I invited them, Charlotte, whispered he. I meant not however to surprise you. If you comply, you will give me great pleasure: if you do not, I will not be dis-pleased with my sister.
What can I do? Either be less good to me, sir, or less hurrying.
You have sacrificed enough to female punctilio, Charlotte. Lord G---- has been a zealous courtier. You have no doubt of the ardor of his pa.s.sion, nor of your own power. Leave the day to me. Let it be Tuesday next.
Good heaven! I can"t bear you, after such a--and she gasped, as if for breath; and he turning from her to me, she went to Lady Gertrude, who, rising, took her hand, and withdrew with her into the next room.
They staid out till they were told dinner was served: and when they returned, I thought I never saw Miss Grandison look so lovely. A charming flush had overspread her cheeks: a sweet consciousness in her eyes gave a female grace to her whole aspect, and softened, as I may say, the natural majesty of her fine features.
Lord G---- looked delighted, as if his heart were filled with happy presages. The earl seemed no less pleased.
Miss Grandison was unusually thoughtful all dinnertime: she gave me great joy to see her so, in the hope, that when the lover becomes the husband, the over-lively mistress will be sunk in the obliging wife.--And yet, now and then, as the joy in my lord"s heart overflowed at his lips, I could observe that archness rising to her eye, that makes one both love and fear her.
After dinner, the Earl of G---- and Lady Gertrude desired a conference with Sir Charles and Lady L----. They were not long absent, when Sir Charles came in, and carried out Miss Grandison to them. Lord G----"s complexion varied often.
Sir Charles left them together, and joined us. We were standing; and he singled me out--I hope, madam, said he, that Charlotte may be prevailed upon for Tuesday next: but I will not urge it further.
I thought that he was framing himself to say something particular to me, when Lady L---- came in, and desired him and me to step to her sister, who had retired from the Earl and Lady Gertrude, by consent.
Ah, my Harriet! said she, pity me, my dear!--Debas.e.m.e.nt is the child of pride!--Then turning to Sir Charles, I acknowledge myself overcome, said she, by your earnestness, as you are so soon to leave us; and by the importunities of the Earl of G----, Lady Gertrude, and my sister-- Unprepared in mind, in clothes, I am resolved to oblige the best of brothers. Do you, sir, dispose of me as you think fit.
My sister consents, sir, said Lady L----, for next Tuesday.
Cheerfully, I hope. If Charlotte balances whether, if she took more time, she should have Lord G---- at all, let her take it. Lord L----, in my absence, will be to her all that I wish to be, when she shall determine.
I balance not, sir: but I thought to have had a month"s time, at least, to look about me, and having treated Lord G---- too flippantly, to give him by degrees some fairer prospects of happiness with me, than hitherto he has had.
Sir Charles embraced her. She was all his sister, he said. Let the alteration now begin. Lord G---- would rejoice in it, and consider all that had pa.s.sed, as trials only of his love for her. The obliging wife would banish from his remembrance the petulant mistress. And now, allow me, my dear sister, to present you to the Earl and Lady Gertrude.
He led her in to them. Lady L---- took my hand, and led me in also.-- Charlotte, my lord, yields to yours and Lady Gertrude"s importunities.
Next Tuesday will give the two families a near and tender relation to each other.
The earl saluted her in a very affectionate manner: so did Lady Gertrude; who afterwards ran out for her nephew: and, leading him in, presented him to Miss Grandison.
She had just time to whisper me, as he approached her; Ah, Harriet! now comes the worst part of the show.--He kneeled on one knee, kissed her hand: but was too much overjoyed to speak; for Lady Gertrude had told him, as she led him in, that Tuesday was to be his happy day.
It is impossible, Lucy, but Sir Charles Grandison must carry every point he sets his heart upon. When he shall appear before the family of Porretta in Italy, who will be able to withstand him?--Is not his consequence doubled, more than doubled, since he was with them? The man whose absence they requested, they now invite to come among them. They have tried every experiment to restore their Clementina: he has a n.o.ble estate now in possession. The fame of his goodness is gone out to distant countries. O my dear! All opposition must fly before him. And if it be the will of Heaven to restore Clementina, all her friends must concur in giving her to him upon the terms he has proposed; and from which, having himself proposed them, Sir Charles Grandison cannot recede.
His heart, it is evident, is at Bologna. Well, and so it ought to be.
And yet I could not forbear being sensibly touched by the following words, which I overheard him say to Lord L----, in answer to something my lord said to him:
"I am impatient to be abroad. Had I not waited for Mr. Lowther, the last letters I received from Italy should have been answered in person."
But as honour, compa.s.sion, love, friendship (still n.o.bler than love!) have demands upon him, let him obey the call. He has set me high in his esteem. Let me be worthy of his friendship. Pangs I shall occasionally feel; but who that values one person above the rest of the world, does not?
Sir Charles, as we sat at tea, mentioned his cousin Grandison to Lord L----: It is strange, my lord, said he, that we hear nothing of our cousin Everard, since he was seen at White"s. But whenever he emerges, Charlotte, if I am absent, receive him without reproaches: yet I should be glad that he could have rejoiced with us. Must I leave England, and not see him?
It has been, it seems, the way of this unhappy man, to shut himself up with some woman in private lodgings, for fear his cousin should find him out; and in two or three months, when he has been tired of his wicked companion, emerge, as Sir Charles called it, to notice, and then seek for his cousin"s favour and company, and live for as many more months in a state of contrition. And Sir Charles, in his great charity, believes, that till some new temptation arises, he is in earnest in his penitence; and hopes, that in time he will see his errors.
Oh, Lucy! What a poor creeping, mean wretch is a libertine, when one looks down upon him, and up to such a glorious creature as Sir Charles Grandison!
Sir Charles was led to talk of his engagement for to-morrow, on the triple marriage in the Danby family. We all gave him joy of the happy success that had rewarded his beneficent spirit, with regard to that family. He gave us the characters of the three couples greatly to their advantage, and praised the families on both sides, which were to be so closely united on the morrow; not forgetting to mention kindly honest Mr.
Sylvester the attorney.
He told us, that he should set out on Friday early for Windsor, in order to attend Lord W---- in his first visit to Mansfield-house. You, Lady L----, will have the trouble given you, said he, of procuring to be new-set the jewels of the late Lady W---- for a present to the future bride. My lord shewed them to me (among a great number of other valuable trinkets of his late wife"s) in my last return from the Hall. They are rich, and will do credit to his quality. You, my Lord L----, you, my sisters, will be charmed with your new aunt, and her whole family. I have joy on the happiness in prospect that will gild the latter days of my mother"s brother; and at the same time be a means of freeing from oppression an ancient and worthy family.
Tears were in every eye. There now, thought I, sits this princely man, rejoicing every one who sees him, and hears him speak: But where will he be nine days hence? And whose this day twelvemonth?
He talked with particular pleasure of the expected arrival of his Beauchamp. He pleased himself, that he should leave behind him a man who would delight every body, and supply to his friends his absence.--What a character did he give, and Dr. Bartlett confirm, of that amiable friend of his!
How did the Earl and Lady Gertrude dwell upon all he said! They prided themselves on the relation they were likely so soon to stand in to so valuable a man.
In your last letter, you tell me, Lucy, that Mr. Greville has the confidence to throw out menaces against this excellent man--Sorry wretch!
--How my heart rises against him!--He--But no more of such an earth-born creature.
LETTER XV
MISS BYRON.--IN CONTINUATION THURSDAY MORNING, APRIL 6.
Miss Grandison, accompanied by Miss Jervois, has just left us. Lady L---- has undertaken, she says, to set all hands at work, to have things in tolerable order, early as the day is, for Tuesday next. Miss Grandison (would you believe it?) owns, that she wants spirits to order anything. What must be the solemnity of that circ.u.mstance, when near, that shall make Charlotte Grandison want spirits?
She withdrew with me to my apartment. She threw herself into a chair: "Tis a folly to deny it, Harriet, but I am very low, and very silly: I don"t like next Tuesday by any means.
Is your objection only to the day, my dear?
I do not like the man.
Is there any man whom you like better?
I can"t say that neither. But this brother of mine makes me think contemptibly of all other men. I would compound for a man but half so good--Tender, kind, humane, polite, and even cheerful in affliction!--O, Harriet! where is there such another man?
No where.--But you don"t by marriage lose, on the contrary, you further engage and secure, the affection of this brother. You will have a good-natured worthy man for your husband; a man who loves you, and you will have your brother besides.
Do you think I can be happy with Lord G----?
I am sure you may, if it be not your own fault.
That"s the thing: I may, perhaps, bear with the man; but I cannot honour him.
Then don"t vow to honour him. Don"t meet him at the altar.
Yet I must. But I believe I think too much: and consideration is no friend to wedlock.--Would to Heaven that the same hour that my hand and Lord G----"s were joined, yours and my brother"s were also united!
Ah, Miss Grandison! If you love me, try to wean me; and not to encourage hopes of what never, never can be.