From that waking David rose and went about his work another man. As he moved about in the shop or in the streets, he was conscious of a gulf between his present self and his self of yesterday, which he could hardly explain. Simply the whole atmosphere and temperature of the soul was other, was different. He could have almost supposed that some process had gone on within him during the unconsciousness of sleep, of which he was now feeling the results; which had carried him on, without his knowing it, to a point in the highroad of life, far removed from that point where he had stood when his talk with Ancrum began. That world of enervating illusion, that "kind of ghastly dreaminess, "as John Sterling called it, in which since his return he had lived with Elise, was gone, he knew not how--swept away like a cloud from the brain, a mist from the eyes.
The sense of catastrophe, of things irrevocable and irreparable, the premature ageing of the whole man, remained-only the fever and the restlessness were past. Memory, indeed, was not affected. In some sort the scenes of his French experience would be throughout his life a permanent element in consciousness; but the persons concerned in them were dead-creatures of the past. He himself had been painfully re-born, and Pimodan"s wife had no present personal existence for him. He turned himself deliberately to his old life, and took up the interests of it again one by one, but, as he soon discovered, with an insight, a power, a comprehension which had never yet been his. A moral and spiritual life destined to a rich development practically began for him with this winter--this awful winter of the agony of France.
His thoughts were often occupied now with Louie, but in a saner way. He could no longer, without morbidness, take on himself the whole responsibility of her miserable marriage. Human beings after all are what they make themselves. But the sense of his own share in it, and the perception of what her future life was likely to be, made him steadily accept beforehand the claims upon him which she was sure to press.
He had written to her early in September, when the siege was imminent, offering her money to bring her to England, and the protection of his roof during the rest of the war. And by a still later post than that which brought the news of Elise"s marriage arrived a scrawl from Louie, written from a country town near Toulouse, whither she and Montjoie had retreated--apparently the sculptor"s native place.
The letter was full of complaints--complaints of the war, which was being mismanaged by a set of rogues and fools who deserved stringing to the nearest tree; complaints of her husband, who was a good-for-nothing brute; and complaints of her own health. She was expecting her confinement in the spring; if she got through it--which was not likely, considering the way in which she was treated--she should please herself about staying with such a man.
_He_ should not keep her for a day if she wanted to go.
Meanwhile David might send her any money he could spare. There was not much of the six hundred left--_that_ she could tell him; and she could not even screw enough for baby-clothes out of her husband. Very likely there would not be enough to pay for a nurse when her time came. Well, then she would be out of it--and a good job too.
She wished to be remembered to Dora; and Dora was especially to be told again that she needn"t suppose St. Damian"s was a patch on the real Catholic churches, because it wasn"t. She--Louie--had been at the Midnight Ma.s.s in Toulouse Cathedral on Christmas Eve. That was something like. And down in the crypt they had a "Bethlehem"--the sweetest thing you ever saw. There were the shepherds, and the wise men, and the angels--dolls, of course, but their dresses were splendid, and the little Jesus was dressed in white satin, embroidered with gold--_old_ embroidery, tell Dora.
To this David had replied at once, sending money he could ill spare, and telling her to keep him informed of her whereabouts.
But the months pa.s.sed on, and no more news arrived. He wrote again _via_ Bordeaux, but with no result, and could only wait patiently till that eagle"s grip, in which all French life was stifled, should be loosened.
Meanwhile his relation to another human being, whose life had been affected by the French episode, pa.s.sed into a fresh phase. Two days after the news of Elise"s marriage had reached him, he and John had just shut up the shop, and the young master was hanging over the counter under the gas, heavily conning a not very satisfactory business account.
John came in, took his hat and stick from a corner, and threw David a gruff "good night."
Something in the tone struck David"s sore nerves like a blow. He turned abruptly--
"Look here, John! I can"t stand this kind of thing much longer.
Hadn"t we better part? You"ve learnt a lot here, and I"ll see you get a good place. You--you rub it in too long!"
John stood still, his big rough hands beginning to shake, his pink cheeks turning a painful crimson.
"You--you never said a word to me!" he flung out at last, incoherently, resentfully.
"Said a word to you? What do you mean? I told you the truth, and I would have told you more, if you hadn"t turned against me as though I had been the devil himself. Do you suppose you are the only person who came to grief because of that French time? _Good G.o.d!_"
The last words came out with a low exasperation. The young man leant against the counter, looking at his a.s.sistant with bitter, indignant eyes.
John first shrank from them, then his own were drawn to meet them.
Even his slow perceptions, thus challenged, realised something of the truth. He gave way--as David might have made him give way long before, if his own misery had not made him painfully avoid any fresh shock of speech.
"Well!" said John, slowly, with a mighty effort; "I"ll not lay it agen you any more. I"ll say that. But if you want to get rid of me, you can. Only you"ll be put to "t wi" t" printing."
The two young fellows surveyed each other. Then suddenly David said, pushing him to the door:
"You"re a great a.s.s, John--get out, and good night to you."
But next day the atmosphere was cleared, and, with inexpressible relief on both sides, the two fell back into the old brotherly relation. Poor John! He kept an old photograph of Louie in a drawer at his lodging, and, when he came home to bed, would alternately weep over and denounce it. But, all the same, his interest in David"s printing ventures was growing keener and keener, and whenever business had been particularly exciting during the day, the performance with the photograph was curtailed or omitted at night. Let no scorn, however, be thought, on that account, of the true pa.s.sion!--which had thriven on unkindness, and did but yield to the slow mastery of time.
The war thundered on. To Manchester, and to the cotton and silk industries of Lancashire generally, the tragedy of France meant on the whole a vast boom in trade. So many French rivals crippled--so much ground set free for English enterprise to capture--and, meanwhile, high profits for a certain number at least of Manchester and Macclesfield merchants, and brisk wages for the Lancashire operatives, especially for the silk-weavers. This, with of course certain drawbacks and exceptions, was the aspect under which the war mainly presented itself to Lancashire. Meanwhile, amid these teeming Manchester streets with their clattering lurries and overflowing warehouses, there was at least one Englishman who took the war hardly, in whom the spectacle of its wreck and struggle roused a feeling which was all moral, human, disinterested.
What was Regnault doing? David kept a watch on the newspapers, of which the Free Library offered him an ample store; but there was no mention of him in the English press that he could discover, and Barbier, of course, got nothing now from Paris.
Christmas was over. The last month of the siege, that hideous January of frost and fire, rushed past, with its alternations of famine within and futile battle without--Europe looking on appalled at this starved and shivering Paris, into which the sh.e.l.ls were raining. At last--the 27th!--the capitulation! All was over; the German was master in Europe, and France lay at the feet of her conqueror.
Out to all parts streamed the letters which had been so long delayed. Barbier and David, walking together one bitter evening towards Barbier"s lodgings, silent, with hanging heads, met the postman on Barbier"s steps, who held out a packet. The Frenchman took it with a cry; the two rushed upstairs and fell upon the letters and papers it contained.
There--while Barbier sat beside him, groaning over the conditions of peace, over the enthronement of the Emperor-King at Versailles, within sight of the statue of Louis Quatorze, now cursing "_ces imbeciles du gouvernement!_" and now wiping the tears from his old cheeks with a trembling hand--David read the news of the fight of Buzenval, and the death of Regnault.
It seemed to him that he had always foreseen it--that from the very beginning Regnault"s image in his thought had been haloed with a light of tragedy and storm--a light of death. His eyes devoured the long memorial article in which a friend of Regnault"s had given the details of his last months of life. Barbier, absorbed in his own grief, heard not a sound from the corner where his companion sat crouched beneath the gas.
Everything--the death and the manner of it--was to him, as it were, in the natural order--fitting, right, such as might have been expected. His heart swelled to bursting as he read, but his eyes were dry.
This, briefly, was the story which he read.
Henri Regnault re-entered Paris at the beginning of September. By the beginning of October he was on active service, stationed now at Asnieres, now at Colombes. In October or November he became engaged to a young girl, with whom he had been for long devotedly in love--ah! David thought of that sudden smile--the "open door"!
Their pa.s.sion, cherished under the wings of war, did but give courage and heroism to both. Yet he loved most humanly! One night, in an interval of duty, on leaving the house where his _fiancee_ lived, he found the sh.e.l.ls of the bombardment falling fast in the street outside. He could not make up his mind to go--might not ruin befall the dear house with its inmates at any moment? So he wandered up and down outside for hours in the bitter night, watching, amid the rattle of the sh.e.l.ls and the terrified cries of women and children from the houses on either side.
At last, worn out and frozen with cold, but still unable to leave the spot, he knocked softly at the door he had left. The _concierge_ came. "Let me lie down awhile on your floor. Tell no one." Then, appeased by this regained nearness to her, and by the sense that no danger could strike the one without warning the other, he wrapped himself in his soldier"s cloak and fell asleep.
In November he painted his last three water-colours--visions of the East, painted for her, and as flower-bright as possible, "because flowers were scarce" in the doomed city.
December came. Regnault spent Christmas night at the advanced post of Colombes. His captain wished to make him an officer. "Thanks, my captain," said the young fellow of twenty-three; "but if you have a good soldier in me, why exchange him for an indifferent officer? My example will be of more use to you than my commission." Meanwhile the days and nights were pa.s.sed in Arctic cold. Men were frozen to death round about him; his painter"s hand was frostbitten. "Oh! I can speak with authority on cold!" he wrote to his _fiancee_; "this morning at least I know what it is to spend the night on the hard earth exposed to a glacial wind. Enough! _Je me rechaufferai a votre foyer_. I love you--I love my country--that sustains.
Adieu!"
On the 17th, after a few days in Paris spent with her and some old friends, he was again ordered to the front. On Thursday the fight at Buzenval began with a brilliant success; in the middle of the day his _fiancee_ still had news of him, brought by a servant.
Night fell. The battle was hottest in a wood adjoining the park of Buzenval. Regnault and his painter-comrade Clairin were side by side. Suddenly the retreat was sounded, and the same instant Clairin missed his friend. He sought him with frenzy amid the trees in the darkening wood, called to him, peered into the faces of the dying--no answer! Ah! he must have been swept backwards by the rush of the retreat--Clairin will find him again.
Three days later the lost was found--one among two hundred corpses of National Guards carted into Pere Lachaise. Clairin, mad with grief, held his friend in his arms--held, kissed the beautiful head, now bruised and stained past even _her_ knowing, with its bullet-wound in the temple.
On his breast was found a medal with a silver tear hanging from it.
She who had long worn it as a symbol of bereavement, in memory of dear ones lost to her, had given it to him in her first joy. "I will reclaim it," she had said, smiling, "the first time you make me weep!" It was all that was brought back to her--all except a scrawled paper found in his pocket, containing some hurried and almost illegible words, written perhaps beside his outpost fire.
"We have lost many men--we must remake them--_better_--_stronger_. The lesson should profit us.
No more lingering amid facile pleasures! Who dare now live for himself alone? It has been for too long the custom with us to believe in nothing but enjoyment and all bad pa.s.sions. We have prided ourselves on despising everything good and worthy. No more of such contempt!"
Then--so the story ended--four days later, on the very day of the capitulation of Paris, Regnault was carried to his last rest. A figure in widow"s dress walked behind. And to many standing by, amid the m.u.f.fled roll of the drums and the wailing of the music, it was as though France herself went down to burial with her son.
David got up gently and went across to Barbier, who was sitting with his letters and papers before him, staring and stupefied, the lower jaw falling, in a trance of grief.
The young man put down the newspaper he had been reading in front of the old man.
"Read that some time; it will give you something to be proud of. I told you I knew him--he was kind to me."
Barbier nodded, not understanding, and sought for his spectacles with shaking fingers. David quietly went out.
He walked home in a state of exaltation like a man still environed with the emotion of great poetry or great music. He said very little about Regnault in the days that followed to Ancrum or Barbier, even to Dora, with whom every week his friendship was deepening. But the memory of the dead man, as it slowly shaped itself in his brooding mind, became with him a permanent and fruitful element of thought. Very likely the Regnault whom he revered, whose name was henceforth a sacred thing to him, was only part as it were of the real Regnault. He saw the French artist with an Englishman"s eyes--interpreted him in English ways--the ways, moreover, of a consciousness self-taught and provincial, however gifted and flexible. Only one or two aspects, no doubt, of that rich, self-tormented nature, reared amid the most complex movements of European intelligence, were really plain to him. And those aspects were specially brought home to him by his own mental condition. No matter. Broadly, essentially, he understood.
But thenceforward, just as Elise Delaunay had stood to him in the beginning for French art and life, and that ferment in himself which answered to them, so now in her place stood Regnault with those stern words upon his young and dying lips--"We have lost many men--we must remake them--better! Henceforward let no one dare live unto himself." The Englishman took them into his heart, that ethical fibre in him, which was at last roused and dominant, vibrating, responding. And as the poignant images of death and battle faded he saw his hero always as he had seen him last--young, radiant, vigorous, pointing to the dawn behind Notre-Dame.
All life looked differently to David this winter. He saw the Manchester streets and those who lived in them with other perceptions. His old political debating interests, indeed, were comparatively slack; but persons--men and women, and their stories--for these he was instinctively on the watch. His eye noticed the faces he pa.s.sed as it had never yet done--divined in them suffering, or vice, or sickness. All that he saw at this moment he saw tragically. The doors set open about him were still, as Keats, himself hurried to his end by an experience of pa.s.sion, once expressed it, "all dark," and leading to darkness. There were times when Dora"s faith and Ancrum"s mysticism drew him irresistibly; other times when they were almost as repulsive to him as they had ever been, because they sounded to him like the formula of people setting out to explain the world "with a light heart," as Ollivier had gone to war.
But whether or no it could be explained, this world, he could not now help putting out his hand to meddle with and mend it; his mind fed on its incidents and conditions. The mill-girls standing on the Ancoats pavements; the drunken lurryman tottering out from the public-house to his lurry under the biting sleet of February; the ragged barefoot boys and girls swarming and festering in the slums; the young men struggling all about him for subsistence and success--these for the first time became realities to him, entered into that pondering of "whence and whither" to which he had been always destined, and whereon he was now consciously started.
And as the months went on, his attention was once more painfully caught and held by Dora"s troubles and Daddy"s infirmities. For Daddy"s improvement was short-lived. A bad relapse came in November; things again went downhill fast; the loan contracted in the summer had to be met, and under the pressure of it Daddy only became more helpless and disreputable week by week. And now, when Doctor Mildmay went to see him, Daddy, crouching over the fire, pretended to be deaf, and "soft" besides. Nothing could be got out of him except certain grim hints that his house was his own till he was turned out of it. "Looks pretty bad this time," said the doctor to David once as he came out discomfited. "After all, there"s not much hope when the craving returns on a man of his age, especially after some years" interval."