Fustov shrugged his shoulders.
"What are you talking about, really! It"s eleven o"clock now, most likely they"re all in bed."
"No matter.... Do go, for goodness" sake! I have a presentiment....
Please do as I say! Go at once, take a sledge...."
"Come, what nonsense!" Fustov responded coolly; "how could I go now?
To-morrow morning I will be there, and everything will be cleared up."
"But, Alexander, remember, she said that she was dying, that you would not find her... And if you had seen her face! Only think, imagine, to make up her mind to come to me... what it must have cost her...."
"She"s a little high-flown," observed Fustov, who had apparently regained his self-possession completely. "All girls are like that... at first. I repeat, everything will be all right to-morrow. Meanwhile, good-bye. I"m tired, and you"re sleepy too."
He took his cap, and went out of the room.
"But you promise to come here at once, and tell me all about it?" I called after him.
"I promise.... Good-bye!"
I went to bed, but in my heart I was uneasy, and I felt vexed with my friend. I fell asleep late and dreamed that I was wandering with Susanna along underground, damp pa.s.sages of some sort, and crawling along narrow, steep staircases, and continually going deeper and deeper down, though we were trying to get higher up out into the air. Some one was all the while incessantly calling us in monotonous, plaintive tones.
XXI
Some one"s hand lay on my shoulder and pushed it several times.... I opened my eyes and in the faint light of the solitary candle, I saw Fustov standing before me. He frightened me. He was staggering; his face was yellow, almost the same colour as his hair; his lips seemed hanging down, his muddy eyes were staring senselessly away. What had become of his invariably amiable, sympathetic expression? I had a cousin who from epilepsy was sinking into idiocy.... Fustov looked like him at that moment.
I sat up hurriedly.
"What is it? What is the matter? Heavens!"
He made no answer.
"Why, what has happened? Fustov! Do speak! Susanna?..."
Fustov gave a slight start.
"She..." he began in a hoa.r.s.e voice, and broke off.
"What of her? Have you seen her?"
He stared at me.
"She"s no more."
"No more?"
"No. She is dead."
I jumped out of bed.
"Dead? Susanna? Dead?"
Fustov turned his eyes away again.
"Yes; she is dead; she died at midnight."
"He"s raving!" crossed my mind.
"At midnight! And what"s the time now?"
"It"s eight o"clock in the morning now.
They sent to tell me. She is to be buried to-morrow."
I seized him by the hand.
"Alexander, you"re not delirious? Are you in your senses?"
"I am in my senses," he answered. "Directly I heard it, I came straight to you."
My heart turned sick and numb, as always happens on realising an irrevocable misfortune.
"My G.o.d! my G.o.d! Dead!" I repeated. "How is it possible? So suddenly! Or perhaps she took her own life?"
"I don"t know," said Fustov, "I know nothing. They told me she died at midnight. And to-morrow she will be buried."
"At midnight!" I thought.... "Then she was still alive yesterday when I fancied I saw her in the window, when I entreated him to hasten to her...."
"She was still alive yesterday, when you wanted to send me to Ivan Demianitch"s," said Fustov, as though guessing my thought.
"How little he knew her!" I thought again. "How little we both knew her!
"High-flown," said he, "all girls are like that."... And at that very minute, perhaps, she was putting to her lips... Can one love any one and be so grossly mistaken in them?"
Fustov stood stockstill before my bed, his hands hanging, like a guilty man.
XXII
I dressed hurriedly.
"What do you mean to do now, Alexander?" I asked.
He gazed at me in bewilderment, as though marvelling at the absurdity of my question. And indeed what was there to do?
"You simply must go to them, though," I began. "You"re bound to ascertain how it happened; there is, possibly, a crime concealed. One may expect anything of those people.... It is all to be thoroughly investigated. Remember the statement in her ma.n.u.script, the pension was to cease on her marriage, but in event of her death it was to pa.s.s to Ratsch. In any case, one must render her the last duty, pay homage to her remains!"