TO GERMANY
You are blind like us. Your hurt no man designed, And no man claimed the conquest of your land.
But gropers both through fields of thought confined We stumble and we do not understand.
You only saw your future bigly planned, And we, the tapering paths of our own mind, And in each other"s dearest ways we stand, And hiss and hate. And the blind fight the blind.
When it is peace, then we may view again With new-won eyes each other"s truer form And wonder. Grown more loving-kind and warm We"ll grasp firm hands and laugh at the old pain, When it is peace. But until peace, the storm The darkness and the thunder and the rain.
Isn"t that n.o.ble? You see what I am dumbly groping for--some way of thinking about the War that will make it seem (to future ages) a purification for humanity rather than a mere blackness of stinking cinders and tortured flesh and men shot to ribbons in marshes of blood and sewage. Out of such unspeakable desolation men MUST rise to some new conception of national neighbourhood. I hear so much apprehension that Germany won"t be punished sufficiently for her crime. But how can any punishment be devised or imposed for such a huge panorama of sorrow? I think she has already punished herself horribly, and will continue to do so. My prayer is that what we have gone through will startle the world into some new realization of the sanct.i.ty of life--all life, animal as well as human. Don"t you find that a visit to a zoo can humble and astound you with all that amazing and grotesque variety of living energy?
What is it that we find in every form of life? Desire of some sort--some unexplained motive power that impels even the smallest insect on its queer travels. You must have watched some infinitesimal red spider on a fence rail, bustling along--why and whither? Who knows? And when you come to man, what a chaos of hungers and impulses keep thrusting him through his cycle of quaint tasks! And in every human heart you find some sorrow, some frustration, some lurking pang.
I often think of Lafcadio Hearn"s story of his j.a.panese cook. Hearn was talking of the j.a.panese habit of not showing their emotions on their faces. His cook was a smiling, healthy, agreeable-looking young fellow whose face was always cheerful. Then one day, by chance, Hearn happened to look through a hole in the wall and saw his cook alone.
His face was not the same face. It was thin and drawn and showed strange lines worn by old hardships or sufferings. Hearn thought to himself, "He will look just like that when he is dead." He went into the kitchen to see him, and instantly the cook was all changed, young and happy again. Never again did Hearn see that face of trouble; but he knew the man wore it when he was alone.
Don"t you think there is a kind of parable there for the race as a whole? Have you ever met a man without wondering what shining sorrows he hides from the world, what contrast between vision and accomplishment torments him? Behind every smiling mask is there not some cryptic grimace of pain? Henry Adams puts it tersely. He says the human mind appears suddenly and inexplicably out of some unknown and unimaginable void. It pa.s.ses half its known life in the mental chaos of sleep. Even when awake it is a victim of its own ill-adjustment, of disease, of age, of external suggestion, of nature"s compulsions; it doubts its own sensations and trusts only in instruments and averages. After sixty years or so of growing astonishment the mind wakes to find itself looking blankly into the void of death. And, as Adams says, that it should profess itself pleased by this performance is all that the highest rules of good breeding can ask. That the mind should actually be satisfied would prove that it exists only as idiocy!
I hope that you will write to tell me along what curves your mind is moving. For my own part I feel that we are on the verge of amazing things. Long ago I fell back on books as the only permanent consolers.
They are the one stainless and unimpeachable achievement of the human race. It saddens me to think that I shall have to die with thousands of books unread that would have given me n.o.ble and unblemished happiness. I will tell you a secret. I have never read King Lear, and have purposely refrained from doing so. If I were ever very ill I would only need to say to myself "You can"t die yet, you haven"t read Lear." That would bring me round, I know it would.
You see, books are the answer to all our perplexities! Henry Adams grinds his teeth at his inability to understand the universe. The best he can do is to suggest a "law of acceleration," which seems to mean that Nature is hustling man along at an ever-increasing rate so that he will either solve all her problems or else die of fever in the effort.
But Adams" candid portrait of a mind grappling helplessly with its riddles is so triumphantly delightful that one forgets the futility of the struggle in the accuracy of the picture. Man is unconquerable because he can make even his helplessness so entertaining. His motto seems to be "Even though He slay me, yet will I make fun of Him!"
Yes, books are man"s supreme triumph, for they gather up and transmit all other triumphs. As Walter de la Mare writes, "How uncomprehendingly must an angel from heaven smile on a poor human sitting engrossed in a romance: angled upon his hams, motionless in his chair, spectacles on nose, his two feet as close together as the flukes of a merman"s tail, only his strange eyes stirring in his time-worn face."
Well, I"ve been scribbling away all this time and haven"t given you any news whatever. Helen came back the other day from a visit to Boston where she enjoyed herself greatly. To-night she has gone out to the movies with a young protegee of ours, Miss t.i.tania Chapman, an engaging damsel whom we have taken in as an apprentice bookseller. It"s a quaint idea, done at the request of her father, Mr. Chapman, the proprietor of Chapman"s Daintybits which you see advertised everywhere.
He is a great booklover, and is very eager to have the zeal transmitted to his daughter. So you can imagine my glee to have a neophyte of my own to preach books at! Also it will enable me to get away from the shop a little more. I had a telephone call from Philadelphia this afternoon asking me to go over there on Monday evening to make an estimate of the value of a private collection that is to be sold. I was rather flattered because I can"t imagine how they got hold of my name.
Forgive this long, incoherent scrawl. How did you like Erewhon? It"s pretty near closing time and I must say grace over the day"s accounts.
Yours ever, ROGER MIFFLIN.
Chapter X
Roger Raids the Ice-Box
Roger had just put Carlyle"s Cromwell back in its proper place in the History alcove when Helen and t.i.tania returned from the movies. Bock, who had been dozing under his master"s chair, rose politely and wagged a deferential tail.
"I do think Bock has the darlingest manners," said t.i.tania.
"Yes," said Helen, "it"s really a marvel that his wagging muscles aren"t all worn out, he has abused them so."
"Well," said Roger, "did you have a good time?"
"An adorable time!" cried t.i.tania, with a face and voice so sparkling that two musty habitues of the shop popped their heads out of the alcoves marked ESSAYS and THEOLOGY and peered in amazement. One of these even went so far as to purchase the copy of Leigh Hunt"s Wishing Cap Papers he had been munching through, in order to have an excuse to approach the group and satisfy his bewildered eyes. When Miss Chapman took the book and wrapped it up for him, his astonishment was made complete.
Unconscious that she was actually creating business, t.i.tania resumed.
"We met your friend Mr. Gilbert on the street," she said, "and he went to the movies with us. He says he"s coming in on Monday to fix the furnace while you"re away."
"Well," said Roger, "these advertising agencies are certainly enterprising, aren"t they? Think of sending a man over to attend to my furnace, just on the slim chance of getting my advertising account."
"Did you have a quiet evening?" said Helen.
"I spent most of the time writing to Andrew," said Roger. "One amusing thing happened, though. I actually sold that copy of Philip Dru."
"No!" cried Helen.
"A fact," said Roger. "A man was looking at it, and I told him it was supposed to be written by Colonel House. He insisted on buying it.
But what a sell when he tries to read it!"
"Did Colonel House really write it?" asked t.i.tania.
"I don"t know," said Roger. "I hope not, because I find in myself a secret tendency to believe that Mr. House is an able man. If he did write it, I devoutly hope none of the foreign statesmen in Paris will learn of that fact."
While Helen and t.i.tania took off their wraps, Roger was busy closing up the shop. He went down to the corner with Bock to mail his letter, and when he returned to the den Helen had prepared a large jug of cocoa.
They sat down by the fire to enjoy it.
"Chesterton has written a very savage poem against cocoa," said Roger, "which you will find in The Flying Inn; but for my part I find it the ideal evening drink. It lets the mind down gently, and paves the way for slumber. I have often noticed that the most terrific philosophical agonies can be allayed by three cups of Mrs. Mifflin"s cocoa. A man can safely read Schopenhauer all evening if he has a tablespoonful of cocoa and a tin of condensed milk available. Of course it should be made with condensed milk, which is the only way."
"I had no idea anything could be so good," said t.i.tania. "Of course, Daddy makes condensed milk in one of his factories, but I never dreamed of trying it. I thought it was only used by explorers, people at the North Pole, you know."
"How stupid of me!" exclaimed Roger. "I quite forgot to tell you!
Your father called up just after you had gone out this evening, and wanted to know how you were getting on."
"Oh, dear," said t.i.tania. "He must have been delighted to hear I was at the movies, on the second day of my first job! He probably said it was just like me."
"I explained that I had insisted on your going with Mrs. Mifflin, because I felt she needed the change."
"I do hope," said t.i.tania, "you won"t let Daddy poison your mind about me. He thinks I"m dreadfully frivolous, just because I LOOK frivolous.
But I"m so keen to make good in this job. I"ve been practicing doing up parcels all afternoon, so as to learn how to tie the string nicely and not cut it until after the knot"s tied. I found that when you cut it beforehand either you get it too short and it won"t go round, or else too long and you waste some. Also I"ve learned how to make wrapping paper cuffs to keep my sleeves clean."
"Well, I haven"t finished yet," continued Roger. "Your father wants us all to spend to-morrow out at your home. He wants to show us some books he has just bought, and besides he thinks maybe you"re feeling homesick."
"What, with all these lovely books to read? Nonsense! I don"t want to go home for six months!"
"He wouldn"t take No for an answer. He"s going to send Edwards round with the car the first thing to-morrow morning."
"What fun!" said Helen. "It"ll be delightful."
"Goodness," said t.i.tania. "Imagine leaving this adorable bookshop to spend Sunday in Larchmont. Well, I"ll be able to get that georgette blouse I forgot."
"What time will the car be here?" asked Helen.
"Mr. Chapman said about nine o"clock. He begs us to get out there as early as possible, as he wants to spend the day showing us his books."