Perhaps I ought to drive. I suppose I ought to try everything."
Not at all discouraged, apparently, by this lack of enthusiasm, Cartwell said:
"I won"t let you overdo. I"ll have the top-buggy for you and we"ll go slowly and carefully."
"No," said Rhoda, suddenly recalling that, after all, Cartwell was an Indian, "I don"t think I will go. Katherine will have all sorts of objections."
The Indian smiled sardonically.
"I already have Mrs. Jack"s permission. Billy Porter will be in, in a moment. If you would rather have a white man than an Indian, as escort, I"m quite willing to retreat."
Rhoda flushed delicately.
"Your frankness is almost--almost impertinent, Mr. Cartwell."
"I don"t mean it that way at all!" protested the Indian. "It"s just that I saw so plainly what was going on in your mind and it piqued me. If it will be one bit pleasanter for you with Billy, I"ll go right out and hunt him up for you now."
The young man"s navete completely disarmed Rhoda.
"Don"t be silly!" she said. "Go get your famous top-buggy and I"ll be ready in a minute."
In a short time Rhoda and Cartwell, followed by many injunctions from Katherine, started off toward the irrigating ditch. At a slow pace they drove through the peach orchard into the desert. As they reached the open trail, thrush and to-hee fluttered from the cholla. Chipmunk and cottontail scurried before them. Overhead a hawk dipped in its reeling flight. Cartwell watched the girl keenly. Her pale face was very lovely in the brilliant morning light, though the somberness of her wide, gray eyes was deepened. That same muteness and patience in her trouble which so touched other men touched Cartwell, but he only said:
"There never was anything bigger and finer than this open desert, was there?"
Rhoda turned from staring at the distant mesas and eyed the young Indian wonderingly.
"Why!" she exclaimed, "I hate it! You know that sick fear that gets you when you try to picture eternity to yourself? That"s the way this barrenness and awful distance affects me. I hate it!"
"But you won"t hate it!" cried Cartwell. "You must let me show you its bigness. It"s as healing as the hand of G.o.d."
Rhoda shuddered.
"Don"t talk about it, please! I"ll try to think of something else."
They drove in silence for some moments. Rhoda, her thin hands clasped in her lap, resolutely stared at the young Indian"s profile. In the unreal world in which she drifted, she needed some thought of strength, some hope beyond her own, to which to cling. She was lonely--lonely as some outcast watching with sick eyes the joy of the world to which he is denied. As she stared at the stern young profile beside her, into her heart crept the now familiar thrill.
Suddenly Cartwell turned and looked at her quizzically.
"Well, what are your conclusions?"
Rhoda shook her head.
"I don"t know, except that it"s hard to realize that you are an Indian."
Cartwell"s voice was ironical.
"The only good Indian is a dead Indian, you know. I"m liable to break loose any time, believe me!"
Rhoda"s eyes were on the far lavender line where the mesa melted into the mountains.
"Yes, and then what?" she asked.
Cartwell"s eyes narrowed, but Rhoda did not see.
"Then I"m liable to follow Indian tradition and take whatever I want, by whatever means!"
"My! My!" said Rhoda, "that sounds bludgy! And what are you liable to want?"
"Oh, I want the same thing that a great many white men want. I"m going to have it myself, though!" His handsome face glowed curiously as he looked at Rhoda.
But the girl was giving his words small heed. Her eyes still were turned toward the desert, as though she had forgotten her companion. Sand whirls crossed the distant levels, ceaselessly. Huge and menacing, they swirled out from the mesa"s edge, crossed the desert triumphantly, then, at contact with rock or cholla thicket, collapsed and disappeared.
Endless, merciless, hopeless the yellow desert quivered against the bronze blue sky. For the first time dazed hopelessness gave way in Rhoda to fear. The young Indian, watching the girl"s face, beheld in it what even DeWitt never had seen there--beheld deadly fear. He was silent for a moment, then he leaned toward her and put a strong brown hand over her trembling little fists. His voice was deep and soft.
"Don"t," he said, "don"t!"
Perhaps it was the subtle, not-to-be-fathomed influence of the desert which fights all sham; perhaps it was that Rhoda merely had reached the limit of her heroic self-containment and that, had DeWitt or Newman been with her, she would have given way in the same manner; perhaps it was that the young Indian"s presence had in it a quality that roused new life in her. Whatever the cause; the listless melancholy suddenly left Rhoda"s gray eyes and they were wild and black with fear.
"I can"t die!" she panted. "I can"t leave my life unlived! I can"t crawl on much longer like a sick animal without a soul. I want to live!
To live!"
"Look at me!" said Cartwell. "Look at me, not at the desert!" Then as she turned to him, "Listen, Rhoda! You shall not die! I will make you well! You shall not die!"
For a long minute the two gazed deep into each other"s eyes, and the sense of quickening blood touched Rhoda"s heart. Then they both woke to the sound of hoof-beats behind them and John DeWitt, with a wildcat thrown across his saddle, rode up.
"h.e.l.lo! I"ve shouted one lung out! I thought you people were petrified!" He looked curiously from Rhoda"s white face to Cartwell"s inscrutable one. "Do you think you ought to have attempted this trip, Rhoda?" he asked gently.
"Oh, we"ve taken it very slowly," answered the Indian. "And we are going to turn back now."
"I don"t think I"ve overdone," said Rhoda. "But perhaps we have had enough."
"All right," said Cartwell. "If Mr. DeWitt will change places with me, I"ll ride on to the ditch and he can drive you back."
DeWitt a.s.sented eagerly and, the change made, Cartwell lifted his hat and was gone. Rhoda and John returned in a silence that lasted until DeWitt lifted Rhoda from the buggy to the veranda. Then he said:
"Rhoda, I don"t like to have you go off alone with Cartwell. I wish you wouldn"t."
Rhoda smiled.
"John, don"t be silly! He goes about with Katherine all the time."
John only shook his head and changed the subject. That afternoon, however, Billy Porter b.u.t.tonholed DeWitt in the corral where the New Yorker was watching the Arizonian saddle his fractious horse. When the horse was ready at the post, "Look here, DeWitt," said Billy, an embarra.s.sed look in his honest brown eyes, "I don"t want you to think I"m b.u.t.tin" in, but some one ought to watch that young Injun. Anybody with one eye can see he"s crazy about Miss Rhoda."
John was too startled to be resentful.
"What do you mean?" he exclaimed. "Cartwell is a great friend of the Newmans"."
"That"s why I came to you. They"re plumb locoed about the fellow, like the rest of the Easterners around here."