"Why do you do that?"
"Do what?" I ask, confused.
"Cover your mouth every time you smile."
"Oh, I don"t know." I shrug, not quite looking at him. "Nervous habit, I guess."
"You should really knock that off," he says simply. And I"m amused by his choice of words. "Knock that off" doesn"t sound like something Mr. Prim and Proper would say.
"How old were you when you and Gabe met?" he asks, a hint of a smile. "Eighteen years together...you don"t seem old enough."
He"s been doing the math.
"Are you trying to determine my age, Mr. Hanson? You know it"s very rude to ask a woman her age."
He laughs. "I wasn"t asking." I love his laugh. It"s soft, but still infectious.
"We were seventeen. He was the popular basketball player, and I was the new girl...I was terrified."
"And he was your knight and shining armor, I gather."
I smile, remembering those days so long ago. "He sure was."
We stand silent for a while, looking at the pieces displayed on the wall...or maybe pretending to look.
"Thirty-five," he says with a coy smile. "You look younger."
G.o.d, I love this man.
"And how old are you?" I ask, surprised I don"t know, despite all my cyber-stalking.
"Isn"t it rude to ask?" he teases.
"Oh...it"s fine for a woman to ask a man, just not the other way around."
"Seems like a double standard."
We move along the narrow hall, toward the back display.
"You still haven"t answered my question," I point out.
"I was born in nineteen seventy-five."
Great, now he has me doing math in my head. Um...let"s see...it"s 2012...After a long, rather embarra.s.sing moment, I venture a guess. "Thirty-seven?" I ask, not sure I"ve calculated right-I"ve never been great at math.
He gives me one of his trademark make-you-melt smiles. "Not quite...I"m still thirty-six."
d.a.m.n.
We keep moving toward the end of the gallery and find ourselves in a small room-just the two of us.
I press my palm against the support beam, trying to steady myself since I"m suddenly a little light-headed. Looking down at my gla.s.s, I decide to ease up on the wine.
"Have you two ever broken up in all those years?" he asks out of the blue, catching me off guard.
"No," I reply, with a certain sense of pride.
"Was he your first love?" He seems very preoccupied with my relationship with Gabe, but I don"t mind the questions.
"Yes."
We are clearly no longer looking at art.
He walks toward me. "Have you ever been with anyone else?"
His line of questioning has now officially gone too far. "I"m sorry," I blurt out as I try to pull myself away from him. The beam presses against my back. "That"s a very personal question."
He turns from me. "I apologize."
But I don"t want him to turn away. "No. He"s the only one."
He turns back to face me. "Really?"
I resent the implication in his tone. The walls have been torn down, and the small talk is officially over. "I have never cheated on him," I snap. "And I"ve never wanted to."
He closes the distance between us. "You"re telling me you"ve never been attracted to another man."
I can feel the heat from his body, and I can smell him, a delicious clean woodsy scent. And I"m seriously concerned I"m going to faint. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. "I didn"t say that. I"m married, not dead," I say, trying to lighten the mood.
He smiles.
My heart is sprinting, and I find myself staring at him.
And wanting him.
"I just have never felt a connection with another man...before."
"Before?" he asks quietly. He knows too well what I"m trying to say.
I turn my head away. I can"t look at him.
He inches closer. "I want to see you again," he breathes against the sh.e.l.l of my ear.
I can"t do this.
I so desperately want to. But I can"t. I can"t do this to Gabe.
I turn to look at him. His beautiful eyes are fixed on me, threatening to melt my resolve.
Chapter Seven.
Suddenly, it all falls together.
I STEADY MYSELF AGAINST THE BEAM. I feel like I"m about to fall. This moment...this moment is key. I can"t f.u.c.k up my life. I can"t let him get to me.
"I"m s-sorry, Weston," my voice cracks as my gaze settles on the vibrant art on the wall. "I won"t cheat on Gabe, not under any circ.u.mstances." I"m trying to sound strong and business-like, but in reality, I"m so weak, I could break apart any second.
"Mirella, that"s not what I"m asking," he says, his voice soft. "I"m very well aware you will not cheat on your husband."
I will myself to look at him. "Then...what...are you...asking?" My words are staggered, lost between labored breaths.
His eyes on my mouth unsettle me. I wonder if he sees my lips trembling. My whole body is shaking.
After a long pause, he speaks again with great effort, his words measured. "I want to meet with you and discuss something," he says, but does not elaborate.
"Discuss what?" I scoff, even more confused. "Let"s discuss it right now." Maybe he can read minds, but I certainly can"t.
"This is neither the time nor the place," he says, his eyes darting from me to the couple beside us, "the atmosphere is already too charged."
What in the heavens is this beautiful man speaking of? I"m dying of curiosity. "What is it about?" I ask, desperately wanting an answer.
"We"ll discuss it at a more convenient time just the two of us."
This sounds like a very bad plan to me. I bite my lip, mulling it over for a second or two. My stomach feels like lead...if he could only tell me. "Are you planning to get into my skirt under the pretense of this oh-so-mysterious "meeting"?" I ask, my voice still unsteady. My crack at humor is a poor attempt to cover my emotions-he can surely see how messed up I really am.
He laughs his soft infectious laugh. "No. I promise I will not seduce you," he vows with his s.e.xy trademark grin. "Well, not on purpose anyway." Oddly, this conversation doesn"t seem to faze him-he"s so cool. Meanwhile, I"m a ball of nerves, bouncing off the walls.
"I don"t trust you," I confess. The fact is...I don"t trust most men, especially those who look like Greek G.o.ds decked out in ten-thousand-dollar suits. "You"ll take me to this wonderful place and somehow manage to kiss me."
He c.o.c.ks his head, a huge smile on his face. I am amusing him thoroughly.
"And if you kiss me, Weston...I"ll completely fall apart."
His smile fades. He is suddenly without words and looks at me-at my eyes, at my mouth.
He wants to kiss me.
I want him to kiss me. I"m frozen under his stare.
But he doesn"t kiss me.
He jolts back in a sudden move, and I jump a little. Relief washes over me. A disquieting tingle runs up my spine at the thought of what I almost did. I know I would have kissed him.
"This is what we"re going to do." He is all business. The walls have been built up again. "You will meet me at my office," he explains and then pauses for a moment, "...or I can come to you if you wish."
I listen to him, not saying a word.
"We"ll meet in a neutral environment, and I promise I won"t lay a finger on you."
He makes it all sound so formal, and I wonder if I"m reading too much into things again. We set the meeting for Tuesday at five o"clock. I ask him again what it"s all about, but he refuses to tell me.
Finally, I pull away, still unnerved and determined to stay as far away from him as possible for the rest of the evening. I find Gabe buried in conversation, three beautiful women draped all over him. Not one or two...but three-that"s Gabe for you. I lace my arm around his in an effort to find comfort...protection. Or maybe I"m just trying to mark my territory. I"m not sure. All I know is I need him right now. I need everything to be normal again-just us, Gabe and Mirella, like it"s always been.
But despite being stuck to Gabe like gum in a kid"s hair, I am intensely aware of Weston. He"s far, yet he feels so close. I try not to look at him, but I see him from the corner of my eye, being pulled into conversation, drifting away, and back again...a reluctant extrovert...a true lone wolf.
Almost three whole days until I see him again, and he explains what this is all about.
I may very well die of curiosity.
As we walk back to the truck, Gabe takes my hand in his.
I have to tell him. I can"t hide this from him.
I stop in my tracks, dead in the middle of the sidewalk. Gabe eyes me with a "what the h.e.l.l" expression.
"I should tell you something," I say, my words heavy. I don"t know exactly how to go on. I know he"ll be angry.
I pull my clammy hand from his, my heart beating a little faster than normal. I"m scared he"ll go into one of his little fits. Gabe has a short fuse. He can be the sweetest man, but is also very volatile. When something sets him off, watch out-random objects will go flying.
"What is it, Ella?" he asks, concern written all over his face.
"Weston and I..." I trail off. I just can"t seem to utter the words.
I catch a brief glimpse of fear on Gabe"s face-pure, unfiltered terror.
"Oh no...no," I"m quick to say. "It"s just...we"re meeting on Tuesday at his office."
"What?" He glares at me, confused. "Why? About what?"
"I don"t know," I admit, knowing he won"t be happy with this answer.
"What do you mean?" he snaps, his mouth a hard line. "You don"t know?"
"He wouldn"t tell me," I explain, my words strained. "He wouldn"t tell me. It"s all very mysterious. I wish I knew."
He grabs my wrist and pulls me to him. "I don"t like this at all, Mirella. I"ve seen the way he looks at you."
I reach out to him, his unshaven jaw is rough against my fingers. "He told me it will be a formal meeting," I rea.s.sure him, not quite convinced myself.
We both stand there, in eerie silence, for what seems like an eternity.