"I cannot," he replied. "I should plead guilty--Mr. Dobson says that if I plead guilty, counsel can plead extenuating circ.u.mstances--intense provocation and so forth--and I might get a more lenient sentence."
"Luke," she said, looking him straight in the face, compelling his eyes to meet hers, for in their clear depths she meant to read the truth, to compel the truth at last. He had never lied in his life. If he lied now she would know it, she would read it in his face. "Luke!
you are shielding some one by taking the crime on your own shoulders."
But his eyes remained perfectly clear and steady as they gazed straight into hers. There was not a shadow in them, not a quiver, as he replied quietly:
"No, Lou, I am shielding no one."
"It was you who killed that man--Philip de Mountford--or Paul Baker--whoever he may be?"
And he answered her firmly, looking steadily into her face:
"It was I."
She said nothing more then, but rose to her feet, and went quite close up to him. With a gesture that had no thought of pa.s.sion in it, only sublime, motherly love, she took Luke"s head in both her hands and pressed it to her heart.
"My poor old Luke!" she murmured.
She smoothed his hair as a mother does to an afflicted child; the motherly instinct was up in arms now, even fighting the womanly, the pa.s.sionate instinct of a less selfless love. She bent down and kissed his forehead.
"Luke," she said gently, "it would do you such a lot of good if you would only let yourself go."
He had contrived to get hold of her hands: those hands which he loved so dearly, with their soft, rose-tinted palms and the scent of sweet peas which clung to them. His own hot fingers closed on those small hands. She stood before him, tall, elegant--not beautiful! Louisa Harris had never been beautiful, nor yet a fairy princess of romance--only a commonplace woman! A woman of the world, over whose graceful form, her personality even, convention invariably threw her mantle--but a woman for all that--with a pa.s.sion burning beneath the crust of worldly _sang-froid_--with heart attuned to feel every quiver, every sensation of joy and of pain. A woman who loved with every fibre in her--who had the supreme gift of merging self in Love--of giving all, her soul, her heart, her mind and every thought--a woman who roused every chord of pa.s.sion in a man"s heart--the woman whom men adore!
And now as Luke de Mountford held her hands, and she stood close beside him, her breath coming and going in quick gasps, with the suppressed excitement of latent self-sacrifice, her eyes glowing and tearless, he half slid from the chair on which he was sitting, and one knee was on the ground, and his face turned up to hers.
He almost smiled, as she repeated, with a little sigh:
"If you would only let yourself go!"
"If I would let myself dwindle down to the level of drivelling fools,"
he said. "G.o.d knows, Lou, it would be easy enough now, when I hold those lovely little hands of yours, and the scent of sweet peas which comes from your dear self reminds me of summer, of old-fashioned gardens of enduring peace. Lou! I dare not even kiss your hands, and yet my whole body aches with the longing to press my lips on them. You see how easily I drift into being a drivelling fool? Would to G.o.d I could lie on the ground here before you, and feel the soles of your feet on my neck. How lucky slaves were in olden days, weren"t they?
They could kneel before their mistress and she would place her naked foot upon their necks. I am a drivelling fool, you see--I talk and talk and let the moments slip by--I am going, Lou, and this is the vision which I am taking with me, the last impression which will dwell in my memory, when memory itself will seem only a dream. You, Lou, standing just here, so close to me that your sweet breath fans my cheek, your dear hands in mine, the scent of sweet peas in my nostrils. The light of this lamp throws a golden radiance over you, your lips are quivering--oh! ever so slightly, and your eyes reveal to me the exquisiteness of your soul. Lou, I am a lucky mortal to have such a vision on which to let my memory dwell!"
She listened in silence, enjoying the delight of hearing him unburdening his soul at last. His love for her! Never had it seemed so great and so pure, now that he spoke of parting! And there was a quaint joy in hearing him thus rambling on--he, the reserved man of the world. Convention had so often sealed his lips, and restrained his pa.s.sion when he was still wandering happily with her on the smooth paths of Love. Now Fate had hurled stone upon stone down that path.
The way was rugged and difficult, parting too, was close at hand; all the restraint of past months tore at the barrier of convention. Luke about to lose the mortal presence of his love, allowed his lips to say that which he had hidden in his heart for so long. The man of the world lost himself in the man who loved.
When he had ceased speaking she said quietly:
"You talk, Luke, as if we were going to part."
"To-night, Lou. I must catch the night boat to Calais."
"My luggage can be sent on," she rejoined simply. "I am quite ready to start."
"To start?" he repeated vaguely.
"Why, yes, Luke," she replied with a smile, "if you go to-night, or at any time, I go with you."
"You cannot, Lou!" he stammered, almost stupidly, feeling quite bewildered, for he had been forcibly dragged back from a happy dreamlike state, to one of impossible reality.
"Why not?"
"You have said it yourself, Lou. I shall be a fugitive from justice .
. . a man with whom no decent woman would care to link her fate."
"Let us admit then," she said almost gaily, "that I am not a decent woman, for my fate is irretrievably linked with yours."
"This is preposterous . . ." he began.
But already she had interrupted him, speaking quietly in that even, contralto voice of hers which he loved to hear.
"Luke," she said, "you must try and understand. You must, because I have so fully made up my mind, that nothing that you could say would make me change it, unless you told me that you no longer loved me. And this," she added with the ghost of a smile, "you cannot now pretend, Luke, after all that you said just now. It is not that my mind wanted making up. My mind has very little to do with it all. It knows just as my heart does that I could not now live without you. I"m not talking nonsense, Luke, and I seem to be too old for mere sentimental twaddle; therefore, when I say that I could not now live parted from you, I say it from the innermost conviction of my heart. Sh--sh--dear," she whispered, seeing that he wished to interrupt her, "don"t try and say anything just yet--not just yet--until I have told you everything. I want you to remember, Luke, that I am no longer very young, and that ever since I can remember anything, I have loved you. I must have loved you even though I did not know it. But if you had never spoken of love to me, if you had never written that letter which I received in Brussels, I probably would have been satisfied to go on with my humdrum life to the end of time; who knows? I might have found contentment if not happiness, by and by with some other man. We women are meant to marry. Men are fond of telling us that our only mission on earth is to marry. But all this possible, quiet content one letter has dissipated. I could never be happy now, never, save in continuing to love you. Life to me would be unspeakably hideous without you and your love. Therefore, I say, Luke, that you have no longer any right to keep me at arm"s length. You have no right, having once come into my life, having once given substance and vitality to my love, to withdraw yourself away from me. Love, dear, is a bond, a mutual bond, as sacred, as binding as any that are contracted on this earth.
You--when you wrote that letter, when first you spoke to me of love--entered into a bond with me. You have no right to force me to break it."
The mellow tones of her contralto voice died down in the heavy atmosphere of the room. They echoed and re-echoed in the heart of the man, who was now kneeling before Louisa, as he would before the Madonna, dumb with the intensity of emotion which her simple words, the sublime selflessness of her sacrifice had brought to an almost maddening pitch. She stood there near him, so devoted, so n.o.ble, and so pure, do you wonder or will you smile, when you see him with fair, young head bowed to the ground pressing his lips on the point of her shoe?
"Luke! don"t," she cried in pa.s.sionate sympathy.
She understood him so well, you see!
"Kiss your feet, dear?" he asked. "I would lie down in the dust for your dear feet to walk over me. I only wonder why G.o.d should love me so that he gave you for this one beautiful moment to me. Lou, my dearest saint, I cannot accept your sacrifice. Dear heart! dear, dear heart! do try and believe me, when I say that I cannot accept it. As for imagining that I don"t understand it and appreciate it, why as soon think that to-morrow"s sun will never rise. I worship you, my saint! and I worship your love--the purest, most tender sentiment that ever glorified this ugly world. But its sacrifice I cannot accept. I cannot. I would sooner do that most cowardly of all deeds, end my life here and now, than be tempted for one single instant into the cowardice of accepting it. But the memory of it, dear, that I will take with me. Do not think of me in future as being unhappy. No man can be unhappy whose heart is fed on such a memory!"
He had her two hands imprisoned in his, the scent of sweet peas floating gently to his nostrils. As he buried his lips in their fragrant soft palms he was entirely happy. The world had floated away from him. He was in a land of magic with her; in a land where the air was filled with the fragrance of sweet peas, a land of phantasmagoria, the land of Fata Morgana, which none can enter save those who love.
Time sped on, and both had forgotten the world. The fire crackled in the hearth, the clock alone recorded the pa.s.sing of time. The noise of the great city--so cruel to those who suffer--came but as faint echo through the closely drawn curtains.
There was a discreet knock at the door, and as no reply came from within, it was repeated more insistently.
Luke jumped to his feet, and Louisa retreated into the shadow.
"Come in!" said Luke.
The door was opened, quite softly from outside, and the well-drilled servant said:
"Two gentlemen to see you, sir."
"Where are they, Mary?" he asked.
"In the hall, sir."
"Did they give their names?"
"No, sir."
"Where"s Miss Edie, Mary?"
"In the drawing room, sir, with Colonel Harris."
"Very well. Then show the two gentlemen into the dining-room. I"ll come in a moment."