Jeff said, as if their controversy were at an end and they might now turn to more personal things: "You look pretty slim, Mr. Westover. A"n"t there something I can do for you-get you? I"ve come in with a message from mother. She says if you ever want to get that winter view of Lion"s Head, now"s your time. She wants you to come up there; she and Cynthia both do. They can make you as comfortable as you please, and they"d like to have a visit from you. Can"t you go?"
Westover shook his head ruefully. "It"s good of them, and I want you to thank them for me. But I don"t know when I"m going to get out again."
"Oh, you"ll soon get out," said Jeff. "I"m going to look after you a little," and this time Westover was too weak to protest. He did not forbid Jeff"s taking off his overcoat; he suffered him to light his spirit-lamp and make a punch of the whiskey which he owned the doctor was giving him; and when Jeff handed him the steaming gla.s.s, and asked him, "How"s that?" he answered, with a pleasure in it which he knew to be deplorable, "It"s fine."
Jeff stayed the whole evening with him, and made him more comfortable than he had been since his cold began. Westover now talked seriously and frankly with him, but no longer so harshly, and in his relenting he felt a return of his old illogical liking for him. He fancied in Durgin"s kindness to himself an indirect regret, and a desire to atone for what he had done, and he said: "The effect is in you--the worst effect. I don"t think either of the young Lyndes very exemplary people. But you"d be doing yourself a greater wrong than you"ve done then if you didn"t recognize that you had been guilty toward them."
Jeff seemed struck by this notion. "What do you want me to do? What can I do? Chase myself out of society? Something like that? I"m willing.
It"s too easy, though. As I said, I"ve never been wanted much, there, and I shouldn"t be missed."
"Well, then, how would you like to leave it to the people at Lion"s Head to say what you should do?" Westover suggested.
"I shouldn"t like it," said Jeff, promptly. "They"d judge it as you do--as if they"d done it themselves. That"s the reason women are not fit to judge." His gay face darkened. "But tell "em if you want to."
"Bah!" cried the painter. "Why should I want to I"m not a woman in everything."
"I beg your pardon, Mr. Westover. I didn"t mean that. I only meant that you"re an idealist. I look at this thing as if some one else had done it; I believe that"s the practical way; and I shouldn"t go in for punishing any one else for such a thing very severely." He made another punch--for himself this time, he said; but Westover joined him in a gla.s.s of it.
"It won"t do to take that view of your faults, Jeff," he said, gravely.
"What"s the reason?" Jeff demanded; and now either the punch had begun to work in Westover"s brain, or some other influence of like force and quality. He perceived that in this earth-bound temperament was the potentiality of all the success it aimed at. The acceptance of the moral fact as it was, without the unconscious effort to better it, or to hold himself strictly to account for it, was the secret of the power in the man which would bring about the material results he desired; and this simplicity of the motive involved had its charm.
Westover was aware of liking Durgin at that moment much more than he ought, and of liking him helplessly. In the light of his good-natured selfishness, the injury to the Lyndes showed much less a sacrilege than it had seemed; Westover began to see it with Jeff"s eyes, and to see it with reference to what might be low and mean in them, instead of what might be fine and high.
He was sensible of the growth Jeff had made intellectually. He had not been at Harvard nearly four years for nothing. He had phrases and could handle them. In whatever obscure or perverse fashion, he had profited by his opportunities. The fellow who could accuse him of being an idealist, and could in some sort prove it, was no longer a naughty boy to be tutored and punished. The revolt latent in him would be violent in proportion to the pressure put upon him, and Westover began to be without the wish to press his fault home to him so strongly. In the optimism generated by the punch, he felt that he might leave the case to Jeff himself; or else in the comfort we all experience in sinking to a lower level, he was unwilling to make the effort to keep his own moral elevation. But he did make an effort to save himself by saying: "You can"t get what you"ve done before yourself as you can the action of some one else. It"s part of you, and you have to judge the motive as well as the effect."
"Well, that"s what I"m doing," said Jeff; "but it seems to me that you"re trying to have me judge of the effect from a motive I didn"t have. As far as I can make out, I hadn"t any motive at all."
He laughed, and all that Westover could say was, "Then you"re still responsible for the result." But this no longer appeared so true to him.
x.x.xVIII.
It was not a condition of Westover"s welcome at Lion"s Head that he should seem peculiarly the friend of Jeff Durgin, but he could not help making it so, and he began to overact the part as soon as he met Jeff"s mother. He had to speak of him in thanking her for remembering his wish to paint Lion"s Head in the winter, and he had to tell her of Jeff"s thoughtfulness during the past fortnight; he had to say that he did not believe he should ever have got away if it had not been for him. This was true; Durgin had even come in from Cambridge to see him off on the train; he behaved as if the incident with Lynde and all their talk about it had cemented the friendship between Westover and himself, and he could not be too devoted. It now came out that he had written home all about Westover, and made his mother put up a stove in the painter"s old room, so that he should have the instant use of it when he arrived.
It was an air-tight wood-stove, and it filled the chamber with a heat in which Westover drowsed as soon as he entered it. He threw himself on the bed, and slept away the fatigue of his railroad journey and the cold of his drive with Jombateeste from the station. His nap was long, and he woke from it in a pleasant languor, with the dream-clouds still hanging in his brain. He opened the damper of his stove, and set it roaring again; then he pulled down the upper sash of his window and looked out on a world whose elements of wood and snow and stone he tried to co-ordinate. There was nothing else in that world but these things, so repellent of one another. He suffered from the incongruity of the wooden bulk of the hotel, with the white drifts deep about it, and with the granite cliffs of Lion"s Head before it, where the gray crags darkened under the pink afternoon light which was beginning to play upon its crest from the early sunset. The wind that had seemed to bore through his thick cap and his skull itself, and that had tossed the dry snow like dust against his eyes on his way from the railroad, had now fallen, and an incomparable quiet wrapped the solitude of the hills. A teasing sense of the impossibility of the scene, as far as his art was concerned, filled him full of a fond despair of rendering its feeling.
He could give its light and color and form in a sufficiently vivid suggestion of the fact, but he could not make that pink flush seem to exhale, like a long breath, upon those rugged shapes; he could not impart that sentiment of delicately, almost of elegance, which he found in the wilderness, while every detail of civilization physically distressed him. In one place the snow had been dug down to the pine planking of the pathway round the house; and the contact of this woodenness with the frozen ground pierced his nerves and set his teeth on edge like a harsh noise. When once he saw it he had to make an effort to take his eyes from it, and in a sort unknown to him in summer he perceived the offence of the hotel itself amid the pure and lonely beauty of the winter landscape. It was a note of intolerable ba.n.a.lity, of philistine pretence and vulgar convention, such as Whitwell"s low, unpainted cottage at the foot of the hill did not give, nor the little red school-house, on the other hand, showing through the naked trees.
There should have been really no human habitation visible except a wigwam in the shelter of the pines, here and there; and when he saw Whitwell making his way up the hill-side road, Westover felt that if there must be any human presence it should be some savage clad in skins, instead of the philosopher in his rubber boots and his clothing-store ulster. He preferred the small, wiry shape of Jombateeste, in his blue woollen cap and his Canadian footgear, as he ran round the corner of the house toward the barn, and left the breath of his pipe in the fine air behind him.
The light began to deepen from the pale pink to a crimson which stained the tops and steeps of snow, and deepened the dark of the woods ma.s.sed on the mountain slopes between the irregular fields of white. The burnished brown of the hard-wood trees, the dull carbon shadows of the evergreens, seemed to wither to one black as the red strengthened in the sky. Westover realized that he had lost the best of any possible picture in letting that first delicate color escape him. This crimson was harsh and vulgar in comparison; it would have almost a chromo quality; he censured his pleasure in it as something gross and material, like that of eating; and on a sudden he felt hungry. He wondered what time they would give him supper, and he took slight account of the fact that a caprice of the wind had torn its hood of snow from the mountain summit, and that the profile of the Lion"s Head showed almost as distinctly as in summer. He stood before the picture which for that day at least was lost to him, and questioned whether there would be a hearty meal, something like a dinner, or whether there would be something like a farmhouse supper, mainly of doughnuts and tea.
He pulled up his window and was going to lie down again, when some one knocked, and Frank Whitwell stood at the door. "Do you want we should bring your supper to you here, Mr. Westover, or will you--"
"Oh, let me join you all!" cried the painter, eagerly. "Is it ready--shall I come now?"
"Well, in about five minutes or so." Frank went away, after setting down in the room the lamp he had brought. It was a lamp which Westover thought he remembered from the farm-house period, and on his way down he realized as he had somehow not done in his summer sojourns, the entirety of the old house in the hotel which had encompa.s.sed it. The primitive cold of its stairways and pa.s.sages struck upon him as soon as he left his own room, and he found the parlor door closed against the chill.
There was a hot stove-fire within, and a kerosene-lamp turned low, but there was no one there, and he had the photograph of his first picture of Lion"s Head to himself in the dim light. The voices of Mrs. Durgin and Cynthia came to him from the dining-room, and from the kitchen beyond, with the occasional clash of crockery, and the clang of iron upon iron about the stove, and the quick tread of women"s feet upon the bare floor. With these pleasant noises came the smell of cooking, and later there was an opening and shutting of doors, with a thrill of the freezing air from without, and the dull thumping of Whitwell"s rubber boots, and the quicker flapping of Jombateeste"s soft leathern soles.
Then there was the sweep of skirted feet at the parlor door, and Cynthia Whitwell came in without perceiving him. She went to the table by the darkening window, and quickly turned up the light of the lamp. In her ignorance of his presence, he saw her as if she had been alone, almost as if she were out of the body; he received from her unconsciousness the impression of something rarely pure and fine, and he had a sudden compa.s.sion for her, as for something precious that is fated to be wasted or misprized. At a little movement which he made to relieve himself from a sense of eavesdropping, she gave a start, and shut her lips upon the little cry that would have escaped from another sort of woman.
"I didn"t know you were here," she said; and she flushed with the shyness of him which she always showed at first. She had met him already with the rest, but they had scarcely spoken together; and he knew of the struggle she must now be making with herself when she went on: "I didn"t know you had been called. I thought you were still sleeping."
"Yes. I seemed to sleep for centuries," said West over, "and I woke up feeling coeval with Lion"s Head. But I hope to grow younger again."
She faltered, and then she asked: "Did you see the light on it when the sun went down?"
"I wish I hadn"t. I could never get that light--even if it ever came again."
"It"s there every afternoon, when it"s clear."
"I"m sorry for that; I shall have to try for it, then."
"Wasn"t that what you came for?" she asked, by one of the efforts she was making with everything she said. He could have believed he saw the pulse throbbing in her neck. But she held herself stone-still, and he divined her resolution to conquer herself, if she should die for it.
"Yes, I came for that," said Westover. "That"s what makes it so dismaying. If I had only happened on it, I shouldn"t have been responsible for the failure I shall make of it."
She smiled, as if she liked his lightness, but doubted if she ought. "We don"t often get Lion"s Head clear of snow."
"Yes; that"s another hardship," said the painter. "Everything is against me! If we don"t have a snow overnight, and a cloudy day to-morrow, I shall be in despair."
She played with the little wheel of the wick; she looked down, and then, with a glance flashed at him, she gasped: "I shall have to take your lamp for the table tea is ready."
"Oh, well, if you will only take me with it. I"m frightfully hungry."
Apparently she could not say anything to that. He tried to get the lamp to carry it out for her, but she would not let him. "It isn"t heavy,"
she said, and hurried out before him.
It was all nothing, but it was all very charming, and Westover was richly content with it; and yet not content, for he felt that the pleasure of it was not truly his, but was a moment of merely borrowed happiness.
The table was laid in the old farm-house sitting-room where he had been served alone when he first came to Lion"s Head. But now he sat down with the whole family, even to Jombateeste, who brought in a faint odor of the barn with him.
They had each been in contact with the finer world which revisits nature in the summer-time, and they must all have known something of its usages, but they had reverted in form and substance to the rustic living of their neighbors. They had steak for Westover, and baked potatoes; but for themselves they had such farm fare as Mrs. Durgin had given him the first time he supped there. They made their meal chiefly of doughnuts and tea, and hot biscuit, with some sweet dishes of a festive sort added in recognition of his presence; and there was mince-pie for all. Mrs.
Durgin and Whitwell ate with their knives, and Jombateeste filled himself so soon with every implement at hand that he was able to ask excuse of the others if he left them for the horses before they had half finished. Frank Whitwell fed with a kind of official or functional conformity to the ways of summer folks; but Cynthia, at whom Westover glanced with anxiety, only drank some tea and ate a little bread and b.u.t.ter. He was ashamed of his anxiety, for he had owned that it ought not to have mattered if she had used her knife like her father; and it seemed to him as if he had prompted Mrs. Durgin by his curious glance to say: "We don"t know half the time how the child lives. Cynthy! Take something to eat!"
Cynthia pleaded that she was not hungry; Mrs. Durgin declared that she would die if she kept on as she was going; and then the girl escaped to the kitchen on one of the errands which she made from time to time between the stove and the table.
"I presume it"s your coming, Mr. Westover," Mrs. Durgin went on, with the comfortable superiority of elderly people to all the trials of the young. "I don"t know why she should make a stranger of you, every time.
You"ve known her pretty much all her life."
"Ever since you give Jeff what he deserved for scaring her and Frank with his dog," said Whitwell.
"Poor Fox!" Mrs. Durgin sighed. "He did have the least sense for a dog I ever saw. And Jeff used to be so fond of him! Well, I guess he got tired of him, too, toward the last."
"He"s gone to the happy hunting-grounds now. Colorady didn"t agree with him-or old age," said Whitwell. "I don"t see why the Injuns wa"n"t right," he pursued, thoughtfully. "If they"ve got souls, why ha"n"t their dogs? I suppose Mr. Westover here would say there wa"n"t any certainty about the Injuns themselves!"
"You know my weak point, Mr. Whitwell," the painter confessed. "But I can"t prove they haven"t."
"Nor dogs, neither, I guess," said Whitwell, tolerantly. "It"s curious, though, if animals have got souls, that we ha"n"t ever had any communications from "em. You might say that ag"in" the idea."