When the Arrans left him in September he went to pay a few visits in the country, and on his return, a month later, to the studio building he found that things had not gone well with Caspar. The little sculptor had caught cold, and the labour and expense of converting his gigantic offspring into marble seemed to hang heavily upon him. He and Kate were living in a damp company of amorphous clay monsters, unfinished witnesses to the creative frenzy which had seized him after the sale of his group; and the doctor had urged that his patient should be removed to warmer and drier lodgings. But to uproot Caspar was impossible, and his sister could only feed the stove, and swaddle him in m.u.f.flers and felt slippers.
Stanwell found that during his absence Mungold had reappeared, fresh and rosy from a summer in Europe, and as prodigal as ever of the only form of attention which Kate could be counted on not to resent. The game and champagne reappeared with him, and he seemed as ready as Stanwell to lend a patient ear to Caspar"s homilies. But Stanwell could see that, even now, Kate had not forgiven him for the Cupids. Stanwell himself had spent the early winter months in idleness. The sight of his tools filled him with a strange repugnance, and he absented himself as much as possible from the studio. But Shepson"s visit roused him to the fact that he must decide on some definite course of action. If he wished to follow up his success of the previous spring he must refuse no more orders: he must not let Mrs. Van Orley slip away from him. He knew there were compet.i.tors enough ready to profit by his hesitations, and since his success was the result of a whim, a whim might undo it.
With a sudden gesture of decision he caught up his hat and left the studio.
On the landing he met Kate Arran. She too was going out, drawn forth by the sudden radiance of the January afternoon. She met him with a smile which seemed the answer to his uncertainties, and he asked abruptly if she had time to take a walk with him.
Yes; for once she had time, for Mr. Mungold was sitting with Caspar, and had promised to remain till she came in. It mattered little to Stanwell that Mungold was with Caspar as long as he himself was with Kate; and he instantly soared to the suggestion that they should prolong the painter"s vigil by taking the "elevated" to the Park. In this too his companion acquiesced after a moment of surprise: she seemed in a consenting mood, and Stanwell augured well from the fact.
The Park was clothed in the double glitter of snow and sunshine. They roamed the hard white alleys to a continuous tinkle of sleigh-bells, and Kate brightened with the exhilaration of the scene. It was not often that she permitted herself such an escape from routine, and in this new environment, which seemed to detach her from her daily setting, Stanwell had his first complete vision of her. To the girl also their unwonted isolation seemed to create a sense of fuller communion, for she began presently, as they reached the leafless solitude of the Ramble, to speak with sudden freedom of her brother. It appeared that the orders against which Caspar had so heroically steeled himself were slow in coming: he had received no commission since the sale of his group, and he was beginning to suffer from a reaction of discouragement. Oh, it was not the craving for popularity--Stanwell knew how far above that he stood. But it had been exquisite, yes, exquisite to him to find himself believed in, understood. He had fancied that the purchase of the group was the dawn of a tardy recognition--and now the darkness of indifference had set in again, no one spoke of him, no one wrote of him, no one cared.
"If he were in good health it would not matter--he would throw off such weakness, he would live only for the joy of his work; but he is losing ground, his strength is failing, and he is so afraid there will not be time enough left--time enough for full recognition," she explained.
The quiver in her voice silenced Stanwell: he was afraid of echoing it with his own. At length he said: "Oh, more orders will come. Success is a gradual growth."
"Yes, _real_ success," she said, with a solemn note in which he caught--and forgave--a reflection on his own facile triumphs.
"But when the orders do come," she continued, "will he have strength to carry them out? Last winter the doctor thought he only needed work to set him up; now he talks of rest instead! He says we ought to go to a warm climate--but how can Caspar leave the group?"
"Oh, hang the group--let him chuck the order!" cried Stanwell.
She looked at him tragically. "The money is spent," she said.
He coloured to the roots of his hair. "But ill-health--ill-health excuses everything. If he goes away now he will come back good for twice the amount of work in the spring. A sculptor is not expected to deliver a statue on a given day, like a package of groceries! You must do as the doctor says--you must make him chuck everything and go."
They had reached a windless nook above the lake, and, pausing in the stress of their talk, she let herself sink on a bench beside the path.
The movement encouraged him, and he seated himself at her side.
"You must take him away at once," he repeated urgently. "He must be made comfortable--you must both be free from worry. And I want you to let me manage it for you--"
He broke off, silenced by her rising blush, her protesting murmur.
"Oh, stop, please; let me explain. I"m not talking of lending you money; I"m talking of giving you--myself. The offer may be just as unacceptable, but it"s of a kind to which it"s customary to accord it a hearing. I should have made it a year ago--the first day I saw you, I believe!--but that, then, it wasn"t in my power to make things easier for you. But now, you know, I"ve had a little luck. Since I painted Mrs. Millington things have changed. I believe I can get as many orders as I choose--there are two or three people waiting now. What"s the use of it all, if it doesn"t bring me a little happiness? And the only happiness I know is the kind that you can give me."
He paused, suddenly losing the courage to look at her, so that her pained murmur was framed for him in a glittering vision of the frozen lake. He turned with a start and met the refusal in her eyes.
"No--really no?" he repeated.
She shook her head silently.
"I could have helped you--I could have helped you!" he sighed.
She flushed distressfully, but kept her eyes on his.
"It"s just that--don"t you see?" she reproached him.
"Just that--the fact that I could be of use to you?"
"The fact that, as you say, things have changed since you painted Mrs.
Millington. I haven"t seen the later portraits, but they tell me--"
"Oh, they"re just as bad!" Stanwell jeered.
"You"ve sold your talent, and you know it: that"s the dreadful part.
You did it deliberately," she cried with pa.s.sion.
"Oh, deliberately," he interjected.
"And you"re not ashamed--you talk of going on."
"I"m not ashamed; I talk of going on."
She received this with a long shuddering sigh, and turned her eyes away from him.
"Oh, why--why--why?" she lamented.
It was on the tip of Stanwell"s tongue to answer, "That I might say to you what I am just saying now--" but he replied instead: "A man may paint bad pictures and be a decent fellow. Look at Mungold, after all!"
The adjuration had an unexpected effect. Kate"s colour faded suddenly, and she sat motionless, with a stricken face.
"There"s a difference--" she began at length abruptly; "the difference you"ve always insisted on. Mr. Mungold paints as well as he can. He has no idea that his pictures are--less good than they might be."
"Well--?"
"So he can"t be accused of doing what he does for money--of sacrificing anything better." She turned on him with troubled eyes. "It was you who made me understand that, when Caspar used to make fun of him."
Stanwell smiled. "I"m glad you still think me a better painter than Mungold. But isn"t it hard that for that very reason I should starve in a hole? If I painted badly enough you"d see no objection to my living at the Waldorf!"
"Ah, don"t joke about it," she murmured. "Don"t triumph in it."
"I see no reason to at present," said Stanwell drily. "But I won"t pretend to be ashamed when I"m not. I think there are occasions when a man is justified in doing what I"ve done."
She looked at him solemnly. "What occasions?"
"Why, when he wants money, hang it!"
She drew a deep breath. "Money--money? Has Caspar"s example been nothing to you, then?"
"It hasn"t proved to me that I must starve while Mungold lives on truffles!"
Again her face changed and she stirred uneasily, and then rose to her feet.
"There is no occasion which can justify an artist"s sacrificing his convictions!" she exclaimed.
Stanwell rose too, facing her with a mounting urgency which sent a flush to his cheek.
"Can"t you conceive such an occasion in my case? The wish, I mean, to make things easier for Caspar--to help you in any way you might let me?"
Her face reflected his blush, and she stood gazing at him with a wounded wonder.