CHAPTER VII
A day later Dennison brought up the card of Miss Margaret Clay.
Rachael turned it slowly in her hands, pondering, with a quickened heartbeat and a fluctuating color. Magsie had been often a guest in Rachael"s house a year ago, but she had not been to see Rachael for a long time now. They were to meet, they were to talk alone together--what about? There was nothing about which Rachael Gregory cared to talk to Margaret Clay.
A certain chilliness and trembling smote Rachael, and she sat down. She wished she had been out. It would be simple enough to send down a message to that effect, of course, but that was not the same thing. That would be evading the issue, whereas, had she been out, she could not have held herself responsible for missing Magsie.
Well, the girl was in the neighborhood, of course, and had simply come in to say now do you do? But it would mean evasions, and affectations, and insincerities to talk with Magsie; it would mean lying, unless there must be an open breach. Rachael found herself in a state of actual dread of the encounter, and to end it, impatient at anything so absurd, she asked Dennison to bring the young lady at once to her own sitting-room.
This was the transformed apartment that had been old Mrs.
Gregory"s, running straight across the bedroom floor, and commanding from four wide windows a glimpse of the old square, now brave in new feathery green. Rachael had replaced its dull red rep with modern tapestries, had had it papered in peac.o.c.k and gray, had covered the old, dark woodwork with cream-colored enamel and replaced the black marble mantel with a simply carved one of white stone. The chairs here were all comfortable now; Rachael"s book lay on a magazine-littered table, a dozen tiny, leather-cased animals, cows, horses, and sheep, were stabled on the hearth, and the spring sunlight poured in through fragile curtains of crisp net. Over the fireplace the great oil portrait of Warren Gregory smiled down, a younger Warren, but hardly more handsome than he was to-day. A pastel of the boys" lovely heads hung opposite it, between two windows, and photographs of Jim and Derry and their father were everywhere: on the desk, on the little grand piano, under the table lamp. This was Rachael"s own domain, and in asking Magsie to come here she consciously chose the environment in which she would feel most at ease.
Upstairs came the light, tripping feet. "In here?" said the fresh, confident voice. Magsie came in.
Rachael met her at the door, and the two women shook hands. Magsie hardly glanced at her hostess, her dancing scrutiny swept the room and settled on Warren"s portrait.
She looked her prettiest, Rachael decided miserably. She was all in white: white shoes, white stockings, the smartest of little white suits, a white hat half hiding her heavy ma.s.ses of trimly banded golden hair. If her hard winter had tired Magsie--"The Bad Little Lady" was approaching the end of its run--she did not show it. But there was some new quality in her face, some quality almost wistful, almost anxious, that made its appeal even to Warren Gregory"s wife.
"This is nice of you, Magsie," Rachael said, watching her closely, and conscious still of that absurd flutter at her heart. Both women had seated themselves, now Rachael reached for the silk- lined basket where she kept a little pretence of needlework, and began to sew. There were several squares of dark rich silks in the basket, and their touch seemed to give her confidence.
"What are you making?" said Magsie with a rather touching pretence at interest. Rachael began to perceive that Magsie was ill at ease, too. She knew the girl well enough to know that nothing but her own affairs interested her; it was not like Magsie to ask seriously about another woman"s sewing.
"Warren likes silk handkerchiefs," explained Rachael, all the capable wife, "and those I make are much prettier than those he can find in the shops. So I pick up pieces of silk, from time to time, and keep him supplied."
"He always has beautiful handkerchiefs," said Magsie rather faintly. "I remember, years ago, when I was with Mrs. Torrence, thinking that Greg always looked so--so carefully groomed."
"A doctor has to be," Rachael answered sensibly. There were no girlish vapors or uncertainties about her manner; she had been the man"s wife for nearly seven years; she was in his house; she need not fear Magsie Clay.
"I suppose so," Magsie said vaguely.
"What are your plans, Magsie?" Rachael asked kindly, as she threaded a needle.
"We close on the eighteenth," Magsie announced.
"Yes, so I noticed." Rachael had looked for this news every week since the run of the play began. "Well, that was a successful engagement, wasn"t it?" she asked. It began to be rather a satisfaction to Rachael to find herself at such close quarters at last. What a harmless little thing this dreaded opponent was, after all!
"Yes, they were delighted," Magsie responded still in such a lackadaisical, toneless, and dreary manner that Rachael glanced at her in surprise. Magsie"s eyes were full of tears.
"Why, what"s the matter, my dear child?" she asked, feeling more sure of herself every instant.
Her guest took a little handkerchief from her pretty white leather purse, and touched her bright brown eyes with it lightly.
"I"ll tell you, Rachael," said she, with an evident effort at brightness and naturalness, "I came here to see you about something to-day, but I--I don"t quite know how to begin. Only, whatever you think about it, I want you to remember that your opinion is what counts; you"re the one person who--who can really advise me, and--and perhaps help me and other people out of a difficulty."
Rachael looked at her with a twinge of inward distaste. This rather dramatic start did not promise well; she was to be treated to some youthful heroics. Instantly the hope came to her that Magsie had some new admirer, someone she would really consider as a husband, and wanted to make of Rachael an advocate with Warren, who, in his present absurd state of infatuation, might not find such a situation to his taste.
"I want to put to you the case of a friend of mine," Magsie said presently, "a girl who, like myself, is on the stage." Rachael wondered if the girl really hoped to say anything convincing under so thin a disguise, but said nothing herself, and Magsie went on: "She"s pretty, and young--" Her tone wavered. "We"ve had a nice company all winter," she remarked lamely.
This was beginning to be rather absurd. Rachael, quite at ease, raised mildly interrogatory eyes to Magsie.
"You"ll go on with your work, now that you"ve begun so well, won"t you?" she asked casually.
"W--w--well, I suppose so," Magsie answered dubiously, flushing a sudden red. "I--don"t know what I shall do!"
"But surely you"ve had an unusually encouraging beginning?"
pursued Rachael comfortably.
"Oh, yes, there"s no doubt about that, at least!" Magsie said.
About what was there doubt, then? Rachael wondered.
She deliberately allowed a little silence to follow this remark, smiling, as if at her own thoughts, as she sewed. The younger woman"s gaze roved restlessly about the room, she leaned from her chair to take a framed photograph of the boys from a low bookcase, and studied it with evidently forced attention.
"They"re stunning!" she said in an undertone as she laid it aside.
"They"re good little boys," their mother said contentedly. "I know that the queerest persons in the world, about eating and drinking, are actresses, Magsie," she added, smiling, "so I don"t know whether to offer you tea, or hot soup, or an egg beaten up in milk, or what! We had a pianist here about a year ago, and--"
"Oh, nothing, nothing, thank you, Rachael!" Magsie said eagerly and nervously. "I couldn"t--"
"The boys may be in soon," Rachael remarked, choosing to ignore her guest"s rather unexpected emotion.
This seemed to spur Magsie suddenly into speech. She glanced at the tall old moonfaced clock that was slowly ticking near the door, as if to estimate the time left her, and sat suddenly erect on the edge of her chair.
"I mustn"t stay,"" she said breathlessly. "I--I have to be back at the theatre at seven, and I ought to go home first for a few minutes. My girl--she"s just a Swedish woman that I picked up by chance--worries about me as if she were my mother, unless I come in and rest, and take an eggnog, or something." She rallied her forces with a quite visible effort. "It was just this, Rachael,"
said Magsie, looking at the fire, and twisting her white gloves in desperate embarra.s.sment, "I know you"ve always liked me, you"ve always been so kind to me, and I can only hope that you"ll forgive me if what I say sounds strange to you. I thought I could come here and say it, but--I"ve always been a little bit afraid of you, Rachael--and I"--Magsie laughed nervously--"and I"m scared to death now!" she said simply.
Something natural, unaffected, and direct in her usually self- conscious and artificial manner struck Rachael with a vague sense of uneasiness. Magsie certainly did not seem to be acting now; there were real tears in her pretty eyes, and a genuine break in her young voice.
"I"m going straight ahead," she said rapidly, "because I"ve been getting up my courage this whole week to come and see you, and now, while Greg is in Albany, I can"t put it off any longer. He doesn"t know it, of course, and, although I know I"m putting myself entirely at your mercy, Rachael, I believe you"ll never tell him if I ask you not to!"
"I don"t understand," Rachael said slowly.
"I"ve been thinking it all out," Magsie went on, "and this is the conclusion--at least, this is what I"ve thought! You have always had everything, Rachael. You"ve always been so beautiful, and so much admired. You loved Clarence, and married him--oh, don"t think I"m rude, Rachael," the girl pleaded eagerly, as Rachael voiced an inarticulate protest, "because I"m so desperately in earnest, and s-s-so desperately unhappy!" Her voice broke on a rush of tears, but she commanded it, and hurried on. "You"ve always been fortunate, not like other women, who had to be second best, but ALWAYS the cleverest, and ALWAYS the handsomest! I remember, when I heard you were to marry Greg, I was just sick with misery for two or three days! I had seen him a few weeks before in Paris, but he said nothing of it, didn"t even mention you. Don"t think I was jealous, Rachael--it wasn"t that. But it seemed to me that you had everything! First the position of marrying a Breckenridge, then to step straight into Greg"s life. You"ll never know how I--how I singled you out to watch--"
"Just as I have singled you out this horrible winter," Rachael said to herself, in strange pain and bewilderment at heart. Magsie watched her hopefully, but Rachael did not speak, and the girl went on:
"When I came to America I thought of you, and I listened to what everyone said of you. You had a splendid boy, named for Greg, and then another boy; you were richer and happier and more admired than ever! And Rachael--I know you"ll forgive me--you were so much FINER than ever--when I met you I saw that. I couldn"t dislike you, I couldn"t do anything but admire, with all the others. I remember at Leila"s wedding, when you wore dark blue and furs, and you looked so lovely! And then I met Greg again. And truly, truly, Rachael, I never dreamed of this then!"
"Dreamed of what?" Rachael said with dry lips. The girl"s voice, the darkening room, the dull, fluttering flames of the dying fire, seemed all like some oppressive dream.
"Dreamed--" Magsie"s voice sank. Her eyes closed, she put one hand over her heart, and pressed it there. "Then came my plan to go on the stage," she said, taking up her story, "and one day, when I was especially blue, I met Greg. We had tea together. I"ve never forgotten one instant of that day! He tried to telephone you, but couldn"t get you; we just talked like any friends. But he promised to help me, he was so interested, and I was homesick for Paris, and ready to die in this awful city! After that you gave me a dinner, and then we had theatricals, and then Bowman placed me, and I had to go on the road. But I saw Greg two or three times, and one day--one day last winter"--again her voice faltered, as if she found the memories too poignant for speech--"we drove in the Park," she said dreamily; "and then Greg saw how it was."
Rachael sat silent, stunned.
"Oh, Rachael," the girl said pa.s.sionately. "Don"t think I didn"t fight it! I thought of you, I tried to think for us all. I said we would never see each other again, and I went away--you know that!
For months after that day in the Park we hardly saw each other.
And then, last summer, we met again. And he talked to me so wonderfully, Rachael, about making the best of it, about being good friends anyway--and I"ve lived on that! But I can"t live on that forever, Rachael."