _Madchen_, and yet I never--It is true-there is something sordid about the atmosphere that subtly permeates you, that drags you down to it. Mary Ann! A transpontine drudge! whose lips are fresh from the coalman"s and the butcher"s.
Phaugh!"
The fancy seized hold of his imagination. He could not shake it off, he could not sleep till he had got out of bed and sponged his lips vigorously.
Meanwhile Mary Ann was lying on her bed, dressed, doing her best to keep her meaningless, half-hysterical sobs from her mistress"s keen ear.
II
It was a long time before Mary Ann came so prominently into the centre of Lancelot"s consciousness again. She remained somewhere in the outer periphery of his thought--nowhere near the bull"s-eye, so to speak--as a vague automaton that worked when he pulled a bell-rope. Infinitely more important things were troubling him; the visit of Peter had somehow put a keener edge on his blunted self-confidence; he had started a grand opera, and worked at it furiously in all the intervals left him by his engrossing pursuit after a publisher. Sometimes he would look up from his hieroglyphics and see Mary Ann at his side surveying him curiously, and then he would start, and remember he had rung her up, and try to remember what for. And Mary Ann would turn red, as if the fault was hers.
But the publisher was the one thing that was never out of Lancelot"s mind, though he drove Lancelot himself nearly out of it. He was like an arrow stuck in the aforesaid bull"s-eye, and, the target being conscious, he rankled sorely. Lancelot discovered that the publisher kept a "musical adviser," whose advice appeared to consist of the famous monosyllable, "Don"t." The publisher generally published all the musical adviser"s own works, his advice having apparently been neglected when it was most worth taking; at least so Lancelot thought, when he had skimmed through a set of Lancers by one of these worthies.
"I shall give up being a musician," he said to himself, grimly. "I shall become a musical adviser."
Once, half by accident, he actually saw a publisher. "My dear sir," said the great man, "what is the use of bringing quartets and full scores to me? You should have taken them to Brahmson; he"s the very man you want.
You know his address, of course--just down the street."
Lancelot did not like to say that it was Brahmson"s clerks that had recommended him here; so he replied, "But you publish operas, oratorios, cantatas!"
"Ah, yes!--h"m--things that have been played at the big Festivals--composers of prestige--quite a different thing, sir, quite a different thing. There"s no sale for these things--none at all, sir--public never heard of you. Now, if you were to write some songs--nice catchy tunes--high cla.s.s, you know, with pretty words--"
Now Lancelot by this time was aware of the publisher"s wily ways; he could almost have constructed an Ollendorffian dialogue, ent.i.tled "Between a Music Publisher and a Composer." So he opened his portfolio again and said, "I have brought some."
"Well, send--send them in," stammered the publisher, almost disconcerted.
"They shall have our best consideration."
"Oh, but you might just as well look over them at once," said Lancelot, firmly, uncoiling them. "It won"t take you five minutes--just let me play one to you. The tunes are rather more original than the average, I can promise you; and yet I think they have a lilt that--"
"I really can"t spare the time now. If you leave them, we will do our best."
"Listen to this bit!" said Lancelot, desperately. And dashing at a piano that stood handy, he played a couple of bars. "That"s quite a new modulation."
"That"s all very well," said the publisher; "but how do you suppose I"m going to sell a thing with an accompaniment like that? Look here, and here! Why, it"s all accidentals."
"That"s the best part of the song," explained Lancelot; "a sort of undercurrent of emotion that brings out the full pathos of the words.
Note the elegant and novel harmonies." He played another bar or two, singing the words softly.
"Yes; but if you think you"ll get young ladies to play that, you"ve got a good deal to learn," said the publisher, gruffly. "This is the sort of accompaniment that goes down," and seating himself at the piano for a moment (somewhat to Lancelot"s astonishment, for he had gradually formed a theory that music publishers did not really know the staff from a five-barred gate), he rattled off the melody with his right hand, pounding away monotonously with his left at a few elementary chords.
Lancelot looked dismayed.
"That"s the kind of thing you"ll have to produce, young man," said the publisher, feeling that he had at last resumed his natural supremacy, "if you want to get your songs published. Elegant harmonies are all very well, but who"s to play them?"
"And do you mean to say that a musician in this G.o.d-forsaken country must have no chords but tonics and dominants?" e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed Lancelot, hotly.
"The less he has of any other the better," said the great man, drily. "I haven"t said a word about the melody itself, which is quite out of the ordinary compa.s.s, and makes demands upon the singer"s vocalisation which are not likely to make a demand for the song. What you have to remember, my dear sir, if you wish to achieve success, is that music, if it is to sell, must appeal to the average amateur young person. The average amateur young person is the main prop of music in this country."
Lancelot s.n.a.t.c.hed up his song and tied the strings of his portfolio very tightly, as if he were clenching his lips.
"If I stay here any longer I shall swear," he said. "Good afternoon."
He went out with a fire at his heart that made him insensitive to the frost without. He walked a mile out of his way mechanically, then, perceiving his stupidity, avenged it by jumping into a hansom. He dared not think how low his funds were running. When he got home he forgot to have his tea, crouching in dumb misery in his easy chair, while the coals in the grate faded like the sunset from red to grey, and the dusk of twilight deepened into the gloom of night, relieved only by a gleam from the street lamp.
The noise of the door opening made him look up.
"Beg pardon, sir. I didn"t yer ye come in."
It was Mary Ann"s timid accents. Lancelot"s head drooped again on his breast. He did not answer.
"You"ve bin and let your fire go out, sir."
"Don"t bother!" he grumbled. He felt a morbid satisfaction in this aggravation of discomfort, almost symbolic as it was of his sunk fortunes.
"Oh, but it"ll freeze "ard to-night, sir. Let me make it up." Taking his sullen silence for consent she ran downstairs and reappeared with some sticks. Soon there were signs of life, which Mary Ann a.s.siduously encouraged by blowing at the embers with her mouth. Lancelot looked on in dull apathy, but as the fire rekindled and the little flames leapt up and made Mary Ann"s flushed face the one spot of colour and warmth in the cold dark room, Lancelot"s torpidity vanished suddenly. The sensuous fascination seized him afresh, and ere he was aware of it he was lifting the pretty face by the chin.
"I"m so sorry to be so troublesome, Mary Ann. There, you shall give me a kiss to show you bear no malice."
The warm lips obediently met his, and for a moment Lancelot forgot his worries while he held her soft cheek against his.
This time the shock of returning recollection was not so violent as before. He sat up in his chair, but his right arm still twined negligently round her neck, the fingers patting the warm face. "A fellow must have something to divert his mind," he thought, "or he"d go mad. And there"s no harm done--the poor thing takes it as a kindness, I"m sure. I suppose _her_ life"s dull enough. We"re a pair." He felt her shoulders heaving a little, as if she were gulping down something. At last she said: "You ain"t troublesome. I ought to ha" yerd ye come in."
He released her suddenly. Her words broke the spell. The vulgar accent gave him a shudder.
"Don"t you _hear_ a bell ringing?" he said with dual significance.
"Nosir," said Mary Ann, ingenuously. "I"d yer it in a moment if there was. I yer it in my dreams, I"m so used to it. One night I dreamt the missus was boxin" my yers and askin" me if I was deaf and I said to "er--"
"Can"t you say "her"?" cried Lancelot, cutting her short impatiently.
"Her," said Mary Ann.
"Then why do you say ""er"?"
"Missus told me to. She said my own way was all wrong."
"Oh, indeed!" said Lancelot. "It"s missus that has corrupted you, is it?
And pray what used you to say?"