"Try "missing child," " Jack suggested.
She typed it in and groaned when the tally bar reported nearly a million hits. But at the top of the list she noticed a number of organizations devoted to finding missing children. A click on one of the links took her to www.abductedchild.org.
She read the organization"s mission statement as the rest of the welcome screen filled in, and was dismayed to learn it had been founded in 1995.
"This isn"t going to work. She"s been gone too long."
"Probably right." Jack said. "But there"s a search b.u.t.ton over on the left there. Give it a shot."
She did. The next screen allowed searches by region, by age and physical description, or by name. Gia chose the last. She entered "Portman" in the last name field, "Tara" in the first, and hit enter. The screen blanked, then a color photo began to take shape. Blurry at first, but increasingly sharper as more pixels filled in.
Hair... Gia felt her saliva begin to vanish when she saw that the child was blond.
Eyes... her breath leaked away as blue eyes came into focus.
Nose... lips... chin...
With a cry, Gia pushed back from the keyboard so hard and fast she might have tipped over if Jack hadn"t been behind her.
Jack caught her. "What"s wrong?"
"That"s..." The words clogged in her throat. Her tongue felt like clay. She pointed to the screen. "It"s her! That"s the child I saw in the house!"
Jack knelt beside her, clutching her hand as he stared at the screen.
"Gia... really? No doubt?"
Her voice was a whisper. "None. It"s her."
Jack reached for the abandoned mouse and scrolled down the screen.
TARA ANN PORTMAN;.
Case Type: Nonfamily Abduction DOB: Feb-17-1979 Height:5"4"-135cm Weight: 60 lbs-28 kg Eyes: Blue Hair: Blond Parents: Joseph and Dorothy Portman Circ.u.mstances: Tara was last seen in the area of the Kensington Stables in the Kensington section of Brooklyn near Prospect Park after horseback riding.
Date Missing: Aug-16-1988 City of Report: Brooklyn State of Report: NY Country of Report: USA The photo above is how Tara looked the year she was abducted. The photo below is age progressed to age 18. Posted 1997 The age progression showed a strikingly beautiful teenager, a cla.s.sic homecoming queen if Gia had ever seen one.
But Tara Portman never made it to her prom. Gia felt her throat constrict. She never even made it to high school.
"I don"t like this," Jack said. "Any of it."
Of course not. What was there to like? But Gia had never known Jack as one for obvious statements.
"What do you mean?"
"Abducted kids. First I get involved with one, now you. It bothers me. Too..."
"Coincidental?"
"Right. And you remember what I was told."
Gia nodded. "No more coincidences."
The mere possibility that such a thing might be true sickened her.
"You think Tara and Due might be connected?"
"I don"t see how. I mean, there"s such a long span between, but then... no more coincidences." He shrugged. "Let"s see what else we can dig up on her."
The page listed an email contact and three phone numbers: a toll-free for the Abducted Child network, one for the local Brooklyn precinct, and one for the family.
"Abducted 1988," Jack said. "That doesn"t fit with the sixties song, but if that"s the girl you saw, we"ll worry about the song later."
"That"s her."
Gia stared at that nine-year-old face, wondering who could have a soul so dead that he"d want to do harm to such beauty, such innocence?
"Look," Jack said, pointing to the screen. "Posted in 1997, when she was eighteen. She"d been gone nine years and the family was still looking for her."
"Or looking for closure." She looked at him. "Jack, we"ve got to do something."
""We"? You and the baby are staying far away from Astoria and that house, remember?"
"All right then, you-you or somebody else has got to find her remains and let her family bury her."
"I"ll take care of it," he said. "Just promise me you"ll stay away from there."
"Look at her, Jack. Look at that face. How could you believe that child could hurt anyone?"
"Something awful happened to "that child." Abducted and killed are bad enough, but who knows what was done to her in the time between? She"s not an innocent child anymore. She"s not even human. And I don"t like that she appeared to you and no one else."
"Look what she wrote for the Kentons: "Mother." That"s me. A mother of one and mother-to-be of another. She wants her mother and I was the closest thing to one in that house."
"Could be," Jack said slowly. "But I still don"t like it."
"Jack, if she was looking for her daddy she might have appeared to you."
"Why isn"t isn"t she looking for her daddy?" she looking for her daddy?"
"Maybe he"d dead, or her folks were divorced, or maybe she was raised by a single mother."
"Or maybe her daddy"s involved."
Gia hated that thought but had to accept it as a possibility.
"None of that matters as much as finding her. We can let the police sort out the rest afterwards."
"I"ll handle it," Jack said. "I"ll be in touch with Lyle tomorrow and see how far he wants to take this. Maybe I can talk him into tearing up his cellar floor."
"And me?"
"You work on your paintings and whatever else you usually do on a Wednesday."
"Yes, Poppa."
He kissed her cheek. "Please, Gia. Stay safe and stay put."
Gia nodded. "Okay."
But she couldn"t take her eyes off the Portman family phone number at the bottom of the screen... a 212 exchange... right here in Manhattan...
IN THE IN-BETWEEN.
The being that was Tara Portman floats in the darkness between. She knows who she is, she knows who she was, she knows why she is here, she knows who must die.
But after that death-another death in this place of death-what?
Return to nothingness?
No... there must be more. She wants, she needs more.
Knowledge of her old self has awakened memories of the barely blossoming promise of her life before it was ended.
Knowing what she has lost... this is agony.
Knowing all that she will never have, never be... this is unbearable.
The being that was Tara Portman wants more.
WEDNESDAY.
1.
"It"s called what?" Abe said, frowning down at the froth-filled cup Jack had just placed before him on the counter.
"Chai," Jack said. "They told me at the coffee shop it"s very in."
"What is it?"
"Gal said it"s an Indian thing."
"Indian as in the subcontinent?"
"Right. Told me it was tea with milk, plus sugar and spice and everything nice."
All true. The woman ahead of him at the coffee shop this morning had ordered a chai and he"d asked about it. He"d figured what the h.e.l.l, try anything once. Anything to give him a break from thinking about Tara Portman and Gia and Duc Ngo, and all the possible interconnections.
"I got you a skinny."
Abe"s frown deepened. "A skinny what?"
"It means they use skim milk instead of regular-"cause I know you"re watching your waist."
Yeah, Jack thought. Watching it grow.
Abe continued to stare at the cup. It seemed to have mesmerized him. "How do you spell it?"
"C-H-A-I."; Abe shook his head. "You"re p.r.o.nouncing it all wrong." He repeated the word his own way, hardening the "ch" to a raspy sound that originated in the back of his throat. "Like Chaim or Chaya or Chanukah."
"Not according to the girl who sold it to me."
Abe shrugged. "Whatever. And I should be drinking this why?"
"I read where it"s the new fave drink of all the cool, contemporary, contemplative people. I decided I want to be cool, contemporary, and contemplative."
"For that you"ll need more than a drink. What"s in the other bag you brought in? The one you put on the floor?"
"Never mind that now." Jack lifted his cup. "Let"s give it a go. Chai away."
Abe toasted with his. "Lochai."
Jack took a sip, swirled it across tongue, then looked around for a place to spit. Finding none, he swallowed.
Abe"s sour expression mirrored Jack"s sentiments. "Like an accident in a clove factory."
Jack nodded as he recapped his cup. "Well, now that I"ve tried chai, I can tell you that I feel cool and contemporary, but I"m also contemplating why anyone would want to drink this stuff."
Abe handed his cup to Jack. "See if you can get a refund. Meanwhile, have you got in that second bag what I hope?"