He caught a big hard breath.
"Oh!" he said and for a few seconds simply sat and gazed at her.
"But it came to life again?" he said afterwards.
"I don"t know. I don"t know what it was. Perhaps it could only live in a very little creature. But it was killed."
"I say!" broke from him. "It was like wringing a canary"s neck when it was singing in the sun!"
A sudden swelling of the music of a new dance swept in to them and he rose and stood up before her.
"Thank you for giving me my chance to tell you," he said. "This was the apology. You have been kind to listen."
"I wanted to listen," Robin said. "I am glad I didn"t live a long time and grow old and die without your telling me. When I saw you tonight I almost said aloud, "He"s come back!""
"I"m glad I came. It"s queer how one can live a thing over again.
There have been all the years between for us both. For me there"s been all a lad"s life--tutors and Eton and Oxford and people and lots of travel and amus.e.m.e.nt. But the minute I set eyes on you near the door something must have begun to drag me back. I"ll own I"ve never liked to let myself dwell on that memory. It wasn"t a good thing because it had a trick of taking me back in a fiendish way to the little chap with his heart bursting in the railway carriage--and the betrayal feeling. It"s morbid to let yourself grouse over what can"t be undone. So you faded away. But when I danced past you somehow I knew I"d come on SOMETHING. It made me restless. I couldn"t keep my eyes away decently. Then all at once I KNEW! I couldn"t tell you what the effect was. There you were again--I was as much obliged to tell you as I should have been if I"d found you at Braemarnie when I got there that night. Conventions had nothing to do with it. It would not have mattered even if you"d obviously thought I was a fool. You might have thought so, you know."
"No, I mightn"t," answered Robin. "There have been no Eton and Oxford and amus.e.m.e.nts for me. This is my first party."
She rose as he had done and they stood for a second or so with their eyes resting on each other"s--each with a young smile quivering into life which neither was conscious of. It was she who first wakened and came back. He saw a tiny pulse flutter in her throat and she lifted her hand with a delicate gesture.
"This dance was Lord Halwyn"s and we"ve sat it out. We must go back to the ball room."
"I--suppose--we must," he answered with slow reluctance--but he could scarcely drag his eyes away from hers--even though he obeyed, and they turned and went.
In the shining ball room the music rose and fell and swelled again into ecstasy as he took her white young lightness in his arm and they swayed and darted and swooped like things of the air--while the old d.u.c.h.ess and Lord Coombe looked on almost unseeing and talked in murmurs of Sarajevo.
THE END