Mrs. Hawkins bustles in with a plate of cookies and a gla.s.s of milk.
"You must have more than one," she says, setting the plate before me. "Really, Eric and my husband used to finish a whole plate of these in a single afternoon. But with Eric gone and my- Well, Ted just doesn"t seem as hungry as he used to be." I pick up a cookie. "I"ll have at least two." She sits back down across from me. "You never told us your name last time, dear. Don"t worry, I won"t tell it to the police. I would just like to know what to call you."
"It"s Alisa."
"Where are you from, Alisa?" "Lots of places." I sip the milk. It is cold, good. The questions need to be asked but I find myself postponing them."I"m taking the year off from college, but I"ll be in school next year. I just got accepted to SC. I"m going to major in pre-med."
"How do they taste?" she asks.
"Very good." But I end up putting the cookie down, half eaten. "Mrs. Hawkins, may I ask you a delicate question? It concerns Eric."
She hesitates. "What is the question?"
"Your son wanted to be a doctor. He said he wanted to follow in your husband"s footsteps. Now I"ve met your husband, and he seemed like an intense and driven man. That is not a criticism but an observation. Eric was not so driven, yet I imagine some of that intensity must have rubbed off on him,"
"That"s true," she admits carefully.
"You see, this is hard for me. I don"t want to walk on your pain, and I apologize if I am. But I was just wondering why, if Eric was so keen to be a doctor, he was taking a year off from college? I mean, I know a break from studying is not so unusual," I pause, "but was there a special reason for his extended vacation?"
She stares blankly for a moment. "Yes."
"May I know the reason?"
A tear runs down her cheek. "Eric had cancer. Lymphoma. It had spread through most of his body. It had gone into remission three times but it always came back." She swallows thickly. "The doctors said he had less than three months to live."
"I see." I am stunned. Eric had told me he wasn"t well. Kalika had told me the same thing. Indeed, she had implied that was one of the reasons she killed him. So that he would have a better birth in his next life.
"I"m your daughter. You should believe me. I believe you even when I hear you lying to me."
Perhaps Kalika had told me the truth.
Mrs. Hawkins sobs quietly.
"There were a couple of police officers who came to the door the day Eric died," I say carefully.
"They were looking for him, but the person I told you about-the one who killed your son-she convinced them to go off with her. And I never saw those men again. I a.s.sumed this woman killed them as well. But I never saw an article in the paper about them, and you know what big news any police killing is. I was just wondering, in your conversation with the police about your son, after his body was found, did they make any mention of the fact that they had lost two men?"
Mrs. Hawkins wipes at her face. "No."
I speak out loud, but mainly to myself. "It seems they would have, don"t you think? If the disappearance was tied up with the same case as your son"s death?"
"I would think so. Maybe the police are all right."
I pick up the cookie again, thinking, "How did you get on with the policemen?"
"Fine."
"Are they fine?"
"You don"t have to worry about them, Mother."
"They might be all right," I say. Maybe I am worrying about all the wrong things.
14.
The night I turned myself back into a vampire, I went searching for an ounce of Yaksha"s blood to serve as an aerobic catalyst. The only place to look, I thought, was the ice-cream truck where Eddie Fender had kept Yaksha"s tortured body in cold storage. There I found the blood I needed, frozen beneath a box of Popsicles. But before I sc.r.a.ped it from the floor of the refrigerated compartment, I had a highly unusual conversation with an elderly homeless man with thinning white hair and a grimy face. He was obviously down on his luck. But when I strode up to say h.e.l.lo, he reacted as if he was expecting me."You look very nice tonight. But I know you"re in a hurry."
"How do you know I"m in a hurry?"
"I know a few things. You want this truck I suppose. I"ve been guarding it for you."
"How long have you been here?"
"I don"t rightly know. I think I"ve been here since you were last here."
The ice-cream truck should not have been there. The police should have hauled it away a couple of months earlier. Yet not only was the truck parked where it had been when it held Yaksha, the refrigerator unit was still working, and the homeless man implied he had kept it working for me. That was crucial, because if the blood had melted and rotted, it would have been of no use to me. I wouldn"t have been able to turn back into a vampire. I would have possessed no special abilities with which to protect the child.
Now the big question was ...
Did the homeless man know that?
He obviously knew something.
The bigger question was how he knew.
With the sun setting and with no better place to go, I return to the street where I met the man.
There, to my utter astonishment, I find him sitting near the spot where the ice-cream truck had been parked. It is gone but the man has not changed. In fact, he is drinking a carton of milk as he was the last time we met. He looks up as I approach and his eyes sparkle in the dull yellow light of the street lamps.
He doesn"t rise, though. He is an old man and getting up is hard on his knees. I remember I had to help him up the last time. He flashes me a warm smile.
"Why if it isn"t you again," he says. "I thought you might come back."
"Have you been waiting for me?" I ask.
"Sure. I don"t mind waiting around. Don"t have a lot to do these days, you know."
I crouch by his side. "What do you do when you"re not waiting for me?"
He is shy. "Oh, I just move around, pick up an odd job here and there, help out where I can."
I smile. "Well, you sure helped me last time."
He is pleased. "That"s good. But you"re a bright girl. You know how to help yourself." He stops.
"Hey, would you like to play a game of cards?"
I raise an eyebrow. "Poker?"
He brushes his hand. "No. That"s too hard a game for an old fella like me. You have to think too much. How about a game of twenty-one? I"ll be the house. I"ll play by house rules. I"ll hit on every sixteen and give you a tip every now and then if you need it. As long as you promise to tip me if you win in the end. How does that sound? You know how to play twenty-one?"
I sit cross-legged in front of him. "I am a born gambler. Do you have cards?"
He reaches in his old coat pocket and pulls out a pack. "Do I have cards? These are fresh from a high roller"s blackjack table in Las Vegas. Mind if I shuffle? Those are house rules, you know. Dealer has to shuffle."
"You shuffle. What are we betting?"
He takes a sip of his milk as he opens the pack. "It doesn"t matter." Then he laughs and the sound is like music to my ears because it has been so long since I have heard the sound of pure joy. "An old b.u.m like me-I have nothing to lose!"
I laugh with him. "What"s your name, old b.u.m?"
He pauses and catches my eye. "Now just one moment. You"re the youngster here. You"ve never told me your name."
I offer my hand. "I"m Sita."
He shakes my hand. "Mike."
"Where are you from, Mike?"
He lets go of my hand and shuffles the cards. He is a pro with them; he obviously can shuffle both sides of the deck with as few as five fingers. Yet a trace of sorrow enters his voice. The tone is not painful, more bittersweet."Lots of places, Sita," he says. "You know how it is when you get as old as I am, one place blurs into another. But I try to keep moving, try to keep my hand in. Where are you from?"
"India."
He is impressed. "By golly, that"s far away! You must have had plenty of adventures between here and India."
"Too many adventures, Mike. But are you going to stop talking and start dealing? I"m getting anxious to beat you at what I know is your favorite game."
He acts offended, although he is still smiling.
"Hold on just one second," he says. "We haven"t decided what we"re wagering. What have you got?"
"Money."
He nods. "Money is good. How much you got?"
I reach in my back pocket. "Three hundred dollars in cash."
He whistles. "My sweet lord! You carry your bankroll on you. Now I know that ain"t smart, no sir."
I flip open my wad of twenties. Got them from an ATM machine down the street.
"I don"t mind betting this. What are you betting?"
My question seems to catch him off guard. He asks with a trace of suspicion, "What do you want?"
"Oh. Just a few friendly hints, what you offered. Can you give me some of those? When I win I mean?"
He speaks with mock confidentiality. "You don"t need them when you win, girl. You need them when you lose." He begins to deal the cards. "Sure, I"ll help you out. Just don"t you get too rough on old Mike."
I throw a twenty down. "I"ll try to behave myself."
He deals me a fifteen, bust hand. He is looking strong, showing a ten. He peeks at his hole card and grins. By the rules, I know I should hit. But I hate chasing a strong hand with so little room to maneuver.
He waits for me to make a decision, a sly grin on his old lips.
"Going to risk it?" he asks, teasing me.
"Sure." I scratch the ground between us. "Hit me."
I get a seven. Twenty-two. Bust. I"m twenty down.
He deals another hand. I get eleven, and he shows a six, the weakest card he can show. By most house rules I am allowed to double down at this point. But I ask if it is OK to be sure. He nods, pleased to hit me again. I don"t know what h.e.l.l do if he gets in my debt. I lay another twenty beside my turned- over cards and he deals me a card.
"A nine," I mutter. "Twenty. I"m sitting pretty."
"You are pretty, Sita," he says as he flips over his cards, showing a five, a total of eleven. He draws and gets a ten, twenty-one, beating me by one again. My forty belongs to him.
"d.a.m.n," I mutter.
I lose the next six hands. Every decision I make is wrong, yet I am playing by the book. The published rules say I should win about half the hands. Yet I don"t think he is cheating me, even though he seems to take great pleasure in taking my money. He already has two hundred bucks, two-thirds of my bankroll. If I don"t win soon I"ll have to walk.
On the ninth hand he deals me a natural. Blackjack.
He is showing only a seven. I have finally won.
He offers me a twenty. The amount I bet.
"You want it?" he asks, and there is a gleam in his eye.
"You were going to give me a tip," I say.
"But you won. Fate favored you, Sita, you didn"t have to do anything. When a winning hand is coming around, it"s going to come no matter what." He gathers the cards together. He is down to the bottom of the deck; he has to shuffle again. He comments on the fact, as an aside. "You know if this was a casino and I had myself a shoe, I could deal as many as six decks without shuffling. What do you think of that?"
I go completely numb.
But it will be dark angels that force him and his mother to flee to the mirror in the sky, where shoes move without feet and the emerald circle is seen in the morning light.
Lake Tahoe, I remember suddenly, was called "the mirror in the sky" by the original Indians who lived in the area, because they had to hike up the mountain to reach it, and then, it was such a large, clear lake, it looked to them like a perfect mirror reflecting the sky. Also, there is a small but gorgeous cove in the lake called Emerald Bay. Finally, there are casinos nearby that have special shoes for playing twenty- one. As we are playing twenty-one right now, only without one of those shoes that moves without feet.
Kalika had a book on Lake Tahoe.