"Besides," he continued, between strokes of the saw, "I want to make a stake and get to h.e.l.l out of here."
Hollister did not press him for reasons. Mills did work as if the devil drove him, and in his quiescent moments an air of melancholy clouded his dark face as if physical pa.s.sivity left him a prey to some inescapable inner gloom.
All about him, then, Hollister perceived strong undercurrents of life flowing sometimes in the open, sometimes underground: Charlie Mills and Myra Bland touched by that universal pa.s.sion which has brought happiness and pain, dizzy heights of ecstasy and deep abysses of despair to men and women since the beginning of time; Lawanne apparently succ.u.mbing to the same malady that touched Mills; Bland moving in the foreground, impa.s.sive, stolidly secure in the possession of this desired woman. And all of them bowed before and struggling under economic forces which they did not understand, working and planning, according to their lights, to fulfill the law of their being, seeking through the means at hand to secure the means of livelihood in obedience to the universal will to live, the human desire to lay firm hold of life, liberty, such happiness as could be grasped.
Hollister would sit in the evening on the low stoop before his cabin and Doris would sit beside him with her hand on his knee. A spirit of drowsy content would rest upon them. Hollister"s eyes would see the river, gray now with the glacial discharge, slipping quietly along between the fringes of alder and maple, backed by the deeper green of the fir and cedar and groves of enormous spruce. His wife"s ears drank in the whispering of the stream, the rumbling of distant waterfalls, and her warm body would press against him with an infinite suggestion of delight. At such times he felt the goodness of being alive, the mild intoxication of the fragrant air which filled the valley, the majestic beauty of those insentient hills upon which the fierce midsummer sun was baring glacial patches that gleamed now like blue diamonds or again with a pale emerald sheen, in a setting of worn granite and white snowdrifts five thousand feet above.
In this wilderness, this vast region of forest and streams and wild mountain ranges, men were infinitesimal specks hurrying here and there about their self-appointed tasks. Those like himself and Doris, who did not mind the privations inseparable from that remoteness, fared well enough. The land held out to them manifold promises. Hollister looked at the red-brown shingle bolts acc.u.mulating behind the boom-sticks and felt that inner satisfaction which comes of success achieved by plan and labor. If his mutilated face had been capable of expression, it would have reflected pride, satisfaction. Out of the apparent wreckage of his life he was laying the foundations of something permanent, something abiding, an enduring source of good. He would tangle his fingers in Doris" brown hair and feel glad.
Then perhaps his eyes would shift downstream to where Bland"s stark, weather-beaten cabin lifted its outline against the green thickets, and he would think uneasily upon what insecure tenure, upon what deliberate violation of law and of current morality he held his dearest treasure. What would she think, if she knew, this dainty creature cuddling against his knee? He would wake in the night and lie on elbow staring at her face in the moonlight,--delicate-skinned as a child"s, that lovable, red-lipped mouth, those dear, blind eyes which sometimes gave him the illusion of seeing clearly out of their gray depths.
What would she think? What would she, say? What would she do? He did not know. It troubled him to think of this. If he could have swept Myra out of North America with a wave of his hand, he would have made one sweeping gesture. He was jealous of his happiness, his security, and Myra"s presence was not only a reminder; it had the effect upon him of a threat he could not ignore.
Yet he was compelled to ignore it. She and Doris had become fast friends. It all puzzled Hollister very much sometimes. Except for the uprooting, the undermining influences of his war experience, he would have been revolted at his own actions. He had committed technical bigamy. His children would be illegitimate before the law.
Hollister"s morality was the morality of his early environment; his cla.s.s was that magnificently inert middle cla.s.s which sets its face rigorously against change, which proceeds naively upon the a.s.sumption that everything has always been as it is and will continue to be so; that the man and woman who deviates from the accepted conventions in living, loving, marrying, breeding--even in dying--does so because of innate depravity, and that such people must be d.a.m.ned by bell, book and candle in this world, as they shall a.s.suredly be d.a.m.ned in the next.
Hollister could no longer believe that goodness and badness were wholly matters of free will. From the time he put on the king"s uniform in a spirit of idealistic service down to the day he met Doris Cleveland on the steamer, his experience had been a succession of devastating incidents. What had happened to him had happened to others. Life laid violent hands on them and tossed them about like frail craft on a windy sea. The individual was caught in the vortex of the social whirlpool, and what he did, what he thought and felt, what he became, was colored and conditioned by a mult.i.tude of circ.u.mstances that flowed about him as irresistibly as an ocean tide.
Hollister no longer had a philosophy of life in which motives and actions were tagged and labeled according to their kind. He had lost his old confidence in certain arbitrary moral dicta which are the special refuge of those whose intelligence is keen enough to grapple competently with any material problem but who stand aghast, apprehensive and uncomprehending, before a spiritual struggle, before the wavering gusts of human pa.s.sion.
If he judged himself by his own earlier standard he was d.a.m.ned, and he had dragged Doris Cleveland down with him. So was Myra smeared with the pitch of moral obloquy. They were sinners all. Pain should be their desert; shame and sorrow their portion.
Why? Because driven by the need within them, blinded by the dust of circ.u.mstance and groping for security amid the vast confusion which had overtaken them, they reached out and grasped such semblence of happiness as came within reach of their uncertain hands.
The world at large, Hollister was aware, would be decisively intolerant of them all, if the world should by chance be called to pa.s.s judgment.
But he himself could no more pa.s.s harsh judgment upon his former wife than he could feel within himself a personal conviction of sin. Love, he perceived, was not a fixed emotion. It was like a fire which glows bright when plied with fuel and burns itself out when it is no longer fed. To some it was casual, incidental; to others an imperative law of being. Myra remained essentially the same woman, whether she loved him or some other man. Who was he to judge her? She had loved him and then ceased to love him. Beyond that, her life was her own to do with as she chose.
Nor could Hollister, when he faced the situation squarely, feel that he was less a man, less upright, less able to bear himself decently before his fellows than he had ever been. Sometimes he would grow impatient with thinking and put it all by. He had his moods. But also he had his work, the imperative necessity of constant labor to satisfy the needs both of the present and the future. No man goes into the wilderness with only his hands and a few tools and wins security by any short and easy road. There were a great many things Hollister was determined to have for himself and Doris and their children,--for he did not close his eyes to the natural fulfilment of the mating impulse. He did not spare himself. Like Mills, he worked with a prodigious energy. Sometimes he wondered if dreams akin to his own drove Charlie Mills to sweat and strain, to pile up each day double the amount of split cedar, and double for himself the wages earned by the other two men,--who were themselves no laggards with axe and saw.
Or if Mills fantastically personified the timber as something which stood between him and his aching desire and so attacked it with all his l.u.s.ty young strength.
Sometimes Hollister sat by, covertly watching Mills and Myra. He could make nothing of Myra. She was courteous, companionable, nothing more.
But to Hollister Mills" trouble was plain enough. The man was on his guard, as if he knew betrayal lurked in the glance of his eye, in the quality of his tone. Hollister gauged the depths of Mills" feelings by the smoldering fire in his glance,--that glow in Mills" dark eyes when they rested too long on Myra. There would be open upon his face a look of hopelessness, as if he dwelt on something that fascinated and baffled him.
Sometimes, latterly, he saw a hint of that same dubious expression about Archie Lawanne. But there was a different temper in Lawanne, a flash of the sardonic at times.
In July, however, Lawanne went away.
"I"m coming back, though," he told Hollister before he left. "I think I shall put up a cabin and winter here."
"I"ll be glad to see you," Hollister replied, "but it"s a lonely valley in the winter."
Lawanne smiled.
"I can stand isolation for a change," he said. "I want to write a book. And while I am outside I"ll send you in a couple that I have already written. You will see me in October. Try to get the shingle-bolt rush over so we can go out after deer together now and then."
So for a time the Toba saw no more of Lawanne. Hollister missed him.
So did Doris. But she had Myra Bland to keep her company while Hollister was away at work in the timber. Sometimes Bland himself dropped in. But Hollister could never find himself on any common ground of mutual interest with this sporting Englishman. He was a bluff, hearty, healthy man, apparently without either intellect or affectation.
"What do you think of Bland?" he asked Doris once.
"I can"t think of him, because I can"t see him," she answered. "He is either very clever at concealing any sort of personality, or he is simply a big, strong, stupid man."
Which was precisely what Hollister himself thought.
"Isn"t it queer," Doris went on, "how vivid a thing personality is?
Now Myra and Mr. Lawanne are definite, colorable ent.i.ties to me. So is Charlie Mills, quiet as he is. And yet I can"t make Bland seem anything more than simply a voice with a slightly English accent."
"Well, there must be something to him, or she wouldn"t have married him," Hollister remarked.
"Perhaps. But I shouldn"t wonder if she married him for something that existed mostly in her own mind," Doris reflected. "Women often do that--men too, I suppose. I very nearly did myself once. Then I discovered that this ideal man was something I had created in my own imagination."
"How did you find that out before you were committed to the enterprise?" he asked curiously.
"Because my reason and my emotions were in continual conflict over that man," Doris said thoughtfully. "I have always been sure, ever since I began to take men seriously, that I wouldn"t get on very long with any man who was simply a strong, healthy animal. And as soon as I saw that this admirable young man of mine hadn"t much to offer that wasn"t purely physical, why, the glamor all faded."
"Maybe mine will fade too," Hollister suggested.
"Oh, you"re fishing for compliments now," she laughed. "You know very well you are. But we"re pretty lucky, Robert mine, just the same.
We"ve gained a lot. We haven"t lost anything yet. I wouldn"t back-track, not an inch. Would you--honest, now?"
Hollister answered that in a manner which seemed to him suitable to the occasion. And while he stood with his arm around her, Doris startled him.
"Myra told me a curious thing the other day," she said. "She has been married twice. She told me that her first husband"s name was the same as yours--Bob Hollister--that he was killed in France in 1917. She says that you somehow remind her of him."
"There were a good many men killed in France in "17," he observed.
"And Hollister is not such an uncommon name. Does the lady suspect I"m the reincarnation of her dear departed? She seems to have consoled herself for the loss, anyway."
"I doubt if she has," Doris answered. "She doesn"t unburden her soul to me, but I have the feeling that she is not exactly a happy woman."
The matter rested there. Doris went away to do something about the house. Hollister stood glowering at the distant outline of Bland"s cabin. A slow uneasiness grew on him. What did Myra mean by that confidence? Did she mean anything? He shook himself impatiently. He had a profound distaste for that revelation. In itself it was nothing, unless some obscure motive lurked behind. That troubled him. Myra meant nothing--or she meant mischief. Why, he could not say. She was quit of him at her own desire. She had made a mouthful of his modest fortune. If she had somehow guessed the real man behind that mask of scars, and from some obscure, perverted motive meant to bring shipwreck to both of them once more, Hollister felt that he would strangle her without a trace of remorse.
CHAPTER XIV
All that summer the price of cedar went creeping up. For a while this was only in keeping with the slow ascension of commodity costs which continued long after the guns ceased to thunder. But presently cedar on the stump, in the log, in the finished product, began to soar while other goods slowed or halted altogether in their mysterious climb to inaccessable heights,--and cedar was not a controlled industry, not a monopoly. Shingles and dressed cedar were scarce, that was all. For the last two years of the war most of the available man-power and machinery of British Columbia loggers had been given over to airplane spruce. Carpenters had laid down their tools and gone to the front.
House builders had ceased to build houses while the vast cloud of European uncertainty hung over the nation. All across North America the wind and weather had taken toll of roofs, and these must be repaired. The nation did not cease to breed while its men died daily by thousands. And with the signing of the armistice a flood of immigration was let loose. British and French and Scandinavians and swarms of people from Czecho-Slovakia and all the Balkan States, hurried from devastated lands and impending taxes to a new country glowing with the deceptive greenness of far fields. The population had increased; the housing for it had not. So that rents went up and up until economic factors exerted their inexorable pressure and the tap of the carpenter"s hammer and the ring of his saw began to sound in every city, in every suburb, on new farms and lonely prairies.
Cedar shingles began to make fortunes for those who dealt in them on a large scale. By midsummer Carr"s mill on the Toba worked night and day.
"Crowd your work, Hollister," Carr advised him. "I"ve been studying this cedar situation from every angle. There will be an unlimited demand and rising prices for about another year. By that time every logging concern will be getting out cedar. The mills will be cutting it by the million feet. They"ll glut the market and the bottom will drop out of this cedar boom. So get that stuff of yours out while the going is good. We can use it all."
But labor was scarce. All the great industries were absorbing men, striving to be first in the field of post-war production. Hollister found it difficult to enlarge his crew. That was a lonely hillside where his timber stood. Loggers preferred the big camps, the less primitive conditions under which they must live and work. Hollister saw that he would be unable to extend his operations until deep snow shut down some of the northern camps that fall. Even so he did well enough, much better than he had expected at the beginning. Bill Hayes, he of the gray mustache and the ear-piercing faller"s cry, was a "long-stake" man. That is to say, old Bill knew his weaknesses, the common weaknesses of the logger, the psychological reaction from hard work, from sordid living, from the indefinable cramping of the spirit that grows upon a man through months of monotonous labor. Town--a pyrotechnic display among the bright lights--one dizzy swoop on the wings of fict.i.tious excitement--bought caresses--empty pockets--the woods again! Yet the logger dreams always of saving his money, of becoming a timber king, of setting himself up in some business--knowing all the while that he is like a child with pennies in his hand, unhappy until they are spent. Bill Hayes was past fifty, and he knew all this. He stayed in the woods as long as the weakness of the flesh permitted, naively certain that he had gone on his last "bust", that he would bank his money and experience the glow of possessing capital.
The other man was negligible--a bovine lump of flesh without personality--born to hew wood and draw water for men of enterprise.