_Oh_!
There was someone in the room. Someone was speaking. She knew the voice. "She must be in soon," it said. It was her Aunt Julia"s voice.
She stopped dead. And there was silence in the room.
Oh! to be caught like this! In a trap. And just when she had decided to go home! She would not be caught. She would steal up to her room, get her money, leave enough on the table to pay her bill, and _go_.
She could walk to Marlotte--and go off by train in the morning to Brittany--anywhere. She would not be dragged back like a prisoner to be all the rest of her life with a hateful old man who detested her.
Aunt Julia thought she was very clever. Well, she would just find out that she wasn"t. Who was she talking to? Not Madame, for she spoke in English. To some one from Paris? Who could have betrayed her? Only one person knew. Lady St. Craye. Well, Lady St. Craye should not betray her for nothing. She would not go to Brittany: she would go back to Paris. That woman should be taught what it costs to play the traitor.
All this in the quite small pause before her aunt"s voice spoke again.
"Unless she"s got wind of our coming and flown," it said.
"Our" coming? Who was the other?
Betty was eavesdropping then? How dishonourable! Well, it is. And she was.
"I hope to Heaven she"s safe," said another voice. Oh--it was her step-father! He had come--Then he must know everything! She moved, quite without meaning to move; her knee touched the door and it creaked. Very very faintly, but it creaked. Would they hear? Had they heard? No--the aunt"s voice again:
"The whole thing"s inexplicable to me! I don"t understand it. You let Betty go to Paris."
"By your advice."
"By my advice, but also because you wanted her to be happy."
"Yes--Heaven knows I wanted her to be happy." The old man"s voice was sadder than Betty had ever heard it.
"So we found Madame Gautier for her--and when Madame Gautier dies, she doesn"t write to you, or wire to you, to come and find her a new chaperone. Why?"
"I can"t imagine why."
"Don"t you think it may have been because she was afraid of you, thought you"d simply make her come back to Long Barton?"
"It would surely have been impossible for her to imagine that I should lessen the time which I had promised her, on account of an unfortunate accident. She knows the depth of my affection for her. No, no--depend upon it there must have been some other reason for the deceit. I almost fear to conjecture what the reason may have been. Do you think it possible that she has been seeing that man again?"
There was a sound as of a chair impatiently pushed back. Betty fled noiselessly to the stairs. No footstep followed the movement of the chair. She crept back.
"--when you do see her?" her aunt was asking, "I suppose you mean to heap reproaches on her, and take her home in disgrace?"
"I hope I shall have strength given me to do my duty," said the Reverend Cecil.
"Have you considered what your duty is?"
"It must be my duty to reprove, to show her her deceit in its full enormity."
"You"ll enjoy that, won"t you? It"ll gratify your sense of power.
You"ll stand in the place of G.o.d to the child, and you"ll be glad to see her humbled and ashamed."
"Because a thing is painful to me it is none the less my duty."
"Nor any the more," snapped Miss Desmond; "nor any the more! That"s what you won"t see. She knows you don"t care about her, and that"s why she kept away from you as long as she could."
"She can"t know it. It isn"t true."
"She thinks it is."
"Do _you_ think so? Do _you_ imagine I don"t care for her? Have you been poisoning her mind and--"
"Oh, don"t let"s talk about poison!" said Miss Desmond. "If she"s lost altogether it won"t matter to you. You"ll have done your duty."
"If she"s lost I--if she were lost I should not care to be saved. I am aware that the thought is sinful. But I fear that it is so."
"Of course," said Miss Desmond. "She"s not your child--why should you care? You never had a child."
"What have I done to you that you should try to torture me like this?"
It was her step-father"s voice, but Betty hardly knew it. "For pity"s sake, woman, be quiet! Let me bear what I have to bear without your chatter."
"I"m sorry," said Miss Desmond very gently. "Forgive me if I didn"t understand. And you do really care about her a little?"
"Care about her a little! She"s the only living thing I do care for--or ever have cared for except one. Oh, it is like a woman to cast it up at me as a reproach that I have no child! Why have I no child?
Because the woman whom Almighty G.o.d made for my child"s mother was taken from me--in her youth--before she was mine. Her name was Lizzie.
And my Lizzie, my little Lizzie that"s lied and deceived us, she _is_ my child--the one _we_ should have had. She"s my heart"s blood. Do you think I want to scold her; do you think I want to humble her? Do you not perceive how my own heart will be torn? But it is my duty. I will not spare the rod. And she will understand as you never could. Oh, my little Lizzie!--Oh, pray G.o.d she is safe! If it please G.o.d to restore her safely to me, I will not yield to the wicked promptings of my own selfish affection. I will show her her sin, and we will pray for forgiveness together. Yes, I will not shrink, even if it break my heart--I will tell her--"
"I should tell her," said Miss Desmond, "just what you"ve told me."
The old man was walking up and down the room. Betty could hear every movement.
"It"s been the struggle of my life not to spoil her--not to let my love for her lead me to neglect her eternal welfare--not to lessen her modesty by my praises--not to condone the sin because of my love for the sinner. My love has not been selfish.--It has been the struggle of my life not to let my affection be a snare to her."
"Then I must say," said Miss Desmond, "that you might have been better employed."
"Thank G.o.d I have done my duty! You don"t understand. But my Lizzie will understand."
"Yes, she will understand," cried Betty, bursting open the door and standing between the two with cheeks that flamed. "I do understand, Father dear! Auntie, I don"t understand _you_! You"re cruel,--and it"s not like you. Will you mind going away, please?"
The cruel aunt smiled, and moved towards the door. As she pa.s.sed Betty she whispered: "I thought you were _never_ going to come from behind that door. I couldn"t have kept it up much longer."
Then she went out and closed the door firmly.
Betty went straight to her step-father and put her arms round his neck.
"You do forgive me--you will forgive me, won"t you?" she said breathlessly.
He put an arm awkwardly round her.
"There"s nothing you could do that I couldn"t forgive," he said in a choked voice. "But it is my duty not to--"
She interrupted him by drawing back to look at him, but she kept his arm where it was, by her hand on his.
"Father," she said, "I"ve heard everything you"ve been saying. It"s no use scolding me, because you can"t possibly say anything that I haven"t said to myself a thousand times. Sit down and let me tell you everything, every single thing! I _did_ mean to come home this week, and tell you; I truly did. I wish I"d gone home before."