over the Pine-bridge of the Cataract, only she"s too heavy. It"s great fun, do stop."
Pen looked at the bill with one lingering fond hope that Miss Fotheringay"s name might be hidden, somewhere, in the list of the actors of the after-piece, but there was no such name. Go he must. He had a long ride home. He squeezed Foker"s hand. He was choking to speak, but he couldn"t. He quitted the theatre and walked frantically about the town, he knew not how long; then he mounted at the George and rode homewards, and Clavering clock sang out one as he came into the yard at Fairoaks. The lady of the house might have been awake, but she only heard him from the pa.s.sage outside his room as he dashed into bed and pulled the clothes over his head.
Pen had not been in the habit of pa.s.sing wakeful nights, so he at once fell off into a sound sleep. Even in later days and with a great deal of care and other thoughtful matter to keep him awake, a man from long practice or fatigue or resolution begins by going to sleep as usual: and gets a nap in advance of Anxiety. But she soon comes up with him and jogs his shoulder, and says, "Come, my man, no more of this laziness, you must wake up and have a talk with me." Then they fall to together in the midnight. Well, whatever might afterwards happen to him, poor little Pen was not come to this state yet; he tumbled into a sound sleep--did not wake until an early hour in the morning, when the rooks began to caw from the little wood beyond his bedroom windows; and--at that very instant and as his eyes started open, the beloved image was in his mind.
"My dear boy," he heard her say, "you were in a sound sleep and I would not disturb you: but I have been close by your pillow all this while: and I don"t intend that you shall leave me. I am Love! I bring with me fever and pa.s.sion: wild longing, maddening desire; restless craving and seeking. Many a long day ere this I heard you calling out for me; and behold now I am come."
Was Pen frightened at the summons? Not he. He did not know what was coming: it was all wild pleasure and delight as yet. And as, when three years previously, and on entering the fifth form at the Cistercians, his father had made him a present of a gold watch which the boy took from under his pillow and examined on the instant of waking: for ever rubbing and polishing it up in private and retiring into corners to listen to its ticking: so the young man exulted over his new delight; felt in his waistcoat pocket to see that it was safe; wound it up at nights, and at the very first moment of waking hugged it and looked at it.--By the way, that first watch of Pen"s was a showy ill-manufactured piece: it never went well from the beginning, and was always getting out of order. And after putting it aside into a drawer and forgetting it for some time, he swapped it finally away for a more useful time-keeper.
Pen felt himself to be ever so many years older since yesterday. There was no mistake about it now. He was as much in love as the best hero in the best romance he ever read. He told John to bring his shaving water with the utmost confidence. He dressed himself in some of his finest clothes that morning: and came splendidly down to breakfast, patronising his mother and little Laura, who had been strumming her music lesson for hours before; and who after he had read the prayers (of which he did not heed one single syllable) wondered at his grand appearance, and asked him to tell her what the play was about?
Pen laughed and declined to tell Laura what the play was about. In fact it was quite as well that she should not know. Then she asked him why he had got on his fine pin and beautiful new waistcoat?
Pen blushed and told his mother that the old schoolfellow with whom he had dined at Chatteris was reading with a tutor at Baymouth, a very learned man; and as he was himself to go to College, and as there were several young men pursuing their studies at Baymouth--he was anxious to ride over-and-and just see what the course of their reading was.
Laura made a long face. Helen Pendennis looked hard at her son, troubled more than ever with the vague doubt and terror which had been haunting her ever since the last night, when Farmer Gurnett brought back the news that Pen would not return home to dinner. Arthur"s eyes defied her. She tried to console herself, and drive off her fears. The boy had never told her an untruth. Pen conducted himself during breakfast in a very haughty and supercilious manner; and, taking leave of the elder and younger lady, was presently heard riding out of the stablecourt. He went gently at first, but galloped like a madman as soon as he thought that he was out of hearing.
Smirke, thinking of his own affairs, and softly riding with his toes out, to give Pen his three hours" reading at Fairoaks, met his pupil, who shot by him like the wind. Smirke"s pony shied, as the other thundered past him; the gentle curate went over his head among the stinging-nettles in the hedge. Pen laughed as they met, pointed towards the Baymouth road, and was gone half a mile in that direction before poor Smirke had picked himself up.
Pen had resolved in his mind that he must see Foker that morning; he must hear about her; know about her; be with somebody who knew her; and honest Smirke, for his part, sitting up among the stinging-nettles, as his pony cropped quietly in the hedge, thought dismally to himself, ought he to go to Fairoaks now that his pupil was evidently gone away for the day. Yes, he thought he might go, too. He might go and ask Mrs.
Pendennis when Arthur would be back; and hear Miss Laura her Watts"s Catechism. He got up on the little pony--both were used to his slipping off--and advanced upon the house from which his scholar had just rushed away in a whirlwind.
Thus love makes fools of all of us, big and little; and the curate had tumbled over head and heels in pursuit of it, and Pen had started in the first heat of the mad race.
CHAPTER V. Mrs. Haller at Home
Without slackening her pace, Rebecca the mare galloped on to Baymouth, where Pen put her up at the inn stables, and ran straightway to Mr.
Foker"s lodgings, which he knew from the direction given to him by that gentleman on the previous day. On reaching these apartments, which were over a chemist"s shop whose stock of cigars and sodawater went off rapidly by the kind patronage of his young inmates, Pen only found Mr.
Spavin, Foker"s friend, and part owner of the tandem which the latter had driven into Chatteris, who was smoking, and teaching a little dog, a friend of his, tricks with a bit of biscuit.
Pen"s healthy red face, fresh from the gallop, compared oddly with the waxy debauched little features of Foker"s chum; the latter remarked it.
"Who"s that man?" he thought, "he looks as fresh as a bean. His hand don"t shake of a morning, I"d bet five to one."
Foker had not come home at all. Here was a disappointment!--Mr. Spavin could not say when his friend would return. Sometimes he stopped a day, sometimes a week. Of what college was Pen? Would he have anything? There was a very fair tap of ale. Mr. Spavin was enabled to know Pendennis"s name, on the card which the latter took out and laid down (perhaps Pen in these days was rather proud of having a card)--and so the young men took leave.
Then Pen went down the rock, and walked about on the sand, biting his nails by the sh.o.r.e of the much-sounding sea. It stretched before him bright and immeasurable. The blue waters came rolling into the bay, foaming and roaring hoa.r.s.ely: Pen looked them in the face with blank eyes, hardly regarding them. What a tide there was pouring into the lad"s own mind at the time, and what a little power had he to check it!
Pen flung stones into the sea, but it still kept coming on. He was in a rage at not seeing Foker. He wanted to see Foker. He must see Foker.
"Suppose I go on--on the Chatteris road, just to see if I can meet him,"
Pen thought. Rebecca was saddled in another half hour, and galloping on the gra.s.s by the Chatteris road. About four miles from Baymouth, the Clavering road branches off, as everybody knows, and the mare naturally was for taking that turn, but, cutting her over the shoulder, Pen pa.s.sed the turning, and rode on to the turnpike without seeing any sign of the black tandem and red wheels.
As he was at the turnpike he might as well go on: that was quite clear.
So Pen rode to the George, and the hostler told him that Mr. Foker was there sure enough, and that "he"d been a makin a tremendous row the night afore, a drinkin and a singin, and wanting to fight Tom the postboy: which I"m thinking he"d have had the worst of it," the man added, with a grin. "Have you carried up your master"s "ot water to shave with?" he added, in a very satirical manner, to Mr. Foker"s domestic, who here came down the yard bearing his master"s clothes, most beautifully brushed and arranged. "Show Mr. Pendennis up to "un," and Pen followed the man at last to the apartment, where, in the midst of an immense bed, Mr. Harry Foker lay reposing.
The feather bed and bolsters swelled up all round Mr. Foker, so that you could hardly see his little sallow face and red silk nightcap.
"Hullo!" said Pen.
"Who goes there? brother, quickly tell!" sang out the voice from the bed. "What! Pendennis again? Is your Mamma acquainted with your absence?
Did you sup with us last night? No stop--who supped with us last night, Stoopid?"
"There was the three officers, sir, and Mr. Bingley, sir, and Mr.
Costigan, sir," the man answered, who received all Mr. Foker"s remarks with perfect gravity.
"Ah yes: the cup and merry jest went round. We chanted and I remember I wanted to fight a postboy. Did I thrash him, Stoopid?"
"No, sir. Fight didn"t come off, sir," said Stoopid, still with perfect gravity. He was arranging Mr. Foker"s dressing-case--a trunk, the gift of a fond mother, without which the young fellow never travelled. It contained a prodigious apparatus in plate; a silver dish, a silver mug, silver boxes and bottles for all sorts of essences, and a choice of razors ready against the time when Mr. Foker"s beard should come.
"Do it some other day," said the young fellow, yawning and throwing up his little lean arms over his head. "No, there was no fight; but there was chanting. Bingley chanted, I chanted, the General chanted--Costigan I mean.--Did you ever hear him sing "The Little Pig under the Bed,"
Pen?"
"The man we met yesterday," said Pen, all in a tremor, "the father of---"
"Of the Fotheringay,--the very man. Ain"t she a Venus, Pen?"
"Please sir, Mr. Costigan"s in the sittin-room, sir, and says, sir, you asked him to breakfast, sir. Called five times, sir; but wouldn"t wake you on no account; and has been here since eleven o"clock, sir---"
"How much is it now?"
"One, sir."
"What would the best of mothers say," cried the little sluggard, "if she saw me in bed at this hour? She sent me down here with a grinder. She wants me to cultivate my neglected genus--He, be! I say, Pen, this isn"t quite like seven o"clock school,--is it, old boy?"--and the young fellow burst out into a boyish laugh of enjoyment. Then he added--"Go in and talk to the General whilst I dress. And I say, Pendennis, ask him to sing you "The Little Pig under the Bed;" it"s capital." Pen went off in great perturbation, to meet Mr. Costigan, and Mr. Foker commenced his toilet.
Of Mr. Foker"s two grandfathers, the one from whom he inherited a fortune was a brewer; the other was an earl, who endowed him with the most doting mother in the world. The Fokers had been at the Cistercian school from father to son; at which place, our friend, whose name could be seen over the playground wall, on a public-house sign, under which "Foker"s Entire" was painted, had been dreadfully bullied on account of his trade, his uncomely countenance, his inapt.i.tude for learning and cleanliness, his gluttony and other weak points. But those who know how a susceptible youth, under the tyranny of his schoolfellows, becomes silent and a sneak, may understand how in a very few months after his liberation from bondage, he developed himself as he had done; and became the humorous, the sarcastic, the brilliant Foker, with whom we have made acquaintance. A dunce he always was, it is true; for learning cannot be acquired by leaving school and entering at college as a fellow-commoner; but he was now (in his own peculiar manner) as great a dandy as he before had been a slattern, and when he entered his sitting-room to join his two guests, arrived scented and arrayed in fine linen, and perfectly splendid in appearance.
General or Captain Costigan--for the latter was the rank which he preferred to a.s.sume--was seated in the window with the newspaper held before him at arm"s length. The Captain"s eyes were somewhat dim; and he was spelling the paper, with the help of his lips, as well as of those bloodshot eyes of his, as you see gentlemen do to whom reading is a rare and difficult occupation. His hat was c.o.c.ked very much on one ear; and as one of his feet lay up in the window-seat, the observer of such matters might remark, by the size and shabbiness of the boots which the Captain wore, that times did not go very well with him. Poverty seems as if it were disposed, before it takes possession of a man entirely, to attack his extremities first: the coverings of his head, feet, and hands are its first prey. All these parts of the Captain"s person were particularly rakish and shabby. As soon as he saw Pen he descended from the window-seat and saluted the new-comer, first in a military manner, by conveying a couple of his fingers (covered with a broken black glove) to his hat, and then removing that ornament altogether. The Captain was inclined to be bald, but he brought a quant.i.ty of lank iron-grey hair over his pate, and had a couple of whisps of the same falling down on each side of his face. Much whisky had spoiled what complexion Mr.
Costigan may have possessed in his youth. His once handsome face had now a copper tinge. He wore a very high stock, scarred and stained in many places; and a dress-coat tightly b.u.t.toned up in those parts where the b.u.t.tons had not parted company from the garment.
"The young gentleman to whom I had the honour to be introjuiced yesterday in the Cathadral Yard," said the Captain, with a splendid bow and wave of his hat. "I hope I see you well, sir. I marked ye in the thayatre last night during me daughter"s perfawrumance; and missed ye on my return. I did but conduct her home, sir, for Jack Costigan, though poor, is a gentleman; and when I reintered the house to pay me respects to me joyous young friend, Mr. Foker--ye were gone. We had a jolly night of ut, sir--Mr. Foker, the three gallant young dragoons, and your "umble servant. Gad, sir, it put me in mind of one of our old nights when I bore His Majesty"s commission in the Foighting Hundtherd and Third." And he pulled out an old snuff box, which he presented with a stately air to his new acquaintance.
Arthur was a great deal too much flurried to speak. This shabby-looking buck was--was her father. The Captain was perfumed with the recollections of the last night"s cigars, and pulled and twisted the tuft on his chin as jauntily as any young dandy.
"I hope, Miss F--, Miss Costigan is well, sir," Pen said, flushing up.
"She--she gave me greater pleasure, than--than I--I--I ever enjoyed at a play. I think, sir--I think she"s the finest actress in the world," he gasped out.
"Your hand, young man! for ye speak from your heart," cried the Captain.
"Thank ye, sir, an old soldier and a fond father thanks ye. She is the finest actress in the world. I"ve seen the Siddons, sir, and the O"Nale--they were great, but what were they compared to Miss Fotheringay? I do not wish she should ashume her own name while on the stage. Me family, sir, are proud people; and the Costigans of Costiganstown think that an honest man, who has borne Her Majesty"s colours in the Hundred and Third, would demean himself, by permitting his daughter to earn her old father"s bread."
"There cannot be a more honourable duty, surely," Pen said.
"Honourable! Bedad, sir, I"d like to see the man who said Jack Costigan would consent to anything dishonourable. I have a heart, sir, though I am poor; I like a man who has a heart. You have: I read it in your honest face and steady eye. And would you believe it"? he added, after a pause, and with a pathetic whisper, "that that Bingley who has made his fortune by me child, gives her but two guineas a week: out of which she finds herself in dresses, and which, added to me own small means, makes our all?"
Now the Captain"s means were so small as to be, it may be said, quite invisible. But n.o.body knows how the wind is tempered to shorn Irish lambs, and in what marvellous places they find pasture. If Captain Costigan, whom I had the honour to know, would but have told his history, it would have been a great moral story. But he neither would have told it if he could, nor could if he would; for the Captain was not only unaccustomed to tell the truth,--he was unable even to think it--and fact and fiction reeled together in his muzzy, whiskified brain.
He began life rather brilliantly with a pair of colours, a fine person and legs, and one of the most beautiful voices in the world. To his latest day he sang with admirable pathos and humour those wonderful Irish ballads which are so mirthful and so melancholy: and was always the first himself to cry at their pathos. Poor Cos! he was at once brave and maudlin, humorous and an idiot; always good-natured, and sometimes almost trustworthy. Up to the last day of his life he would drink with any man, and back any man"s bill: and his end was in a spunging-house, where the sheriff"s officer, who took him, was fond of him.
In his brief morning of life, Cos formed the delight of regimental messes, and had the honour of singing his songs, baccha.n.a.lian and sentimental, at the tables of the most ill.u.s.trious generals and commanders-in-chief, in the course of which period he drank three times as much claret as was good for him, and spent his doubtful patrimony.