"Yes. And he"d be unhappy, too. Is that what you want?"
"No--no--no! You don"t understand."
"I"ll try to. What do you want? Tell me."
"To help him."
"You can"t help him," he said softly.
"I couldn"t help him if "e was rich. I can help him if he"s poor."
He smiled. "How do you make that out, Maggie?"
"Well--he ought to marry a lady, I know. But he can"t marry a lady. She"d cost him pounds and pounds. If he married me I"d cost him nothing. I"d work for him."
Majendie was startled at this reasoning. Maggie was more intelligent than he had thought.
She went on. "I can cook, I can do housework, I can sew. I"m learning dressmaking. Look--" She held up a coa.r.s.e lining she had been st.i.tching at when he came. From its appearance he judged that Maggie was as yet a novice in her art.
"I"d work my fingers to the bone for him."
"And you think he"d be happy seeing you do that? A gentleman can"t let his wife work for him. He has to work for her." He paused. "And there"s another reason, Maggie, why he can"t marry you."
Maggie"s head drooped. "I know," she said. "But I thought--if he was poor--he wouldn"t mind so much. They don"t, sometimes."
"I don"t think you quite know what I mean."
"I do. You mean he"s afraid. He won"t trust me. He doesn"t think I"m very good. But I would be--if he married me--I would--I would indeed."
"Of course you would. Whatever happens you"re going to be good. That wasn"t what I meant by the other reason."
Her face flamed. "Has he left off caring for me?"
He was silent, and the flame died in her face.
"Does he care for somebody else?"
"It would be better for you if you could think so."
"_I_ know," she said; "it"s the lady he used to send flowers to. I thought it was all right. I thought it was funerals."
She sat very still, taking it in.
"Is he going to marry her?"
"No. He isn"t going to marry her."
"She"s not got enough money, I suppose. _She_ can"t help him."
"You must leave him free to marry somebody who can."
He waited to see what she would do. He expected tears, and a storm of jealous rage. But all Maggie did was to sit stiller than ever, while her tears gathered, and fell, and gathered again.
Majendie rose. "I may tell Mr. Gorst that you accept his explanation?
That you understand?"
"Am I never to see him again?"
"I"m afraid not."
"Nor write to him?"
"It"s better not. It only worries him."
She looked round her, dazed by the destruction of her dream.
"What am I to do, then? Where am I to go to?"
"Stay where you are, if you"re comfortable. Your rent will be paid for you, and you shall have a small allowance."
"But who"s going to give it me?"
"Mr. Gorst would, if he could. As he cannot, I am."
"You mustn"t," said she. "I can"t take it from you."
He had approached this point with a horrible dread lest she should misunderstand him.
"Better to take it from me than from him, or anybody else," he said significantly; "if it must be."
But Maggie had not misunderstood.
"I can work," she said. "I can pay a little _now_."
"No, no. Never mind about that. Keep it--keep all you earn."
"I can"t keep it. I"ll pay you back again. I"ll work my fingers to the bone."
"Oh, not for me" he said, laughing, as he took up his hat to go.
Maggie lifted her sad head, and faced him with all her candour.
"Yes," she said, "for you."
CHAPTER XXII