He tapped the photograph with his forefinger.
"You"re going to help me remember," he muttered. "I"ll not forget."
VII
He placed the photograph and the broken crop at the bottom of his oilcloth suitcase. The rest of his packing was simple; he had so little that was actually his own. There were a few books on a shelf, relics of his erratic attendance at the neighbouring high school--he regretted now that his ambition there had been physical rather that mental. Even in the development of his muscles, however, his brain had grown a good deal, for he was bright enough. If he made himself work, drawing on what money he had, he might get ready for college by fall. He had always envied the boys, who had drifted annually from the high school to the remote and exhilarating grandeur of a university.
What had Old Planter"s sequence been? Education, money, breeding. Of course. And he guessed that the three necessities might, to an extent, walk hand in hand. The acquisition of an education would mean personal contacts, helpful financially, projecting, perhaps, that culture that he felt was as essential as the rest. Certainly the starting place for him was a big university where a man, once in, could work his way through.
Lambert went to Yale. Harvard sprang into his mind, but there was the question of railroad fare and lost time. He"d better try his luck at Princeton which wasn"t far and which had, he"d heard, a welcome for boys working their way through college.
He examined his bank book. Fortunately, since he had lived with his parents, he had had little opportunity or need for spending. The balance showed nearly five hundred dollars, and he would receive fifty more in the morning. If he could find someone to bolster up his insufficient schooling for a part of that amount he"d make a go of it; he"d be fairly on his course.
He went to bed, but he slept restlessly. He wanted to be away from Oakmont and at work. Through his clouded mind persisted his desire for a parting glimpse of Sylvia. If he slept at all it was to the discordant memory of her anger.
The sun smiled into his room, summoning him to get up and go forth.
His father was not there. As if to emphasize the occasion, his mother deserted her washtub, served his breakfast herself, stood about in helpless att.i.tudes.
"George," she whispered, toward the close of the desolate meal, "try to get a job near here. Of course you could never come home, but we could go to see you."
"Father," he said, "is kicking me out as much as Old Planter is, and you back him up."
She clasped her hands.
"I"ve got to. And you can"t blame your father. He has to look after himself and me."
"It makes no difference. I"m not going to take a job near by," he said.
"Where are you going?" she asked, sharply.
He stared at her for a moment, profoundly sorry for her and for himself.
"I"m going to get away from everything that would remind me I"ve ever been treated like something less than human."
She gave a little cry.
"Then say good-bye, my son, before your father comes back."
VIII
His father returned and stood impatiently waiting. There was nothing to hold George except that unlikely chance of a glimpse of Sylvia. He would say good-bye here, go up to the offices for his money, and then walk straight out of Oakmont. He stepped from the house, swinging his suitcase, his overcoat across his arm.
"I"m off," he said, trying to make his voice cheery.
His father considered his cold pipe. He held out his hand.
"It"s a bad start, but maybe you"ll turn out all right after all."
George smiled his confidence.
"Well, let us hear from you," his father went on, "although as things are I don"t see how I could help you much."
"Don"t worry," George said.
He walked to his mother, who had returned to her work. He kissed her quickly, saying nothing, for he saw the tears falling from her cheeks to the dirty water out of which linen emerged soft and immaculate. He strode toward the main driveway.
"Good-bye," he called quickly.
The renewed racket at the tub pursued him until he had placed a screen of foliage between himself and the little house. His last recollection of home, indeed, was of swollen hands and swollen eyes, and of clean, white tears dropping into offensive water.
He got his money and walked past the great house and down the driveway.
He would not see home again. At a turn near the gate he caught his breath, his eyes widening. The vague chance had after all materialized.
Sylvia walked briskly along, accompanied by a vicious-looking bulldog on a leash. Her head was high and her shoulders square, as she always carried them. Her eyes sparkled. Then she saw George, and she paused, her expression altering into an active distaste, her cheeks flushing with tempestuous colour.
"I can"t go back now," George thought.
She seemed to visualize all that protected her from him. He put his cheap suitcase down.
"I"m glad I saw you," he said, deliberately. "I wanted to thank you for having me fired, for waking me up."
She didn"t answer. She stood quite motionless. The dog growled, straining at his leash toward the man in the road.
"I"ve been told to get out and stay out," he went on, his temper lashed by her immobility. "You know I meant what I said yesterday when I thought you couldn"t hear. I did. Every last word. And you might as well understand now I"ll make every word good."
He pointed to the gate.
"I"m going out there just so I can come back and prove to you that I don"t forget."
Her colour fled. She stooped swiftly, gracefully, and unleashed the anxious bulldog.
"Get him!" she whispered, tensely.
Like a shot the dog sprang for George. He caught the animal in his arms and submitted to its moist and eager caresses.
"It"s a mistake," he pointed out, "to send a dog that loves the stables after a stable boy."
He dropped the dog, picked up his suitcase, and started down the drive.
The dog followed him. He turned.
"Go back, Roland!"
Sylvia remained crouched. She cried out, her contralto voice crowded with surprise and repulsion:
"Take him with you. I never want to see him again."
So, followed by the dog, George walked bravely out into the world through the narrow gateway of her home.