The balance, you know....
You know, you know- Hot cool, sweet sour, bitter pungent, the ancient wisdom of the Ayurveda that can grant a person complete poise....
"Too hot?" Biju would ask, grinning.
Weeping, "No, no."
There was no purity in this venture. And no pride. He had come home to no clarity of vision.
Harish-Harry blamed his daughter for rattling his commitment. The girl was becoming American. Nose ring she found compatible with combat boots and clothes in camouflage print from the army-navy surplus.
His wife said, "All this nonsense, what is this, give her two tight slaps, that"s what...."
"Good you did like that," he had said, but slaps had not worked. "You go, girl!" he said, trying to rise, instead, to the occasion of his daughter being American. "You GO, gurllll!!!" But that didn"t work either. "I didn"t ask to be born," she said. "You had me for your own selfish reasons, wanted a servant, didn"t you? But in this country, Dad, n.o.body"s going to wipe your a.s.s for free."
Not even bottom! bottom! Wipe your Wipe your a.s.s! Dad! a.s.s! Dad! Not even Not even Papaji. Papaji. No wipe your bottom, No wipe your bottom, Papaji. Papaji. Dad and a.s.s. Harish-Harry got drunk in an episode that would become familiar and tedious; he sat at the cash register and wouldn"t go home, though the kitchen staff were anxiously waiting so they could get up on the tables and sleep wrapped in the tablecloths. "And they think we admire them!" He began to laugh. "Every time one enters my shop I smile"-he showed his skeleton grin-""Hi, how ya doin," but all I want is to break their necks. I can"t, but maybe my son will, and that is my great hope. One day Jayant-Jay will smile and get his hands about their sons" necks and he will choke them dead." Dad and a.s.s. Harish-Harry got drunk in an episode that would become familiar and tedious; he sat at the cash register and wouldn"t go home, though the kitchen staff were anxiously waiting so they could get up on the tables and sleep wrapped in the tablecloths. "And they think we admire them!" He began to laugh. "Every time one enters my shop I smile"-he showed his skeleton grin-""Hi, how ya doin," but all I want is to break their necks. I can"t, but maybe my son will, and that is my great hope. One day Jayant-Jay will smile and get his hands about their sons" necks and he will choke them dead."
"See, Biju, see what this world is," he said and began to weep with his arm on Biju"s shoulder.
It was only the recollection of the money he was making that calmed him. Within this thought he found a perfectly reasonable reason for being here, a morality to agree on, a bridge over the split-and this single fact that didn"t seem a contradiction between nations he blazoned forth.
"Another day another dollar, penny saved is penny earned, no pain no gain, business is business, gotta do what ya gotta do." These axioms were a luxury unavailable to Biju, of course, but he repeated them anyway, enjoying the cheerful words and the moment of camaraderie.
"Have to make a living, what can you do?" Biju would say.
"You are right, Biju. What can I do? Here we are," he ruminated, "for more opportunity. How can we help it?"
He hoped for a big house, then he hoped for a bigger house even if he had to leave it unfurnished for a while, like his nemesis Mr. Shah who owned seven rooms, all empty except for TV, couch, and carpeting in white. Even the TV was a white TV for white symbolized success out of India for the community. "Hae hae, we will take our time with the furniture," said Mr. Shah, "but house is there." Photos of the exterior had been sent to all the relatives in Gujarat, a white car parked in front. A Lexus, that premier luxury vehicle. On top of it sat his wife looking self-satisfied. She had left India a meek bride, scrolled and spattered with henna, so much gold in her sari she set off every metal detector in the airport-and now here she was-white pantsuit, bobbed hair, vanity case, and capable of doing the macarena.
Twenty-five.
They took Mutt to the Apollo Deaf Tailors to be measured for a winter coat that would be cut out of a blanket, since the days had pa.s.sed into winter, and while it didn"t snow in Kalimpong, just turned dull, all around the snow line dipped, and the high mountains around town were brindled white. In the morning, they found frost in the runnels, frost on the crest, and frost in the crotch of the hills. to the Apollo Deaf Tailors to be measured for a winter coat that would be cut out of a blanket, since the days had pa.s.sed into winter, and while it didn"t snow in Kalimpong, just turned dull, all around the snow line dipped, and the high mountains around town were brindled white. In the morning, they found frost in the runnels, frost on the crest, and frost in the crotch of the hills.
Through cracks and holes in Cho Oyu, came a sterile smell of winter. The bathroom taps and switches threw off shocks. Sweaters and shawls bristled with aroused fibers, shedding lightning. "Ow ow," Sai said. Her skin was a squamous pattern of drought. When she took off her clothes, dry skin fell like salt from a salt cellar and her hair, ridiculing gravity, rose in crackling radio antennae above her skull. When she smiled, her lips split and spilled blood.
Vaselined shiny and supple for Christmas, she joined Father Booty and Uncle Potty at Mon Ami, where, in addition to the Vaseline smell, there was an odor of wet sheep-but it was only their damp sweaters. A thatch of tinsel on a potted fir glinted in the light of the fire that razzmatazzed and popped, the cold smarting beyond.
Father Booty and Uncle Potty sang together: Who threw the overalls in Mrs. Murphy"s chowder?
When n.o.body answered, they shouted all the louder- WHO THREW THE OVERALLS IN MRS. MURPHY"S CHOWDER??
And they all joined in, drunk and wild.
Oh, beautiful evening- Oh, beautiful soup in the copper Gyako pot, a moat of broth around the chimney of coals, mutton steam in their hair, rollicking shimmer of golden fat, dried mushrooms growing so slippery they"d slither down scalding before you could chomp upon their muscle. "What"s for PUDS?" Lola, when she said this in England, had been unsettled to find that the English didn"t understand.... Even Pixie had pretended to be bewildered....
But here they comprehended perfectly, and Kesang lugged out a weighty pudding that united via brandy its fraternity of fruit and nut, and they made the pudding holy with a sanctifying crown of brandy flame.
Mustafa climbed to his favorite place again, on Sai"s lap, turning first his face to the fire, then his behind, slowly softening, until his bottom began to dribble down the chair and he leaped up with a startled yowl, glaring at Sai as if she had been responsible for this indecency.
For the occasion, the sisters had brought out their ornaments from England-various things that looked as if they might taste of mints-snowflakes, snowmen, icicles, stars. There were little trolls, and elf shoemakers (why were cobblers, trolls, and elves, Christmasy? Sai wondered) that were stored the rest of the year inside a Bata shoe box up in the attic along with the story of the English ghost in a flouncy nightie with whom they used to scare Sai when she first arrived: "What does she say?"
"Hmm, I think she makes a whoo hoo whoo hoo like an owl, whistling low, like an owl, whistling low, whoo hooo, whoo hooo, sweet and serious. And now and then she says, "Care for a drop of sh-e-rr-y, mye dee-a-r?" In an unsteady, but highly cultivated voice." sweet and serious. And now and then she says, "Care for a drop of sh-e-rr-y, mye dee-a-r?" In an unsteady, but highly cultivated voice."
And there were presents of knitted socks from the Tibetan refugee village, the wool still with bits of straw and burrs that provided authenticity and aroused extra sympathy for refugees even while it irritated the toes. There were amber and coral earrings, bottles of homemade apricot brandy made by Father Booty, books to write in with translucent sheets of rice paper, and ribbed bamboo spines made in Bong Busti by a tableful of chatty lady employees sharing the tasty things in their tiffins at lunch, who sometimes dropped a pickle... and sometimes the pages had a festive yellow splotch....
More rum. Deeper into Lola"s intoxication, when the fire died low, she became serene, drew a pure memory from the depths: "In those old days, in the fifties and sixties," she said, "it was still a long journey into Sikkim or Bhutan, for there were hardly any roads. We used to travel on horseback, carrying sacks of peas for the ponies, maps, hip flasks of whiskey. In the rainy season, leeches would free-fall from the trees onto us, timing precisely the perfect acrobat moment. We would wash in salt.w.a.ter to keep them off, salt our shoes and socks, even our hair. The storms would wash the salt off and we"d have to stop and salt ourselves again. The forests at that time were fierce and enormous-if you were told a magical beast lived there, you"d believe it. We"d emerge to the tops of mountains where monasteries limpet to the sides of rock, surrounded by chortens and prayer flags, the white facades catching the light of the sunset, all straw gold, the mountains rugged lines of indigo. We"d stand and rest until the leeches began working into our socks. Buddhism was ancient here, more ancient than it was anywhere else, and we went to a monastery that had been built, they said, when a flying lama had flown from one mountaintop to another, from Menak Hill to Enchey, and another that had been built when a rainbow connected Kanchenjunga to the crest of the hill. Often the gompas were deserted for the monks were also farmers; they were away at their fields and gathered only a few times a year for pujas pujas and all you could hear was the wind in the bamboo. Clouds came through the doors and mingled with paintings of clouds. The interiors were dark, smoke-stained, and we"d try to make out the murals by the light of b.u.t.ter lamps.... and all you could hear was the wind in the bamboo. Clouds came through the doors and mingled with paintings of clouds. The interiors were dark, smoke-stained, and we"d try to make out the murals by the light of b.u.t.ter lamps....
"It took two weeks of rough trekking to get to Thimpu. On the way, through the jungle, we would stay in those shiplike fortresses called dzongs, dzongs, built without a single nail. We"d send a man ahead with news of our arrival, and they"d send along a gift to welcome us at some midpoint. A hundred years ago it would have been Tibetan tea, saffron rice, silk robes from China lined with the fleece of unborn lambs, that kind of thing; by then, for us, it would be a picnic hamper of ham sandwiches and Gymkhana beer. The built without a single nail. We"d send a man ahead with news of our arrival, and they"d send along a gift to welcome us at some midpoint. A hundred years ago it would have been Tibetan tea, saffron rice, silk robes from China lined with the fleece of unborn lambs, that kind of thing; by then, for us, it would be a picnic hamper of ham sandwiches and Gymkhana beer. The dzongs dzongs were completely self-contained, with their own armies, peasants, aristocrats, and prisoners in the dungeons-murderers and men caught fishing with dynamite all thrown in together. When they needed a new cook or gardener, they put down a rope and pulled a man out. We"d arrive to find, in lantern-lit halls, cheese cauliflower and pigs in blankets. This one man, in for violent murder, had such a hand for pastry-Whatever it takes, he had it. The best gooseberry tart I"ve ever tasted." were completely self-contained, with their own armies, peasants, aristocrats, and prisoners in the dungeons-murderers and men caught fishing with dynamite all thrown in together. When they needed a new cook or gardener, they put down a rope and pulled a man out. We"d arrive to find, in lantern-lit halls, cheese cauliflower and pigs in blankets. This one man, in for violent murder, had such a hand for pastry-Whatever it takes, he had it. The best gooseberry tart I"ve ever tasted."
"And the baths," Father Booty joined in, "remember the baths? Once, when I was on a dairy outreach program, I stayed with the mother of the king, sister of Jigme Dorji, the Bhutanese agent and ruler of the province of Ha, who lived next to you, Sai, at Tashiding-he became so powerful that the king"s a.s.sa.s.sins killed him even though he was brother of the queen. The baths in their dzong dzong were made of hollowed-out tree trunks, a carved slot underneath for heated rocks to keep the water steaming, and as you soaked, the servants came in and out to replace the hot stones and give you a scrub. And if we were camping, they would dig a pit by the river, fill it with water, lower hot stones into it; thus you splashed about with all the Himalayan snows around and forests of rhododendrons. were made of hollowed-out tree trunks, a carved slot underneath for heated rocks to keep the water steaming, and as you soaked, the servants came in and out to replace the hot stones and give you a scrub. And if we were camping, they would dig a pit by the river, fill it with water, lower hot stones into it; thus you splashed about with all the Himalayan snows around and forests of rhododendrons.
"Years later, when I returned to Bhutan, the queen insisted I visit the bathroom. "But I don"t need to go."
""No, but you must."
""But I don"t NEED to go."
""Oh, but you MUST."
"So I went, and the bathrooms had been redone, all modern piping, pink tiles, pink showers, and pink flush loos.
"When I came out again, the queen was waiting, pink as the bathroom with pride, "See how nice it is? Did you SEE?"
"Why don"t we all go again," said Noni. "Let"s plan a trip. Why not?"
Sai got into bed that night in her new socks, the same three-layered design that sherpas used in mountaineering expeditions, that Tenzing had worn to climb Everest.
Sai and Gyan had recently made an excursion to see these socks of Tenzing, spread-eagled in the Darjeeling museum adjoining his memorial, and they had taken a good look at them. They had also studied his hat, ice pick, rucksack, samples of dehydrated foods that he might have taken along, Horlicks, torches, and samples of moths and bats of the high Himalayas.
"He was the real hero, Tenzing," Gyan had said. "Hilary couldn"t have made it without sherpas carrying his bags." Everyone around had agreed. Tenzing was certainly first, or else he was made to wait with the bags so Hilary could take the first step on behalf of that colonial enterprise of sticking your flag on what was not yours.
Sai had wondered, Should humans conquer the mountain or should they wish for the mountain to possess them? Sherpas went up and down, ten times, fifteen times in some cases, without glory, without claim of ownership, and there were those who said it was sacred and shouldn"t be sullied at all.
Twenty-six.
It was after the new year when Gyan happened to be buying rice in the market that he heard people shouting as his rice was being weighed. When he emerged from the shop, he was gathered up by a procession coming panting up Mintri Road led by young men holding their kukris aloft and shouting, " when Gyan happened to be buying rice in the market that he heard people shouting as his rice was being weighed. When he emerged from the shop, he was gathered up by a procession coming panting up Mintri Road led by young men holding their kukris aloft and shouting, "Jai Gorkha." In the mess of faces he saw college friends whom he"d ignored since he started his romance with Sai. Padam, Jungi, Dawa, Dilip. Gorkha." In the mess of faces he saw college friends whom he"d ignored since he started his romance with Sai. Padam, Jungi, Dawa, Dilip.
"Chhang, Bhang, Owl, Donkey," he called his friends by their nicknames-
They were shouting, "Victory to the Gorkha Liberation Army," and didn"t hear him. On the strength of those pushing behind, and with the momentum of those who went before, they melded into a single being. Without any effort at all, Gyan found himself sliding along the street of Marwari merchants sitting cross-legged on white mattress platforms. They flowed by the antique shops with the thangkhas thangkhas that grew more antique with each blast of exhaust from pa.s.sing traffic; past the Newari silversmiths; a Parsi homeopathic doctor; the deaf tailors who were all looking shocked, feeling the vibrations of what was being said but unable to make sense of it. A mad lady with tin cans hanging from her ears and dressed in tailor sc.r.a.ps, who had been roasting a dead bird on some coals by the side of the road, waved to the procession like a queen. that grew more antique with each blast of exhaust from pa.s.sing traffic; past the Newari silversmiths; a Parsi homeopathic doctor; the deaf tailors who were all looking shocked, feeling the vibrations of what was being said but unable to make sense of it. A mad lady with tin cans hanging from her ears and dressed in tailor sc.r.a.ps, who had been roasting a dead bird on some coals by the side of the road, waved to the procession like a queen.
As he floated through the market, Gyan had a feeling of history being wrought, its wheels churning under him, for the men were behaving as if they were being featured in a doc.u.mentary of war, and Gyan could not help but look on the scene already from the angle of nostalgia, the position of a revolutionary. But then he was pulled out of the feeling, by the ancient and usual scene, the worried shopkeepers watching from their monsoon-stained grottos. Then he shouted along with the crowd, and the very mingling of his voice with largeness and l.u.s.tiness seemed to create a relevancy, an affirmation he"d never felt before, and he was pulled back into the making of history.
Then, looking at the hills, he fell out of the experience again. How can the ordinary be changed?
Were these men entirely committed to the importance of the procession or was there a disconnected quality to what they did? Were they taking their cues from old protest stories or from the hope of telling a new story? Did their hearts rise and fall to something true? Once they shouted, marched, was the feeling authentic? Did they see themselves from a perspective beyond this moment, these unleashed Bruce Lee fans in their American T-shirts made-in-China-coming-in-via-Kathmandu?
He thought of how often he wished he might line up at the American emba.s.sy or the British, and leave. "Listen Momo," he had said to a delighted Sai, "let"s go to Australia." Fly away, bye-bye, ta-ta. Free from history. Free from family demands and the built-up debt of centuries. The patriotism was false, he suddenly felt as he marched; it was surely just frustration-the leaders harnessing the natural irritations and disdain of adolescence for cynical ends; for their own hope in attaining the same power as government officials held now, the same ability to award local businessmen deals in exchange for bribes, for the ability to give jobs to their relatives, places to their children in schools, cooking gas connections....
But the men were shouting, and he saw from their faces that they didn"t have his cynicism. They meant what they were saying; they felt a lack of justice. They moved past the G.o.downs dating from when Kalimpong was the center of the wool trade, past the Snow Lion travel agency, the STD telephone booth, Ferrazzini"s Pioneer in Fast Food, the two Tibetan sisters at the Warm Heart Shawl Shop; past the comics lending library and the broken umbrellas hanging oddly like injured birds around the man who mended them. They came to a stop outside the police station, where the policemen who could usually be found gossiping outside had vanished indoors and locked the door.
Gyan remembered the stirring stories of when citizens had risen up in their millions and demanded that the British leave. There was the n.o.bility of it, the daring of it, the glorious fire of it-"India for Indians. No taxation without representation. No help for the wars. Not a man, not a rupee. British Raj Murdabad!" If a nation had such a climax in its history, its heart, would it not hunger for it again?
A man clambered up on the bench: "In 1947, brothers and sisters, the British left granting India her freedom, granting the Muslims Pakistan, granting special provisions for the scheduled castes and tribes, leaving everything taken care of, brothers and sisters "Except us. EXCEPT US. The Nepalis of India. At that time, in April of 1947, the Communist Party of India demanded a Gorkhasthan, but the request was ignored.... We are laborers on the tea plantations, coolies dragging heavy loads, soldiers. And are we allowed to become doctors and government workers, owners of the tea plantations? No! No! We are kept at the level of servants. We fought on behalf of the British for two hundred years. We fought in World War One. We went to East Africa, to Egypt, to the Persian Gulf. We were moved from here to there as it suited them. We fought in World War Two. In Europe, Syria, Persia, Malaya, and Burma. Where would they be without the courage of our people? We are still fighting for them. When the regiments were divided at independence, some to go to England, some to stay, those of us who remained here fought in the same way for India. We are soldiers, loyal, brave. India or England, they never had cause to doubt our loyalty. In the wars with Pakistan we fought our former comrades on the other side of the border. How our spirit cried. But we are Gorkhas. We are soldiers. Our character has never been in doubt. And have we been rewarded?? Have we been given compensation?? Are we given respect?? We are kept at the level of servants. We fought on behalf of the British for two hundred years. We fought in World War One. We went to East Africa, to Egypt, to the Persian Gulf. We were moved from here to there as it suited them. We fought in World War Two. In Europe, Syria, Persia, Malaya, and Burma. Where would they be without the courage of our people? We are still fighting for them. When the regiments were divided at independence, some to go to England, some to stay, those of us who remained here fought in the same way for India. We are soldiers, loyal, brave. India or England, they never had cause to doubt our loyalty. In the wars with Pakistan we fought our former comrades on the other side of the border. How our spirit cried. But we are Gorkhas. We are soldiers. Our character has never been in doubt. And have we been rewarded?? Have we been given compensation?? Are we given respect??
"No! They spit on us." They spit on us."
Gyan recalled his last job interview well over a year ago, when he had traveled all the way to Calcutta by overnight bus to an office buried in the heart of a concrete block lit with the shudder of a fluorescent tube that had never resolved into steady light.
Everyone looked hopeless, the men in the room and the interviewer who had finally turned the shuddering light off-"Voltage low"-and conducted the interview in darkness. "Very good, we will let you know if you are successful." Gyan, feeling his way out through the maze and stepping into the unforgiving summer light, knew he would never be hired.
"Here we are eighty percent of the population, ninety tea gardens in the district, but is even one Nepali-owned?" asked the man.
"No."
"Can our children learn our language in school?"
"No."
"Can we compete for jobs when they have already been promised to others?"
"No."
"In our own country, the country we fight for, we are treated like slaves. Every day the lorries leave bearing away our forests, sold by foreigners to fill the pockets of foreigners. Every day our stones are carried from the riverbed of the Teesta to build their houses and cities. We are laborers working barefoot in all weather, thin as sticks, as they sit fat in managers" houses with their fat wives, with their fat bank accounts and their fat children going abroad. Even their chairs are fat. We must fight, brothers and sisters, to manage our own affairs. We must unite under the banner of the GNLF, Gorkha National Liberation Front. We will build hospitals and schools. We will provide jobs for our sons. We will give dignity to our daughters carrying heavy loads, breaking stone on the roads. We will defend our own homeland. This is where we were born, where our parents were born, where our grandparents were born. We will run our own affairs in our own language. If necessary, we will wash our b.l.o.o.d.y kukris in the mother waters of the Teesta. Jai Jai Gorkha." The speech giver waved his kukri and then pierced his thumb, raised the gory sight for all to see. Gorkha." The speech giver waved his kukri and then pierced his thumb, raised the gory sight for all to see.
"Jai Gorkha! Gorkha! Jai Jai Gorkha! Gorkha! Jai Jai Gorkha!" the crowd screamed, their own blood thrumming, pulsing, surging forth at the sight of the speech giver"s hand. Thirty supporters stepped forward and also drew blood from their thumbs with their kukris to write a poster demanding Gorkhaland, in blood. Gorkha!" the crowd screamed, their own blood thrumming, pulsing, surging forth at the sight of the speech giver"s hand. Thirty supporters stepped forward and also drew blood from their thumbs with their kukris to write a poster demanding Gorkhaland, in blood.
"Brave Gorkha soldiers protecting India-hear the call," said the leaflets flooding the hillsides. "Please quit the army at once. For when you will be retired then you may be treated as a foreigner."
The GNLF would offer jobs to its own, and a 40,000 strong Gorkha army, universities, and hospitals.
Later, Chhang, Bhang, Owl, Donkey, and many others sat in the cramped shack of Ex-Army Thapa"s Canteen on Ringkingpong Road. A small handwritten sign painted on the side said "Broiler Chicken." A carom game board was balanced on an oil barrel outside and two creaky tattered soldiers, on bowlegs, originally of the Eighth Gurkha Rifles, played as the clouds shifted and billowed through their knees. The mountains sliced sharply and tumbled down at either side to bamboo thickets gray with distilled vapor.
The air grew colder and the evening progressed. Gyan, who had been gathered up accidentally in the procession, who had shouted half facetiously, half in earnest, who had half played, half lived a part, found the fervor had affected him. His sarcasm and his embarra.s.sment were gone. Fired by alcohol, he finally submitted to the compelling pull of history and found his pulse leaping to something that felt entirely authentic.
He told the story of his great grandfather, his great uncles, "And do you think they got the same pension as the English of equal rank? They fought to death, but did they earn the same salary?"
All the other anger in the canteen greeted his, clapped his anger on the back. It suddenly became clear why he had no money and no real job had come his way, why he couldn"t fly to college in America, why he was ashamed to let anyone see his home. He thought of how he had kept Sai away the day she had suggested visiting his family. Most of all, he realized why his father"s meekness infuriated him, and why he found himself unable to speak of him, he who had so modest an idea of happiness that even the daily irritant of fifty-two screaming boys in his plantation schoolroom, even the distance of his own family, the loneliness of his work, didn"t upset him. Gyan wanted to shake him, but what satisfaction could be received from shaking a sock? To accost such a person-it just came back to frustrate you twice over....
For a moment all the different pretences he had indulged in, the shames he had suffered, the future that wouldn"t accept him-all these things joined together to form a single truth.
The men sat unbedding their rage, learning, as everyone does in this country, at one time or another, that old hatreds are endlessly retrievable.
And when they had disinterred it, they found the hate pure, purer than it could ever have been before, because the grief of the past was gone. Just the fury remained, distilled, liberating. It was theirs by birthright, it could take them so high, it was a drug. They sat feeling elevated, there on the narrow wood benches, stamping their cold feet on the earth floor.
It was a masculine atmosphere and Gyan felt a moment of shame remembering his tea parties with Sai on the veranda, the cheese toast, queen cakes from the baker, and even worse, the small warm s.p.a.ce they inhabited together, the nursery talk- It suddenly seemed against the requirements of his adulthood.
He voiced an adamant opinion that the Gorkha movement take the harshest route possible.
Twenty-seven.
Moody and restless, Gyan arrived at Cho Oyu the next day, upset at having to undertake that long walk in the cold for the small amount of money the judge paid him. It maddened him that people lived here in this enormous house and property, taking hot baths, sleeping alone in s.p.a.cious rooms, and he suddenly remembered the cutlets and boiled peas dinner with Sai and the judge, the judge"s "Common sense seems to have evaded you, young man." Gyan arrived at Cho Oyu the next day, upset at having to undertake that long walk in the cold for the small amount of money the judge paid him. It maddened him that people lived here in this enormous house and property, taking hot baths, sleeping alone in s.p.a.cious rooms, and he suddenly remembered the cutlets and boiled peas dinner with Sai and the judge, the judge"s "Common sense seems to have evaded you, young man."
"How late you are," said Sai when she saw him, and he was angry in a different way from the night before when, indignant in war paint, he had stuck his bottom out one way and his chest the other way and discovered a self-righteous posturing, a new way of talking. This was a petty anger that pulled him back, curtailed his spirit, made him feel peevish. The annoyance was different from any he"d felt with Sai before.
To cheer him up, Sai told him of the Christmas party- You know, three times we tried to light the soup ladle full of brandy and pour it over the pudding- Gyan ignored her, opened up the physics book. Oh, if only she would shut up-that bright silliness he had not noticed in her before-he was too irritated to stand it.
She turned reluctantly to its pages; it was a long time since they had properly looked at physics.
"If two objects, one weighing... and the other weighing... are dropped from the leaning tower of Pisa, at which time and at what speed will they fall to the ground?"
"You"re in an unpleasant mood," she said and yawned with luxury to indicate other, better, options.