"For instance, I had more than one opportunity of personally observing that Mr. and Mrs. Macallan did not live together very happily. I can give you an example of this, not drawn from what others told me, but from what I noticed for myself.
"Toward the latter part of my attendance on Mrs. Macallan, a young widow lady named Mrs. Beauly--a cousin of Mr. Macallan"s--came to stay at Gleninch. Mrs. Macallan was jealous of this lady; and she showed it in my presence only the day before her death, when Mr. Macallan came into her room to inquire how she had pa.s.sed the night. "Oh," she said, "never mind how _I_ have slept! What do you care whether I sleep well or ill?
How has Mrs. Beauly pa.s.sed the night? Is she more beautiful than ever this morning? Go back to her--pray go back to her! Don"t waste your time with me!" Beginning in that manner, she worked herself into one of her furious rages. I was brushing her hair at the time; and feeling that my presence was an impropriety under the circ.u.mstances, I attempted to leave the room. She forbade me to go. Mr. Macallan felt, as I did, that my duty was to withdraw, and he said so in plain words. Mrs. Macallan insisted on my staying in language so insolent to her husband that he said, "If you cannot control yourself, either the nurse leaves the room or I do." She refused to yield even then. "A good excuse," she said, "for getting back to Mrs. Beauly. Go!" He took her at her word, and walked out of the room. He had barely closed the door before she began reviling him to me in the most shocking manner. She declared, among other things she said of him, that the news of all others which he would be most glad to hear would be the news of her death. I ventured, quite respectfully, on remonstrating with her. She took up the hair-brush and threw it at me, and then and there dismissed me from my attendance on her. I left her, and waited below until her fit of pa.s.sion had worn itself out. Then I returned to my place at the bedside, and for a while things went on again as usual.
"It may not be amiss to add a word which may help to explain Mrs.
Macallan"s jealousy of her husband"s cousin. Mrs. Macallan was a very plain woman. She had a cast in one of her eyes, and (if I may use the expression) one of the most muddy, blotchy complexions it was ever my misfortune to see in a person"s face. Mrs. Beauly, on the other hand, was a most attractive lady. Her eyes were universally admired, and she had a most beautifully clear and delicate color. Poor Mrs. Macallan said of her, most untruly, that she painted.
"No; the defects in the complexion of the deceased lady were not in any way attributable to her illness. I should call them born and bred defects in herself.
"Her illness, if I am asked to describe it, I should say was troublesome--nothing more. Until the last day there were no symptoms in the least degree serious about the malady that had taken her.
Her rheumatic knee was painful, of course--acutely painful, if you like--when she moved it; and the confinement to bed was irksome enough, no doubt. But otherwise there was nothing in the lady"s condition, before the fatal attack came, to alarm her or anybody about her. She had her books and her writing materials on an invalid table, which worked on a pivot, and could be arranged in any position most agreeable to her.
At times she read and wrote a good deal. At other times she lay quiet, thinking her own thoughts, or talking with me, and with one or two lady friends in the neighborhood who came regularly to see her.
"Her writing, so far as I knew, was almost entirely of the poetical sort. She was a great hand at composing poetry. On one occasion only she showed me some of her poems. I am no judge of such things. Her poetry was of the dismal kind, despairing about herself, and wondering why she had ever been born, and nonsense like that. Her husband came in more than once for some hard hits at his cruel heart and his ignorance of his wife"s merits. In short, she vented her discontent with her pen as well as with her tongue. There were times--and pretty often too--when an angel from heaven would have failed to have satisfied Mrs. Macallan.
"Throughout the period of her illness the deceased lady occupied the same room--a large bedroom situated (like all the best bedrooms) on the first floor of the house.
"Yes: the plan of the room now shown to me is quite accurately taken, according to my remembrance of it. One door led into the great pa.s.sage, or corridor, on which all the doors opened. A second door, at one side (marked B on the plan), led to Mr. Macallan"s sleeping-room. A third door, on the opposite side (marked C on the plan), communicated with a little study, or book-room, used, as I was told, by Mr. Macallan"s mother when she was staying at Gleninch, but seldom or never entered by any one else. Mr. Macallan"s mother was not at Gleninch while I was there. The door between the bedroom and this study was locked, and the key was taken out. I don"t know who had the key, or whether there were more keys than one in existence. The door was never opened to my knowledge. I only got into the study, to look at it along with the housekeeper, by entering through a second door that opened on to the corridor.
"I beg to say that I can speak from my own knowledge positively about Mrs. Macallan"s illness, and about the sudden change which ended in her death. By the doctor"s advice I made notes at the time of dates and hours, and such like. I looked at my notes before coming here.
"From the 7th of October, when I was first called in to nurse her, to the 20th of the same month, she slowly but steadily improved in health.
Her knee was still painful, no doubt; but the inflammatory look of it was disappearing. As to the other symptoms, except weakness from lying in bed, and irritability of temper, there was really nothing the matter with her. She slept badly, I ought perhaps to add. But we remedied this by means of composing draughts prescribed for that purpose by the doctor.
"On the morning of the 21st, at a few minutes past six, I got my first alarm that something was going wrong with Mrs. Macallan.
"I was awoke at the time I have mentioned by the ringing of the hand-bell which she kept on her bed-table. Let me say for myself that I had only fallen asleep on the sofa in the bedroom at past two in the morning from sheer fatigue. Mrs. Macallan was then awake. She was in one of her bad humors with me. I had tried to prevail on her to let me remove her dressing-case from her bed-table, after she had used it in making her toilet for the night. It took up a great deal of room; and she could not possibly want it again before the morning. But no; she insisted on my letting it be. There was a gla.s.s inside the case; and, plain as she was, she never wearied of looking at herself in that gla.s.s.
I saw that she was in a bad state of temper, so I gave her her way, and let the dressing-case be. Finding that she was too sullen to speak to me after that, and too obstinate to take her composing draught from me when I offered it, I laid me down on the sofa at her bed foot, and fell asleep, as I have said.
"The moment her bell rang I was up and at the bedside, ready to make myself useful.
"I asked what was the matter with her. She complained of faintness and depression, and said she felt sick. I inquired if she had taken anything in the way of physic or food while I had been asleep. She answered that her husband had come in about an hour since, and, finding her still sleepless, had himself administered the composing draught. Mr. Macallan (sleeping in the next room) joined us while she was speaking. He too had been aroused by the bell. He heard what Mrs. Macallan said to me about the composing draught, and made no remark upon it. It seemed to me that he was alarmed at his wife"s faintness. I suggested that she should take a little wine, or brandy and water. She answered that she could swallow nothing so strong as wine or brandy, having a burning pain in her stomach already. I put my hand on her stomach--quite lightly. She screamed when I touched her.
"This symptom alarmed us. We went to the village for the medical man who had attended Mrs. Macallan during her illness: one Mr. Gale.
"The doctor seemed no better able to account for the change for the worse in his patient than we were. Hearing her complain of thirst, he gave her some milk. Not long after taking it she was sick. The sickness appeared to relieve her. She soon grew drowsy and slumbered. Mr. Gale left us, with strict injunctions to send for him instantly if she was taken ill again.
"Nothing of the sort happened; no change took place for the next three hours or more. She roused up toward half-past nine and inquired about her husband. I informed her that he had returned to his own room, and asked if I should send for him. She said "No." I asked next if she would like anything to eat or drink. She said "No" again, in rather a vacant, stupefied way, and then told me to go downstairs and get my breakfast.
On my way down I met the housekeeper. She invited me to breakfast with her in her room, instead of in the servants" hall as usual. I remained with the housekeeper but a short time--certainly not more than half an hour.
"Coming upstairs again, I met the under-housemaid sweeping on one of the landings.
"The girl informed me that Mrs. Macallan had taken a cup of tea during my absence in the housekeeper"s room. Mr. Macallan"s valet had ordered the tea for his mistress by his master"s directions. The under-housemaid made it, and took it upstairs herself to Mrs. Macallan"s room. Her master, she said, opened the door when she knocked, and took the tea-cup from her with his own hand. He opened the door widely enough for her to see into the bedroom, and to notice that n.o.body was with Mrs. Macallan but himself.
"After a little talk with the under-housemaid, I returned to the bedroom. No one was there. Mrs. Macallan was lying perfectly quiet, with her face turned away from me on the pillow. Approaching the bedside, I kicked against something on the floor. It was a broken tea-cup. I said to Mrs. Macallan, "How comes the tea-cup to be broken, ma"am?" She answered, without turning toward me, in an odd, m.u.f.fled kind of voice, "I dropped it." "Before you drank your tea, ma"am?" I asked. "No," she said; "in handing the cup back to Mr. Macallan, after I had done." I had put my question, wishing to know, in case she had spilled the tea when she dropped the cup, whether it would be necessary to get her any more.
I am quite sure I remember correctly my question and her answer. I inquired next if she had been long alone. She said, shortly, "Yes; I have been trying to sleep." I said, "Do you feel pretty comfortable?"
She answered, "Yes," again. All this time she still kept her face sulkily turned from me toward the wall. Stooping over her to arrange the bedclothes, I looked toward her table. The writing materials which were always kept on it were disturbed, and there was wet ink on one of the pens. I said, "Surely you haven"t been writing, ma"am?" "Why not?"
she said; "I couldn"t sleep." "Another poem?" I asked. She laughed to herself--a bitter, short laugh. "Yes," she said, "another poem." "That"s good," I said; "it looks as if you were getting quite like yourself again. We shan"t want the doctor any more to-day." She made no answer to this, except an impatient sign with her hand. I didn"t understand the sign. Upon that she spoke again, and crossly enough, too--"I want to be alone; leave me."
"I had no choice but to do as I was told. To the best of my observation, there was nothing the matter with her, and nothing for the nurse to do. I put the bell-rope within reach of her hand, and I went downstairs again.
"Half an hour more, as well as I can guess it, pa.s.sed. I kept within hearing of the bell; but it never rang. I was not quite at my ease--without exactly knowing why. That odd, m.u.f.fled voice in which she had spoken to me hung on my mind, as it were. I was not quite satisfied about leaving her alone for too long a time together--and then, again, I was unwilling to risk throwing her into one of her fits of pa.s.sion by going back before she rang for me. It ended in my venturing into the room on the ground-floor called the Morning-Room, to consult Mr.
Macallan. He was usually to be found there in the forenoon of the day.
"On this occasion, however, when I looked into the Morning-Room it was empty.
"At the same moment I heard the master"s voice on the terrace outside.
I went out, and found him speaking to one Mr. Dexter, an old friend of his, and (like Mrs. Beauly) a guest staying in the house. Mr. Dexter was sitting at the window of his room upstairs (he was a cripple, and could only move himself about in a chair on wheels), and Mr. Macallan was speaking to him from the terrace below.
""Dexter!" I heard Mr. Macallan say. "Where is Mrs. Beauly? Have you seen anything of her?"
"Mr. Dexter answered, in his quick, off-hand way of speaking, "Not I. I know nothing about her."
"Then I advanced, and, begging pardon for intruding, I mentioned to Mr.
Macallan the difficulty I was in about going back or not to his wife"s room without waiting until she rang for me. Before he could advise me in the matter, the footman made his appearance and informed me that Mrs.
Macallan"s bell was then ringing--and ringing violently.
"It was then close on eleven o"clock. As fast as I could mount the stairs I hastened back to the bedroom.
"Before I opened the door I heard Mrs. Macallan groaning. She was in dreadful pain; feeling a burning heat in the stomach and in the throat, together with the same sickness which had troubled her in the early morning. Though no doctor, I could see in her face that this second attack was of a far more serious nature than the first. After ringing the bell for a messenger to send to Mr. Macallan, I ran to the door to see if any of the servants happened to be within call.
"The only person I saw in the corridor was Mrs. Beauly. She was on her way from her own room, she said, to inquire after Mrs. Macallan"s health. I said to her, "Mrs. Macallan is seriously ill again, ma"am.
Would you please tell Mr. Macallan, and send for the doctor?" She ran downstairs at once to do as I told her.
"I had not been long back at the bedside when Mr. Macallan and Mrs.
Beauly both came in together. Mrs. Macallan cast a strange look on them (a look I cannot at all describe), and bade them leave her. Mrs.
Beauly, looking very much frightened, withdrew immediately. Mr. Macallan advanced a step or two nearer to the bed. His wife looked at him again in the same strange way, and cried out--half as if she was threatening him, half as if she was entreating him--"Leave me with the nurse. Go!"
He only waited to say to me in a whisper, "The doctor is sent for," and then he left the room.
"Before Mr. Gale arrived Mrs. Macallan was violently sick. What came from her was muddy and frothy, and faintly streaked with blood. When Mr.
Gale saw it he looked very serious. I heard him say to himself, "What does this mean?" He did his best to relieve Mrs. Macallan, but with no good result that I could see. After a time she seemed to suffer less.
Then more sickness came on. Then there was another intermission. Whether she was suffering or not, I observed that her hands and feet (whenever I touched them) remained equally cold. Also, the doctor"s report of her pulse was always the same--"very small and feeble." I said to Mr. Gale, "What is to be done, sir?" And Mr. Gale said to me, "I won"t take the responsibility on myself any longer; I must have a physician from Edinburgh."
"The fastest horse in the stables at Gleninch was put into a dog-cart, and the coachman drove away full speed to Edinburgh to fetch the famous Doctor Jerome.
"While we were waiting for the physician, Mr. Macallan came into his wife"s room with Mr. Gale. Exhausted as she was, she instantly lifted her hand and signed to him to leave her. He tried by soothing words to persuade her to let him stay. No! She still insisted on sending him out of her room. He seemed to feel it--at such a time, and in the presence of the doctor. Before she was aware of him, he suddenly stepped up to the bedside and kissed her on the forehead. She shrank from him with a scream. Mr. Gale interfered, and led him out of the room.
"In the afternoon Doctor Jerome arrived.
"The great physician came just in time to see her seized with another attack of sickness. He watched her attentively, without speaking a word.
In the interval when the sickness stopped, he still studied her, as it were, in perfect silence. I thought he would never have done examining her. When he was at last satisfied, he told me to leave him alone with Mr. Gale. "We will ring," he said, "when we want you here again."
"It was a long time before they rang for me. The coachman was sent for before I was summoned back to the bedroom. He was dispatched to Edinburgh for the second time, with a written message from Dr. Jerome to his head servant, saying that there was no chance of his returning to the city and to his patients for some hours to come. Some of us thought this looked badly for Mrs. Macallan. Others said it might mean that the doctor had hopes of saving her, but expected to be a long time in doing it.
"At last I was sent for. On my presenting myself in the bedroom, Doctor Jerome went out to speak to Mr. Macallan, leaving Mr. Gale along with me. From that time as long as the poor lady lived I was never left alone with her. One of the two doctors was always in her room. Refreshments were prepared for them; but still they took it in turns to eat their meal, one relieving the other at the bedside. If they had administered remedies to their patient, I should not have been surprised by this proceeding. But they were at the end of their remedies; their only business the seemed to be to keep watch. I was puzzled to account for this. Keeping watch was the nurse"s business. I thought the conduct of the doctors very strange.
"By the time that the lamp was lighted in the sick-room I could see that the end was near. Excepting an occasional feeling of cramp in her legs, she seemed to suffer less. But her eyes looked sunk in her head; her skin was cold and clammy; her lips had turned to a bluish paleness.
Nothing roused her now--excepting the last attempt made by her husband to see her. He came in with Doctor Jerome, looking like a man terror-struck. She was past speaking; but the moment she saw him she feebly made signs and sounds which showed that she was just as resolved as ever not to let him come near her. He was so overwhelmed that Mr.