BIRTH-DAY MEDITATIONS.
I stand upon the wave that marks the round Of Life"s dark-heaving and revolving years; Still sweeping onward from Youth"s sunny ground, Still changed and chequered with my joys and fears, And colored from the past, where Thought careers, Shadowing the ashes in pale Memory"s urn; Where perished buds were laid, with frequent tears, That on the cheek of Disappointment burn, As blessed hours roll on, that never may return.
What have they seen, those changed and vanish"d years?
Uplifted, soaring thoughts, all quelled by fate; Affection, mournful in its gushing tears; And midst the crowd that at the funeral wait, A widowed mother"s heart made desolate O"er a war-honor"d Sire"s low place of rest; These are the tales that Memory may relate: They have a moral for the aspiring breast, A lesson of Decay on earthliness impress"d.
Yet Hope still chaunts unto the listening ear The witching music of her treacherous song; Still paints the Future eloquent and clear, And sees the tide of Life roll calm along, Where glittering phantoms rise, a luring throng; And voiceful Fame holds out the laurel bough: Where rapturous applause is loud and long, Frail guerdon for the heart!--which lights the brow With the ephemeral smile of Mind"s triumphant glow.
C.
THE HOUSEHOLDER.
BY JOHN WATERS.
"For the kingdom of Heaven is like unto a man that is an householder, which went out early in the morning to hire labourers into his vineyard. And when he had agreed with the labourers for a penny a day, he sent them into his vineyard. And he went out about the third hour, and saw others standing in the market-place, and said unto them; Go ye also into the vineyard, and whatsoever is right I will give you; and they went their way. Again he went out about the sixth and ninth hour, and did likewise. And about the eleventh hour he went out and found others standing idle, and saith unto them, Why stand ye here all the day idle? They say unto him, Because no man hath hired us. He saith unto them. Go ye also into the vineyard; and whatsoever is right that shall ye receive."--ST. MATTHEW: XX, 1-7.
O thou blest Householder! the starry dawn, The light crepuscular, the roseate morn, Long since had melted into day!
Long since the glow of Youth"s THIRD hour, And the bird"s song, and Fancy"s magic power, Long since have, traceless, pa.s.s"d away!
Ent"reth the sun into its zenith height!
Ent"reth the mortal into manhood"s might!
Op"neth again the vineyard Gate And Labourers are call"d! but Honour"s dream Entranc"d my soul, and made Religion seem As nought, Glory was man"s Estate!
The NINTH hour found me in the market place; Fierce pa.s.sion ruled my heart, care mark"d my face; In vain, in vain, Thy blessed call!
To glitter, to achieve, to lose or gain, Form"d every hope, or thought, delight, or pain: The world, the world, was still my All!
The TENTH hour sounded in my startled ear!
Thy gracious Spirit touched my heart with fear!
The harvest ended with the day; That thought imbued my mind--"not saved? too late?"
I left the throng; I sought the Vineyard Gate; "Twas shut-- Death-struck, I turn"d away!
Low sank the Sun adown the Western Sky!
Each cherish"d hope had prov"d its vanity!
Now neither Earth, nor Heaven was mine.
Rejected, sad, abandon"d, and forlorn; Of G.o.d it seem"d not lov"d; of h.e.l.l, the scorn!
No hope, or human or Divine,
Brighten"d my dark, cold, doubting, wretched mind; The world, a wilderness; Heaven"s self, unkind!
"Blackness of darkness" seem"d my way: Slow struck the ELEVENTH! Thy light around me broke!
And deep, unto my soul, these words were spoke: "Why stand ye idle all the day?"
"Enter and work through the waning hour!"-- Lord of the Vineyard! grant Thy servant power To labour, love Thee, and obey.
Let every thought, plan, word, deed, wish, be Thine!
Thine be all honour, glory, praise divine, And let thy pardon close my day!
THE QUOD CORRESPONDENCE.
Harry Harson.
CHAPTER XXVIII.
On the day but one after Rust"s death, Mr. Kornicker was very busy in his office. His coat was off; his hat was on a chair, and in it was his snuff-box, a black silk neckcloth, and a white handkerchief, not a little discolored by the presence of snuff and the absence of water. In one corner of the room lay a confused heap, consisting of bed, bedding, and various odds and ends of wearing apparel; and from these Mr. Kornicker, after due reflection and calculation as to the order in which to make his choice, selected article after article. First, he spread upon the floor his counterpane, then his blanket, then a sheet not a little akin in appearance to his handkerchief, and then his bed: upon these he piled his apparel, in a confused heap, and proceeded to roll the whole into a large ball, which he secured with a piece of rope. "Now then, the moving"s begun," said he, opening the door and rolling the bundle into the entry.
"The premises are ready for the next tenant."
Having brushed his knees with the palm of his hands, and then dusted his hands by knocking them together, he put on his neckcloth, coat, and hat; pocketed his snuff-box and handkerchief, walked into the entry, locked the door, put the key over it, as he had always been in the habit of doing; seated himself upon his bundle, with his back leaning against the wall; and immediately lapsed into a fit of deep abstraction, which he occasionally relieved by kicking his heels against the floor, shaking his head, in a sudden and emphatic manner, or inhaling his breath rapidly and violently, producing a sound blending the harmonious qualities of a snort and a whistle.
"So," said he, after indulging in one of the last mentioned performances with so much energy as to arouse him from his abstraction, at the same time nodding his head at Rust"s office, "_his_ cake being dough, our bargain"s up; and here am I, Edward Kornicker, Esquire, attorney and counsellor at law, a man of profound experience, severe knowledge of the world, of great capacity in various ways, though of small means--I think I may say of d----d small means--once more in the market; for sale to the highest bidder. Such a valuable commodity is not met with every day. If any gentleman," continued he, raising his hand and looking round at an imaginary audience, "is extremely desirous of securing the eminent talents of one of the most prominent young men of the day--not exactly new," added he, running his eye over his rusty coat, "but wonderfully serviceable; no cracks, nor flaws, no pieces broken off--here is an opportunity which will not occur again. This is only a scratch on the surface," said he, as he thrust his finger into a small hole in his coat-sleeve; "the article itself is warranted to be perfectly sound, and of the best quality. How much is bid?--how much for the promising young man aforesaid? How much?
One thousand dollars? Five hundred? Two fifty?--one?--fifty? It wont do,"
said he, in a melancholy tone; "strike him down to me. The gentleman"s bought himself in; there being no demand for the article in this market, he thinks of disposing of himself to some respectable widow lady with a small family and a large purse. He may alter his mind, but that"s his present intention."
Here Mr. Kornicker concluded his rather extraordinary soliloquy by plunging his hands in his pockets, and dropping into a subdued whistle; in the course of which his thoughts seemed to have taken altogether a different channel; for it was not long before he said, as if in continuance of some unuttered train of thought:
"Well, old fellow, I promised you to look after your girl, although you didn"t seem much struck with the offer. But I"ll stick to my promise; although, to tell the truth, I don"t exactly know how to commence. But nothing will be done by sitting on this bundle. So I"ll to my work at once."
He rose up hastily, and was descending the stairs when he abruptly turned back, went up to his luggage, and after eyeing it for a minute, said:
"It"s a hazardous business to leave you here. You can"t be distrained on, nor levied on, because you"re exempt by law. So you are safe from landlords and creditors; the law makes you exempt from being stolen too; but thieves consider themselves like members of parliament, out of the reach of law. There"s the rub. You might be stolen; and I very much regret to say, that the gentleman who should lay violent hands on you would walk off with all my goods, chattels, lands, tenements, and hereditaments; but I"ve no where to take you, and as I expect to sleep in this entry, you must take your chance. So, good bye, old acquaintance, in case you and I should never meet again."
Having in a very grave manner shaken one corner of the counterpane, as if it were the hand of an old friend, he gave his head a sudden jerk, to settle his hat in the right place, and descended the stairs.
The task which Kornicker had imposed upon himself was by no means easy; but firm in his purpose of fulfilling his promise, he shut his eyes to all difficulties, and commenced his pursuit.
The first place to which he went was the prison, for he hoped that the keeper of it might know something about her, or that she might have left her address there, in case her father wished to see her when he was imprisoned. But he was disappointed. They could tell him nothing, except that Rust neither asked for her, nor mentioned her, and had always refused to see her. She had never succeeded in gaining admittance to him, except on the night of his death, when the jailer, a fellow unfit for his office, for he had some human feeling left, unable to resist her tears and entreaties, had let her in unannounced, as mentioned in the last chapter.
She had left the cell abruptly, had hurried off, and had never returned.
"G.o.d help the poor child!" exclaimed the man, as he told the story. "Such hearts as hers were made for heaven, not for this world. I have a daughter of her age; and even if she had robbed a church, I couldn"t have treated her as that man treated his child."
The man looked at Kornicker, as if to observe the effect of his last remark; but probably that gentleman viewed the robbing of a church in a less heinous light than the jailer, for he made no comment on it, but after a pause said:
"So that"s all you know?"
The man nodded.
"Good morning to you, Sir," said Kornicker; and he walked straight out of the building, and had crossed several streets before he had made up his mind what to do next. This however was soon settled, and he b.u.t.toned his coat tightly, pulled his hat firmly on his head, drew on a pair of shabby gloves, and performed a number of those little acts which in ancient times were known under the head of "girding up the loins," preparatory to setting out to his next point of destination, which was the girl"s former home, the place where Rust had committed the murder. It was many miles off; and the distance which Rust, under the whip and spur of fierce pa.s.sions, had traversed without trace of fatigue, drew from his clerk many a sigh, and many an expression of weariness.
When he got there he found the house deserted. He entered it, for there was no one there to hinder it, but the rooms were empty and dismantled.
The house had been hired by Rust, and no sooner was he in the gripe of the law, than creditors innumerable, who like birds of prey were biding their time, kept in check by the unbending character of their debtor, came flitting in from every quarter; seized and sold the furniture, and left the house desolate. A single dark stain upon the library floor, where the murdered man had fallen, was all that was left to tell a tale of the past.
The dust had gathered thickly on the walls, as if preparing to commence a slumber of years; and as Kornicker went out, the rats raced through the hall, startled at the tread of a stranger.
With a heart as heavy as his limbs, as he thought of the past life of the girl who had once tenanted this house, and then fancied what her present fate must be, Kornicker set out on his return. "If it had been me," said he, pausing to take a last look at the lonely house, "if it had only been Edward Kornicker who was thus cast adrift, to kick his way through the world with empty pockets, and without a soul to say to him G.o.d speed, or "I"m sorry for you," it would have been right and proper, and no one would have any cause to grumble or find fault; but this being a girl, with no money, and consequently with no friends, no experience, as _I_ have, it"s a very hard case--a very hard case, indeed."