"I" th" coo-house."
Reuben went his way, and found the dinnerless boy deep, or apparently deep, in recipes for vegetable soups.
"What made yo late, Davy?" he asked him, as he stood over him.
David had more than half a mind not to answer, but at last he jerked out fiercely, "Waitin for th" second post, fust; then t"
donkey fell down half a mile out o" t" town, an th" things were spilt. There was n.o.body about, an" I had a job to get "un up at a"."
Reuben nervously thrust his hands far into his coat-pockets.
"Coom wi me, Davy, an I"st mak yor aunt gie yer yor dinner."
"I wouldn"t eat a morsel if she went down on her bended knees to me," the lad broke out, and, springing up, he strode sombrely through the yard and into the fields.
Reuben went slowly back into the house. Hannah was in the parlour--so he saw through the half-opened door. He went into the room, which smelt musty and close from disuse. Hannah was standing over the open drawer of an old-fashioned corner cupboard, carefully scanning a letter and enclosure before she locked them up.
"Is "t Mr. Gurney"s money?" Reuben said to her, in a queer voice.
She was startled, not having heard him come in, but she put what she held into the drawer all the more deliberately, and turned the key.
"Ay, "t is."
Reuben sat himself down on one of the hard chairs beside the table in the middle of the room. The light streaming through the shutters Hannah had just opened streamed in on his grizzling head and face working with emotion.
"It"s stolen money," he said hoa.r.s.ely. "Yo"re stealin it fro Davy."
Hannah smiled grimly, and withdrew the key.
"I"m paying missel an yo, Reuben Grieve, for t" keep o" two wuthless brats as cost moor nor they pays," she said, with an accent which somehow sent a shiver through Reuben. "_I_ don"t keep udder foaks" childer fur nothin."
"Yo"ve had moor nor they cost for seven year," said Reuben, with the same thick tense utterance. "Yo should let Davy ha it, an gie him a trade."
Hannah walked up to the door and shut it.
"I should, should I? An who"ll pay for Louie--for your luvely limb of a niece? It "ud tak about that," and she pointed grimly to the drawer, "to coover what she wastes an spiles i" t" yeer."
"Yo get her work, Hannah. Her bit and sup cost yo most nothin. I cud wark a bit moor--soa cud yo. Yo"re hurtin me i" mi conscience, Hannah--yo"re coomin atwixt me an th" Lord!"
He brought a shaking hand down on the damask table-cloth among the wool mats and the chapel hymn-books which adorned it. His long, loose frame had drawn itself up with a certain dignity.
"Ha done wi your cantin!" said Hannah under her breath, laying her two hands on the table, and stooping down so as to face him with more effect. The phrase startled Reuben with a kind of horror.
Whatever words might have pa.s.sed between them, never yet that he could remember had his wife allowed herself a sneer at his religion. It seemed to him suddenly as though he and she were going fast downhill--slipping to perdition, because of Sandy"s six hundred pounds.
But she cowed him--she always did. She stayed a moment in the same bent and threatening position, coercing him with angry eyes. Then she straightened herself, and moved away.
"Let t" lad tak hisself off if he wants to," she said, an iron resolution in her voice. "I told yo so afore--I woan"t cry for "im.
But as long as Louie"s here, an I ha to keep her, I"ll want that money, an every penny on"t. If it bean"t paid, she may go too!"
"Yo"d not turn her out, Hannah?" cried Reuben, instinctively putting out an arm to feel that the door was closed.
"_She_"d not want for a livin," replied Hannah, with a bitter sneer; "she"s her mither"s child."
Reuben rose slowly, shaking all over. He opened the door with difficulty, groped his way out of the front pa.s.sage, then went heavily through the yard and into the fields. There he wandered by himself for a couple of hours, altogether forgetting some newly dropped lambs to which he had been anxiously attending. For months past, ever since his conscience had been roused on the subject of his brother"s children, the dull, incapable man had been slowly reconceiving the woman with whom he had lived some five-and-twenty years, and of late the process had been attended with a kind of agony. The Hannah Martin he had married had been a hard body indeed, but respectable, upright, with the same moral instincts as himself. She had kept the farm together--he knew that; he could not have lived without her, and in all practical respects she had been a good and industrious wife. He had coveted her industry and her strong will; and, having got the use of them, he had learnt to put up with her contempt for him, and to fit his softer nature to hers.
Yet it seemed to him that there had always been certain conditions implied in this subjection of his, and that she was breaking them.
He could not have been fetching and carrying all these years for a woman who could go on wilfully appropriating money that did not belong to her,--who could even speak with callous indifference of the prospect of turning out her niece to a life of sin.
He thought of Sandy"s money with loathing. It was like the cursed stuff that Achan had brought into the camp--an evil leaven fermenting in their common life, and raising monstrous growths.
Reuben Grieve did not demand much of himself; a richer and more spiritual nature would have thought his ideals lamentably poor.
But, such as they were, the past year had proved that he could not fall below them without a dumb anguish, without a sense of shutting himself out from grace. He felt himself--by his fear of his wife--made a partner in Hannah"s covetousness, in Hannah"s cruelty towards Sandy"s children. Already, it seemed to him, the face of Christ was darkened, the fountain of grace dried up. All those appalling texts of judgment and reprobation he had listened to so often in chapel, protected against them by that warm inward certainty of "election," seemed to be now pressing against a bared and jeopardised soul.
But if he wrote to Mr. Gurney, Hannah would never forgive him till her dying day; and the thought of making her his enemy for good put him in a cold sweat.
After much pacing of the upper meadows he came heavily down at last to see to his lambs. Davy was just jumping the wall on to his uncle"s land, having apparently come down the Frimley path. When he saw his uncle he thrust his hands into his pockets, began to whistle, and came on with a devil-may-care swing of the figure.
They met in a gateway between two fields.
"Whar yo been, Davy?" asked Reuben, looking at him askance, and holding the gate so as to keep him.
"To Dawson"s," said the boy, sharply.
Reuben"s face brightened. Then the lad"s empty stomach must have been filled; for he knew that "Dawsons" were kind to him. He ventured to look at him more directly, and, as he did so, something in the att.i.tude of the proud handsome stripling reminded him of Sandy--Sandy, in the days of his youth, coming down to show his prosperous self at the farm. He put his large soil-stained hand on David"s shoulder.
"Goo yor ways in, Davy. I"ll see yo ha your reets."
David opened his eyes at him, astounded. There is nothing more startling in human relations than the strong emotion of weak people.
Reuben would have liked to say something else, but his lips opened and shut in vain. The boy, too, was hopelessly embarra.s.sed. At last, Reuben let the gate fall and walked off, with downcast head, to where, in the sheep-pen, he had a few hours before bound an orphan lamb to a refractory foster-mother. The foster-mother"s resistance had broken down, she was lying patiently and gently while the thin long-legged creature sucked; when it was frightened away by Reuben"s approach she trotted bleating after it. In his disturbed state of feeling the parallel, or rather the contrast, between the dumb animal and the woman struck home.
CHAPTER IX
But the crisis which had looked so near delayed!
Poor Reuben! The morning after his sudden show of spirit to David he felt himself, to his own miserable surprise, no more courageous than he had been before it. Yet the impression made had gone too deep to end in nothingness. He contracted a habit of getting by himself in the fields and puzzling his brain with figures--an occupation so unfamiliar and exhausting that it wore him a good deal; and Hannah, when he came in at night, would wonder, with a start, whether he were beginning "to break up." But it possessed him more and more. Hannah would not give up the money, but David must have his rights. How could it be done? For the first time Reuben fell to calculation over his money matters, which he did not ask Hannah to revise. But meanwhile he lived in a state of perpetual inward excitement which did not escape his wife. She could get no clue to it, however, and became all the more forbidding in the household the more she was invaded by this wholly novel sense of difficulty in managing her husband.
Yet she was not without a sense that if she could but contrive to alter her ways with the children it would be well for her. Mr. Gurney"s cheque was safely put away in the Clough End bank, and clearly her best policy would have been to make things tolerable for the two persons on whose proceedings--if they did but know it!--the arrival of future cheques in some measure depended. But Hannah had not the cleverness which makes the successful hypocrite. And for some time past there had been a strange unmanageable change in her feelings towards Sandy"s orphans. Since Reuben had made her conscious that she was robbing them, she had gone nearer to an active hatred than ever before. And, indeed, hatred in such a case is the most natural outcome; for it is little else than the soul"s perverse attempt to justify to itself its own evil desire.
David, however, when once his rage over Hannah"s latest offence had cooled, behaved to his aunt much as he had done before it. He was made placable by his secret hopes, and touched by Reuben"s advances--though of these last he took no practical account whatever; and he must wait for his letter. So he went back ungraciously to his daily tasks. Meanwhile he and Louie, on the strength of the great _coup_ in prospect, were better friends than they had ever been, and his consideration for her went up as he noticed that, when she pleased, the reckless creature could keep a secret "as close as wax."
The weeks, however, pa.s.sed away, and still no letter came for David. The shepherds" meetings--first at Clough End for the Cheshire side of the Scout, and then at the "Snake Inn" for the Sheffield side--when the strayed sheep of the year were restored to their owners, came and went in due course; sheep-washing and sheep-shearing were over; the summer was halfway through; and still no word from Mr. Ancrum.
David, full of annoyance and disappointment, was seething with fresh plans--he and Louie spent hours discussing them at the smithy--when suddenly an experience overtook him, which for the moment effaced all his nascent ambitions, and entirely did away with Louie"s new respect for him.
It was on this wise.
Mr. Ancrum had left Clough End towards the end of June. The congregation to which he ministered, and to which Reuben Grieve belonged, represented one of those curious and independent developments of the religious spirit which are to be found scattered through the teeming towns and districts of northern England. They had no connection with any recognised religious community, but the members of it had belonged to many--to the Church, the Baptists, the Independents, the Methodists. They were mostly mill-hands or small tradesmen, penetrated on the one side with the fervour, the yearnings, the strong formless poetry of English evangelical faith, and repelled on the other by various features in the different sects from which they came--by the hierarchical strictness of the Wesleyan organisation, or the looseness of the Congregationalists, or the coldness of the Church.