But her father overawed her. She had been left motherless at ten years old, and brought up since away from home, except for holidays. At the bottom of her she was quite conscious that she knew nothing at all about this big contemptuous person, who ordered her about and preached to her, and never let himself be kissed and played with and coaxed as other girls" fathers did.
So she went on with her washing up in a crushed silence, very sorry for herself in a vague pa.s.sionate way, the corners of her mouth drooping. Purcell too fell into a reverie, the lower jaw pushed forward, one hand playing with the watch-chain which adorned his black suit.
"Did you give Grieve that message?" he asked at last.
Lucy, still sulky, nodded in reply.
"What time did he come in from dinner?"
"On the stroke of the half-hour," said Lucy quickly. "I think he keeps time better than anybody you ever had, father."
"Insolent young whelp!" said Purcell in a slow, deliberate voice.
"He was at that place again yesterday."
"Yes, I know he was," said Lucy, with evident agitation. "I told him he ought to have been ashamed."
"Oh, you talked to him, did you? What business had you to do that, I wonder? Well, what did he say?"
"He said--well, I don"t know what he said. He don"t seem to think it matters to anybody where he goes on Sunday!"
"Oh, indeed--don"t he? I"ll show him some cause to doubt the truth of that proposition," said Purcell ponderously; "or I"ll know the reason why."
Lucy looked unhappy, and said nothing for a minute or two. Then she began insistently, "Well, _does_ it matter to you?"
This deplorable question--viewed from the standpoint of a Baptist elder--pa.s.sed unnoticed, for with the last words the shop-bell rang, and Purcell went off, transformed on the instant into the sharp, attentive tradesman.
Lucy sat wiping her cups mechanically for a little while. Then, when they were all done, and Mary Ann had been loftily commanded to put them away, she slipped upstairs to her own room, a little attic at the top of the house. Here she went to a deal press, which had been her mother"s, opened it, and took out a dress which hung in a compartment by itself, enveloped in a holland wrapper, lest Manchester s.m.u.ts should harm it. She undid the wrapper, and laid it on the bed. It was an embroidered white muslin, adorned with lace and full knots of narrow pink ribbon.
"What a trouble I had to get the ribbon just that width," she thought to herself ruefully, "and everybody said it was so uncommon.
I might as well give it Dora. I don"t believe I shall ever wear it.
I don"t know what"ll become of me. I don"t get any chances."
And shaking her head mournfully from side to side, she sat on beside the dress, in the light of her solitary candle, her hands clasped round her knee, the picture of girlish despair, so far as anything so daintily gowned, and shoed, and curled, could achieve it. She was thinking drearily of some people who were coming to supper, one of her father"s brother elders at the chapel, Mr.
Baruch Barton, and his daughter. Mr. Barton had a specialty for the prophet Zephaniah, and had been several times shocked because Lucy could not help him out with his quotations from that source. His daughter, a little pinched asthmatic creature, in a dress whereof every gore and seam was an affront to the art of dressmaking, was certainly thirty, probably more. And between thirty and the Psalmist"s limit of existence, there is the very smallest appreciable difference, in the opinion of seventeen. What _could_ she have to say to Emmy Barton? Lucy asked herself.
She began yawning from sheer dulness, as she thought of her. If it were only time to go to bed!
Suddenly she heard a sound of raised voices in the upper shop on the floor below. What could it be? She started up. "Mr. Grieve and father quarrelling!" She knew it must come to that!
She crept down the stairs with every precaution possible till she came to the door behind which the loud talk which had startled her was going on. Here she listened with all her ears, but at first to very little purpose. David was speaking, but so rapidly, and apparently so near to the other end of the room, that she could hear nothing. Then her father broke in, and by dint of straining very hard, she caught most of what he said before the whole colloquy came abruptly to an end. She heard Purcell"s heavy tread descending the little iron spiral staircase leading from the lower shop to the upper. She heard David moving about, as though he were gathering up books and papers, and then, with a loud childish sob which burst from her unawares, she ran upstairs again to her own room.
"Oh, he"s going, he"s going!" she cried under her breath, as she stood before the gla.s.s winking to keep the tears back, and biting her handkerchief hard between her little white teeth. "Oh, what shall I do? what shall I do? It"ll be always the same; just when anyone _might_ like me, it all stops. And he won"t care one little, little bit. He"ll never think of me again. Oh, I do think somebody might care about me--might be sorry for me!"
And she locked her hands tight before her, and stared at the gla.s.s, while the tears forced their way. But all the time she was noticing how prettily she stood, how slim she was. And though she smarted, she would not for the world have been without her smart, her excitement, her foolish secret, which, for sheer lack of something to do and think about, had suddenly grown to such magnitude in her eyes. It was hard to cherish a hopeless pa.s.sion for a handsome youth, without a halfpenny, who despised you, but it was infinitely better than to have nothing in your mind but Emmy Barton and the prophet Zephaniah. Nay, as she washed her hands and smoothed her dress and hair with trembling fingers, she became quite friendly with her pain--in a sense, even proud of it, and jealous for it. It was a sign of mature life--of something more than mere school-girlishness. Like the lover in the Elizabethan sonnet, "She had been vexed, if vexed she had not been!"
CHAPTER III
"Come in, David," said Mr. Ancrum, opening the door of his little sitting-room in Mortimer Street. "You"re rather late, but I don"t wonder. Such a wind! I could hardly stand against it myself. But, then, I"m an atomy. What, no top-coat in such weather! What do you mean by that, sir? You"re wet through. There, dry yourself."
David, with a grin at Mr. Ancrum"s unnecessary concern for him, deposited himself in the carpet chair which formed the minister"s only lounge, and held out his legs and arms to the blaze. He was wet indeed, and bespattered with the blackest mud in the three kingdoms. But the battle with wind and rain had so brought into play all the physical force of him, had so brightened eye and cheek, and tossed the black hair into such a fine confusion, that, as he sat there bending over the glow of the fire, the crippled man opposite, sickly with long confinement and over-thinking, could not take his eyes from him. The storm with all its freshness, youth with all its reckless joy in itself, seemed to have come in with the lad and transformed the little dingy room.
"What do you wear trash like that for in a temperature like this?"
said the minister, touching his guest"s thin and much-worn coat.
"Don"t you know, David, that your health is money? Suppose you get lung trouble, who"s to look after you?"
"It don"t do me no harm, sir. I can"t get into my last year"s coat, and I couldn"t afford a new one this winter."
"What wages do you earn?" asked Ancrum. His manner was a curious mixture of melancholy gentleness and of that terse sharpness in practical things which the south country resents and the north country takes for granted.
"Eighteen shillings a week, since last November, sir."
"That ought to be enough for a top-coat, you rascal, with only yourself to feed," said Mr. Ancrum, stretching himself in his hard armchair, so as to let his lame leg with its heavy boot rest comfortably on the fender. David had noticed at first sight of him that his old playfellow had grown to look much older than in the Clough End days. His hair was nearly white, and lay in a large smooth wave across the broad brow. And in that brow there were deep furrows, and many a new and premature line in the hollow cheeks.
Something withering and blighting seemed to have pa.s.sed over the whole man since those Sunday school lessons in the Christian Brethren"s upper room, which David still remembered so well. But the eyes with their irresistible intensity and force were the same.
In them the minister"s youth--he was not yet thirty-five--still spoke, as from a last stronghold in a failing realm. They had a strange look too, the look as of a secret life, not for the pa.s.ser-by.
David smiled at Ancrum"s last remark, and for a moment or two looked into the fire without speaking.
"Well, if I"d bought clothes or anything else this winter, I should be in a precious worse hole than I am," he said reflectively.
"Hole? What"s wrong, Davy?"
"My master gave me the sack Monday."
"Humph!" said Ancrum, surveying him. "Well, you don"t look much cast down about it, I must say."
"Well, you see, I"d laid my plans," said the young man, an irrepressible gaiety and audacity in every feature. "It isn"t as though I were taken by surprise."
"Plans for a new place, I suppose?"
"No; I have done with that. I am going to set up for myself. I know the trade, and I"ve got some money."
"How old are you, Davy?"
"Just upon twenty," said the lad, quietly.
The minister pursed up his lips and whistled a little.
"Well, that"s bold," he said. "Somehow I like it, though by all the laws of prudence I ought to jump down your throat for announcing such a thing. But how did you get your money? and what have you been doing these four years? Come, I"m an old friend,--though I dare say you don"t think me much of a fellow. Out with it! Pay me anyway for all those ships I made you long ago."
And he held out his blanched hand, little more now than skin and bone. David put his own into it awkwardly enough. At this period of his life he was not demonstrative.
The story he had to tell was, to Ancrum"s thinking, a remarkable one. He had come into Manchester on an October evening with five shillings and threepence in his pocket. From a point on the south-western border of the city he took a "bus for Deansgate and Victoria Street. As he was sitting on the top, feeding his eyes on the lights and the crowd of the streets, but wholly ignorant where to go and what first step to take, he fell into talk with a decent working-man and his wife sitting beside him. The result of the talk was that they offered him shelter at fourpence a night. He dismounted with them at Blackfriars Bridge, and they made their way across the river to a street in Salford, where he lodged with them for a week. During that week he lived on oatmeal and an occasional baked potato, paying his hostess eighteenpence additional for the use of her fire, and the right to sit in her kitchen when he was not tramping about in search of work. By the end of the week he had found a post as errand-boy at a large cheap bookseller"s and stationer"s in Deansgate, at eight shillings a week, his good looks, manner, and education evidently helping him largely, as Mr.
Ancrum could perceive through the boy"s very matter-of-fact account of himself. He then made an agreement for bed, use of fire, and kitchen, with his new friends at four shillings a week, and by the end of six months he was receiving a wage of fourteen shillings as salesman and had saved close on five pounds.
"Well, now, come, how did you manage that, Davy?" said Mr. Ancrum, interrupting. "Don"t run on in that fashion. Details are the only interesting things in life, and details I"ll have. You must have found it a precious tight fit to save that five pounds."