"To-day she is a gawky, pa.s.sionate, ill-disciplined child; and I am afraid, terribly afraid, she is very much in love with that great, cheery, good-looking nephew of mine."
"Come," she said, "Joan is in the garden. I promised that when you came I would take you to her. You have heard about her of course?" Helen added to John.
"Only a little, that she is an heiress, and has come into Starden."
"She was very poor, poor child, and I think she had a hard and bitter time of it. Then the wheel of fortune took a turn. Her uncle died, and left her Starden and a great deal of money. So here she is."
Helen felt a hand grip her arm, and turned to look down into a thin face, in which burned a pair of pa.s.sionate eyes.
"Is she--pretty?" the girl asked.
"I think," Helen said slowly, "that she is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen."
Unlike his usual self, John Everard was very silent and thoughtful as he drove home later that evening. Helen had said that Joan Meredyth was the most beautiful woman she had ever seen. He agreed with her whole-heartedly. She had received him and Ellice kindly, yet without much warmth, and now as he drove home in the light of the setting sun Johnny Everard was thinking about this girl, going over all that had happened, remembering every word almost that she had uttered.
"She is very beautiful, wonderfully beautiful," he thought. And perhaps he uttered his thoughts aloud, for the girl, as silent as himself, who sat beside him, started and looked up into his face, and into the pa.s.sionate, rebellious heart of her there came a sudden wave of jealous hatred.
CHAPTER XVII
UNREST
Lady Linden patted the girl"s small white hand.
"Yes, child," she said comfortably, "Colonel Arundel and I had a nice long talk last night, and you may guess what it was about. He and I were boy and girl together, there"s no better blood in the kingdom than the Arundel"s--what was I saying? Oh yes, we decided that it would be a good plan to have a two years" engagement, or better still, none for eighteen months, and then a six months" engagement. During that time Tom can study modern scientific farming and that sort of thing, you know, and then when you and he are married, he could take over these estates. I am heartily sick of Bilson, and I always fancy he is robbing me--what did you say, child?"
"Nothing, auntie."
"Well, you ought to be a very happy little girl. Run away."
But Marjorie lingered. "Aunt, you haven"t heard anything of--of Hugh?"
she asked.
"Hugh--Hugh Alston? Good gracious, no! You don"t think I am going to run after the man? I am disgusted with Hugh. His duplicity and, worse still, his obstinate, foolish, unreasoning behaviour, have annoyed me more than anything I ever remember. But there, my dear child, it is nothing to do with you. I have quite altered my opinion of Hugh Alston. You were right and I was wrong. Tom Arundel will make you a better husband, and you will be as happy as the day is long with him."
"I shan"t!" Marjorie thought as she turned away. It was wrong, and it was unreasonable, and she knew it; but for the last four or five days there had been steadily growing in Marjorie"s brain, an Idea.
Stolen fruits are sweetest, stolen meetings, moonlit a.s.signations, shy kisses pressed on ardent young lips, when the world is shrouded in darkness and seems to hold but two. All these things make for romance.
The silvery moonlight gives false values; the knowledge that one has slipped unseen from the house to meet the beloved one, and that the doing of it is a brave and bold adventure, gives a thrill that sets the heart throbbing and the young blood leaping--the knowledge that it is forbidden, and, being forbidden, very sweet, appeals to the young and romantic heart.
But when that same beloved object, looking less romantic in correct evening dress, is accepted smilingly by the powers that be, and is sate down to a large and varied, many coursed dinner, then Romance shrugs her disgusted shoulders and turns petulantly away.
It was so with Marjorie. When the idea first came to her, she felt shocked and amazed. It could not be! she said to herself. "I love Tom with all my heart and soul, and now I am the happiest girl living."
But she was not, and she knew it. It was useless to tell herself that she was the happiest girl living when night after night she lay awake, staring into the darkness and seeing in memory a face that certainly did not belong to Tom Arundel.
Hugh Alston had commenced work on the restoration of certain parts of Hurst Dormer. He had busied himself with the work, had entered whole-heartedly into all the plans, had counted up the cost, and then, realising that all his enthusiasm was only forced, that he was merely trying to cheat himself, he lost interest and gave it up.
"I"ll go to London," he said. "I"ll go and see things, and try and get thoughts of her out of my mind." So he went, and found London even more uninteresting than Hurst Dormer.
He had promised that he would never molest her, never annoy her with his visits or his presence, and he meant religiously to keep his word, and yet--if he could just see her! She need not know! If he could from a distance feast his eyes on her for one moment, on a sight of her, what harm would he do her or anyone?
Hugh Alston did not recognise himself in this restless dissatisfied, unhappy man, who took to loitering and wandering about the streets, haunting certain places and keeping a sharp lookout for someone who might or might not come.
So the days pa.s.sed. He had gladdened his eyes three times with a view of old General Bartholomew. He had seen that ancient man leaning on his stick, taking a const.i.tutional around the square.
And that was all! He pa.s.sed the house and watched, yet saw no sign of her. He came at night-time, when tell-tale shadows might be thrown on the blinds, but saw nothing, only the shadow of the General or of his secretary, never one that might have been hers.
And then he slowly came to the conclusion that Joan Meredyth could no longer be there. It had taken him nearly a week to come to that decision.
That Joan had left General Bartholomew"s house he was certain, but where was she? He had no right to enquire, no right to hunt her down. If he knew where she was, how could it profit him, for had he not promised to trouble her no more?
Yet still for all that he wanted to know, and casting about in his mind how he might find her, he thought of Mr. Philip Slotman.
It was possible that if she had left the General"s she had gone back to take up her work with Slotman again.
"I"ll risk it," he thought, and went to Gracebury and made his way to Slotman"s office.
It was a sadly depleted staff that he found in the general office. An ancient man and a young boy represented Mr. Philip Slotman"s one-time large clerical staff.
"Mr. Slotman"s away, sir, down in the country--gone down to Suss.e.x, sir," said the lad.
"To Suss.e.x? Will he be away long?"
"Can"t say, sir; he may be back to-morrow," the boy said. "At any rate, he"s not here to-day."
"I may come back to-morrow. You might tell him that Mr. Alston called."
And Hugh turned away.
Another disappointment. He realised now that he had built up quite a lot of hope on his interview with Slotman.
"Shall I wait till to-morrow, or shall I go back to-day?" Hugh wondered.
"This is getting awful. I don"t seem to have a mind of my own, I can"t settle down to a thing. I"ve got to get a grip on myself. How does the old poem go: "If she be fair, but not fair to me, what care I how fair she be?" That"s all right; but I do care, and I can"t help it!"
He had made his aimless way back to the West End of London. It was luncheon time, and he was hesitating between a restaurant and an hotel.
"I"ll go back to the hotel, get some lunch, pack up and leave by the five o"clock train for Hurst Dormer," he decided, and turned to hail a taxicab.
And, turning, he came suddenly face to face with the girl who was ever in his thoughts.
She had been helping a middle-aged, pleasant-faced woman out of a cab, and then, as she turned, their eyes met, and into Joan Meredyth"s cheeks there flashed the tell-tale colour that proved to him and to all the world that this chance meeting with him meant something to her after all.
CHAPTER XVIII