Chapter 837: Depression And Even Self-Harm
In fact, what Su Wan wanted to ask the most was whether CHK Virus No.3 would be fatal, but she swallowed the words at the tip of her tongue in the end.
The word “death” was too hurtful, and she was unable to say it out loud.
Life and death were ultimately uncertain.
When she had just reconciled with Jiang Xuecheng, Su Wan always felt that the two of them were still young and would have a very, very long time.
They would still be able to fulfill the ideal they had when they had just been in love, raising a pair of cute children. When they were old and could no longer walk, they would put aside the trivial matters around them and travel around the world together, enjoying the pleasures of the world.
However, after learning that she had been poisoned, Su Wan realized that even if the two of them reconciled, such a wish still seemed so extravagant.
Why was G.o.d so cruel to her?
Was it because he was jealous that she was living too happily with Jiang Xuecheng?
Doctor Li looked at Su Wan’s anxious face and could not help but feel a trace of pity in his heart.
“Miss Su, the CHK virus is one of the series of viruses that the high priest has been researching, and the No.3 virus is the latest project. In a short period of time, your body will gradually weaken, but it won’t kill you.”
He deliberated for a long time before he finally gave a relatively objective answer.
Doctor Li did not consider himself a good person. As one of the top scientists in the High Priest’s laboratory, his hands had been stained with the blood of others, even though they were all slaves or prisoners on death row.
However, every night when he dreamed about the faces of those people who were afraid, Doctor Li would feel that he had committed a grave sin.
In addition to his conscience, he also had to bear the risk of being silenced by the high priest. That was why Doctor Li resigned from his important position and applied to be the chief physician of the Internal Hospital of the G.o.d’s Palace.
Although it was inevitable that he would be involved in the progress of some of the projects of the high priest, at least he would no longer be personally involved in the deaths of people.
Doctor Li knew that he was deceiving himself, but he had no other choice but to do so. If he were to sold the G.o.d’s Palace out, it would be a death sentence.
He also had things that he had to protect.
However, when he saw Su Wan, Doctor Li finally realized how cruel his research was.
A young girl in her prime should have the most beautiful things in the world. However, Su Wan’s future was destined to be clouded by the CHK Virus No.3.
Won’t she die in a short period of time?
Will it only weaken her body?
Su Wan bit the corner of her lips. She did not know how much of a consolation Doctor Li’s words were. After all, if “short term” did not cause death, how short would it be called short term?
A few months, or a year and a half?
Su Wan took a deep breath and managed to calm her turbulent emotions.
“Doctor Li, how short is short term? Do you mean… the long term will be… fatal?”
When she said the last few words, Su Wan’s face could not help but turn pale, and her voice could not help but tremble.
When Jiang Xuecheng saw Su Wan’s panicked expression, he quickly reached out and covered her palm with his palm.
This silly girl had already been told not to ask. If she knew too much, she would be the only one who would be worried.
Su Wan looked at Jiang Xuecheng in a daze.
Jiang Xuecheng grabbed her hand without giving her a chance to argue. Jiang Xuecheng did not use much force, but the faint warmth from his palm made Su Wan feel inexplicably at ease.
When Jiang Xuecheng saw that Su Wan had calmed down a little, he could not help but feel relieved.
…
Doctor Li watched as Jiang Xuecheng comforted Su Wan and sighed silently in his heart.
He had only come into contact with the development and testing of the CHK Virus No.1 and No. 2, but No. 3 was a complete stranger to him.
Moreover, the people who had studied the CHK Virus No.3 had all disappeared. Doctor Li really suspected that those people had been “disposed of” by the high priest.
Without the original information, it would be as difficult as ascending to the heavens to develop the antidote to the CHK Virus No.3 by relying on his strength alone!
Perhaps it would become a mystery that only the high priest knew.
Doctor Li stood in front of Su Wan and Jiang Xuecheng, his voice extremely serious.
“Miss Su, I can’t guarantee the exact duration, but if the medicine used to relieve CHK Virus No.3 can be supplied in time, your body will not completely collapse for at least three to four years.”
He was one of the researchers of the CHK Virus No.1 and No.2 projects. Even if he had not come into contact with CHK Virus No.3, he more or less understood the power of this virus.
Therefore, Doctor Li did not dare to guarantee that Su Wan’s body would still be healthy after she took the antidote.
Perhaps… perhaps it was just to ensure that Su Wan did not die…
He had explained these words to the emperor in detail, but in order to make Su Wan feel better, Doctor Li could not explain it to Su Wan in such a straightforward manner.
Su Wan was not a fool. She listened to Doctor Li’s words and keenly caught the words that her body would not be “completely” exhausted.
Su Wan was silent for a moment before she realized the severity of the problem.
“Then, Doctor Li, if I don’t get the cure for the root of the problem, what problems might arise in my body?”
Doctor Li did not expect Su Wan to ask so clearly.
He looked at Jiang Xuecheng again with hesitation. Jiang Xuecheng’s expression was indifferent, as if he was not involved.
Doctor Li understood what Jiang Xuecheng meant. In the end, he did not lie to Su Wan.
“Miss Su, you should feel that you are very tired these days. You often don’t feel energetic. You even want to sleep during the day, right?”
When Su Wan heard this, her beautiful brows immediately furrowed.
She pursed her lips and nodded. Her expression was solemn.
“Yes, you are right.”
When Doctor Li looked at Su Wan, his gaze unconsciously carried a hint of sympathy.
— Su Wan is still so young. What a pity…
“Actually, exhaustion and sleepiness are just your initial symptoms. You may also feel that your body is weak and your hair is frequently falling out. All the functions of your body will continue to deteriorate and stagnate.”
Su Wan’s heart throbbed when she heard that, and the scene from the nightmare flashed in her mind.
She had become a bald, pale, ghost-like woman, and Jiang Xuecheng had married Diya…
Doctor Li saw that Su Wan’s expression was not good. He hesitated for a moment and did not know whether he should continue.
However, after thinking about it, he still brought up the situation of the small animals that had been infected with CHK Virus No.3 in the past.
“According to our observation, most of the animals that had been beaten up with CHK Virus No.3 would take a series of self-harm actions because they could not bear the pain of the outbreak of the virus.”
“Therefore, if your ability to resist stress is not strong, it is very likely that you will suffer from depression and mental breakdown before your body completely degrades.”
Depression? Self-harm?
Was this the reason why Jiang Xuecheng did not want her to know the inside story?
Su Wan’s eyes were slightly red. She clenched her fingers tightly and did not even notice that she had made a b.l.o.o.d.y mark on her palm.
At this moment, Jiang Xuecheng suddenly stood up. He unhappily pulled Su Wan’s fingers away with a sullen expression.
“Didn’t you say that you were very strong? Why did you become so afraid when you heard that you might suffer from depression? And you even pinched yourself?”