"But it isn"t all," cried Kate, in real distress.
Helen saw Charlie smile in a half-hearted fashion. For some moments his patience remained. Then, as Kate still waited for him to speak, his eyes abruptly lit with the deep fire of pa.s.sion.
"Why? Why?" he cried suddenly. "Why must we conquer and fight with ourselves? Why beat down the nature given to us by a power beyond our control? Why not indulge the senses that demand indulgence, when, in such indulgence, we injure no one else? Oh, I argue it all with myself, and I try to reason, too. I try to see it all from the wholesome point of view from which you look at it, Kate. And I can"t see it. I just can"t see it. All I know is that the only thing that makes me attempt to deny myself is that I want your good opinion. Did I not want that I should slide down the road to h.e.l.l, which I am told I am on, with all the delight of a child on a toboggan slide. Yes, I would. I surely would, Kate. I"m a drunkard, I know. A drunkard by nature. I have not the smallest desire to be otherwise, from any moral scruple. It"s you that makes me want to straighten up, and you only.
When I"m sober I"d be glad if I weren"t. And when I"m not sober I"d hate being otherwise. Why should I be sober, when in such moments I suffer agonies of craving? Is it worth it? What does it matter if drink eases the craving, and lends me moments of peace which I am otherwise denied? These are the things I think all the time, and these are the thoughts which send me tumbling headlong--sometimes. But I know--yes, I know I am all wrong. I know that I would rather suffer all the tortures of h.e.l.l than forfeit your--good will."
Kate sighed. She had no answer. She knew all that lay behind the man"s pa.s.sionate appeal. She knew, too, that he spoke the truth. She knew that the only reason he made any effort at all was because his devotion to herself was something just a shade stronger than this awful disease with which he was afflicted.
The hopelessness of the position for a moment almost overwhelmed her.
She knew that she had no love--love such as he required--to give him in return. And when that finally became patent to him away would go the last vestige of self-restraint, and his fall would be headlong.
She knew his early story, and it was a pitiful one. She knew he was born of good parents, rich parents, in New York, that he was well educated. He had been brought up to become an artist, and therein had lain the secret of his fall. In Paris, and Rome, and other European cities, he had first tasted the dregs of youthful debauchery, and disaster had promptly set in. Then, after his student days, had come the final break. His parents abandoned him as a ne"er-do-well, and, setting him up as a rancher in a small way, had sent him out west, another victim of that over-indulgence which helps to populate the fringes of civilization.
The moment was a painful one, and Helen was quick to perceive her sister"s distress. She came to her rescue with an effort at lightness.
But her pretty eyes had become very gentle.
She turned to the man who had just taken a letter from his pocket.
"Tell us some more about Big Brother Bill," she said, with the pretense of a sigh. Then, with a little daring in her manner: "Do you think he"ll like me? Because if he don"t I"ll sure go into mourning, and order my coffin, and bury me on the hillside with my face to the beautiful east--where I come from."
The man"s moment of pa.s.sionate discontent had pa.s.sed, and he smiled into the girl"s questioning eyes in his gentle fashion.
"He"ll just be crazy about you, Helen," he said. "Say, when he gets his big, silly blue eyes on to you in that swell suit, why, he"ll just hustle you right off to the parson, and you"ll be married before you get a notion there"s such a whirlwind around Rocky Springs."
"Is he--such a whirlwind?" the girl demanded with appreciation.
"He surely is," the man a.s.serted definitely.
Helen sighed with relief. "I"m glad," she said. "You see, a whirlwind"s a sort of summer storm. All sunshine--and--and well, a whirlwind don"t suggest the cold, vicious, stormy gales of the folks in this village, nor the dozy summer zephyrs of the women in this valley. Yes, I"d like a whirlwind. His eyes are blue, and--silly?"
Charlie smiled more broadly as he nodded again. "His eyes are blue.
And big. The other"s a sort of term of endearment. You see, he"s my big brother Bill, and I"m kind of fond of him."
Helen laughed joyously. "I"m real glad he"s not silly," she cried.
"Let"s see. He"s big. He"s got blue eyes. He"s good looking.
He"s--he"s like a whirlwind. He"s got lots of money." She counted the attractions off on her fingers. "Guess I"ll sure have to marry him,"
she finished up with a little nod of finality.
Kate turned a flushed face in her direction.
"For goodness sake, Helen!" she cried in horror.
Helen"s gray eyes opened to their fullest extent.
"Why, whatever"s the matter, Kate?" she exclaimed. "Of course, I"ll have to marry Big Brother Bill. Why, his very name appeals to me. May I, Charlie?" she went on, turning to the smiling man. "Would you like me for--a--a sister? I"m not a bad sort, am I, Kate?" she appealed mischievously. "I can sew, and cook, and--and darn. No, I don"t mean curse words. I leave that to Kate"s hired men. They"re just dreadful.
Really, I wasn"t thinking of anything worse than Big Brother Bill"s socks. When"ll he be getting around? Oh, dear, I hope it won"t be long. "Specially if he"s a--whirlwind."
Charlie was scanning the open pages of his letter.
"No. Guess he won"t be long," he said, amusedly. "He says he"ll be right along here the 16th. That"s the day after to-morrow."
Helen ran to her sister"s side, and shook her by the arm.
"Say, Kate," she cried, her eyes sparkling with pretended excitement.
"Isn"t that just great? Big Brother Bill"s coming along day after to-morrow. Isn"t it lucky I"ve just got my new suits? They"ll last me three months, and by the time I have to get my fall suits he"ll have to marry me." Then the dancing light in her eyes sobered. "Now, where shall we live?" she went on, with a pretense of deep consideration.
"Shall we go east, or--or shall we live at Charlie"s ranch? Oh, dear.
It"s so important not to make any mistake. And yet--you see, Charlie"s ranch wants some one _capable_ to look after it, doesn"t it? It"s kind of mousy. Big Brother Bill is sure to be particular--coming from the east."
Her audience were smiling broadly. Kate understood now that her irresponsible sister was simply letting her bubbling spirits overflow.
Charlie had no other feelings than frank amus.e.m.e.nt at the girl"s gaiety.
"Oh, he"s most particular," he said readily. "You see, he"s accustomed to Broadway restaurants."
Helen pulled a long face.
"I"m afraid your shack wouldn"t make much of a Broadway restaurant."
She shook her head with quaint solemnity. "Guess I never could get you right. Here you run a ranch, and make quite big with it, yet you never eat off a china plate, or spread your table with anything better than a newspaper. True, Charlie, you"ve got me beaten to death. Why, how you manage to run a ranch and make it pay is a riddle that "ud put the poor old Sphinx"s nose plump out of joint. I----"
Kate suddenly turned a pair of darkly frowning eyes upon her sister.
"You"re talking a whole heap of nonsense," she declared severely.
"What has the care of a home to do with making a ranch pay?"
Helen"s eyes opened wide with mischief.
"Say, Kate," she cried with a great air of patronage, "you have a whole heap to learn. Big Brother Bill"s coming right along from Broadway, with money and--notions. He"s just bursting with them.
Charlie"s a prosperous rancher. What does B. B. B. expect? Why, he"ll get around with fancy clothes and suitcases and trunks. He"ll dream of rides over the boundless plains, of cow-punchers with guns and things.
He"ll have visions of big shoots, and any old sport, of a well-appointed ranch house, with proper fixings, and baths, and swell dinners and servants. But they"re all visions. He"ll blow in to Rocky Springs--he"s a whirlwind, mind--and he"ll find a prosperous rancher living in a tumbled-down shanty that hasn"t been swept this side of five years, a blanket-covered bunk, and a table made of packing cases with the remains of last week"s meals on it. That"s what he"ll find.
Prosperous rancher, indeed. Say, Charlie," she finished up with fine scorn, "you know as much about living as Kate"s two hired men, and dear knows they only exist." Suddenly she broke out into a rippling laugh. "And this is what my future husband is coming to. It"s--it"s an insult to me."
The girl paused, looking from one to the other with dancing eyes. But the more sober-minded Kate slipped her arm about her waist and began to move down the hill.
"Come along, dear," she said. "I must get right on down to the Meeting House. I--have work to do. You would chatter on all day if I let you."
In a moment Helen was all indignant protest.
"I like that. Say, did you hear, Charlie? She"s accusing me, and all the time it"s you doing the talking. But there, I"m always misjudged--always. She"ll accuse me of trying to trap your brother--next. Anyway, I"ve got work to do, too. I"ve got to be at Mrs. John"s for the new church meeting. So Kate isn"t everybody. Come along."
Helen"s laughter was good to hear as she dashed off in an attempt to drag her elder sister down the hill at a run. The man looked on happily as he kept pace with them. Helen was always privileged. Her sister adored her, and the whole village of Rocky Springs yielded her a measure of popularity which made her its greatest favorite. Even the women had nothing but smiles for her merry irresponsibility, and, as for the men, there was not one who would not willingly have sacrificed even his crooked ways for her smile.
Halfway down to the village Charlie again reverted to his news.
"Helen put the rest of it out of my head," he said, and his manner of speaking had lost the enjoyment of his earlier announcement. "It"s about the police. They"re going to set a station here. A corporal and two men. Fyles is coming, too. Inspector Fyles." His eyes were studying Kate"s face as he made the announcement. Helen, too, was looking at her with quizzical eyes. "It"s over that whisky-running a week ago. They"re going to clean the place up. Fyles has sworn to do it. O"Brien told me this morning."
For some moments after his announcement neither of the women spoke.
Kate was thinking deeply. Nor, from her expression, would it have been possible to have guessed the trend of her thoughts.
Helen, watching her, was far more expressive. She was thinking of her sister"s admiration for the officer. She was speculating as to what might happen with Fyles stationed here in Rocky Springs. Would her beautiful sister finally yield to his very evident admiration, or would she still keep that barrier of aloofness against him? She wondered. And, wondering, there came the memory of what Fyles"s coming would mean to Charlie Bryant.