"Where"s the rest of it?" I ask.
"You do not need all of it to judge its authenticity," Dr. Seter says.
"That doesn"t answer my question," I say.
"The rest of it is in the vault," James interrupts, close to my right side. "But we decided it wouldn"t be a good idea to bring it all out tonight."
On the road, I was briefly separated from them by a distance of two hundred feet. At that point they had their radio on and their windows up. Even I, with my supernatural hearing, could not hear what they were saying. They must have made this decision at that time. Naturally, I am disappointed not to see it all. Yet I am thrilled by what I have read. Already I am convinced the scripture is authentic. The papyrus even feels as if it is five thousand years old. I stroke it gently, making James jump.
"Don"t do that," he says.
I withdraw my hand. "I know how to handle such things. I did not harm it in any way." I pause and look at the doctor. "It is my belief that this scripture is authentic."
Dr. Seter is taken back. "You can tell that by such a brief study?"
"Yes. This portion matches what I have. I take back what I said earlier. They"re almost identical." I pause. "It would help us if I could see the rest."
Dr. Seter is apologetic. "Alisa, surely you understand what an act of good faith it was for us to show you what we have shown you. Now it"s only right, before we reveal any more, that you show us at least a portion of what you have discovered." He pauses and smiles. "I think that is fair. Don"t you?"
"Very fair. May I have a day or two to deliver the material to you?"
"Certainly," Dr. Seter says. "James will not be accompanying me east. You can bring what you wish to show us here and he will have a look at it."
"Fine," I say. "But you must look at it yourself, Dr. Seter."
"But I have told you about my commitments on the East Coast."
"What I have to show you will make those commitments seem unimportant."
Dr. Seter is troubled. "I am not willing to cancel any of my lectures until I have more proof."
"I will give you such proof before you leave for the East. Where will you be staying in San Francisco?"
"At the Hilton by the airport," James says. "You can leave a message there. We"ll return your call promptly."
I offer Dr. Seter my hand. "I look forward to meeting you again soon."
The doctor is surprised at my sudden departure. "But you"ve said hardly anything about what we"ve shown you."
I keep my tone light "It"s what you haven"t shown me that I would have a lot to say about."
James touches my arm. "I"ll walk you out, Alisa, if you"d like."
I smile. "I would like that very much."
Outside James is a study in politeness.
"I hope you can understand our caution," he says. "We just met you tonight. While we"re all impressed with your understanding of the Suzama material, we still have to take things one step at a time."
"No problem," I say as I open my car door. "I doubt that I would have been nearly as open as you and your father have been."
James smiles. "Actually, Alisa, you haven"t been very open." He pauses. "You can at least tell us where you found your material."
"In India."
He frowns. "Are you serious? Where?"
"In Sri Nagar."
He nods. "I know where that is. In the Himalayas. What were you doing there?"
"I had a few dreams of my own." I pause. "How old are you, James?""Twenty-eight."
"You took much younger. I am twenty-five, for your information."
"You look much younger," he says. "Do you practice anything Suzama taught?"
I smite. "A personal question. I don"t know if I want to answer that."
"Come on," he insists.
"I"ll tell you what, I"ll make a deal with you. Tell me what you practice and I"ll tell you what I practice."
He gives a sheepish grin. "You"re a clever young woman, Alisa. I don"t know if it"s smart to share too many secrets with you."
Before I climb into my car I place my palm on his chest I catch his dark eyes once more, and for the first time I notice how deep they are, how beautiful. There is more to him than meets even my penetrating eyes. A soothing warmth sweeps over me, for him, as well as for his father. Beneath my soft hand his warm heart beats faster. He may not trust me, but I know he likes me, maybe even wants me.
It is strange how I suddenly want him. Since Ray, I have not really desired any man. Even with Joel and Arturo, it was more my love for them that bound me to them. Yet, out of the blue, James has me all hot and bothered. Seymour would be incredibly jealous.
"Secrets are what make us all interesting," I say, and give him a light peck on the cheek. "Have fun in San Francisco. I will call you."
He grabs my arm.
"There is something unusual about you, Alisa," he says in a gentle voice. "I"m going to figure out what it is."
I laugh. "And tell the whole world?"
He smiles, but when he speaks there is a seriousness in his voice. "I have a feeling few in the world would believe me."
4.
The time is well after one, but I do not drive straight home. Being a vampire, I find one in the morning not unpleasant. Also, since my rebirth as a vampire, I have found I need little rest, an hour"s nap here and there. Even when the sun is high in the daylight sky, my powers are hardly affected. Once again I attribute this to the fact that I used primarily Yaksha"s blood to bring about my transformation.
And a few drops of Paula"s child"s blood.
I, like Seymour, have the influence of it in my life.
I drive to Joshua Tree National Monument, and when I arrive the moon is high in the sky. The park is large, and I have no idea where Paula sat when the brilliant blue light came out of the sky and blessed her. Only that she sat on a bluff watching the sunset. After the blue light left and the sun rose the next morning, the surrounding Joshua trees were larger.
"The Joshua trees around me-they were all taller."
"Are you sure?"
"Pretty sure. Some were twice the size they had been the evening before."
I park in a spot that catches my eye and get out and walk across the desert. The moonlight, as it pours over me, seems to seep into the crown of my head, and I am reminded of the time in the desert outside Las Vegas when I escaped a nuclear explosion by filling my body with moonlight and floating high into the sky. As I prowl the sandy terrain among the Joshua trees that stand like sentinels from another age, I feel my step lighten. It is almost as if I can bob off the ground, and that possibility fills me with excitement. To fly up with the stars and escape the prison of my problems. My bare arms begin to glow with a milky white radiance. I can almost see through them.
Then I see the place. My recognition of it is immediate. I do not even have to take note of the tall surrounding trees to confirm my belief. I simply know it is the spot. A feeling of tranquility, of sanct.i.ty even, radiates from the place. It draws me forward. Clearly something momentous occurred here. In a minute I am standing atop the bluff where I am convinced Paula conceived her child. I lift my arms to the stars. "Suzama!" I call. "Show me what you saw!" There is no answer, at least no obvious one. Yet I am suddenly overcome by a wave of fatigue, and I sit down to close my eyes and meditate with the rhythm of the breath and the secret mantra. Soon white light is pouring, not from above, but from a place inside me, and I am lost in memories of nights of wonder and terror at the feet of a tender clairvoyant, who saw not only the birth of G.o.d, but the death as well. There was, of course, a reason Suzama died so young, and perhaps I was a part of that reason.
When I arrived in Egypt, it was fifty years after the death of Lord Krishna, fifty years into the dark age, what was to become known as Kali Yuga. Following the trail of adventurous merchants, who traveled the Far East thousands of years before Marco Polo was born, I arrived in an Egypt that to my eyes was infinite in splendor and riches. Truthfully, it overwhelmed me, although I was also relieved to be out of India, where Yaksha was in the midst of a b.l.o.o.d.y rampage to destroy every living vampire, as part of a vow he had made to Krishna.
The bright sun was hard on a young vampire like me. Riding into the enchanted city on the back of a camel, I had to keep my head covered with many layers of cloth. The sun burned into my brain, sapping every ounce of my strength. Yet the sight of the Great Pyramid, four times larger than the present-day pyramid that bears the same name, filled me with wonder. Covered with shiny white ivory and capped with glistening gold, it stole my breath away. All I could think as the bright rays heated my already boiling blood was to escape into its dark interior, rest, and try to forget the many trials of my journey. I thought it more than a coincidence that one of the first people I met when I entered the magical city was Suzama herself.
She was far from a high priestess that day. Only sixteen, with long dark hair and eyes as bright as they were kind, she wore a slave"s simple garment. I saw her bending over the bank of the Nile to collect water in a large clay jar. On my exhausted camel, moving slowly toward her, I thought she seemed to stiffen. She glanced over her shoulder at me, almost as if she felt me approach. Later she was to tell me that she"d already had many visions of my coming. As our eyes met, my heart beat faster. I could remember no dream I"d had about her, but I knew her face was one I would never forget awake or asleep.
Suzama was not merely beautiful, although she would have been considered attractive in any age or place. Her allure came from the marks that austerity and pain had stamped on her young beauty, marks that made her enchanting, not repulsive. It was as if she had witnessed a thousand lives of suffering and come to a realization that transcended mortal acceptance. She was both saintly and sensual. Her lips so generous, she had only to smile to make you feel kissed. I loved her when I saw her, and until then I had never loved anyone on sight, except for Krishna himself.
She offered me a drink from her jug.
"I am called Suzama," she said. "Who are you?"
"Sita," I answered, giving her my real name. I drank the water hungrily, and splashed some on my dusty face. The Nile was cool and sweet in those days. I don"t know what has become of it now. "I am new here."
But Suzama shook her head. "You have always been here." Then she touched her heart and I saw tears in her eyes. "I know you, Sita. You have great power."
This was my first sign of her power. Suzama knew things from inside herself, not from outside.
Indeed, later, I came to believe the entire world was a dream to her. Yet paradoxically it could still cause her intense pain. Her deepest feelings were enigmatic, dispa.s.sionately unattached, but at the same time pa.s.sionately involved. When she took my hand and led me in the direction of her family, I felt I had been touched by an angel. Yet I did not know that for the next three and a half years, I would hardly ever leave her sight. Her mystical mission had not yet begun, but soon it would hit like a bolt of lightning. And I would be her thunder.
5.
The next morning I have been only seconds in my expensive and exquisitely furnished tri-level home in Pacific Palisades when the phone rings. Upstairs I hear Seymour snoring peacefully, yet the call makes me anxious. Our number is unlisted. Who would know to call? And so early in the morning?
I pick up the phone and hold it close.
"h.e.l.lo?"
There is a pause. Then the soft voice, the gentle inflections.
"It is I," she says.
The blood freezes in my veins. "Kalika."
"Yes, Mother, you remember me. That is good. How have you been?"
"Fine. How are you?"
"Wonderful. Busy."
"You haven"t found him yet," I say. "You"re not going to find him."
Kalika could be smiling. "You are wrong. I haven"t found him but I am going to find him. You are going to help me."
"I hardly think so."
"You think too much. Your thoughts blind you. I told you I"m not going to harm the child. I"m your daughter. You should believe me. I believe you even when I hear you lying to me."
"Where are you?" I ask.
"Not far, I"m high up. I have a view. You would enjoy it."
"How did you get this number?"
"It wasn"t difficult." A pause. "I saw you last night at that boring meeting. I saw you talking to those people."
If possible, my blood grows colder. Just by meeting and talking to people, I put them suddenly in danger. It does not seem fair that I should love someone who causes me such grief. Yes, I am chilled by Kalika"s call, and grateful for it as well. How hopeless mothers are.
"Those people are no concern of yours," I say harshly.
"I think the doctor is a nice man. But I see you like the son. Handsome devil, isn"t he?" A pause.
"Is it appropriate for a daughter to comment on the company her mother keeps?"
"No."
She laughs softly. "Nothing is as it seems. Black can appear white when the light is blinding. But white loses all l.u.s.ter at the faintest sign of darkness. Why trust them when you can trust me?"
"Because you are a cold-blooded murderer."
"Oh. We all have our faults. When did you become so judgmental?"
My tone is bitter. "You know when."
"I suppose. How is Seymour?"