The Gunslinger.
by Stephen King.
INTRODUCTION.
On Being Nineteen (and a Few Other Things)
I.
Hobbits were big when I was nineteen (a number of some import in the stories you are about to read).
There were probably half a dozen Merrys and Pippins slogging through the mud at Max Yasgur"s farm during the Great Woodstock Music Festival, twice as many Frodos, and hippie Gandalfs without number. J.R.R. Tolkien"s The Lord of the Rings The Lord of the Rings was madly popular in those days, and while I never made it to Woodstock (say sorry), I suppose I was at least a halfling-hippie. Enough of one, at any rate, to have read the books and fallen in love with them. The was madly popular in those days, and while I never made it to Woodstock (say sorry), I suppose I was at least a halfling-hippie. Enough of one, at any rate, to have read the books and fallen in love with them. The Dark Tower Dark Tower books, like most long fantasy tales written by men and women of my generation ( books, like most long fantasy tales written by men and women of my generation (The Chronicles of Thomas Covenant, by Stephen Donaldson, and The Sword of Shannara The Sword of Shannara, by Terry Brooks, are just two of many), were born out of Tolkien"s.
But although I read the books in 1966 and 1967, I held off writing. I responded (and with rather touching wholeheartedness) to the sweep of Tolkien"s imagination-to the ambition of his story-but I wanted to write my own kind of story, and had I started then, I would have written his. That, as the late Tricky d.i.c.k Nixon was fond of saying, would have been wrong. Thanks to Mr. Tolkien, the twentieth century had all the elves and wizards it needed.
In 1967, I didn"t have any idea what my kind of story might be, but that didn"t matter; I felt positive I"d know it when it pa.s.sed me on the street. I was nineteen and arrogant. Certainly arrogant enough to feel I could wait a little while on my muse and my masterpiece (as I was sure it would be). At nineteen, it seems to me, one has a right to be arrogant; time has usually not begun its stealthy and rotten subtractions. It takes away your hair and your jump-shot, according to a popular country song, but in truth it takes away a lot more than that. I didn"t know it in 1966 and "67, and if I had, I wouldn"t have cared. I could imagine-barely-being forty, but fifty? No. Sixty? Sixty? Never! Sixty was out of the question. And at nineteen, that"s just the way to be. Nineteen is the age where you say Never! Sixty was out of the question. And at nineteen, that"s just the way to be. Nineteen is the age where you say Look out, world, I"m smokin"TNT and I"m drinkin" dynamite, so if you know what"s good for ya, get out of my way-here comes Stevie Look out, world, I"m smokin"TNT and I"m drinkin" dynamite, so if you know what"s good for ya, get out of my way-here comes Stevie.
Nineteen"s a selfish age and finds one"s cares tightly circ.u.mscribed. I had a lot of reach, and I cared about that. I had a lot of ambition, and I cared about that. I had a typewriter that I carried from one s.h.i.thole apartment to the next, always with a deck of smokes in my pocket and a smile on my face. The compromises of middle age were distant, the insults of old age over the horizon. Like the protagonist in that Bob Seger song they now use to sell the trucks, I felt endlessly powerful and endlessly optimistic; my pockets were empty, but my head was full of things I wanted to say and my heart was full of stories I wanted to tell. Sounds corny now; felt wonderful then. Felt very cool. More than anything else I wanted to get inside my readers" defenses, wanted to rip them and ravish them and change them forever with nothing but story. And I felt I could do those things. I felt I had been made made to do those things. to do those things.
How conceited does that sound? A lot or a little? Either way, I don"t apologize. I was nineteen. There was not so much as a strand of gray in my beard. I had three pairs of jeans, one pair of boots, the idea that the world was my oyster, and nothing that happened in the next twenty years proved me wrong. Then, around the age of thirty-nine, my troubles set in: drink, drugs, a road accident that changed the way I walked (among other things). I"ve written about them at length and need not write about them here. Besides, it"s the same for you, right? The world eventually sends out a mean-a.s.s Patrol Boy to slow your progress and show you who"s boss. You reading this have undoubtedly met yours (or will); I met mine, and I"m sure he"ll be back. He"s got my address. He"s a mean guy, a Bad Lieutenant, the sworn enemy of goofery, f.u.c.kery, pride, ambition, loud music, and all things nineteen.
But I still think that"s a pretty fine age. Maybe the best age. You can rock and roll all night, but when the music dies out and the beer wears off, you"re able to think. And dream big dreams. The mean Patrol Boy cuts you down to size eventually, and if you start out small, why, there"s almost nothing left but the cuffs of your pants when he"s done with you. "Got another one!" he shouts, and strides on with his citation book in his hand. So a little arrogance (or even a lot) isn"t such a bad thing, although your mother undoubtedly told you different. Mine did. Pride goeth before a fall, Stephen Pride goeth before a fall, Stephen, she said... and then I found out-right around the age that is 19 x 2-that eventually you fall down, anyway. Or get pushed into the ditch. At nineteen they can card you in the bars and tell you to get the f.u.c.k out, put your sorry act (and sorrier a.s.s) back on the street, but they can"t card you when you sit down to paint a picture, write a poem, or tell a story, by G.o.d, and if you reading this happen to be very young, don"t let your elders and supposed betters tell you any different. Sure, you"ve never been to Paris. No, you never ran with the bulls at Pamplona. Yes, you"re a p.i.s.sant who had no hair in your armpits until three years ago-but so what? If you don"t start out too big for your britches, how are you gonna fill "em when you grow up? Let it rip regardless of what anybody tells you, that"s my idea; sit down and smoke smoke that baby. that baby.
II.
I think novelists come in two types, and that includes the sort of fledgling novelist I was by 1970. Those who are bound for the more literary or "serious" side of the job examine every possible subject in light of this question: What would writing this sort of story mean to me? What would writing this sort of story mean to me? Those whose destiny (or ka, if you like) is to include the writing of popular novels are apt to ask a very different one: Those whose destiny (or ka, if you like) is to include the writing of popular novels are apt to ask a very different one: What would writing this sort of story mean to others? What would writing this sort of story mean to others? The "serious" novelist is looking for answers and keys to the self; the "popular" novelist is looking for an audience. Both kinds of writer are equally selfish. I"ve known a good many, and will set my watch and warrant upon it. The "serious" novelist is looking for answers and keys to the self; the "popular" novelist is looking for an audience. Both kinds of writer are equally selfish. I"ve known a good many, and will set my watch and warrant upon it.
Anyway, I believe that even at the age of nineteen, I recognized the story of Frodo and his efforts to rid himself of the One Great Ring as one belonging to the second group. They were the adventures of an essentially British band of pilgrims set against a backdrop of vaguely Norse mythology. I liked the idea of the quest-loved it, in fact-but I had no interest in either Tolkien"s st.u.r.dy peasant characters (that"s not to say I didn"t like them, because I did) or his bosky Scandinavian settings. If I tried going in that direction, I"d get it all wrong. it, in fact-but I had no interest in either Tolkien"s st.u.r.dy peasant characters (that"s not to say I didn"t like them, because I did) or his bosky Scandinavian settings. If I tried going in that direction, I"d get it all wrong.
So I waited. By 1970 I was twenty-two, the first strands of gray had showed up in my beard (I think smoking two and a half packs of Pall Malls a day probably had something to do with that), but even at twenty-two, one can afford to wait. At twenty-two, time is still on one"s side, although even then that bad old Patrol Boy"s in the neighborhood and asking questions.
Then, in an almost completely empty movie theater (the Bijou, in Bangor, Maine, if it matters), I saw a film directed by Sergio Leone. It was called The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly, The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly, and before the film was even half over, I realized that what I wanted to write was a novel that contained Tolkien"s sense of quest and magic but set against Leone"s almost absurdly majestic Western backdrop. If you"ve only seen this gonzo Western on your television screen, you don"t understand what I"m talking about-cry your pardon, but it"s true. On a movie screen, projected through the correct Panavision lenses, and before the film was even half over, I realized that what I wanted to write was a novel that contained Tolkien"s sense of quest and magic but set against Leone"s almost absurdly majestic Western backdrop. If you"ve only seen this gonzo Western on your television screen, you don"t understand what I"m talking about-cry your pardon, but it"s true. On a movie screen, projected through the correct Panavision lenses, TG, TB, & TU TG, TB, & TU is an epic to rival is an epic to rival Ben-Hur Ben-Hur. Clint Eastwood appears roughly eighteen feet tall, with each wiry jut of stubble on his cheeks looking roughly the size of a young redwood tree. The grooves bracketing Lee Van Cleef"s mouth are as deep as canyons, and there could be a thinny (see Wizard and Gla.s.s Wizard and Gla.s.s) at the bottom of each one. The desert settings appear to stretch at least out as far as the orbit of the planet Neptune. And the barrel of each gun looks to be roughly as large as the Holland Tunnel.
What I wanted even more than the setting was that feeling of epic, apocalyptic size size. The fact that Leone knew jack s.h.i.t about American geography (according to one of the characters, Chicago is somewhere in the vicinity of Phoenix, Arizona) added to the film"s sense of magnificent dislocation. And in my enthusiasm-the sort only a young person can muster, I think-I wanted to write not just a long long book, but book, but the longest popular novel in the longest popular novel in history history. I did not succeed in doing that, but I feel I had a decent rip; The Dark Tower, The Dark Tower, volumes one through seven, really comprise a single tale, and the first four volumes run to just over two thousand pages in paperback. The final three volumes run another twenty-five hundred in ma.n.u.script. I"m not trying to imply here that length has anything whatsoever to do with quality; I"m just saying that I wanted to write an epic, and in some ways, I succeeded. If you were to ask me volumes one through seven, really comprise a single tale, and the first four volumes run to just over two thousand pages in paperback. The final three volumes run another twenty-five hundred in ma.n.u.script. I"m not trying to imply here that length has anything whatsoever to do with quality; I"m just saying that I wanted to write an epic, and in some ways, I succeeded. If you were to ask me why why I wanted to do that, I couldn"t tell you. Maybe it"s a part of growing up American: build the tallest, dig the deepest, write the longest. And that head-scratching puzzlement when the question of motivation comes up? Seems to me that that is also part of being an American. In the end we are reduced to saying I wanted to do that, I couldn"t tell you. Maybe it"s a part of growing up American: build the tallest, dig the deepest, write the longest. And that head-scratching puzzlement when the question of motivation comes up? Seems to me that that is also part of being an American. In the end we are reduced to saying It seemed like a good idea at the time. It seemed like a good idea at the time.
III.
Another thing about being nineteen, do it please ya: it is the age, I think, where a lot of us somehow get stuck (mentally and emotionally, if not physically). The years slide by and one day you find yourself looking into the mirror with real puzzlement. Why are those lines on my face? Why are those lines on my face? you wonder. you wonder. Where did that stupid potbelly come from? h.e.l.l, I"m only nineteen! Where did that stupid potbelly come from? h.e.l.l, I"m only nineteen! This is hardly an original concept, but that in no way subtracts from one"s amazement. This is hardly an original concept, but that in no way subtracts from one"s amazement.
Time puts gray in your beard, time takes away your jump-shot, and all the while you"re thinking-silly you-that it"s still on your side. The logical side of you knows better, but your heart refuses to believe it. If you"re lucky, the Patrol Boy who cited you for going too fast and having too much fun also gives you a dose of smelling salts. That was more or less what happened to me near the end of the twentieth century. It came in the form of a Plymouth van that knocked me into the ditch beside a road in my hometown.
About three years after that accident I did a book signing for From a Buick 8 From a Buick 8 at a Borders store in Dearborn, Michigan. When one guy got to the head of the line, he said he was really, really glad that I was still alive. (I get this a lot, and it beats the at a Borders store in Dearborn, Michigan. When one guy got to the head of the line, he said he was really, really glad that I was still alive. (I get this a lot, and it beats the s.h.i.t s.h.i.t out of "Why the h.e.l.l didn"t you die?") out of "Why the h.e.l.l didn"t you die?") "I was with this good friend of mine when we heard you got popped," he said. "Man, we just started shaking our heads and saying "There goes the Tower, it"s tilting, it"s falling, ahhh, s.h.i.t, he"ll never never finish it now."" finish it now.""
A version of the same idea had occurred to me-the troubling idea that, having built the Dark Tower in the collective imagination of a million readers, I might have a responsibility to make it safe for as long as people wanted to read about it. That might be for only five years; for all I know, it might be five hundred. Fantasy stories, the bad as well as the good (even now, someone out there is probably reading Varney the Vampire Varney the Vampire or or The Monk The Monk), seem to have long shelf lives. Roland"s way of protecting the Tower is to try to remove the threat to the Beams that hold the Tower up. I would have to do it, I realized after my accident, by finishing the gunslinger"s story.
During the long pauses between the writing and publication of the first four Dark Tower Dark Tower tales, I received hundreds of "pack your bags, we"re going on a guilt trip" letters. In 1998 (when I was laboring under the mistaken impression that I was still basically nineteen, in other words), I got one from an "82-yr-old Gramma, don"t mean to Bother You w/My Troubles BUT!! very Sick These Days." The Gramma told me she probably had only a year to live ("14 Mo"s at Outside, Cancer all thru Me"), and while she didn"t expect me to finish Roland"s tale in that time just for her, she wanted to know if I couldn"t please ( tales, I received hundreds of "pack your bags, we"re going on a guilt trip" letters. In 1998 (when I was laboring under the mistaken impression that I was still basically nineteen, in other words), I got one from an "82-yr-old Gramma, don"t mean to Bother You w/My Troubles BUT!! very Sick These Days." The Gramma told me she probably had only a year to live ("14 Mo"s at Outside, Cancer all thru Me"), and while she didn"t expect me to finish Roland"s tale in that time just for her, she wanted to know if I couldn"t please (please) just tell her how it came out. The line that wrenched my heart (although not quite enough to start writing again) was her promise to "not tell a Single Soul." A year later-probably after the accident that landed me in the hospital-one of my a.s.sistants, Marsha DiFilippo, got a letter from a fellow on death row in either Texas or Florida, wanting to know essentially the same thing: how does it come out? (He promised to take the secret to the grave with him, which gave me the creeps.) I would have given both of these folks what they wanted-a summary of Roland"s further adventures-if I could have done, but alas, I couldn"t. I had no idea of how things were going to turn out with the gunslinger and his friends. To know, I have to write. I once had an outline, but I lost it along the way. (It probably wasn"t worth a tin s.h.i.t, anyway.) All I had was a few notes ("Chussit, chissit, cha.s.sit, something-something- something-something-basket" reads one lying on the desk as I write this). Eventually, starting in July of 2001, I began to write again. I knew by then I was no longer nineteen, nor exempt from any of the ills to which the flesh is heir. I knew I was going to be sixty, maybe even seventy. And I wanted to finish my story before the bad Patrol Boy came for the last time. I had no urge to be filed away with The Canterbury Tales The Canterbury Tales and and The Mystery of Edwin Drood The Mystery of Edwin Drood.
The result-for better or worse-lies before you, Constant Reader, whether you reading this are starting with Volume One or are preparing for Volume Five. Like it or hate it, the story of Roland is now done. I hope you enjoy it.
As for me, I had the time of my life.
Stephen King January 25, 2003
Foreword.
Most of what writers write about their work is ill-informed bulls.h.i.t.* That is why you have never seen a book ent.i.tled That is why you have never seen a book ent.i.tled One Hundred Great Introductions of Western Civilization One Hundred Great Introductions of Western Civilization or or Best-Loved Forewords of the American People Best-Loved Forewords of the American People. This is a judgment call on my part, of course, but after writing at least fifty introductions and forewords-not to mention an entire book about the craft of fiction-I think it"s one I have a right to make. And I think you can take me seriously when I tell you this might be one of those rare occasions upon which I actually have something worth saying.
A few years ago, I created some furor among my readers by offering a revised and expanded version of my novel The Stand The Stand. I was justifiably nervous about that book, because The Stand The Stand has always been the novel my readers have loved the best (as far as the most pa.s.sionate of the " has always been the novel my readers have loved the best (as far as the most pa.s.sionate of the "Stand-fans" are concerned, I could have died in 1980 without making the world a noticeably poorer place).
If there is a story that rivals The Stand The Stand in the imagination of King readers, it"s probably the tale of Roland Deschain and his search for the Dark Tower. And now-G.o.dd.a.m.n!-I"ve gone and done the same thing again. in the imagination of King readers, it"s probably the tale of Roland Deschain and his search for the Dark Tower. And now-G.o.dd.a.m.n!-I"ve gone and done the same thing again.
Except I haven"t, not really, and I want you to know it. I also want you to know what I have have done, and why. It may not be important to you, but it"s done, and why. It may not be important to you, but it"s very very important to me, and thus this foreword is exempt (I hope) from King"s Bulls.h.i.t Rule. important to me, and thus this foreword is exempt (I hope) from King"s Bulls.h.i.t Rule.
First, please be reminded that The Stand The Stand sustained deep cuts in ma.n.u.script not for editorial reasons but for financial ones. (There were binding limitations, too, but I don"t even want to go there.) What I reinstated in the late eighties were revised sections of preexisting ma.n.u.script. I also revised the work as a whole, mostly to acknowledge the AIDS epidemic, which blossomed (if that is the word) between the first issue of sustained deep cuts in ma.n.u.script not for editorial reasons but for financial ones. (There were binding limitations, too, but I don"t even want to go there.) What I reinstated in the late eighties were revised sections of preexisting ma.n.u.script. I also revised the work as a whole, mostly to acknowledge the AIDS epidemic, which blossomed (if that is the word) between the first issue of The Stand The Stand and the publication of the revised version eight or nine years later. The result was a volume about 100,000 words longer than the original. and the publication of the revised version eight or nine years later. The result was a volume about 100,000 words longer than the original.
In the case of The Gunslinger The Gunslinger, the original volume was slim, and the added material in this version amounts to a mere thirty-five pages, or about nine thousand words. If you have read The Gunslinger The Gunslinger before, you"ll only find two or three totally new scenes here. Dark Tower purists (of which there are a surprising number-just check the Web) will want to read the book again, of course, and most of them are apt to do so with a mixture of curiosity and irritation. I sympathize, but must say I"m less concerned with them than with readers who have never encountered Roland and his ka-tet. before, you"ll only find two or three totally new scenes here. Dark Tower purists (of which there are a surprising number-just check the Web) will want to read the book again, of course, and most of them are apt to do so with a mixture of curiosity and irritation. I sympathize, but must say I"m less concerned with them than with readers who have never encountered Roland and his ka-tet.*
In spite of its fervent followers, the tale of the Tower is far less known by my readers than is The Stand The Stand. Sometimes, when I do readings, I"ll ask those present to raise their hands if they"ve read one or more of my novels. Since they"ve bothered to come at all-sometimes going to the added inconvenience of hiring a baby-sitter and incurring the added expense of ga.s.sing up the old sedan-it comes as no surprise that most of them raise their hands. Then I"ll ask them to keep their hands up if they"ve read one or more of the Dark Tower stories. When I do that, at least half the hands in the hall invariably go down. The conclusion is clear enough: although I"ve spent an inordinate amount of time writing these books in the thirty-three years between 1970 and 2003, comparatively few people have read them. Yet those who have are pa.s.sionate about them, and I"m fairly pa.s.sionate myself-enough so, in any case, that I was never able to let Roland creep away into that exile which is the unhappy home of unfulfilled characters (think of Chaucer"s pilgrims on the way to Canterbury, or the people who populate Charles d.i.c.kens"s unfinished final novel, The Mystery of Edwin Drood The Mystery of Edwin Drood).
I think that I"d always a.s.sumed (somewhere in the back of my mind, for I cannot ever remember thinking about this consciously) that there would be time to finish, that perhaps G.o.d would even send me a singing telegram at the appointed hour: "Deedle-dum, deedle-dower/Get back to work, Stephen,/Finish the Tower." And in a way, something like that really did happen, although it wasn"t a singing telegram but a close encounter with a Plymouth minivan that got me going again. If the vehicle that struck me that day had been a little bigger, or if the hit had been just a little squarer, it would have been a case of mourners please omit flowers, the King family thanks you for your sympathy. And Roland"s quest would have remained forever unfinished, at least by me.
In any case, in 2001-by which time I"d begun to feel more myself again-I decided the time had come to finish Roland"s story. I pushed everything else aside and set to work on the final three books. As always, I did this not so much for the readers who demanded it as for myself.
Although the revisions of the last two volumes still remain to be done as I write this in the winter of 2003, the books themselves were finished last summer. And, in the hiatus between the editorial work on Volume Five (Wolves of the Calla) and Volume Six (Song of Susannah), I decided the time had come to go back to the beginning and start the final overall revisions. Why? Because these seven volumes were never really separate stories at all, but sections of a single long novel called The Dark Tower The Dark Tower, and the beginning was out of sync with the ending.
My approach to revision hasn"t changed much over the years. I know there are writers who do it as they go along, but my method of attack has always been to plunge in and go as fast as I can, keeping the edge of my narrative blade as sharp as possible by constant use, and trying to outrun the novelist"s most insidious enemy, which is doubt. Looking back prompts too many questions: How believable are my characters? How interesting is my story? How good is this, really? Will anyone care? Do I care myself?
When my first draft of a novel is done, I put it away, warts and all, to mellow. Some period of time later-six months, a year, two years, it doesn"t really matter-I can come back to it with a cooler (but still loving) eye, and begin the task of revising. And although each book of the Tower series was revised as a separate ent.i.ty, I never really looked at the work as a whole until I"d finished Volume Seven, The Dark Tower The Dark Tower.
When I looked back at the first volume, which you now hold in your hands, three obvious truths presented themselves. The first was that The Gunslinger The Gunslinger had been written by a very young man, and had all the problems of a very young man"s book. The second was that it contained a great many errors and false starts, particularly in light of the volumes that followed. had been written by a very young man, and had all the problems of a very young man"s book. The second was that it contained a great many errors and false starts, particularly in light of the volumes that followed.* The third was that The third was that The Gunslinger The Gunslinger did not even did not even sound sound like the later books-it was, frankly, rather difficult to read. All too often I heard myself apologizing for it, and telling people that if they persevered, they would find the story really found its voice in like the later books-it was, frankly, rather difficult to read. All too often I heard myself apologizing for it, and telling people that if they persevered, they would find the story really found its voice in The Drawing of the Three The Drawing of the Three.
At one point in The Gunslinger The Gunslinger, Roland is described as the sort of man who would straighten pictures in strange hotel rooms. I"m that sort of guy myself, and to some extent, that is all that rewriting amounts to: straightening the pictures, vacuuming the floors, scrubbing the toilets. I did a great deal of housework in the course of this revision, and have had a chance to do what any writer wants to do with a work that is finished but still needs a final polish and tune-up: just make it right. just make it right. Once you know how things come out, you owe it to the potential reader-and to yourself-to go back and put things in order. That is what I have tried to do here, always being careful that no addition or change should give away the secrets hidden in the last three books of the cycle, secrets I have been patiently keeping for as long as thirty years in some cases. Once you know how things come out, you owe it to the potential reader-and to yourself-to go back and put things in order. That is what I have tried to do here, always being careful that no addition or change should give away the secrets hidden in the last three books of the cycle, secrets I have been patiently keeping for as long as thirty years in some cases.
Before I close, I should say a word about the younger man who dared to write this book. That young man had been exposed to far too many writing seminars, and had grown far too used to the ideas those seminars promulgate: that one is writing for other people rather than one"s self; that language is more important than story; that ambiguity is to be preferred over clarity and simplicity, which are usually signs of a thick and literal mind. As a result, I was not surprised to find a high degree of pretension in Roland"s debut appearance (not to mention what seemed like thousands of unnecessary adverbs). I removed as much of this hollow blather as I could, and do not regret a single cut made in that regard. In other places-invariably those where I"d been seduced into forgetting the writing seminar ideas by some particularly entrancing piece of story-I was able to let the writing almost entirely alone, save for the usual bits of revision any writer needs to do. As I have pointed out in another context, only G.o.d gets it right the first time.
In any case, I didn"t want to muzzle or even really change the way this story is told; for all its faults, it has its own special charms, it seems to me. To change it too completely would have been to repudiate the person who first wrote of the gunslinger in the late spring and early summer of 1970, and that I did not want to do.
What I did did want to do-and before the final volumes of the series came out, if possible-was to give newcomers to the tale of the Tower (and old readers who want to refresh their memories) a clearer start and a slightly easier entry into Roland"s world. I also wanted them to have a volume that more effectively foreshadowed coming events. I hope I have done that. And if you are one of those who have never visited the strange world through which Roland and his friends move, I hope you will enjoy the marvels you find there. More than anything else, I wanted to tell a tale of wonder. If you find yourself falling under the spell of the Dark Tower, even a little bit, I reckon I will have done my job, which was begun in 1970 and largely finished in 2003. Yet Roland would be the first to point out that such a span of time means very little. In fact, when one quests for the Dark Tower, time is a matter of no concern at all. want to do-and before the final volumes of the series came out, if possible-was to give newcomers to the tale of the Tower (and old readers who want to refresh their memories) a clearer start and a slightly easier entry into Roland"s world. I also wanted them to have a volume that more effectively foreshadowed coming events. I hope I have done that. And if you are one of those who have never visited the strange world through which Roland and his friends move, I hope you will enjoy the marvels you find there. More than anything else, I wanted to tell a tale of wonder. If you find yourself falling under the spell of the Dark Tower, even a little bit, I reckon I will have done my job, which was begun in 1970 and largely finished in 2003. Yet Roland would be the first to point out that such a span of time means very little. In fact, when one quests for the Dark Tower, time is a matter of no concern at all.
-February 6, 2003
... a stone, a leaf, an unfound door; of a leaf, a stone, a door. And of all the forgotten faces.
Naked and alone we came into exile. In her dark womb, we did not know our mother"s face; from the prison of her flesh have we come into the unspeakable and incommunicable prison of this earth.
Which of us has known his brother? Which of us has looked into his father"s heart? Which of us has not remained forever prison-pent? Which of us is not forever a stranger and alone?
... O lost, and by the wind grieved, ghost, come back again.
Thomas Wolfe Look Homeward, Angel
RESUMPTION.
The GUNSLINGER.
CHAPTER ONE.
The Gunslinger
I.
The man in black fled across the desert, and the gunslinger followed.
The desert was the apotheosis of all deserts, huge, standing to the sky for what looked like eternity in all directions. It was white and blinding and waterless and without feature save for the faint, cloudy haze of the mountains which sketched themselves on the horizon and the devil-gra.s.s which brought sweet dreams, nightmares, death. An occasional tombstone sign pointed the way, for once the drifted track that cut its way through the thick crust of alkali had been a highway. Coaches and buckas had followed it. The world had moved on since then. The world had emptied.
The gunslinger had been struck by a momentary dizziness, a kind of yawing sensation that made the entire world seem ephemeral, almost a thing that could be looked through. It pa.s.sed and, like the world upon whose hide he walked, he moved on. He pa.s.sed the miles stolidly, not hurrying, not loafing. A hide waterbag was slung around his middle like a bloated sausage. It was almost full. He had progressed through the khef khef over many years, and had reached perhaps the fifth level. Had he been a Manni holy man, he might not have even been thirsty; he could have watched his own body dehydrate with clinical, detached attention, watering its crevices and dark inner hollows only when his logic told him it must be done. He was not a Manni, however, nor a follower of the Man Jesus, and considered himself in no way holy. He was just an ordinary pilgrim, in other words, and all he could say with real certainty was that he was thirsty. And even so, he had no particular urge to drink. In a vague way, all this pleased him. It was what the country required, it was a thirsty country, and he had in his long life been nothing if not adaptable. over many years, and had reached perhaps the fifth level. Had he been a Manni holy man, he might not have even been thirsty; he could have watched his own body dehydrate with clinical, detached attention, watering its crevices and dark inner hollows only when his logic told him it must be done. He was not a Manni, however, nor a follower of the Man Jesus, and considered himself in no way holy. He was just an ordinary pilgrim, in other words, and all he could say with real certainty was that he was thirsty. And even so, he had no particular urge to drink. In a vague way, all this pleased him. It was what the country required, it was a thirsty country, and he had in his long life been nothing if not adaptable.
Below the waterbag were his guns, carefully weighted to his hands; a plate had been added to each when they had come to him from his father, who had been lighter and not so tall. The two belts crisscrossed above his crotch. The holsters were oiled too deeply for even this Philistine sun to crack. The stocks of the guns were sandalwood, yellow and finely grained. Rawhide tie-downs held the holsters loosely to his thighs, and they swung a bit with his step; they had rubbed away the bluing of his jeans (and thinned the cloth) in a pair of arcs that looked almost like smiles. The bra.s.s casings of the cartridges looped into the gunbelts heliographed in the sun. There were fewer now. The leather made subtle creaking noises.
His shirt, the no-color of rain or dust, was open at the throat, with a rawhide thong dangling loosely in hand-punched eyelets. His hat was gone. So was the horn he had once carried; gone for years, that horn, spilled from the hand of a dying friend, and he missed them both.
He breasted a gently rising dune (although there was no sand here; the desert was hardpan, and even the harsh winds that blew when dark came raised only an aggravating harsh dust like scouring powder) and saw the kicked remains of a tiny campfire on the lee side, the side the sun would quit earliest. Small signs like this, once more affirming the man in black"s possible humanity, never failed to please him. His lips stretched in the pitted, flaked remains of his face. The grin was gruesome, painful. He squatted.
His quarry had burned the devil-gra.s.s, of course. It was the only thing out here that would would burn. It burned with a greasy, flat light, and it burned slow. Border dwellers had told him that devils lived even in the flames. They burned it but would not look into the light. They said the devils hypnotized, beckoned, would eventually draw the one who looked into the fires. And the next man foolish enough to look into the fire might see you. burn. It burned with a greasy, flat light, and it burned slow. Border dwellers had told him that devils lived even in the flames. They burned it but would not look into the light. They said the devils hypnotized, beckoned, would eventually draw the one who looked into the fires. And the next man foolish enough to look into the fire might see you.
The burned gra.s.s was crisscrossed in the now familiar ideographic pattern, and crumbled to gray senselessness before the gunslinger"s prodding hand. There was nothing in the remains but a charred sc.r.a.p of bacon, which he ate thoughtfully. It had always been this way. The gunslinger had followed the man in black across the desert for two months now, across the endless, screamingly monotonous purgatorial wastes, and had yet to find spoor other than the hygienic sterile ideographs of the man in black"s campfires. He had not found a can, a bottle, or a waterbag (the gunslinger had left four of those behind, like dead snakeskins). He hadn"t found any dung. He a.s.sumed the man in black buried it.
Perhaps the campfires were a message, spelled out one Great Letter at a time. Keep your distance, partner, Keep your distance, partner, it might say. Or, it might say. Or, The end draweth nigh. The end draweth nigh. Or maybe even, Or maybe even, Come and get me. Come and get me. It didn"t matter what they said or didn"t say. He had no interest in messages, if messages they were. What mattered was that these remains were as cold as all the others. Yet he had gained. He knew he was closer, but did not know how he knew. A kind of smell, perhaps. That didn"t matter, either. He would keep going until something changed, and if nothing changed, he would keep going, anyway. There would be water if G.o.d willed it, the oldtimers said. Water if G.o.d willed it, even in the desert. The gunslinger stood up, brushing his hands. It didn"t matter what they said or didn"t say. He had no interest in messages, if messages they were. What mattered was that these remains were as cold as all the others. Yet he had gained. He knew he was closer, but did not know how he knew. A kind of smell, perhaps. That didn"t matter, either. He would keep going until something changed, and if nothing changed, he would keep going, anyway. There would be water if G.o.d willed it, the oldtimers said. Water if G.o.d willed it, even in the desert. The gunslinger stood up, brushing his hands.
No other trace; the wind, razor-sharp, had of course filed away even what scant tracks the hardpan might once have held. No man-scat, no cast-off trash, never a sign of where those things might have been buried. Nothing. Only these cold campfires along the ancient highway moving southeast and the relentless range-finder in his own head. Although of course it was more than that; the pull southeast was more than just a sense of direction, was even more than magnetism.
He sat down and allowed himself a short pull from the waterbag. He thought of that momentary dizziness earlier in the day, that sense of being almost untethered from the world, and wondered what it might have meant. Why should that dizziness make him think of his horn and the last of his old friends, both lost so long ago at Jericho Hill? He still had the guns-his father"s guns-and surely they were more important than horns... or even friends.
Weren"t they?
The question was oddly troubling, but since there seemed to be no answer but the obvious one, he put it aside, possibly for later consideration. He scanned the desert and then looked up at the sun, which was now sliding into a far quadrant of the sky that was, disturbingly, not quite true west. He got up, removed his threadbare gloves from his belt, and began to pull devil-gra.s.s for his own fire, which he laid over the ashes the man in black had left. He found the irony, like his thirst, bitterly appealing.
He did not take the flint and steel from his purse until the remains of the day were only fugitive heat in the ground beneath him and a sardonic orange line on the monochrome horizon. He sat with his gunna drawn across his lap and watched the southeast patiently, looking toward the mountains, not hoping to see the thin straight line of smoke from a new campfire, not expecting to see an orange spark of flame, but watching anyway because watching was a part of it, and had its own bitter satisfaction. You will not see what you do not look for, maggot, You will not see what you do not look for, maggot, Cort would have said. Cort would have said. Open the gobs the G.o.ds gave ya, will ya not? Open the gobs the G.o.ds gave ya, will ya not?
But there was nothing. He was close, but only relatively so. Not close enough to see smoke at dusk, or the orange wink of a campfire.
He laid the flint down the steel rod and struck his spark to the dry, shredded gra.s.s, muttering the old and powerful nonsense words as he did: "Spark-a-dark, where"s my sire? Will I lay me? Will I stay me? Bless this camp with fire." It was strange how some of childhood"s words and ways fell at the wayside and were left behind, while others clamped tight and rode for life, growing the heavier to carry as time pa.s.sed.
He lay down upwind of his little blazon, letting the dream-smoke blow out toward the waste. The wind, except for occasional gyrating dust-devils, was constant.
Above, the stars were unwinking, also constant. Suns and worlds by the million. Dizzying constellations, cold fire in every primary hue. As he watched, the sky washed from violet to ebony. A meteor etched a brief, spectacular arc below Old Mother and winked out. The fire threw strange shadows as the devil-gra.s.s burned its slow way down into new patterns-not ideograms but a straightforward crisscross vaguely frightening in its own no-nonsense surety. He had laid his fuel in a pattern that was not artful but only workable. It spoke of blacks and whites. It spoke of a man who might straighten bad pictures in strange hotel rooms. The fire burned its steady, slow flame, and phantoms danced in its incandescent core. The gunslinger did not see. The two patterns, art and craft, were welded together as he slept. The wind moaned, a witch with cancer in her belly. Every now and then a perverse downdraft would make the smoke whirl and puff toward him and he breathed some of it in. It built dreams in the same way that a small irritant may build a pearl in an oyster. The gunslinger occasionally moaned with the wind. The stars were as indifferent to this as they were to wars, crucifixions, resurrections. This also would have pleased him.
II.
He had come down off the last of the foothills leading the mule, whose eyes were already dead and bulging with the heat. He had pa.s.sed the last town three weeks before, and since then there had only been the deserted coach track and an occasional huddle of border dwellers" sod dwellings. The huddles had degenerated into single dwellings, most inhabited by lepers or madmen. He found the madmen better company. One had given him a stainless steel Silva compa.s.s and bade him give it to the Man Jesus. The gunslinger took it gravely. If he saw Him, he would turn over the compa.s.s. He did not expect that he would, but anything was possible. Once he saw a taheen-this one a man with a raven"s head-but the misbegotten thing fled at his hail, cawing what might have been words. What might even have been curses.
Five days had pa.s.sed since the last hut, and he had begun to suspect there would be no more when he topped the last eroded hill and saw the familiar low-backed sod roof.
The dweller, a surprisingly young man with a wild shock of strawberry hair that reached almost to his waist, was weeding a scrawny stand of corn with zealous abandon. The mule let out a wheezing grunt and the dweller looked up, glaring blue eyes coming target-center on the gunslinger in a moment. The dweller was unarmed, with no bolt nor bah the gunslinger could see. He raised both hands in curt salute to the stranger and then bent to the corn again, humping up the row next to his hut with back bent, tossing devil-gra.s.s and an occasional stunted corn plant over his shoulder. His hair flopped and flew in the wind that now came directly from the desert, with nothing to break it.
The gunslinger came down the hill slowly, leading the donkey on which his waterskins sloshed. He paused by the edge of the lifeless-looking cornpatch, drew a drink from one of his skins to start the saliva, and spat into the arid soil.
"Life for your crop."
"Life for your own," the dweller answered and stood up. His back popped audibly. He surveyed the gunslinger without fear. The little of his face visible between beard and hair seemed unmarked by the rot, and his eyes, while a bit wild, seemed sane. "Long days and pleasant nights, stranger."
"And may you have twice the number."