"Then it won"t matter if I cry. My cheeks"ll already be wet."
"Ruth . . . honey . . . I . . ."
"Just take me for a walk the way . . . we used to."
Still he hesitated. There was something frightening about the grove . . . pressure, an almost sound. He stepped to the car, reached in and found his gla.s.ses. He slipped them on, looked around -- nothing. No gnats, not a sign of anything odd -- except the pressure.
"You won"t need your gla.s.ses," Ruth said. She took his arm.
Thurlow found he couldn"t speak past a sudden ache in his throat. He tried to a.n.a.lyze his fear. It wasn"t a personal thing. He decided he was afraid for Ruth.
"Come on," she said.
He allowed her to lead him across the gra.s.s toward the bridle path. Darkness came like a sharp demarcation as they emerged from the eucalyptus grove onto the first rise up through pines and buckeyes that hemmed the riding club"s trail. Widely s.p.a.ced night-riding lights attached to the trees came on with a wet glimmering through drenched leaves. In spite of the afternoon"s rain, the duff-packed trail felt firm underfoot.
"We"ll have the trail to ourselves tonight," Ruth said. "No one"ll be out because of the rain." She squeezed his arm.
But we don"t have it to ourselves, Thurlow thought. He could feel a presence with them -- a hovering something . . . watchful, dangerous. He looked down at Ruth. The top of her head came just above his shoulder. The red hair glinted wetly in the dim overhead light. There was a feeling of damp silence around them -- and that odd sense of pressure. The packed duff of the trail absorbed their footfalls with barely a sound.
This is a crazy feeling, he thought. If a patient described this to me, I"d begin probing immediately for the source of the delusional material.
"I used to walk up here when I was a child," Ruth said. "That was before they put in the lights for the night parties. I hated it when they put in the lights."
"You walked here in the dark?" he asked.
"Yes. I never told you that, did I?"
"No."
"The air feels clear after the rain." She took a deep breath.
"Didn"t your parents object? How old were you?"
"About eleven, I guess. My parents didn"t know. They were always so busy with parties and things."
The bridle path diverged at a small glade with a dark path leading off to the left through an opening in a rock retaining wall. They went through the gap, down a short flight of steps and onto the tarred top of an elevated water storage tank. Below them the city"s lights spread wet velvet jewels across the night. The lights cast an orange glow against low hanging clouds.
Now, Thurlow could feel the odd pressure intensely. He looked up and around -- nothing. He glanced down at the pale grayness of Ruth"s face.
"When we got here you used to say: "May I kiss you?"" she said. "And I used to say: "I was hoping you"d ask.""
Ruth turned, pressed against him, lifted her face. His fears, the vague pressure, all were forgotten as he bent to kiss her. It seemed for a moment that time had moved backward, that Denver, Nev -- none of these things had happened. But the warmth of her kiss, the demanding way her body pressed against him -- these filled him with a mounting astonishment. He pulled away.
"Ruth, I . . ."
She put a finger against his lips. "Don"t say it." Then: "Andy, didn"t you ever want to go to a motel with me?"
"h.e.l.l! Lots of times, but . . ."
"You"ve never made a real pa.s.s at me."
He felt that she was laughing at him and this brought anger into his voice. "I was in love with you!"
"I know," she whispered.
"I didn"t want just a roll in the hay. I wanted . . . well, dammit, I wanted to mate with you, have children, the whole schmoo."
"What a fool I was," she whispered.
"Honey, what"re you going to do? Are you going to get . . . a . . ." He hesitated.
"A divorce?" she asked. "Of course -- afterward."
"After the . . . trial."
"Yes."
"That"s the trouble with a small town," he said. "Everyone knows everyone else"s business even when it"s none of their business."
"For a psychologist, that"s a very involved sentence," she said. She snuggled against him and they stood there silently while Thurlow remembered the vague pressure and probed for it in his mind as though it were a sore tooth. Yes, it was still there. When he relaxed his guard, a deep disquiet filled him.
"I keep thinking about my mother," Ruth said.
"Oh?"
"She loved my father, too."
Coldness settled in his stomach. He started to speak, remained silent as his eyes detected movement against the orange glow of clouds directly in front of him. An object settled out of the clouds and came to a hovering stop about a hundred yards away and slightly above their water-tank vantage point. Thurlow could define the thing"s shape against the background glow -- four shimmering tubular legs beneath a fluorescing green dome. A rainbow circle of light whirled around the base of each leg.
"Andy! You"re hurting me!"
He realized he had locked his arms around her in a spasm of shock. Slowly, he released his grip.
"Turn around," he whispered. "Tell me what you see out there against the clouds."
She gave him a puzzled frown, turned to peer out toward the city. "Where?"
"Slightly above us -- straight ahead against the clouds."
"I don"t see anything."
The object began drifting nearer. Thurlow could distinguish figures behind the green dome. They moved in a dim, phosph.o.r.escent light. The rainbow glow beneath the thing"s tubular legs began to fade.
"What"re you looking at?" Ruth asked. "What is it?"
He felt her trembling beneath his hand on her shoulder. "Right there," he said, pointing. "Look, right there."
She bent to stare along his arm. "I don"t see a thing -- just clouds."