"Such miracles don"t happen," said Max, with grim decision. "It is much the same as a person going blind. There are occasional gleams for a little while, but the end is total darkness. That is all that can be expected now." He added, a hint of compa.s.sion mingling with the repression of his voice: "It is better that you should know the whole truth. It"s not fair to bolster you up with false hopes. You can help now--if you have the strength. You won"t be able to help later."
"But I will never leave her!" Olga said.
"My dear child," he made answer, "in a very little while she won"t even know you. She will be--as good as dead."
"Surely she would be better dead!" she cried pa.s.sionately.
"G.o.d knows," said Max.
He spoke with more feeling than he usually permitted himself, and at once changed the subject. "What we are at present concerned in is to make her temporarily better. Now you know this stuff?" He took a bottle from his pocket. "I am going to put it in your charge. Give her a teaspoonful now in a wine-gla.s.s of water, as you did before. I hope it will make her sleep. If it doesn"t, give her a second dose in half an hour. But if she goes off without that second dose, all the better.
Remember, it is rank poison. She ought to sleep for some hours then, and when she wakes I think she will probably be herself for a little.
That"s quite clear, is it?"
He was looking at her closely as he handed her the bottle; but she met the look with absolute steadiness. She had plainly recovered her self-control, and was ready to shoulder her burden once more.
"I quite understand," she said.
He laid his hand for a moment on her arm, and smiled at her with abrupt kindliness.
"Stick to it, Olga!" he said. "I am counting on you."
She smiled back bravely, though her lips quivered. She did not say a word.
But Nick answered for her, his arm thrust suddenly about her waist. "And so you can, my son," he said. "She is the pluckiest kid I know."
CHAPTER XXIV
THE OPENING OF THE DOOR
"Allegro!"
The utterance was very faint, yet it reached Olga, sitting, as she had sat for hours, by her friend"s side, watching the long, still slumber that had followed Max"s draught.
She bent instantly over the girl upon the bed, and warmly clasped her hand. "I am here, darling."
The shadows were lengthening. Evening was drawing on. Very soon it would be dark.
"Allegro!" The low voice said again. It held a note of unutterable weariness, yet there was pleading in it too. The hand Olga had taken closed with a faint, answering pressure.
"Are you wanting anything?" whispered Olga, her face close to the face upon the pillow, the beautiful face she had watched, with what a pa.s.sion of devotion, during the long, long afternoon.
"Have you been here all the time?" murmured Violet.
"Yes, dear."
"How sweet of you, Allegro!" The dark eyes opened wider; they seemed to be watching something very intently, something that Olga could not see.
"I suppose you thought I was asleep," she said.
"Yes, dear."
"I wasn"t," said Violet. "I was just--away."
Olga was silent. The clasp of her hand was very close.
"My dear," Violet said, "I"ve been there again."
"Where, dearest?"
"I"ve been right up to the Gate of Heaven," she said. "It"s very lovely up there, Allegro. I wanted to stay."
"Did you, dear?"
"Yes. I didn"t mean to come back again. I didn"t want to come back." A sudden spasm contracted her brows. "What happened before I went, Allegro? I"m sure something happened."
Very tenderly Olga sought to rea.s.sure her. "You were ill, dear. You were upset. But you are better now. Don"t let us think about it."
"Ah! I remember!" Violet raised herself abruptly. Her eyes shone wide with terror in the failing light. "Allegro!" she said. "I--killed him!"
"No, no, dear!" Olga"s hand tenderly pressed her down again. "He is only--a little--hurt. You didn"t know what you were doing."
But recollection was dawning in the seething brain. One memory after another pierced through the turmoil. "I had to do it!" she whispered.
"He is so cruel. He keeps me back. He holds the door when I want to get away. Allegro, why won"t he let me go? I"m nothing to him. He doesn"t love me. He doesn"t--even--hate me." A great shudder ran through her.
She fell back upon the pillow as though her strength were gone. "Oh, why won"t he open the door and let me go?" She moaned piteously. "Why does he keep bringing me back? I know I shall kill him. I shall be driven to it. And it"s such a horrible thing to do--that dreadful soft feeling under the knife, and the blood--the blood--oh, Allegro!"
She tried to raise herself again, and was caught into Olga"s arms. She turned her face into her neck and shuddered.
"I"m not mad now," she whispered. "Really I"m not mad now! But I soon shall be. I can feel it coming back. My brain is like--a fiery wheel.
Oh, don"t let it come again, Allegro! Help me--help me to get away--before it comes again!"
Olga strained her to her heart, saying no word.
"They"ll shut me up," the broken whisper continued. "I shall never find my soul again. I shan"t even have you, and there"s no one else I love.
All the rest are strangers. Only he will come and look at me with his cruel, cold green eyes, and I shall kill him--I know I shall kill him--unless they bind me hand and foot. Allegro! Allegro!" She was shivering violently now. "Perhaps they will do that. It"s happened before, hasn"t it? "Bound hand and foot and cast into outer darkness."
That"s h.e.l.l, isn"t it? Oh, Olga, shall I be sent to h.e.l.l if I kill him?"
"My darling, hush, hush!" Olga"s arms held her faster still. "There is no such place," she said--"at least not in the sense you mean. You are torturing yourself, dear one, and you mustn"t. Don"t dwell on these dreadful things! You are quite, quite safe, here in my arms, with the love of G.o.d round us. Think of that, and don"t be afraid!"
"But I am afraid," moaned Violet. "It"s the outer darkness, Allegro. And you won"t be there. And the door will be shut--always shut. Oh, can"t you do anything to save me? You"re not like Max. You"re not paid to keep people back. Can"t you--can"t you find a way out for me? Couldn"t you open the prison-door before he comes again, and let me slip through?
I"ve never been a prisoner before. I"ve always come and gone as I liked.
And now--twice over--he has dragged me back from the Gate of Paradise.
Oh, Allegro, I shall never get there unless you help me. Quick, dear, quick! Help me now!"
She had turned in Olga"s arms. She raised an imploring face. She clung about her neck.