I caught her by both hands.
"Late!" I cried. "Not too late, Elsa!" I bent down and kissed both her hands. "Why did you run away?" I asked.
"I didn"t know you wanted me," she said in a sort of wonder.
I looked full in her eyes, and I knew that there was in mine the look that declares love and asks for it. If her eyes answered, the vision might be reality. I pressed her hands hard. She gave a little cry, the sparkle vanished from her eyes, and their lids drooped. Yet a little colour came in her cheeks and the gray dawn showed it me. I hailed it with eagerness and with misgiving. I thought of Wetter waiting there among the trees, waiting till the moment when I wanted him.
"Do you love me, Elsa?" I asked.
The colour deepened on her cheeks. I waited to see whether her eyes would rise again to mine; they remained immovable.
"You know I"m very fond of you," she murmured.
"But do you love me?"
"Yes, of course I love you. Please let my hands go, Augustin."
If Wetter were listening, he must have smiled at the peal of laughter that rang out from me over the terrace. I could not help it. Elsa started violently as I loosed her hands; now she looked up at me with frightened eyes that swam in tears. Her lips moved; she tried to speak to me. I was full of brutal things and had a horrible longing to say them to her. There was a specious justice in them veneering their cruelty; I am glad to say that I gave utterance to none of them. We were both in the affair, and he is a poor sort of villain who comforts himself by abusing his accomplice.
"You"re tired?" I asked gently.
"Very. But it has been delightful. M. de Varvilliers has been so kind."
"He"s a delightful fellow, Varvilliers. Come, let me take you in, and we"ll send these madcaps to bed."
She put her hand on my arm in a friendly trustful fashion, and I found her eyes fixed on mine with a puzzled regretful look. We walked most of the way along the terrace before she spoke.
"You"re not angry with me, Augustin?"
"Good heavens, no, my dear," said I.
"I"m very fond of you," she said again as we reached the window.
At last they were ready for bed--all save myself. I watched them as they trooped away, Elsa on Victoria"s arm. Varvilliers came up to me, smiling in the intervals that he s.n.a.t.c.hed from a series of yawns.
"A splendid evening!" he said. "You surpa.s.sed yourself, sire."
"I believe I did," said I. "Go to bed, my friend."
"And you?"
"Presently. I"m not sleepy yet."
"Marvellous!" said he, with a last laugh and a last yawn.
For a few moments I stood alone in the room. There were no servants about; they had given up waiting for us, and the lights were to burn at Artenberg till the hour of rising. I lit a cigarette and went out on the terrace again. I had no doubt that Wetter would keep his tryst. I was right; he was there.
"Well, how did you speed?" he asked with a smile.
"Marvellously well," said I.
He took hold of the lapels of my coat and looked at me curiously.
"Your love scene was short," he said.
"Perhaps. It was long enough."
"To do what?"
"To define the situation."
"Did it need definition?"
"I thought so half an hour ago."
"Ah, well, the evening has been a strange one, hasn"t it?"
"Let"s walk down to the river through the woods," said I. "I"ll put you across to Waldenweiter."
He acquiesced, and I put my arm through his. Presently he said in a low voice:
"The dance, the wine, the night."
"Yes, yes, I know," I cried. "My G.o.d, I knew even when I spoke to her.
She saw that a brute asked her, not a man."
"Perhaps, perhaps not; they don"t see everything. She shrank from you?"
"The tears were very ready."
"Ah, those tears! Heavens, why have we no such appeals? What matter, though? You don"t love her."
"Do you want me to call myself a brute again? Wetter, any other girl would have been free to tell me that I was a brute."
"Why, no. No man is free even to tell you that you"re a fool, sire. The divinity hedges you."
I laughed shortly and bitterly. What he said was true enough.
"There is, however, nothing to prevent you from seeing these things for yourself, just as though you were one of the rest of us," he pursued.
"Ah, here"s the river. You"ll row me across?"
"Yes. Get into the boat there."
We got in, and I pulled out into mid-stream. It was almost daylight now, but there was still a grayness in the atmosphere that exactly matched the tint of Wetter"s face. Noticing this suddenly I pointed it out to him, laughing violently.
"You are Lucifer, Son of the Morning," I cried. "How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, Son of Morning!"
"I wouldn"t care for that if I had the trick of falling soft," said he.