He thought to himself, How do I kill vampires, now that I am alone? Dare I a.s.semble my people? No, they"d all be stopped at their ports of entry. How do I kill vampires, now that I am alone? Dare I a.s.semble my people? No, they"d all be stopped at their ports of entry.
He"d signal Becky not to come back - stop at the college library, see if they had a public computer. He"d send her an e-mail, using the team"s own emergency code. She could share it with the ones still in Kuala. He went over to the library, which was wide open and, typical of St. John"s rather tangential approach to organization, totally unmanned.
He booted up the computer behind the librarian"s counter. No pa.s.sword needed, of course. St. John"s was still St. John"s. It wasn"t that they were especially trusting. It was details - they avoided them. Was it the best college in the United States? Not by all standards, but by any standard at all, it was the most intellectually healthy.
His opinion. He opened up Outlook Express and logged onto their server. One code he"d never expected to use was "sourball express." It meant the unthinkable, that CIA had turned against the operation and everybody needed to go to ground immediately, wherever they happened to be.
When she saw it, she would go into meltdown, but she would do her duty. He typed the words. Then he added, "Go to B." There was a guaranteed job, given his recent casualties. Bocage understood American intelligence very well. He"d give her a good home.
He sighed. It was likely that he would never see Becky again, never hear from her, never know how her life played itself out. Well, h.e.l.l, that was the nature of this game. You worked in total darkness. Sometimes there were other figures beside you, sometimes you were alone. He could have loved that kid, though. He could have loved her.
He sent the e-letter from the name of the person who used the computer, then immediately shut it down. There was no point in encrypting it. All of their encryption was backdoored to CIA. The point was not to write anything that would make an Echelon search possible. He hadn"t done that, he was quite sure. Pretty sure. Somewhat sure.
He went out, hurrying down toward the playing field and the bridge with its bus stop. There was the tree under which he had kissed Connie Bell. Even all these years later, he remembered just how sweet she had tasted, Connie Bell. She was the loveliest woman he had ever known, even to this day.
He recognized, abstractly, that he was crying. At least, his eyes were wet. What a d.a.m.n a.s.shole he could be. Fortunate that he was alone. He was crying for his lost career, for his despised honor, but more for Connie Bell and lost youth . . . and for Becky Driver, whom he had never gotten an opportunity to kiss.
He crossed the playing fields and came to the bridge and the bus stop. He"d take the bus into Baltimore, to Penn Station.
His pursuers would spend their time looking for cell phone usage and credit card usage and ATM usage. n.o.body would take to the streets, n.o.body would try to think as he thought, try to follow him in the old-fashioned way, by following his mind.
He did not intend to stop killing vampires simply because he"d lost his backing. To h.e.l.l with the CIA; he was going to do this thing. Maybe he"d rid the United States of the creatures before his employers caught him, who knew? Let Justin stuff that in his d.a.m.n pipe. Endangered species, h.e.l.l. If he rendered the d.a.m.n things extinct before they could be protected, what would those White House pantywaists do - apologize to the world for allowing such a terrible thing to happen?
They were totally out of touch with the situation. If the vampires were free to hunt openly - if they had rights and legal status - oh, G.o.d, how awful that would be. Inside of a decade, they would rule the world again.
The bus came, and he paid his fare and took a seat. He leaned back, closed his eyes. "Should"ve graduated from St. John"s, a.s.shole," he told himself. He could"ve become a professor of cla.s.sical languages, a doctor of philosophy. He could have led a quiet life, tasted of love and marriage. Except if you went through a childhood like his you were - well, you were scarred. He was a strong man. Tough guy.
But why? What motivated him to get so good with a gun, to learn the art of killing, to live in the shadows?
He knew. h.e.l.l yes, he did. This particular mystery man had himself figured out. When his dad disappeared, the world changed for him. It became a place where anything could happen and n.o.body was safe. He was as he was for a very simple reason: he lived in deep inner terror, and it never, ever went away.
What if his kids disappeared? Or his wife, or him? He was too insecure to be able to enjoy real love.
In his lifetime, he"d killed at least fifty men, some of them with his bare hands. He"d tortured people, done it sadly and methodically, but with the same determination that drove him now. He could see beyond the immediate tragedy to the greater reward. He had wired up the gonads of Cambodian kids to get information that would save American lives. Would the mothers and wives whose lovers and sons he"d sent home alive tell him he"d done wrong?
He transferred to another bus line and rode this one to the station. He went to the newsstand and picked up some magazines, then bought a club ticket for the 4:35 Metroliner.
There was always the possibility that the station was being watched, so he went to the men"s room and sat in one of the stalls reading. Guys came and went, toilets flushed around him. He read about elk hunting, then paged through the cla.s.sifieds. Field and Stream Field and Stream always reminded him of the last time he had hunted, which had been with his dad. They gone up along the Chattaminimi Ridge, and just at sunrise had seen a buck to stop your heart. That had been about two weeks before Dad was killed. The vampire would have been watching him by then, for sure. It was probably only a few feet away during that walk, pacing them, waiting, doing its research on its victim. "What"s that smell?" young Paul had asked. "Bats," Dad had said. "There"s a lotta bat caves up this way." It had not been bats. always reminded him of the last time he had hunted, which had been with his dad. They gone up along the Chattaminimi Ridge, and just at sunrise had seen a buck to stop your heart. That had been about two weeks before Dad was killed. The vampire would have been watching him by then, for sure. It was probably only a few feet away during that walk, pacing them, waiting, doing its research on its victim. "What"s that smell?" young Paul had asked. "Bats," Dad had said. "There"s a lotta bat caves up this way." It had not been bats.
He waited until four-thirty-two, then left the john and hurried across the station. This would cause a sudden redeployment of officers, if there was anybody there. He knew how to flush a tail.
There was no tail, and he also nearly missed the d.a.m.n train. But he did not miss it. He got in the club car and found his seat, dropped down and opened another magazine, Newsweek Newsweek. He stared at it, while actually evaluating his surroundings and all the other pa.s.sengers. There was a woman with two little girls, some businessmen, a couple of tourists, maybe from eastern Europe. Any of these people could be tails preset on the train. He was especially interested in the mom. That"d be a clever twist, the kind of thing they might use when a pro was the target.
Still, he didn"t think they were on him, or anywhere near him. He thought he"d have a good week before they decided to put him on wanted posters. Probably call him a serial child killer or something. Be sure to get police attention all over the d.a.m.n country that way.
He gazed out the window. This was his America he was pa.s.sing through, this America of rolling hills and tidy suburbs, and rusty old factories clinging to the rail line. He remembered a very long time ago when this was still the New York Central Railroad, and the cars had been painted olive drab. He"d made his first trip to New York on this line, emerging in Penn Station with saucer eyes and fifteen wadded up dollar bills in his pocket. He"d stayed at the Taft Hotel on Seventh Avenue, with three other guys from the college.
It was on that trip that he had seen his first truly great painting, Van Gogh"s Starry Night Starry Night in the Museum of Modern Art. It was also on that trip that he had gone to his first opera, in the Museum of Modern Art. It was also on that trip that he had gone to his first opera, Turandot, Turandot, about a cruel princess in a moonlit palace of long ago. about a cruel princess in a moonlit palace of long ago.
He had been a person, then - a young person, just awakening to the world around him. Fresh as the dew, drinking his first drink, smoking his first cigarette, lying in bed at night with Connie Bell on his mind.
He was a killing machine now, was Paul Ward. He"d lost his ability to love women. He could still have s.e.x, and he did that whenever it was convenient, either with wh.o.r.es or causal pickups. But love? No. That part of his heart had gone out like a spent old coal.
It did not seem as though two and a half hours had pa.s.sed, but they were entering the Pennsy Tunnel, sure enough.
New York. It probably wouldn"t be where matters ended, because he intended to follow this path to the last vampire in the country. He probably should have started here. But n.o.body they were aware of had ever even seen a vampire in those days, so Tokyo looked like found money. Too bad the Europeans had kept their programs to themselves.
He left the train last, walked up the platform alone. n.o.body was watching him. He crossed Penn Station. n.o.body here, either. He went out, up the stairs to Eighth Avenue.
Cabs roared past, people swarmed the sidewalks. He was tired, bone tired, and he wanted a major drink. A whole lot of "em. He"d really love to have found some bar fighters, but he was too deep in cover for that now. First chance he got, he planned to spend some time smashing his fists into a G.o.dd.a.m.n wall.
You burned down your house, fella. Just jumped up and ran out of there. What the h.e.l.l did you know? Maybe those two guys were gonna give you a decoration.
He stuffed his hands in his pockets and started up the avenue. He wasn"t going anywhere in particular - just away from here. He needed a place to crash, for sure. The flight from Paris to Dulles had been lousy - a middle seat, a kid with ma.s.sive quant.i.ties of popcorn on one side of him, the King of Sweat on the other. Then touchdown and straight to Langley, and the s.h.i.t spitting through the fan.
He was so f.u.c.king tired; he didn"t think he"d ever been this tired. Tired or not, though, he was a man obsessed, and his obsession kept him going. He was here to find and kill the parasites that had taken his dad away from him, and he was going to do it. He slogged off down the street - and soon found himself pa.s.sing the Theater at Madison Square Garden. Lou Reed was giving a concert tonight, which might actually make him feel a little less miserable. Also, dipping into a crowd never hurt. He"d use it to strip tails, then find a room later. He turned the corner and went up to the ticket booth, asked for one on the aisle anywhere in the auditorium.
"Sold out."
"What"re they scalping for?"
"Eight hundred up. Guy on the corner, black jacket, he"s got a few."
The h.e.l.l with that. He couldn"t afford anything nice, never had been able to. Intelligence work was not a comfortable life, especially not in the field. James Bond was a cruel fantasy.
He decided to hunt up a fleabag that would sell him a few hours sleep for cash. Then he would start his investigation, and he would find the parasites in their holes, and kill them all.
THIRTEEN.
All Through the Night Across the sour reaches of an uneasy day, Sarah had waited and Miriam had remained silent. At the last moment, Miriam decided not to go to Lou"s concert, saying that she was too tired. But that wasn"t it. Miriam was never tired. The truth was obvious to Sarah: she was too scared.
Whoever she was running from was obviously extremely dangerous. But who could be dangerous to her? The other Keepers might not like her, but they weren"t going to terrorize her. Could it be a human being? That seemed impossible.
Miriam"s world had gathered her in, shielding her behind its walls of money and power. Only a few of her admirers really really knew - or, if they had been told, actually believed - how she sustained her life. They preferred to view the knew - or, if they had been told, actually believed - how she sustained her life. They preferred to view the frisson frisson of danger that clung to her as part of her extraordinary personal style - an intoxicating mixture of sin and savagery and high culture. Had they known for certain that the whispers were true, most of them would have abandoned her to the police. Or so they told themselves. of danger that clung to her as part of her extraordinary personal style - an intoxicating mixture of sin and savagery and high culture. Had they known for certain that the whispers were true, most of them would have abandoned her to the police. Or so they told themselves.
During the watchful, uneasy night, Sarah"s hunger had increased. Miriam did not offer Sarah the comfort and support she was used to getting from her. Instead, Leo was given the responsibility of attending to Sarah"s suffering, giving her aspirin, then preparing a pipe for her. Leo"s presence, since they had returned from England, had obviously become more important to Miriam, and Sarah found this disturbing. She did not like Leo. She did not want her in their lives.
Sarah smoked in the library while Miriam paced and consulted an old Keeper tome. She seemed to be looking for something in her books, paging carefully through their heavily illuminated pages. Sarah had been unable to crack the incredibly intricate hieroglyphics, and when she asked to be taught the language, Miriam had said, "Your species isn"t intelligent enough to learn it. I might possibly be able to teach you to read a list, but who wants to do that?"
Of course, all of the important information about the Keepers was recorded in long lists in the Books of Names. If Sarah was ever to complete her own book, she needed to know that language. But she would need professional linguists and cryptographers to help her, if Miriam would not.
Miriam was now wearing one of her many wigs, a darling bobbed affair, pert and blond, that made her seem even younger. In it, she appeared her usual resplendent self. But she had been burned burned. Who would have done that? Even if it had been Keepers, why was she still afraid? Keepers didn"t hunt each other down. They argued and fought, on occasion, but their battles were never to the death.
Could it have been a human being? If so, then what manner of human could have managed it? it have been a human being? If so, then what manner of human could have managed it?
Near dawn, Sarah had awakened from a sleep made gaudy by opium. She felt awful, her stomach full of acid, her body aching, her heart hammering. She knew the symptoms perfectly well: Miriam"s blood - that strange otherness within her - was literally devouring her in its hunger.
The symptoms were not unlike those of a severe bacterial infection, as her immune system fought the part of her that was turning against her own flesh. Soon, she would be feverish. Then later, she would grow delirious. In the end would come death. Sarah had to feed. She had to do it now.
She was surprised to hear more than two voices coming from the direction of the kitchen. At this hour - about six in the morning - it was most unusual for there to be a stranger in the house.
Sarah hurried toward the kitchen. She found Miriam and Leo attending to the needs of a shabby, heavy woman who wore a tattered coat and scarf and smelled of ammonia and sweat. Sarah the doctor saw immediately that she ate badly and drank - was, in fact, somewhat drunk right now - had untreated skin cancer, and, from the droopy look of her right eye, an undiagnosed stroke.
Beneath her feet Sarah could feel the rumble of the big furnace, which was used to incinerate remnants.
She continued to look upon her - perhaps sixty, obviously a street person, eating a piece of Leo"s rhubarb pie. Leo could bake. She could make fried chicken. Now, her sleeves were rolled up. There were handcuffs in the hip pocket of her jeans.
Sarah was appalled. Leo was being allowed to partic.i.p.ate in this. Leo! Had Miriam lost her mind? This sort of business was for the Keepers and the blooded only. Never should Leo have been involved.
"Hi," Leo said brightly. "I got you what you need."
Sarah looked at Miriam, who leaned against the drainboard, watching with those crystal eyes of hers. She murmured, "Do it now."
Leo said to the woman, "More milk?"
She replied, "Sure, lady."
"Miri," Sarah said. She nodded toward Leo. You didn"t feed in front of one of those. No way!
Leo went behind her as if to go to the refrigerator. As she pulled open the door, she also drew a sock stuffed with ball bearings out of her tight jeans pocket. She positioned herself behind the busily eating woman.
Miriam had obviously instructed her. She had instructed instructed an ordinary human in this terrible secret. What if Leo went to the police, tried blackmail - there would be no way to stop her unless she was imprisoned like Sarah, in the bondage of Keeper blood. an ordinary human in this terrible secret. What if Leo went to the police, tried blackmail - there would be no way to stop her unless she was imprisoned like Sarah, in the bondage of Keeper blood.
Leo hit the woman. It was a gingerly, inexpert blow. She barked with surprise, pie flying out of her mouth.
"Again," Miriam said. She was completely at her ease.
The woman started to her feet, her eyes bulging with surprise. Leo struck her again, but she was in motion now and the blow was even less effective. She stumbled forward against the table. She said something, perhaps in Russian.
Miriam answered her in a harsh voice, in the same language. The woman shoved the table aside, began to run toward Sarah and the doorway behind her.
"Keep after her, Leo," Miriam barked.
This blow came down right on top of the cranium - not well placed, but there was plenty of travel in it and the woman went down like a bag of lard. Her forehead hit the granite tile floor with a jarring crack.
"Now," Miriam said, "Sarah will prepare her with a little bleeding knife, won"t you, Sarah? Get your kit to show Leo."
Sarah looked at the body, the slow rise and fall of the chest, the strange repose on the face.
"It"s in my office," she said.
"Then get it. But be quick."
She went up to the bedroom, through it, and up the narrow stairs to the tiny s.p.a.ce that was her own. Its window looked out on a wall, but it had a lovely skylight. On fine days, she would sometimes lean back in her chair and let her thoughts wander in the sky that unfolded overhead.
Her desk was stacked with papers, and a frame from a statistical a.n.a.lysis program she"d been using glowed on her computer screen. She had been a.n.a.lyzing the effect of a new plasma solution made from Miriam"s blood on the decayed cells of her former lovers" bodies. So far, the results were ambiguous at best.
She knew she shouldn"t, but she sat down. Her hunger was calling to her, screaming to her. But she still sat down; she still looked at her figures, thought a little about the deliverance she was working on.
A life was about to be wasted, and this was comfort, because somewhere in these statistics and the cellular structures they reflected, there was a way to eject Miriam"s blood from your body . . . maybe even a way to rescue those who had faltered while it still flowed in their veins. Faltered, but not died . . .
She clicked her mouse a few times, and a photo appeared on the screen of somebody who had most certainly died. This picture had been strictly forbidden by Miriam, not allowed anywhere in the house.
She gazed into it, into the smiling face of her beloved Tom. She and Tom Haver had discovered Miriam together. It had been a heady time for them at Riverside Hospital, uncovering together the fact that this was a new species of intelligent creature, sharing the earth with mankind.
In the picture, Tom was smiling. It had been their last carefree moment together. In fact, the last carefree moment of Sarah Roberts"s life.
Behind him was the South Street Seaport Maritime Museum, in the days before all the new restaurants and attractions. They"d just come down off one of the old sailing ships. It had been a sunny autumn afternoon. He was wearing a windbreaker.
She knew every detail of how he had been when she had snapped that picture, remembered even his aftershave. It had been something called Jade East. They had walked hand in hand up South Street, bought some oysters at the Fulton Fish Market, gone home and eaten them on the tiny deck of their apartment. They were so in love.
Eleven days later she had killed him. She had killed Tom, and now his soul rested within her. She never spoke of him, hardly dared think of him because sometimes it seemed as if Miri could read thoughts. But he was part of her, and it was to him she would go, if ever her soul was released from the prison of this life.
Working quickly, she returned the picture to its hidden file. Miriam never touched the computer. But she might, and she was certainly smart enough to understand it. Sarah could not imagine what would happen if she discovered the picture.
If Miriam understood the depth of Sarah"s rebellion, she might be returned to the attic.
She looked toward the small door in the side wall. It led up.
She knew that she should get her fleam from the desk drawer and take it down immediately, that she was already overdue, but instead she gazed at that door.
It did her soul good to go up there. But it was hard to do it, to see them . . . and to see the other thing that was there.
She laid her hand on the k.n.o.b, twisted it. The dark stairs rose steeply. She mounted them, hesitated, then walked quickly up.
Before her was a room dimly lit by small oval windows. There was something almost n.o.ble about the wide s.p.a.ce with its sweep of gray floor. The attic ran the length of this large house, and thus was its largest room.
Bats roosted in the upper timbers. Ancient bra.s.s lanterns hung from crossbeams. This room had never been electrified.
Here were the coffins and boxes that represented her mistress"s incredible greed, her invincible belief in her own rights over the rights of others. Here, also, was a humble coffin made of gray steel, still looking quite new.
Sarah went to it. She drew it open. It was here that Miriam had laid her after she had attempted to destroy herself. She ran her fingers along the white satin facing, touched the little pillow where her head had rested.
Here she had pa.s.sed through death and here been brought back. This coffin, she felt, was her true home. This was the center of her reality and her being. It was where she must one day return. And she did return, when Miri was deep in the dead sleep that followed her feedings or - as now - otherwise occupied. Sarah would get in and draw down the lid, remaining until the air ran out and she finally had to open it to breathe.
There was a deep, profound satisfaction involved in doing this. When she pulled that lid down, it was as if fresh water was soothing her burning, tortured soul.
She wanted to right now - especially now - so very badly. But she had to get back. She had to take the fleam. Her victim was waiting to be robbed of her life.
Through tearing eyes, she looked along the far wall, to the coffin that Miri so frequently came to see. This was John Blaylock. What Miri did not know was that Sarah would sometimes open this coffin . . . as she was going to do now.
She went to it, unlocked it, raised the lid. A familiar dry, spicy scent came out - the potpourri that Miriam kept there. The corpse was narrow, dressed in a tail suit with a wing collar. The neck had grown thin, and the face was distorted by the profound necrosis of a body dead and from drying out for twenty years.