_To Miss Mitford_
Florence: June 6, 1854.
Yes, dearest friend, I had your few lines which Arabel sent to me. I had them on the very day I had posted my letter to you, and I need not say how deeply it moved me that you should have thought of giving me that pleasure of Mr. Ruskin"s kind word at the expense of what I knew to be so much pain to yourself....
We mean to stay at Florence a week or two longer and then go northward.
I love Florence, the place looks exquisitely beautiful in its garden-ground of vineyards and olive trees, sung round by the nightingales day and night, nay, sung _into_ by the nightingales, for as you walk along the streets in the evening the song trickles down into them till you stop to listen. Such nights we have between starlight and firefly-light, and the nightingales singing! I would willingly stay here, if it were not that we are constrained by duty and love to go, and at some day not distant, I daresay we shall come back "for good and all"
as people say, seeing that if you take one thing with another, there is no place in the world like Florence, I am persuaded, for a place to live in. Cheap, tranquil, cheerful, beautiful, within the limit of civilisation yet out of the crush of it. I have not seen the Trollopes yet; but we have spent two delicious evenings at villas on the outside the gates, one with young Lytton, Sir Edward"s son, of whom I have told you, I think. I like him, we both do, from the bottom of our hearts.
Then our friend Frederick Tennyson, the new poet, we are delighted to see again. Have you caught sight of his poems? If you have, tell me your thought. Mrs. Howe"s I have read since I wrote last. Some of them are good--many of the thoughts striking, and all of a certain elevation. Of poetry, however, strictly speaking, there is not much; and there"s a large proportion of conventional stuff in the volume. She must be a clever woman. Of the ordinary impotencies and prettinesses of female poets she does not partake, but she can"t take rank with poets in the good meaning of the word, I think, so as to stand without leaning. Also there is some bad taste and affectation in the dressing of her personality. I dare say Mr. Fields will bring you her book. Talking of American literature, with the publishers on the back of it, we think of offering the proofs of our new works to any publisher over the water who will pay us properly for the advantage of bringing out a volume in America simultaneously with the publication in England. We have heard that such a proposal will be acceptable, and mean to try it. The words you sent to me from Mr. Ruskin gave me great pleasure indeed, as how should they not from such a man? I like him personally, too, besides my admiration for him as a writer, and I was deeply gratified in every way to have his approbation. His "Seven Lamps" I have not read yet. Books come out slowly to Italy. It"s our disadvantage, as you know. Ruskin and art go together. I must tell you how Rome made me some amends after all.
Page, the American artist, painted a picture of Robert like an Italian, and then presented it to me like a prince. It is a wonderful picture, the colouring so absolutely _Venetian_ that artists can"t (for the most part) keep their temper when they look at it, and the breath of the likeness is literal.[35] Mr. Page has _secrets_ in the art--certainly n.o.body else paints like him--and his nature, I must say, is equal to his genius and worthy of it. Dearest Miss Mitford, the "Athenaeum" is always as frigid as Mont Blanc; it can"t be expected to grow warmer for looking over your green valleys and still waters. It wouldn"t be Alpine if it did. They think it a point of duty in that journal to shake hands with one finger. I dare say when Mr. Chorley sits down to write an article he puts his feet in cold water as a preliminary. Still, I oughtn"t to be impertinent. He has been very good-natured to _me_, and it isn"t his fault if I"m not Poet Laureate at this writing, and engaged in cursing the Czar in Pindarics very prettily. "Atherton," meanwhile, wants n.o.body to praise it, I am sure. How glad I shall be to seize and read it, and how I thank you for the gift! May G.o.d bless and keep you! I may hear again if you write soon to Florence, but don"t pain yourself for the world, I entreat you. I shall see you before long, I think.
Your ever affectionate E.B.B.
Robert"s love.
_To Miss Mitford_
Florence: July 20, [1854].
My dearest Miss Mitford,--I this moment receive your little note. It makes me very sad and apprehensive about you, and I would give all this bright sunshine for weeks for one explanatory word which might make me more easy. Arabel speaks of receiving your books--I suppose "Atherton"--and of having heard from yourself a very bad account of your state of health. Are you worse, my beloved friend? I have been waiting to hear the solution of our own plans (dependent upon letters from England) in order to write to you; and when I found our journey to London was definitively rendered impossible till next spring, I deferred writing yet again, it was so painful to me to say to you that our meeting could not take place this year. Now, I receive your little note and write at once to say how sad _that_ makes me. It is the first time that the expression of your love, my beloved friend, has made me sad, and I start as from an omen. On the other hand, the character you write in is so firm and like yourself, that I do hope and trust you are not sensibly worse. Let me hear by a word, if possible, that the change of weather has done you some little good. I understand there has scarcely been any summer in England, and this must necessarily have been adverse to you. A gleam of fine weather would revive you by G.o.d"s help. Oh, that I could look in your face and say, "G.o.d bless you!" as I feel it. May G.o.d bless you, my dear, dear friend.
Our reason for not going to England has not been from caprice, but a cross in money matters. A ship was to have brought us in something, and brought us in nothing instead, with a discount; the consequence of which is that we are transfixed at Florence, and unable even to "fly to the mountains" as a refuge from the summer heat. It has been a great disappointment to us all, and to our respective families, my poor darling Arabel especially; but we can only be patient, and I take comfort in the obvious fact that my Penini is quite well and almost as rosy as ever in spite of the excessive Florence heat. One of the worst thoughts I have is about _you_. I had longed so to see you this summer, and had calculated with such certainty upon doing so. I would have gone to England for that single reason if I could, but I can"t; we can"t stir, really. That we should be able to sit quietly still at Florence and eat our bread and maccaroni is the utmost of our possibilities this summer.
Mrs. Trollope has gone to the Baths of Lucca, and thus I have not seen her. She will be very interested about you, of course. How many hang their hearts upon your sickbed, dearest Miss Mitford! Yes, and their prayers too.
The other day, by an accident, an old number of the "Athenaeum" fell into my hands, and I read for the second time Mr. Chorley"s criticism upon "Atherton." It is evidently written in a hurried manner, and is quite inadequate as a notice of the book; but, do you know, I am of opinion that if you considered it more closely you would lose your impression of its being depreciatory and cold. He says that the _only fault_ of the work is its _shortness_; a rare piece of praise to be given to a work nowadays. You see, your reputation is at the height; neither he nor another could _help_ you; such books as yours make their own way. The "Athenaeum" doesn"t give full critiques of d.i.c.kens, for instance, and it is arctical in general temperature. I thought I would say this to you.
Certainly I _do know_ that Mr. Chorley highly regards you in every capacity--as writer and as woman--and in the manner in which he named you to me in his last letter there was no chill of sentiment nor recoil of opinion. So do not admit a doubt of _him_; he is a sure and affectionate friend, and absolutely high-minded and reliable; of an intact and even chivalrous delicacy. I say it, lest you might have need of him and be scrupulous (from your late feeling) about making him useful. It is horrible to doubt of one"s friends; oh, I know _that_, and would save you from it.
We had a letter from Paris two days ago from one of the n.o.blest and most intellectual men in the country, M. Milsand, a writer in the "Deux Mondes." He complains of a stagnation in the imaginative literature, but adds that he is consoled for everything by the "state of politics." Your Napoleon is doing you credit, his very enemies must confess.
As for me, I can"t write to-day. Your little precious, melancholy note hangs round the neck of my heart like a stone. Arabel simply says she is afraid from what you have written to her that you must be very ill; she does not tell me what you wrote to her--perhaps for fear of paining me--and now I am pained by the silence beyond measure.
Robert"s love and warmest wishes for you. He appreciates your kind word to him. And I, what am I to say? I love you from a very sad and grateful heart, looking backwards and forwards--and _upwards_ to pray G.o.d"s love down on you!
Your ever affectionate E.B.B., rather BA.
Precious the books will be to me. I hope not to wait to read them till they reach me, as there is a bookseller here who will be sure to have them. Thank you, thank you.
_To Miss Mitford_
Florence: September 4, 1854.
Five minutes do not pa.s.s, my beloved friend, since reading this dear letter which has wrung from me tender and sorrowful tears, and answering it thus. Pray for you? I do not wait that you should bid me. May the divine love in the face of our Lord Jesus Christ shine upon you day and night, and make all our human loves strike you as cold and dull in comparison with that ineffable tenderness! As to wandering prayers, I cannot believe that it is of consequence whether this poor breath of ours wanders or does not wander. If we have strength to throw ourselves upon Him for everything, for prayer, as well as for the ends of prayer, it is enough, and He will prove it to be enough presently. I have been when I could not pray at all. And then G.o.d"s face seemed so close upon me that there was no need of prayer, any more than if I were near _you_, as I yearn to be, as I ought to be, there would be need for this letter.
Oh, be sure that He means well by us by what we suffer, and it is when we suffer that He often makes the meaning clearer. You know how that brilliant, witty, true poet Heine, who was an atheist (as much as a man can pretend to be), has made a public profession of a change of opinion which was pathetic to my eyes and heart the other day as I read it. He has joined no church, but simply (to use his own words) has "returned home to G.o.d like the prodigal son after a long tending of the swine." It is delightful to go home to G.o.d, even after a tending of the sheep. Poor Heine has lived a sort of living death for years, quite deprived of his limbs, and suffering tortures to boot, I understand. It is not because we are brought low that we must die, my dearest friend. I hope--I do not say "hope" for _you_ so much as for _me_ and for the many who hang their hearts on your life--I hope that you may survive all these terrible sufferings and weaknesses, and I take my comfort from your letter, from the firmness and beauty of the ma.n.u.script; I who know how weak hands will shudder and reel along the paper. Surely there is strength for more life in that hand. Now I stoop to kiss it in my thought. Feel my kiss on the dear hand, dear, dear friend.
A previous letter of yours pained me much because I seemed to have given you the painful trouble in it of describing your state, your weakness.
Ah, I _knew_ what that state was, and it was _therefore_ that the slip of paper which came with "Atherton" seemed to me so ominous! By the way, I shall see "Atherton" before long, I dare say. The "German Library" in our street is to have a "box of new books" almost directly, and in it surely must be "Atherton," and you shall hear my thoughts of the book as soon as I catch sight of it. Then you have sent me the Dramas. Thank you, thank you; they will be precious. I saw the article in the "Athenaeum" with joy and triumph, and knew Mr. Chorley by the "Roman hand." In the "Ill.u.s.trated News" also, Robert (not I) read an enthusiastic notice. He fell upon it at the reading-room where I never go on account of my _she_-dom, women in Florence being supposed not--
(_Part of this letter is missing_)
Think of me who am far, yet near in love and thought. Love me with that strong heart of yours. May G.o.d bless it, bless it!
I am ever your attached E.B.B., rather BA.
I have had a sad letter from poor Haydon"s daughter. She has fifty-six pounds a year, and can scarcely live on it in England, and inquires if she could live in any family in Florence. I fear to recommend her to come so far on such means. Robert"s love. _May G.o.d bless you and keep you! Love me._
_To Miss Mitford_
Florence: October 19, 1854.
I will try not to be overjoyed, my dear, dearest Miss Mitford, but, indeed, it is difficult to refrain from catching at hope with both hands. If the general health will but rally, there is nothing fatal about a spine disease. May G.o.d bless you, give you the best blessing in earth and heaven, as the G.o.d of the living in both places. We ought not to be selfish, nor stupid, so as to be afraid of leaving you in His hands. What is beautiful and joyful to observe is the patience and self-possession with which you endure even the most painful manifestation of His will; and that, while you lose none of that interest in the things of our mortal life which is characteristic of your sympathetic nature, you are content, just as if you felt none, to let the world go, according to the decision of G.o.d. May you be more and more confirmed and elevated and at rest--being the Lord"s, whether absent from the body or present in it! For my own part, I have been long convinced that what we call death is a mere incident in life--perhaps scarcely a greater one than the occurrence of p.u.b.erty, or the revolution which comes with any new emotion or influx of new knowledge.
I am heterodox about sepulchres, and believe that no _part of us_ will ever lie in a grave. I don"t think much of my nail-parings--do you?--not even of the nail of my thumb when I cut off what Penini calls the "gift-mark" on it. I believe that the body of flesh is a mere husk which drops off at death, while the spiritual body (see St. Paul) emerges in glorious resurrection at once. Swedenborg says, some persons do not immediately realise that they have pa.s.sed death, and this seems to me highly probable. It is curious that Maurice, Mr. Kingsley"s friend, about whom so much lately has been written and quarrelled (and who _has_ made certain great mistakes, I think), takes this precise view of the resurrection, with an apparent unconsciousness of what Swedenborg has stated upon the subject, and that, I, too, long before I knew Swedenborg, or heard the name of Maurice, came to the same conclusions.
I wonder if Mr. Kingsley agrees with us. I dare say he does, upon the whole--for the ordinary doctrine seems to me as little taught by Scripture as it can be reconciled with philosophical probabilities. I believe in an active, _human_ life, beyond death as before it, an uninterrupted human life. I believe in no waiting in the grave, and in no vague effluence of spirit in a formless vapour. But you"ll be tired with "what I believe."
I have been to the other side of Florence to call on Mrs. Trollope, on purpose that I might talk to her of you, but she was not at home, though she has returned from the Baths of Lucca. From what I hear, she appears to be well, and has recommenced her "public mornings," which we shrink away from. She "receives" every Sat.u.r.day morning in the most heterogeneous way possible. It must be amusing to anybody not overwhelmed by it, and people say that she s.n.a.t.c.hes up "characters" for her "so many volumes a year" out of the diversities of masks presented to her on these occasions. Oh, our Florence! In vain do I cry out for "Atherton." The most active circulating library "hasn"t got it yet,"
they say. I must still wait. Meanwhile, of course, I am delighted with all your successes, and your books won"t spoil by keeping like certain other books. So I may wait.
How young children unfold like flowers, and how pleasant it is to watch them! I congratulate you upon yours--your baby-girl must be a dear forward little thing. But I wish I could show you my Penini, with his drooping golden ringlets and seraphic smile, and his talk about angels--you would like him, I know. Your girl-baby has avenged my name for me, and now, if you heard my Penini say in the midst of a coaxing fit--"O, my sweetest little mama, my darling, _dearlest_, little Ba,"
you would admit that "Ba" must have a music in it, to my ears at least.
The love of two generations is poured out to me in that name--and the stream seems to run (in one instance) when alas! the fountain is dry. I do not refer to the dead who live still.
Ah, dearest friend, you feel how I must have felt about the accident in Wimpole Street.[36] I can scarcely talk to you about it. There will be permanent lameness, Arabel says, according to the medical opinion, though the general health was not for a moment affected. But permanent lameness! That is sad, for a person of active habits. I ventured to write a little note--which was not returned, I thank G.o.d--or read, I dare say; but of course there was no result. I never even expected it, as matters have been. I must tell you that our pecuniary affairs are promising better results for next year, and that we shall not, in all probability, be tied up from going to England. For the rest--if I understand you--oh no! My husband has a family likeness to Lucifer in being proud. Besides, it"s not necessary. When literary people are treated in England as in some other countries, in that case and that time we may come in for our share in the pensions given by the people, without holding out our hands. Now think of Carlyle--unpensioned! Why, if we sate here in rags, we wouldn"t press in for an obolus before Belisarius. Mrs. Sartoris has been here on her way to Rome, spending most of her time with us--singing pa.s.sionately and talking eloquently.
She is really charming. May G.o.d bless and keep you and love you, beloved friend! Love your own affectionate
BA.
May it be Robert"s love?
_To Miss Browning_
[Florence:] November 11, 1854 [postmark].
My dearest Sarianna,--I shall be writing my good deeds in water to-day with this mere pretence at inks.[37] We are all well, though it is much too cold for me--a horrible tramontana which would create a cough under the ribs of death, and sets me coughing a little in the morning. I am afraid it"s to be a hard winter again this year--or harder than last year"s. We began fires on the last day of October, after the most splendid stretch of spring, summer, and autumn I ever remember. We have translated our room into winter--sent off the piano towards the windows, and packed tables, chairs, and sofas as near to the hearth as possible.