"Yes, Dan."
CHAPTER x.x.xII
THE EDGE OF THE DAWN
Magda paused outside the closed door of the room. She knew whom she would see within. Lady Arabella had told her he was there waiting for her.
Her first impulse had been to refuse to meet him. Then the temptation to see him again--just once more--before she pa.s.sed out of his life altogether, rushed over her like the surge of some resistless sea, sweeping everything before it.
Very quietly she opened the door and went into the room.
"Magda!"
She never knew whether he really uttered her name or whether it was only the voiceless, clamorous cry of his whole consciousness--of a man"s pa.s.sionate demand for the woman who is mate of his soul and body.
But she answered its appeal, her innermost being responding to the claim of it. All recollection of self, of the dimming of her beauty, even of the great gulf of months that lay between them, crowded with mistakes and failure, was burned away in the white-hot flame of love that blazed up within her.
She ran to him, and that white, searing flame found its expression in the dear human tenderness of the little cry that broke from her as he turned his gaunt face towards her.
"Oh, Saint Michel! Saint Michel! How dreadfully ill you look! Oh, my dear--sit down! You"re not fit to stand!"
But when that first instinctive cry had left her lips, memory came flooding over her once more. She shrank back from him, covering her face with her hands, agonisingly conscious of the change in herself--of that shadowing of her beauty which the sensitiveness of a woman in love had so piteously magnified.
Then, drawing her hands slowly down, she braced herself to say what must be said.
"You are free of me, Michael." She spoke in a curious, still voice. "I know Marraine and Gillian between them have brought you back. But you are free of me. As you see--I shall never do any more harm. No other man will come to grief for the sake of the Wielitzska. . . . I determined that as I had made others pay, so I would pay. I think"--suddenly moving towards the window and standing full in the brilliant sunlight--"I think you"ll agree I"ve settled the bill."
Michael came to her side.
"I want you for my wife," he said simply.
She held out her work-roughened hands, while the keen-edged sunlight pitilessly revealed the hollowed line of cheek and throat, the l.u.s.treless dark hair, the fine lines that Pain, the great Sculptor, had graved about her mouth.
"You are an artist before everything, Michael," she said. "Look--look well!"
He took the two work-worn hands in his and drew her nearer him.
"I"m your lover before everything," he answered. "When will you come to me, Magda?"
"No, no," she said whisperingly. "I mustn"t come. You"ll never--never quite forgive me. Some day the past would come between us again--you"ll never forget it all."
"No," he replied steadily. "Perhaps not. Consequences _cannot_ be evaded. There are things that can"t be forgotten. But one forgives. And I love you--love you, Magda, so that I can"t face life without you." His voice vibrated. "The past must always lie like a shadow on our love. But you"re my woman--my soul! And if you"ve sinned, then it must be my sin, too----"
She leaned away from him.
"Do you mean--June?" she asked.
He nodded with set lips.
"Then--then you don"t know--you haven"t heard?"
His expression answered her and her face changed--grew suddenly radiant, transfigured. "Oh, Saint Michel--Saint Michel! Then there is one thing I can do, one gift I have still left to give! Oh, my dear, I can take away the shadow!" Her voice breathless and shaken, she told him how June had died--all that Dan Storran had learned from the doctor who had attended her.
"I know I hurt her--hurt her without thinking. But oh, Michael! Thank G.o.d, it wasn"t through me that she died!"
And Michael, as he folded his arms about her, knew that the shadow which had lain between him and the woman he loved was there no longer. They were free--freed from those "ropes of steel" which had held them bound.
Free to go together and find once more their Garden of Eden.
Presently, when those first perfect moments of reunion were past, Magda gave utterance to the doubts and perplexities that still vexed her soul.
"Pain may purify," she said slowly. "But it spoils, Michael, and blots, and ruins. I think, after all, pain is meaningless."
Michael"s grey, steady eyes met her troubled ones.
"I don"t think pain--just as pain--purifies," he answered quickly.
"Pain is merely horrible. It is the _willingness to suffer_ that shrives us--not the pain itself."
Later still, the essential woman in her came into its own again. "I shall never be able to sit for you any more, Saint Michel," she said regretfully. "I"m n.o.body"s model--now!"
She could see only her lost beauty--the unthinking, radiant beauty of mere youth. But Michael could see all that her voluntary renunciation and atonement had bestowed in its stead of more enduring significance.
He took her by the hand and led her to the mirror.
"There," he said, a great content in his voice, "is the model for the greatest picture I shall ever paint--the model for my "Madonna.""