"Why not?" says Johanna with a shrug. She"s clearly no happier about being teamed up than I am. But we"re all caught up in Beetee"s trap. "You guard, I"ll unwind. We can trade off later."
Without further discussion, we head down the slope. In fact there"s very little discussion between us at all. We move at a pretty good clip, one manning the coil, the other keeping watch. About halfway down, we hear the clicking beginning to rise, indicating it"s after eleven.
"Better hurry," Johanna says. "I want to put a lot of distance between me and that water before the lightning hits. Just in case Volts miscalculated something."
"I"ll take the coil for a while," I say. It"s harder work laying out the wire than guarding, and she"s had a long turn.
"Here," Johanna says, pa.s.sing me the coil.
Both of our hands are still on the metal cylinder when there"s a slight vibration. Suddenly the thin golden wire from above springs down at us, bunching in tangled loops and curls around our wrists. Then the severed end snakes up to our feet.
It only takes a second to register this rapid turn of events. Johanna and I look at each other, but neither of us has to say it. Someone not far above us has cut the wire. And they will be on us at any moment.
My hand frees itself from the wire and has just closed on the feathers of an arrow when the metal cylinder smashes into the side of my head. The next thing I know, I"m lying on my back in the vines, a terrible pain in my left temple. Something"s wrong with my eyes. My vision blurs in and out of focus as I strain to make the two moons floating up in the sky into one. It"s hard to breathe, and I realize Johanna"s sitting on my chest, pinning me at the shoulders with her knees.
There"s a stab in my left forearm. I try to jerk away but I"m still too incapacitated. Johanna"s digging something, I guess the point of her knife, into my flesh, twisting it around. There"s an excruciating ripping sensation and warmth runs down my wrist, filling my palm. She swipes down my arm and coats half my face with my blood.
"Stay down!" she hisses. Her weight leaves my body and I"m alone.
Stay down? I think. I think. What? What is happening? What? What is happening? My eyes shut, blocking out the inconsistent world, as I try to make sense of my situation. My eyes shut, blocking out the inconsistent world, as I try to make sense of my situation.
All I can think of is Johanna shoving Wiress to the beach. "Just stay down, will you?" "Just stay down, will you?" But she didn"t attack Wiress. Not like this. I"m not Wiress, anyway. I"m not Nuts. But she didn"t attack Wiress. Not like this. I"m not Wiress, anyway. I"m not Nuts. "Just stay down, will you?" "Just stay down, will you?" echoes around inside my brain. echoes around inside my brain.
Footsteps coming. Two pairs. Heavy, not trying to conceal their whereabouts.
Brutus"s voice. "She"s good as dead! Come on, En.o.baria!" Feet moving into the night.
Am I? I drift in and out of consciousness looking for an answer. Am I as good as dead? I"m in no position to make an argument to the contrary. In fact, rational thinking is a struggle. This much I know. Johanna attacked me. Smashed that cylinder into my head. Cut my arm, probably doing irreparable damage to veins and arteries, and then Brutus and En.o.baria showed up before she had time to finish me off.
The alliance is over. Finnick and Johanna must have had an agreement to turn on us tonight. I knew we should have left this morning. I don"t know where Beetee stands. But I"m fair game, and so is Peeta.
Peeta! My eyes fly open in panic. Peeta is waiting up by the tree, unsuspecting and off guard. Maybe Finnick has even killed him already. "No," I whisper. That wire was cut from a short distance away by the Careers. Finnick and Beetee and Peeta-they can"t know what"s going on down here. They can only be wondering what has happened, why the wire has gone slack or maybe even sprung back to the tree. This, in itself, can"t be a signal to kill, can it? Surely this was just Johanna deciding the time had come to break with us. Kill me. Escape from the Careers. Then bring Finnick into the fight as soon as possible. My eyes fly open in panic. Peeta is waiting up by the tree, unsuspecting and off guard. Maybe Finnick has even killed him already. "No," I whisper. That wire was cut from a short distance away by the Careers. Finnick and Beetee and Peeta-they can"t know what"s going on down here. They can only be wondering what has happened, why the wire has gone slack or maybe even sprung back to the tree. This, in itself, can"t be a signal to kill, can it? Surely this was just Johanna deciding the time had come to break with us. Kill me. Escape from the Careers. Then bring Finnick into the fight as soon as possible.
I don"t know. I don"t know. I only know that I must get back to Peeta and keep him alive. It takes every ounce of will I have to push up into a sitting position and drag myself up the side of a tree to my feet. It"s lucky I have something to hold on to because the jungle"s tilting back and forth. Without any warning, I lean forward and vomit up the seafood feast, heaving until there can"t possibly be an oyster left in my body. Trembling and slick with sweat, I a.s.sess my physical condition.
As I lift up my damaged arm, blood sprays me in the face and the world makes another alarming shift. I squeeze my eyes shut and cling to the tree until things steady a little. Then I take a few careful steps to a neighboring tree, pull off some moss, and without examining the wound further, tightly bandage my arm. Better. Definitely better not to see it. Then I allow my hand to tentatively touch my head wound. There"s a huge lump but not too much blood. Obviously I"ve got some internal damage, but I don"t seem in danger of bleeding to death. At least not through my head.
I dry my hands on moss and get a shaky grip on my bow with my damaged left arm. Secure the notch of an arrow to the string. Make my feet move up the slope.
Peeta. My dying wish. My promise. To keep him alive. My heart lifts a bit when I realize he must be alive because no cannon has fired. Maybe Johanna was acting alone, knowing Finnick would side with her once her intentions were clear. Although it"s hard to guess what goes on between those two. I think of how he looked to her for confirmation before he"d agree to help set Beetee"s trap. There"s a much deeper alliance based on years of friendship and who knows what else. Therefore, if Johanna has turned on me, I should no longer trust Finnick.
I reach this conclusion only seconds before I hear someone running down the slope toward me. Neither Peeta nor Beetee could move at this pace. I duck behind a curtain of vines, concealing myself just in time. Finnick flies by me, his skin shadowy with medicine, leaping through the undergrowth like a deer. He soon reaches the sight of my attack, must see the blood. "Johanna! Katniss!" he calls. I stay put until he goes in the direction Johanna and the Careers took.
I move as quickly as I can without sending the world into a whirl. My head throbs with the rapid beat of my heart. The insects, possibly excited by the smell of blood, have increased their clicking until it"s a continuous roar in my ears. No, wait. Maybe my ears are actually ringing from the hit. Until the insects shut up, it will be impossible to tell. But when the insects go silent, the lightning will start. I have to move faster. I have to get to Peeta.
The boom of a cannon pulls me up short. Someone has died. I know that with everyone running around armed and scared right now, it could be anybody. But whoever it is, I believe the death will trigger a kind of free-for-all out here in the night. People will kill first and wonder about their motives later. I force my legs into a run.
Something snags my feet and I sprawl out on the ground. I feel it wrapping around me, entwining me in sharp fibers. A net! This must be one of Finnick"s fancy nets, positioned to trap me, and he must be nearby, trident in hand. I flail around for a moment, only working the web more tightly around me, and then I catch a glimpse of it in the moonlight. Confused, I lift my arm and see it"s entangled in shimmering golden threads. It"s not one of Finnick"s nets at all, but Beetee"s wire. I carefully rise to my feet and find I"m in a patch of the stuff that caught on a trunk on its way back to the lightning tree. Slowly I disengage myself from the wire, step out of its reach, and continue uphill.
On the good side, I"m on the right path and have not been so disoriented by the head injury as to lose my sense of direction. On the bad side, the wire has reminded me of the oncoming lightning storm. I can still hear the insects, but are they starting to fade?
I keep the loops of wire a few feet to my left as a guide as I run but take great care not to touch them. If those insects are fading and the first bolt is about to strike the tree, then all its power will come surging down that wire and anyone in contact with it will die.
The tree swims into view, its trunk festooned with gold. I slow down, try to move with some stealth, but I"m really just lucky to be upright. I look for a sign of the others. No one. No one is there. "Peeta?" I call softly. "Peeta?"
A soft moan answers me and I whip around to find a figure lying higher up on the ground. "Beetee!" I exclaim. I hurry and kneel beside him. The moan must have been involuntary. He"s not conscious, although I can see no wound except a gash below the crook of his elbow. I grab a nearby handful of moss and clumsily wrap it while I try to rouse him. "Beetee! Beetee, what"s going on! Who cut you? Beetee!" I shake him in the way you should never shake an injured person, but I don"t know what else to do. He moans again and briefly raises a hand to ward me off.
This is when I notice he"s holding a knife, one Peeta was carrying earlier, I think, which is wrapped loosely in wire.
Perplexed, I stand and lift the wire, confirming it"s attached back at the tree. It takes me a moment to remember the second, much shorter strand that Beetee wound around a branch and left on the ground before he even began his design on the tree. I"d thought it had some electrical significance, had been set aside to be used later. But it never was, because there"s probably a good twenty, twenty-five yards here.
I squint hard up the hill and realize we"re only a few paces from the force field. There"s the telltale square, high up and to my right, just as it was this morning. What did Beetee do? Did he actually try to drive the knife into the force field the way Peeta did by accident? And what"s the deal with the wire? Was this his backup plan? If electrifying the water failed, did he mean to send the lightning bolt"s energy into the force field? What would that do, anyway? Nothing? A great deal? Fry us all? The force field must mostly be energy, too, I guess. The one in the Training Center was invisible. This one seems to somehow mirror the jungle. But I"ve seen it falter when Peeta"s knife struck it and when my arrows. .h.i.t. The real world lies right behind it.
My ears are not ringing. It was the insects after all. I know that now because they are dying out quickly and I hear nothing but the jungle sounds. Beetee is useless. I can"t rouse him. I can"t save him. I don"t know what he was trying to do with the knife and the wire and he"s incapable of explaining. The moss bandage on my arm is soaked and there"s no use fooling myself. I"m so light-headed I"ll black out in a matter of minutes. I"ve got to get away from this tree and- "Katniss!" I hear his voice though he"s a far distance away. But what is he doing? Peeta must have figured out that everyone is hunting us by now. "Katniss!"
I can"t protect him. I can"t move fast or far and my shooting abilities are questionable at best. I do the one thing I can to draw the attackers away from him and over to me. "Peeta!" I scream out. "Peeta! I"m here! Peeta!" Yes, I will draw them in, any in my vicinity, away from Peeta and over to me and the lightning tree that will soon be a weapon in and of itself. "I"m here! I"m here!" He won"t make it. Not with that leg in the night. He will never make it in time. "Peeta!"
It"s working. I can hear them coming. Two of them. Crashing through the jungle. My knees start to give out and I sink down next to Beetee, resting my weight on my heels. My bow and arrow lift into position. If I can take them out, will Peeta survive the rest?
En.o.baria and Finnick reach the lightning tree. They can"t see me, sitting above them on the slope, my skin camouflaged in ointment. I home in on En.o.baria"s neck. With any luck, when I kill her, Finnick will duck behind the tree for cover just as the lightning bolt strikes. And it will be any second. There"s only a faint insect click here and there. I can kill them now. I can kill them both.
Another cannon.
"Katniss!" Peeta"s voice howls for me. But this time I don"t answer. Beetee still breathes faintly beside me. He and I will soon die. Finnick and En.o.baria will die. Peeta is alive. Two cannons have sounded. Brutus, Johanna, Chaff. Two of them are already dead. That will leave Peeta with only one tribute to kill. And that is the very best I can do. One enemy.
Enemy. Enemy. The word is tugging at a recent memory. Pulling it into the present. The look on Haymitch"s face. The word is tugging at a recent memory. Pulling it into the present. The look on Haymitch"s face. "Katniss, when you"re in the arena ..." "Katniss, when you"re in the arena ..." The scowl, the misgiving. The scowl, the misgiving. "What?" "What?" I hear my own voice tighten as I bristle at some unspoken accusation. I hear my own voice tighten as I bristle at some unspoken accusation. "You just remember who the enemy is," "You just remember who the enemy is," Haymitch says. Haymitch says. "That"s all." "That"s all."
Haymitch"s last words of advice to me. Why would I need reminding? I have always known who the enemy is. Who starves and tortures and kills us in the arena. Who will soon kill everyone I love.
My bow drops as his meaning registers. Yes, I know who the enemy is. And it"s not En.o.baria.
I finally see Beetee"s knife with clear eyes. My shaking hands slide the wire from the hilt, wind it around the arrow just above the feathers, and secure it with a knot picked up in training.
I rise, turning to the force field, fully revealing myself but no longer caring. Only caring about where I should direct my tip, where Beetee would have driven the knife if he"d been able to choose. My bow tilts up at the wavering square, the flaw, the ... what did he call it that day? The c.h.i.n.k in the armor. I let the arrow fly, see it hit its mark and vanish, pulling the thread of gold behind it.
My hair stands on end and the lightning strikes the tree.
A flash of white runs up the wire, and for just a moment, the dome bursts into a dazzling blue light. I"m thrown backward to the ground, body useless, paralyzed, eyes frozen wide, as feathery bits of matter rain down on me. I can"t reach Peeta. I can"t even reach my pearl. My eyes strain to capture one last image of beauty to take with me.
Right before the explosions begin, I find a star.
Everything seems to erupt at once. The earth explodes into showers of dirt and plant matter. Trees burst into flames. Even the sky fills with brightly colored blossoms of light. I can"t think why the sky"s being bombed until I realize the Gamemakers are shooting off fireworks up there, while the real destruction occurs on the ground. Just in case it"s not enough fun watching the obliteration of the arena and the remaining tributes. Or perhaps to illuminate our gory ends.
Will they let anyone survive? Will there be a victor of the Seventy-fifth Hunger Games? Maybe not. After all, what is this Quarter Quell but ... what was it President Snow read from the card?
"... a reminder to the rebels that even the strongest among them cannot overcome the power of the Capitol..."
Not even the strongest of the strong will triumph. Perhaps they never intended to have a victor in these Games at all. Or perhaps my final act of rebellion forced their hand.
I"m sorry, Peeta, I think. I think. I"m sorry I couldn"t save you. I"m sorry I couldn"t save you. Save him? More likely I stole his last chance at life, condemned him, by destroying the force field. Maybe, if we had all played by the rules, they might have let him live. Save him? More likely I stole his last chance at life, condemned him, by destroying the force field. Maybe, if we had all played by the rules, they might have let him live.
The hovercraft materializes above me without warning. If it was quiet, and a mockingjay perched close at hand, I would have heard the jungle go silent and then the bird"s call that precedes the appearance of the Capitol"s aircraft. But my ears could never make out anything so delicate in this bombardment.
The claw drops from the underside until it"s directly overhead. The metal talons slide under me. I want to scream, run, smash my way out of it but I"m frozen, helpless to do anything but fervently hope I"ll die before I reach the shadowy figures awaiting me above. They have not spared my life to crown me victor but to make my death as slow and public as possible.
My worst fears are confirmed when the face that greets me inside the hovercraft belongs to Plutarch Heavensbee, Head Gamemaker. What a mess I have made of his beautiful Games with the clever ticking clock and the field of victors. He will suffer for his failure, probably lose his life, but not before he sees me punished. His hand reaches for me, I think to strike me, but he does something worse. With his thumb and his forefinger, he slides my eyelids shut, sentencing me to the vulnerability of darkness. They can do anything to me now and I will not even see it coming.
My heart pounds so hard the blood begins to stream from beneath my soaked moss bandage. My thoughts grow foggy. Possibly I can bleed to death before they can revive me after all. In my mind, I whisper a thank-you to Johanna Mason for the excellent wound she inflicted as I black out.
When I swim back into semi consciousness, I can feel I"m lying on a padded table. There"s the pinching sensation of tubes in my left arm. They are trying to keep me alive because, if I slide quietly, privately into death, it will be a victory. I"m still largely unable to move, open my eyelids, raise my head. But my right arm has regained a little motion. It flops across my body, feeling like a flipper, no, something less animated, like a club. I have no real motor coordination, no proof that I even still have fingers. Yet I manage to swing my arm around until I rip the tubes out. A beeping goes off but I can"t stay awake to find out who it will summon.
The next time I surface, my hands are tied down to the table, the tubes back in my arm. I can open my eyes and lift my head slightly, though. I"m in a large room with low ceilings and a silvery light. There are two rows of beds facing each other. I can hear the breathing of what I a.s.sume are my fellow victors. Directly across from me I see Beetee with about ten different machines hooked up to him. Just let us die! Just let us die! I scream in my mind. I slam my head back hard on the table and go out again. I scream in my mind. I slam my head back hard on the table and go out again.
When I finally, truly, wake up, the restraints are gone. I raise my hand and find I have fingers that can move at my command again. I push myself to a sitting position and hold on to the padded table until the room settles into focus. My left arm is bandaged but the tubes dangle off stands by the bed.
I"m alone except for Beetee, who still lies in front of me, being sustained by his army of machines. Where are the others, then? Peeta, Finnick, En.o.baria, and...and...one more, right? Either Johanna or Chaff or Brutus was still alive when the bombs began. I"m sure they"ll want to make an example of us all. But where have they taken them? Moved them from hospital to prison?
"Peeta..." I whisper. I so wanted to protect him. Am still resolved to. Since I have failed to keep him safe in life, I must find him, kill him now before the Capitol gets to choose the agonizing means of his death. I slide my legs off the table and look around for a weapon. There are a few syringes sealed in sterile plastic on a table near Beetee"s bed. Perfect. All I"ll need is air and a clear shot at one of his veins.
I pause for a moment, consider killing Beetee. But if I do, the monitors will start beeping and I"ll be caught before I get to Peeta. I make a silent promise to return and finish him off if I can.
I"m naked except for a thin nightgown, so I slip the syringe under the bandage that covers the wound on my arm. There are no guards at the door. No doubt I"m miles beneath the Training Center or in some Capitol stronghold, and the possibility of my escape is nonexistent. It doesn"t matter. I"m not escaping, just finishing a job.
I creep down a narrow hallway to a metal door that stands slightly ajar. Someone is behind it. I take out the syringe and grip it in my hand. Flattening myself against the wall, I listen to the voices inside.
"Communications are down in Seven, Ten, and Twelve. But Eleven has control of transportation now, so there"s at least a hope of them getting some food out."
Plutarch Heavensbee. I think. Although I"ve only really spoken with him once. A hoa.r.s.e voice asks a question.
"No, I"m sorry. There"s no way I can get you to Four. But I"ve given special orders for her retrieval if possible. It"s the best I can do, Finnick."
Finnick. My mind struggles to make sense of the conversation, of the fact that it"s taking place between Plutarch Heavensbee and Finnick. Is he so near and dear to the Capitol that he"ll be excused his crimes? Or did he really have no idea what Beetee intended? He croaks out something else. Something heavy with despair.
"Don"t be stupid. That"s the worst thing you could do. Get her killed for sure. As long as you"re you"re alive, they"ll keep alive, they"ll keep her her alive for bait," says Haymitch. alive for bait," says Haymitch.
Says Haymitch! I bang through the door and stumble into the room. Haymitch, Plutarch, and a very beat-up Finnick sit around a table laid with a meal no one is eating. Daylight streams in the curved windows, and in the distance I see the top of a forest of trees. We are flying.
"Done knocking yourself out, sweetheart?" says Haymitch, the annoyance clear in his voice. But as I careen forward he steps up and catches my wrists, steadying me. He looks at my hand. "So it"s you and a syringe against the Capitol? See, this is why no one lets you make the plans." I stare at him uncomprehendingly. "Drop it." I feel the pressure increase on my right wrist until my hand is forced to open and I release the syringe. He settles me in a chair next to Finnick.
Plutarch puts a bowl of broth in front of me. A roll. Slips a spoon into my hand. "Eat," he says in a much kinder voice than Haymitch used.
Haymitch sits directly in front of me. "Katniss, I"m going to explain what happened. I don"t want you to ask any questions until I"m through. Do you understand?"
I nod numbly. And this is what he tells me.
There was a plan to break us out of the arena from the moment the Quell was announced. The victor tributes from 3, 4, 6, 7, 8, and 11 had varying degrees of knowledge about it. Plutarch Heavensbee has been, for several years, part of an undercover group aiming to overthrow the Capitol. He made sure the wire was among the weapons. Beetee was in charge of blowing a hole in the force field. The bread we received in the arena was code for the time of the rescue. The district where the bread originated indicated the day. Three. The number of rolls the hour. Twenty-four. The hovercraft belongs to District 13. Bonnie and Twill, the women I met in the woods from 8, were right about its existence and its defense capabilities. We are currently on a very roundabout journey to District 13. Meanwhile, most of the districts in Panem are in full-scale rebellion.
Haymitch stops to see if I am following. Or maybe he is done for the moment.
It"s an awful lot to take in, this elaborate plan in which I was a piece, just as I was meant to be a piece in the Hunger Games. Used without consent, without knowledge. At least in the Hunger Games, I knew I was being played with.
My supposed friends have been a lot more secretive.
"You didn"t tell me." My voice is as ragged as Finnick"s.
"Neither you nor Peeta were told. We couldn"t risk it," says Plutarch. "I was even worried you might mention my indiscretion with the watch during the Games." He pulls out his pocket watch and runs his thumb across the crystal, lighting up the mockingjay. "Of course, when I showed you this, I was merely tipping you off about the arena. As a mentor. I thought it might be a first step toward gaining your trust. I never dreamed you"d be a tribute again."
"I still don"t understand why Peeta and I weren"t let in on the plan," I say.
"Because once the force field blew, you"d be the first ones they"d try to capture, and the less you knew, the better," says Haymitch.
"The first ones? Why?" I say, trying to hang on to the train of thought.
"For the same reason the rest of us agreed to die to keep you alive," says Finnick.
"No, Johanna tried to kill me," I say.
"Johanna knocked you out to cut the tracker from your arm and lead Brutus and En.o.baria away from you," says Haymitch.
"What?" My head aches so and I want them to stop talking in circles. "I don"t know what you"re-"
"We had to save you because you"re the mockingjay, Katniss," says Plutarch. "While you live, the revolution lives."
The bird, the pin, the song, the berries, the watch, the cracker, the dress that burst into flames. I am the mockingjay.
The one that survived despite the Capitol"s plans. The symbol of the rebellion.
It"s what I suspected in the woods when I found Bonnie and Twill escaping. Though I never really understood the magnitude. But then, I wasn"t meant to understand. I think of Haymitch"s sneering at my plans to flee District 12, start my own uprising, even the very notion that District 13 could exist. Subterfuges and deceptions. And if he could do that, behind his mask of sarcasm and drunkenness, so convincingly and for so long, what else has he lied about? I know what else.
"Peeta," I whisper, my heart sinking.
"The others kept Peeta alive because if he died, we knew there"d be no keeping you in an alliance," says Haymitch. "And we couldn"t risk leaving you unprotected." His words are matter-of-fact, his expression unchanged, but he can"t hide the tinge of gray that colors his face.
"Where is Peeta?" I hiss at him.
"He was picked up by the Capitol along with Johanna and En.o.baria," says Haymitch. And finally he has the decency to drop his gaze.
Technically, I am unarmed. But no one should ever underestimate the harm that fingernails can do, especially if the target is unprepared. I lunge across the table and rake mine down Haymitch"s face, causing blood to flow and damage to one eye. Then we are both screaming terrible, terrible things at each other, and Finnick is trying to drag me out, and I know it"s all Haymitch can do not to rip me apart, but I"m the mockingjay. I"m the mockingjay and it"s too hard keeping me alive as it is.
Other hands help Finnick and I"m back on my table, my body restrained, my wrists tied down, so I slam my head in fury again and again against the table. A needle pokes my arm and my head hurts so badly I stop fighting and simply wail in a horrible, dying-animal way, until my voice gives out.