"Oh no, it couldn"t," he said, coldly. "If I were to admit what you imply, secrecy wouldn"t be of any use to me."
"Does that mean," she asked, fixing her earnest eyes upon him, "that you don"t admit it?"
"It means," he said, rising quietly and standing behind his chair, "that this conversation is extremely painful to me, and I must ask to be excused from taking any further part in it. I know only vaguely what you mean, Madame; and if I don"t inquire more in detail, it"s because I want to spare you distressing explanations. I think you must agree with me, Mademoiselle," he continued, looking toward Miss Grimston, "that we should all be well advised in letting the subject drop."
Marion came slowly forward, advancing to the side of Diane, over whose shoulder, as she remained seated, she allowed her hand to fall, in a pose suggestive of protection.
"Of course, Monsieur," she agreed, "we must let the subject drop, if you have nothing more to say."
He stood silent a minute, looking at her steadily. "I"m afraid I haven"t," he said, then.
"Nor I," Miss Grimston returned, significantly.
Again there was a minute or two of silence, during which Bienville seemed to probe for the meaning of the two laconic words. If anything could be read from his countenance, it was doubt as to whether to relinquish the prize with dignity or to pay its price in humiliation.
There was an instant in which he appeared to be bracing himself to do the latter; but when he spoke his interrogation threw the responsibility for decision on Miss Grimston.
"Have I received--my answer?"
She waited, finding it hard to give him his reply. It was as if forced to it against her will that her head bent slowly in a.s.sent.
"Then," he said, in a tone of dignified regret, "there"s nothing for me but to wish Mademoiselle good-by."
He bowed separately to Miss Grimston and to Diane, and, with the self-possession of a man accustomed to the various turns of drawing-room drama, he left the room.
XVII
During the summer that followed these events Derek Pruyn set himself the task of stamping the memory and influence of Diane Eveleth out of his life. His sense of duty combined with his feelings of self-respect in making the attempt. In reflecting on his last interview with her, he saw the weakness of the stand he had taken in it, recoiling from so unworthy a position with natural reaction. To have been in love at all at his age struck him as humiliation enough; but to have been in love with that sort of woman came very near mental malady. He said "that sort of woman," because the vagueness of the term gave scope to the bitterness of resentment with which he tried to overwhelm her. It enabled him to create some such paradise of pain as that into which the souls of Oth.e.l.lo and Desdemona might have gone together. Had he been a Moor of Venice he would doubtless have smothered her with a pillow; but being a New York banker he could only try to slay the image, whose eyes and voice had never haunted him so persistently as now. In his rage of suffering he was as little able to take a reasoned view of the situation as the maddened bull in the arena to appraise the skill of his tormentors.
When in the middle of May he had retired to Rhinefields it was with the intention of laying waste all that Diane had left behind in the course of her brief pa.s.sage through his life. The process being easier in the exterior phases of existence than in those more secret and remote, he determined to work from the outside inward. Wherever anything reminded him of her, he erased, destroyed, or removed it. All that she had changed within the house he put back into the state in which it was before she came. Where he had followed her suggestions about the grounds and gardens he reversed the orders. Taken as outward and visible signs of the inward and spiritual change he was trying to create within himself, these childish acts gave him a pa.s.sionate satisfaction. In a short time, he boasted to himself, he would have obliterated all trace of her presence.
And so he came, in time, to giving his attention to Dorothea. She, too, bore the impress of Diane; and as she bore it more markedly than the inanimate things around, it caused him the greater pain. He could forbid her to hold intercourse with Diane, and to speak of her; but he could not control the blending of French and Irish intonations her voice had caught, or the gestures into which she slipped through youth"s mimetic instinct. In happier days he had been amused to note the degree to which Dorothea had become the unconscious copy of Diane; but now this constant reproduction of her ways was torture. Telling himself that it was not the child"s fault, he bore it at first with what self-restraint he could; but as solitude encouraged brooding thoughts, he found, as the summer wore on, that his stock of patience was running low. There were times when some chance sentence or imitated bit of mannerism on Dorothea"s part almost drew from him that which in tragedy would be a cry, but which in our smaller life becomes the hasty or exasperated word.
In these circ.u.mstances the explosion was bound to come; and one day it produced itself unexpectedly, and about nothing. Thinking of it afterward Derek was unable to say why it should have taken place then more than at any other time. He was standing on the lawn, noting with savage complacency that the bit by which he had enlarged it, at Diane"s prompting, had grown up again, in luxuriant gra.s.s, when Dorothea descended the steps of the Georgian brick house, behind him.
"Would you be afther wantin" me to-day?" she called out, using the Irish expression Diane affected in moments of fun.
"Dorothea," he cried, sharply, wheeling round on her, "drop that idiotic way of speaking. If you think it"s amusing, you"re mistaken. You can"t even do it properly."
The words were no sooner out than he regretted them, but it was too late to take them back. Moreover, when a man, nervously suffering, has once wounded the feelings of one he loves, it is not infrequently his instinct to go on and wound them again.
"We have enough of that sort of language from the servants and the stable-boys. Be good enough in future to use your mother-tongue."
Standing where his words had stopped her, a few yards away, she looked up at him with the clear gaze of astonishment; but the slight shrug of the shoulders before she spoke was also a trick caught from Diane, and not calculated to allay his annoyance.
"Very well, father," she answered, with a quietness indicating judgment held in reserve, "I won"t do it again. I only meant to ask you if you want me for anything in particular to-day; otherwise I shall go over and lunch at the Thoroughgoods"."
"The Thoroughgoods" again? Can"t you get through a day without going there?"
"I suppose I could if it was necessary; but it isn"t."
"I think it is. You"ll do well not to wear out your welcome anywhere."
"I"m not afraid of that."
"Then I am; so you"d better stay at home."
He wheeled from her as sharply as he had turned to confront her, striding off toward a wild border, where he tried to conceal the extent to which he was ashamed of his ill temper by pretending to be engrossed in the efforts of a bee to work its way into a blue cowl of monk"s-hood.
When he looked around again she was still standing where he had left her, her eyes clouded by an expression of wondering pain that smote him to the heart.
Had he possessed sufficient mastery of himself he would have gone back and begged her pardon, and sent her away to enjoy herself. It was what he wanted to do; but the tension of his nerves seemed to get relief from the innocent thing"s suffering. The very fact that her pretty little face was set with his own obstinacy of self-will, while behind it her spirit was rising against this capricious tyranny, goaded him into persistence. He remembered how often Diane had told him that Dorothea could be neither led nor driven; she could only be "managed"; but he would show Diane, he would show himself, that she could be both driven and led, and that "management" should go the way of the wall-fruit and the roses.
As, recrossing the lawn, he made as though he would pa.s.s her without further words, he was an excellent ill.u.s.tration of the degree to which the adult man of the world, capable of taking an important part among his fellow-men, can be, at times, nothing but an overgrown infant. It was not surprising, however, that Dorothea should not see this aspect of his personality, or look upon his commands as other than those of an unreasonable despotism.
"Father," she said, "I can"t go on living like this."
"Living like what?"
"Living as we"ve lived all this summer."
"What"s the matter with the summer? It"s like any other summer, isn"t it?"
"The summer may be like any other summer; but you"re not like yourself.
I do everything I can to please you, but--"
"You needn"t do anything to please me but what you"re told."
"I always do what I"m told--when you tell me; but you only tell me by fits and starts."
"Then, I tell you now: you"re not to go to the Thoroughgoods"."
"But they expect me. I said I"d go to lunch. They"ll think it very strange if I don"t."
"They"ll think what they please. It"s enough for you to know what I think."
"But that"s just what I don"t know. Ever since Diane went away--"
"Stop that! I"ve forbidden you to speak--"
"But you can"t forbid me to think; and I think till I"m utterly bewildered. You don"t explain anything to me. You haven"t even told me why she went away. If I ask a question you won"t answer it."
"What"s necessary for you to know, you can depend on me to tell you.
Anything I don"t explain to you, you may dismiss from your mind."
"But that"s not reasonable, father; it"s not possible. If you want me to obey you, I must know what I"m doing. Because I don"t know what I"m doing, I haven"t--"