"Then," said Elizabeth, a little proudly, "he must give me up. I cannot disobey my father."
Phyllis quietly rose and went out. She could not interfere with the lovers, but she felt sorry enough for them. Richard"s compliance was forbidden by every sentiment of honor. Elizabeth was little likely to give way. Richard held her to her promise, and pleaded for its fulfillment. He wanted no fortune. He was quite content that her fortune should go to free Hallam. But he did not see that her life and happiness, and his, also, should be sacrificed to Antony"s insane ambition. "He will marry, doubtless," he urged. "He may have a large family; cannot one of them, in such case, be selected as heir?"
This was the only hope Elizabeth would admit. In her way she was as immovable as Richard. She had made up her mind as to what was her duty in the premises, and her lover could not move her from this position.
And, as the unhappy can seldom persuade themselves that "sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof," each heart was heavy with the probable sorrows that were to flow from this complication of affairs.
Phyllis, musing thoughtfully at her own room window, saw the squire walking on the terrace. Her first impulse was to go to him, but she sat down to consider the inclination. Her cla.s.s-leader, a shrewd, pious old Scotchman, had once said to her--"Nine impulses oot o" ten, Sister Phyllis, come fra the de"il. Just put an impulse through its catechism before ye go the gate it sends ye." So she sat down to think. "What right have I to interfere? Ought I to solicit a confidence? Can I do good? Might I not do harm? A good word spoken out of season is often a bad word; and I am not sure what is the good word in this case. I had better be still and wait."
Her patience had in some measure its reward. Toward afternoon Elizabeth came to her room. Her eyes were red with weeping, but she said, "Father and Richard have shaken hands, Phyllis; there is to be no ill-will about the disappointment."
"I am very glad. But is it to be a disappointment--to you, I mean, Elizabeth?"
"I fear so; I must stand by father"s side as regards Hallam. I can wait and love on. But I will not bind Richard. He is free."
"I am quite sure he is not free. Richard will never be free while there remains a hope of eventually winning you."
"He says that nothing but my marriage to some other person shall make him lose hope; but men say these things and forget."
"Richard means what he says. He will not forget; and time gives with both hands to the patient and the truthful. Is the squire satisfied?"
"I don"t think he blames Richard. The shadow I felt on the night of our betrothal has begun to creep toward me, Phyllis. I am in its chill and gloom. It will darken all our remaining hours together, and they are few now."
"Make the most of them, dear. Get all the sunshine you can; stay with Richard. I am going to the village to bid Martha good-bye."
"Richard says you are to sail Wednesday?"
"Yes; what is the use of drawing out a parting? We have had a happy holiday. Let us go ere its spirit is over. There must be times and seasons, Elizabeth; it is the part of love and wisdom never to force them. Besides, uncle has a very sore place in his heart, and Richard can hardly avoid rubbing against it. It is best for us to go."
Martha was a little dull, and Phyllis was struck with her explanation: "I"m a bit selfish to-day; and t" heart that isn"t loving isn"t cheerful. Ben and me hev been so much to each other, that it comes a bit hard to hev to step aside for a la.s.s as one doesn"t care much for." She put her checked ap.r.o.n to her eyes, and wiped away a few tears.
"But Ben can never forget what you did for him."
"It was Mary after a" that saved him. I n.o.bbut prayed night and day.
She brought the magistrate and t" constable. Men don"t count much on prayer."
"Dear Martha, G.o.d sends by whom he will send. If he had thought it best, you would have got the order. G.o.d looks afar off--for the years that are to come--when you may be where all tears are wiped away."
"I know, I know."
"Don"t let Ben think you grudge him the fullest measure of his happiness and deliverance. Mothers must have a deal to bear. The best of children are blind, I think."
Martha was crying quietly. "He was t" last left me. I hev carried him i" my heart for months, till my heart is fair empty without him. I wanted him a little bit to mysen. She"s a good girl, is Mary, and I"m trying hard to love her; but I"ve got a weight on me that"s bad to bide."
"If it"s a bitter cup, drink it, Martha."
"My la.s.s, I"ll do that. There"ll be a blessing in t" bottom o" it, never fear. I"m n.o.bbut standing as a bairn does wi" a cup o" medicine; and when a thing is hard to take, its n.o.bbut human nature to say it"s none nice."
"I am come to say "good-bye" Martha; I don"t want to leave you in tears."
"Nay then is ta! Surely to goodness thou isn"t going in t" dead o"
winter?"
"Yes. We leave Hallam to-morrow."
"Then bide a bit. I"ll mak" a cup o" tea in t" little Wesley tea-pot; and I"ll toast thee a Yorkshire cake, and we"ll eat a mouthful together in this world before we part. We"ll be none like to meet again."
She wiped away every trace of tears, and drew the little table to the hearth-stone, and set out her humble service. And she quite put away her own trouble and spoke cheerfully, and served Phyllis with busy hospitality.
"For, you see," she said, as she knelt before the fire toasting the cake, "I feel as if you were a pilgrim, Sister Phyllis, that had come across my little cottage on your way to the kingdom. And if I didn"t mak" you welcome, and say a hearty, loving "G.o.dspeed" to you, I"d happen miss a bit o" my own welcome when I enter the gates o" the kingdom. So, eat and drink, dearie; and may the bread strengthen you, and the cup be full o" blessing."
"I shall never forget you, Martha. I think we shall know each other when we meet again."
"For sure we will. It will be in "Jerusalem the golden" I don"t doubt.
Farewell, sister!" and she took the sweet young face between her large hands and kissed it.
Her smile was bright, her words cheerful, but Phyllis went down the street with a heavy heart. She stopped at the house where Mr. North lodged and asked to see him. He came down to her with a smile; but when she said, "It is a good-bye, Mr. North," his face grew pale, his eyes full of trouble; he was unable to answer her. The silence became painful, and Phyllis rose.
"Let me walk a little way with you. Pardon me, I was not prepared for this--blow."
Then Phyllis knew that he loved her. Then he knew it himself. A great pity was in her heart. She was silent and constrained, and they walked together as two who are walking toward a grave.
"It is very hard for me to say "good-bye," Miss Fontaine. I shall never, never forget you."
"There are many hard things in life, Mr. North; we can but bear them."
"Is that all?"
"That is all."
"G.o.d help me!" He lifted her gloved hand and touched it with his lips.
No knight could have expressed in the act more respect, more hopeless tenderness. Then he turned silently away. Phyllis"s lips parted, but no words would come. She was full of sorrow for the n.o.ble, suffering, humble heart. She longed to say a kind word, and yet felt that it would be unkind; and she stood still watching him as he went farther and farther away. At a bend in the road he turned and saw her standing.
The level rays of the sun set her in a clear amber light. He gazed at her steadily for a moment, raised his hand slowly, and pa.s.sed forever from her sight.
There was something so pathetic and yet so lofty in the slight, vanishing figure, with the hand lifted heavenward, that she felt strangely affected, and could scarcely restrain her tears.
When people come to the end of a pleasure, so many little things show it. The first enthusiasms are gone, there is a little weariness in joy, the heart begins to turn to those fundamental affections and those homely ties which are the main reliance of life. It seemed to Phyllis that, for the first time, she was homesick. The low, white, rambling wooden house, spreading itself under moss-covered trees, began to grow very fair in her memory. The mocking-birds were calling her across the sea. She remembered the tangles of the yellow jasmine, the merry darkies chatting and singing and laughing, and her soul turned westward with an indescribable longing.
And she thought to herself, as she stood upon the terrace and looked over the fair land she was leaving with so little regret, "When the time comes for me to go to my heavenly home, I shall be just as willing to leave the earthly one."
CHAPTER V.
"I loved you alway, I will not deny it; not for three months, and not for a year; but I loved you from the first, when I was a child, and my love shall not wither, till death shall end me."--GAeLIC SONG.
"Our own acts are our attending angels, in whose light or shadow we walk continually."