CHAPTER VI
From that night forward, David looked upon the farm and all his life there with other eyes.
Up till now, in spite of the perennial pressure of Hannah"s tyrannies, which, however, weighed much less upon him than upon Louie, he had been--as he had let Reuben see--happy enough. The open-air life, the animals, his books, out of all of them he managed to extract a very fair daily sum of enjoyment. And he had been content enough with his daily tasks--herding the sheep, doing the rough work of the stable and cow-house, running Aunt Hannah"s errands with the donkey-cart to Clough End, helping in the haymaking and the sheep-shearing, or the driving of stock to and from the various markets Reuben frequented. All these things he had done with a curious placidity, a detachment and yet readiness of mind, as one who lends himself, without reluctance, to a life not his own. It was this temper mainly, helped, no doubt, by his unusual tastes and his share of foreign blood and looks, which had set him apart from the other lads of his own cla.s.s in the neighbourhood. He had few friends of his own age, yet he was not unpopular, except, perhaps, with an overbearing animal like Jim Wigson, who instinctively looked upon other people"s brains as an offence to his own muscular pretensions.
But his Easter Eve struggle with Hannah closed, as it were, a childhood, which, though hard and loveless, had been full of compensations and ignorant of its own worst wants. It woke in him the bitterness of the orphan dependant, who feels himself a burden and loathes his dependence. That utter lack of the commonest natural affection, in which he and Louie had been brought up--for Reuben"s timorous advances had done but little to redress the balance--had not troubled him much, till suddenly it was writ so monstrous large in Hannah"s refusal to take pity on the fainting and agonised Louie. Thenceforward every morsel of food he took at her hands seemed to go against him. They were paupers, and Aunt Hannah hated them. The fact had been always there, but it had never meant anything substantial to him till now. Now, at last, that complete dearth of love, in which he had lived since his father died, began to react in revolt and discontent.
The crisis may have been long preparing, those words of his uncle as to his future, as well as the incident of their locking out, may have had something to say to it. Anyway, a new reflective temper set in. The young immature creature became self-conscious, began to feel the ferments of growth. The ambition and the restlessness his father had foreseen, with dying eyes, began to stir.
Reuben"s qualms returned upon him. On the 15th of May, he and David went to Woodhead, some sixteen or seventeen miles off, to receive the young stock from the Yorkshire breeders, which were to be grazed on the farm during the summer. In general, David had taken the liveliest interest in the animals, in the number and quality of them, in the tariff to be paid for them, and the long road there and back had been cheered for the farmer by the lad"s chatter, and by the athletic antics he was always playing with any handy gate or tree which crossed their path.
"Them heifers ull want a deal o" gra.s.s puttin into "em afoor they"ll be wuth onybody"s buyin, Davy," said Reuben, inspecting his mixed herd with a critical eye from a roadside bank, as they climbed the first hill on their return journey.
"Aye, they"re a poor lot," returned David, shortly, and walked on as far in front of his uncle as might be, with his head in the air and his moody look fixed on the distance.
"T" Wigsons ull be late gettin whoam," began Reuben again, with an uneasy look at the boy. "Owd Wigson wor that full up wi yell when I last seed him they"ll ha a job to get him started straight this neet."
To this remark David had nothing at all to say, though in general he had a keen neighbourly relish for the misdeeds of the Wigsons.
Reuben did not know what to make of him. However, a mile further on he made another attempt:
"Lord, how those Yorkshire breeders did talk! Yo"d ha thowt they"d throw their jaws off the hinges. An a lot o" gimcrack notions as iver wor--wi their new foods, an their pills an strengthening mixtures--messin wi cows as though they wor humans. Why conno they leave G.o.d Awmighty alone? He can bring a calvin cow through beawt ony o" their meddlin, I"ll uphowd yo!"
But still not a word from the lad in front. Reuben might as well have talked to the wall beside him. He had grown used to the boy"s companionship, and the obstinate silence which David still preserved from hour to hour as they drove their stock homewards made a sensible impression on him.
Inside the house there was a constant, though in general a silent, struggle going on between the boy and Hannah on the subject of Louie. Louie, after the escapade of Easter Eve, was visited with a sharp attack of inflammatory rheumatism, only just stopping short of rheumatic fever. Hannah got a doctor, and tended her sufficiently while the worst lasted, partly because she was, after all, no monster, but only a commonly sordid and hard-natured woman, and partly because for a day or two Louie"s state set her pondering, perforce, what might be the effect on Mr. Gurney"s remittances if the child incontinently died. This thought undoubtedly quickened whatever natural instincts might be left in Hannah Grieve; and the child had her doctor, and the doctor"s orders were more or less followed.
But when she came downstairs again--a lanky, ghostly creature, much grown, her fierce black eyes more noticeable than ever in her pinched face--Hannah"s appet.i.te for "snipin"--to use the expressive Derbyshire word--returned upon her. The child was almost bullied into her bed again--or would have been if David had not found ways of preventing it. He realised for the first time that, as the young and active male of the household, he was extremely necessary to Hannah"s convenience, and now whenever Hannah ill-treated Louie her convenience suffered. David disappeared. Her errands were undone, the wood uncut, and coals and water had to be carried as they best could. As to reprisals, with a strong boy of fourteen, grown very nearly to a man"s height, Hannah found herself a good deal at a loss. "Bully-raggin" he took no more account of than of a shower of rain; blows she instinctively felt it would have been dangerous to attempt; and as to deprivation of food, the lad seemed to thrive on hunger, and never whistled so loudly as when, according to Hannah"s calculations, he must have been as "keen-bitten as a hawk." For the first time in her life Hannah was to some extent tamed. When there was business about she generally felt it expedient to let Louie alone.
But this st.u.r.dy protection was more really a matter of roused pride and irritation on David"s part than of brotherly love. It was the tragedy of Louie Grieve"s fate--whether as child or woman--that she was not made to be loved. Whether _she_ could love, her story will show; but to love her when you were close to her was always hard. How different the days would have been for the moody lad, who had at last learnt to champion her, if their common isolation and dependence had but brought out in her towards him anything clinging--anything confidential, any true spirit of comradeship! On the contrary, while she was still ill in bed, and almost absolutely dependent on what he might choose to do for her, she gibed and flouted him past bearing, mainly, no doubt, for the sake of breaking the tedium of her confinement a little. And when she was about again, and he was defending her weakness from Aunt Hannah, it seemed to him that she viewed his proceedings rather with a malicious than a grateful eye. It amused and excited her to see him stand up to Hannah, but he got little reward from her for his pains.
She was, as it were, always watching him with a sort of secret discontent. He did not suit her--was not congenial to her.
Especially was she exasperated now more than ever by his bookish tastes. Possibly she was doubly jealous of his books; at any rate, unless he had been constantly on his guard, she would have hidden them, or done them a mischief whenever she could, in her teasing, magpie way.
One morning, in the grey summer dawn, Louie had just wakened, and was staring sleepily at the door, when, all of a sudden, it opened--very quietly, as though pushed by some one anxious not to make a noise--and Reuben"s head looked round it. Louie, amazed, woke up in earnest, and Reuben came stealthily in. He had his hat and stick under his arm, and one hand held his boots, while he stepped noiselessly in his stocking feet across the room to where Louie lay--"Louie, are yo awake?"
The child stared up at him, seeing mostly his stubble of red hair, which came like a grotesque halo between her and the wall. Then she nodded.
"Doan"t let yor aunt hear nothin, Louie. She thinks I"m gone out to th" calves. But, Louie, that merchant I towd yo on came yesterday, an he wor a hard un, he wor--as tough as nails, a sight worse nor owd Croker to deal wi, ony day in th" week. I could mak nowt on him--an he gan me sich a poor price. I darn"t tak a penny on "t from your aunt--noa, I darn"t, Louie,--not if it wor iver so.
She"ll be reet down mad when she knaws--an I"m real sorry about that bit dress o" yourn, Louie."
He stood looking down at her, his spectacles falling forward on his nose, the corners of his mouth drooping--a big ungainly culprit.
For a second or two the child was quite still, nothing but the black eyes and tossed ma.s.ses of hair showing above the sheet. Then the eyes blinked suddenly, and flinging out her hand at him with a pa.s.sionate gesture, as though to push him away, she turned on her face and drew the bedclothes over her head.
"Louie!" he said--"Louie!"
But she made no sign, and, at last, with a grotesquely concerned face, he went out of the room and downstairs, hanging his head.
Out of doors, he found David already at work in the cowhouse, but as surly and uncommunicative as before when he was spoken to. That the lad had turned "agen his wark," and was on his way to hate the farm and all it contained, was plain even to Reuben. Why was he so glum and silent--why didn"t he speak up? Perhaps he would, Reuben"s conscience replied, if it were conveyed to him that he possessed a substantial portion of six hundred pounds!
The boy knew that his uncle watched him--anxiously, as one watches something explosive and incalculable--and felt a sort of contempt for himself that nothing practical came of his own revolt and discontent. But he was torn with indecision. How to leave Louie--what to do with himself without a farthing in the world--whom to go to for advice? He thought often of Mr. Ancrum, but a fierce distaste for chapels and ministers had been growing on him, and he had gradually seen less and less of the man who had been the kind comrade and teacher of his early childhood. His only real companions during this year of moody adolescence were his books. From the forgotten deposit in the old meal-ark upstairs, which had yielded "Paradise Lost," he drew other treasures by degrees. He found there, in all, some tattered leaves--three or four books altogether--of Pope"s "Iliad," about half of Foxe"s "Martyrs"--the rest having been used apparently by the casual nurses, who came to tend Reuben"s poor mother in her last days, to light the fire--a complete copy of Locke "On the Human Understanding," and various volumes of old Calvinist sermons, which he read, partly because his reading appet.i.te was insatiable, partly from a half-contemptuous desire to find out what it might be that Uncle Reuben was always troubling his head about.
As to "Lias Dawson, David saw nothing of him for many long weeks after the scene which had led to the adventure of the Pool. He heard only that "Lias was "bad," and mostly in his bed, and feeling a little guilty, he hardly knew why, the lad kept away from his old friend.
Summer and the early autumn pa.s.sed away. October brought a spell of wintry weather; and one day, as he was bringing the sheep home, he met old Margaret, "Lias"s wife. She stopped and accosted him.
"Why doan"t yo coom and see "Lias sometimes, Davy, my lad? Yo might leeten him up a bit, an" he wants it, t" Lord knows. He"s been fearfu" bad in his sperrits this summer."
The lad stammered out some sheepish excuses, and soon made his way over to Frimley Moor. But the visits were not so much pleasure as usual. "Lias was very feeble, and David had a constant temptation to struggle with. He understood that to excite "Lias, to throw him again into the frenzy which had begotten the vision of the Pool, would be a cruel act. But all the same he found it more and more difficult to restrain himself, to keep back the questions which burnt on his tongue.
As for "Lias, his half-shut eye would brighten whenever David showed himself at the door, and he would point to a wooden stool on the other side of the fire.
"Sit tha down, lad. Margret, gie him soom tay," or "Margret, yo"ll just find him a bit oatcake."
And then the two would fall upon their books together, and the conversation would glide imperceptibly into one of those scenes of half-dramatic impersonation, for which David"s relish was still unimpaired.
But the old man was growing much weaker; his inventions had less felicity, less range than of old; and the watchful Margaret, at her loom in the corner, kept an eye on any signs of an undue excitement, and turned out David or any other visitor, neck and crop, without scruple, as soon as it seemed to her that her crippled seer was doing himself a mischief. Poor soul! she had lived in this tumult of "Lias"s fancies year after year, till the solid world often turned about her. And she, all the while, so simple, so sane--the ordinary good woman, with the ordinary woman"s hunger for the common blessings of life--a little love, a little chat, a little prosaic well-being! She had had two sons--they were gone. She had been the proud wife "o" t" cliverest mon atwixt Sheffield an Manchester," as Frimley and the adjacent villages had once expressed it, when every mother that respected herself sent her children to "Lias Dawson"s school. And the mysterious chances of a summer night had sent home upon her hands a poor incapable, ruined in mind and body, who was to live henceforward upon her charity, wandering amid the chaotic wreck and debris of his former self.
Well, she took up her burden!
The straggling village on Frimley Moor was mainly inhabited by a colony of silk hand-loom weavers--the descendants of French prisoners in the great war, and employed for the most part by a firm at Leck. Very dainty work was done at Frimley, and very beautiful stuffs made. The craft went from father to son. All Margaret"s belongings had been weavers; but "Lias, in the pride of his schoolmaster"s position, would never allow his wife to use the trade of her youth. When he became dependent on her, Margaret bought a disused loom from a cousin, had it mended and repaired, and set to work. Her fingers had not forgotten their old cunning; and when she was paid for her first "cut," she hurried home to "Lias with a reviving joy in her crushed heart. Thenceforward, she lived at her loom; she became a skilled and favoured worker, and the work grew dear to her--first, because "Lias lived on it, and, next, because the bright roses and ribbon-patterns she wove into her costly stuffs were a perpetual cheer to her. The moors might frown outside, the snow might drift against the cottage walls: Margaret had always something gay under her fingers, and threw her shuttle with the more zest the darker and colder grew the Derbyshire world without.
Naturally the result of this long concentration of effort had been to make the poor soul, for whom each day was lived and fought, the apple of Margaret"s eye. So long as that bent, white form sat beside her fire, Margaret was happy. Her heart sank with every fresh sign of age and weakness, revived with every brighter hour.
He still lorded it over her often, as he had done in the days of their prosperity, and whenever this old mood came back upon him, Margaret could have cried for pleasure.
The natural correlative of such devotion was a drying up of interest in all the world beside. Margaret had the selfishness of the angelic woman--everything was judged as it affected her idol.
So at first she took no individual interest in David--he cheered up "Lias--she had no other thought about him.
On a certain November day David was sitting opposite to "Lias. The fire burnt between them, and on the fire was a griddle, whereon Margaret had just deposited some oatcakes for tea. The old man was sitting drooped in his chair, his chin on his breast, his black eyes staring beyond David at the wall. David was seized with curiosity--what was he thinking about?--what did he see? There was a mystery, a weirdness about the figure, about that hungry gaze, which tormented him. His temptation returned upon him irresistibly.
"Lias," he said, bending forward, his dark cheek flushing with excitement, "Louie and I went up, Easter Eve, to t" Pool, but we went to sleep an saw nowt. What was"t yo saw, "Lias? Did yo see her for sure?"
The old man raised his head frowning, and looked at the boy. But the frown was merely nervous, he had heard nothing. On the other hand, Margaret, whom David had supposed to be in the back kitchen, but who was in reality a few steps behind him, mending something which had gone wrong in her loom, ran forward suddenly to the fire, and bending over her griddle somehow promptly threw down the tongs, making a clatter and commotion, in the midst of which the cakes caught, and old "Lias moved from the fender, saying fretfully,
"Yo"re that orkard wi things, Margret, yo"re like a dog dancin."
But in the bustle Margaret had managed to say to David, "Howd your tongue, noddle-yed, will yo?"
And so unexpected was the lightning from her usually mild blue eyes that David sat dumbfounded, and presently sulkily got up to go.
Margaret followed him out and down the bit of garden.
And at the gate, when they were well out of hearing of "Lias, she fell on the boy with a torrent of words, gripping him the while with her long thin hand, so that only violence could have released him. Her eyes flamed at him under the brown woollen shawl she wore pinned under her chin; the little emaciated creature became a fury.
What did he come there for, "moiderin "Lias wi his divilments"? If he ever said a word of such things again, she"d lock the door on him, and he might go to Jenny Crum for his tea. Not a bite or a sup should he ever have in her house again.