"I dont require one. I can find what I want in the dark."
She went into her apartment. Marian went quickly up to her own bedroom and locked herself in. Her first loathing for Susanna had partly given way to pity; but the humiliation of confessing herself to such a woman as an unfaithful wife was galling. When she went to sleep she dreamed that she was unmarried and at home with her father, and that the household was troubled by Susanna, who lodged in a room upstairs.
CHAPTER XX
Sholto Douglas returned to England in the ship which carried Marian"s letter to Elinor. On reaching London he stayed a night in the hotel at Euston, and sent his man next day to take rooms for him at the West End.
Early in the afternoon the man reported that he had secured apartments in Charles Street, St. James"s. It was a fine wintry day, and Douglas resolved to walk, not without a sense of being about to run the gauntlet.
It proved the most adventurous walk he had ever taken in his life.
Everybody he knew seemed to be lying in wait for him. In Portland Place he met Miss McQuinch, who, with the letter fresh in her pocket, looked at him indignantly, and cut him. At the Laugham Hotel he pa.s.sed a member of his club, who seemed surprised, but nodded coolly. In Regent Street he saw Lady Carbury"s carriage waiting before a shop. He hurried past the door, for he had lost courage at his encounter with Elinor. There were, however, two doors; and as he pa.s.sed the second, the Countess, Lady Constance, and Marmaduke came out just before him.
"Where the devil is the carriage?" said Marmaduke, loudly.
"Hush! Everybody can hear you," said Lady Constance.
"What do I care whether--Hal-lo! Douglas! How are you?"
Marmaduke proffered his hand. Lady Carbury plucked her daughter by the sleeve and hurried to her carriage, after returning Douglas"s stern look with the slightest possible bow. Constance imitated her mother. Douglas haughtily raised his hat.
"How obstinate Marmaduke is!" said the Countess, when she had bidden the coachman drive away at once. "He is going to walk down Regent Street with that man."
"But you didnt cut him, mamma."
"I never dreamed of his coming back so soon; and, of course, I cannot tell whether he will be cut or not. We must wait and see what other people will do. If we meet him again we had better not see him."
"Look here, old fellow," said Marmaduke, as he walked away with Douglas.
"Youve come back too soon. It wont do. Take my advice and go away again until matters have blown over. Hang it, it"s too flagrant! You have not been away two months."
"I believe you are going to be married," said Douglas. "Allow me to congratulate you."
"Thank you. Fine day, isnt it?"
"Very fine."
Marmaduke walked on in silence. Douglas presently recommenced the conversation.
"I only arrived in London last night. I have come from New York."
"Indeed. Pleasant voyage?"
"Very pleasant."
Another pause.
"Has anything special happened during my absence?"
"Nothing special."
"Was there much fuss made about my going?"
"Well, there was a great deal of fuss made about it. Excuse my alluding to the subject again. I shouldnt have done so if you hadnt asked me."
"Oh, my dear fellow, you neednt stand on ceremony with me."
"That"s all very well, Douglas; but when I alluded to it just now, you as good as told me to mind my own business."
"I told you so!"
"Not in those words, perhaps. However, the matter is easily settled. You bolted with Marian. I know that, and you know it. If the topic is disagreeable, say so, and it is easily avoided. If you want to talk about it, better not change the subject when I mention it."
"You have taken offence needlessly. I changed the subject inadvertently."
"Hm! Well, has she come back with you?"
"No."
"Do you mean that youve thrown her over?"
"I have said nothing of the kind. As a matter of fact, she has thrown me over."
"Thats very strange. You are not going to marry her then, I suppose?"
"How can I? I tell you she has deserted me. Let me remind you, Lind, that I should not be bound to marry her in any case, and I shall certainly not do so now. If I chose to justify myself, I could easily do so by her own conduct."
"I expect you will not be troubled for any justification. People seem to have made up their minds that you were wrong in the first instance, and you ought to keep out of the way until they have forgotten----Oh, confound it, here"s Conolly! Now, for G.o.d"s sake, dont let us have any row."
Douglas whitened, and took a step back into the roadway before he recovered himself; for Conolly had come upon them suddenly as they turned into Charles Street. A group of gentlemen stood on the steps of the clubhouse which stands at that corner.
"Bless me!" said Conolly, with perfect good humor. "Douglas back again!
Why on earth did you run away with my wife? and what have you done with her?"
The party on the steps ceased chatting and began to stare.
"This is not the place to call me to account, sir," said Douglas, still on his guard, and very ill at ease. "If you have anything to say to me which cannot be communicated through a friend, it had better be said in private."
"I shall trouble you for a short conversation," said Conolly. "How do you do, Lind? Where can we go? I do not belong to any club."
"My apartments are at hand," said Douglas.
"I suppose I had better leave you," said Marmaduke.
"Your presence will not embarra.s.s me in the least," said Conolly.
"I have not sought this interview," said Douglas. "I therefore prefer Mr. Lind to witness what pa.s.ses."